i get you man. that's why i B&C, i live for this life. i have accomplished a shit ton in the time frame i have been lifting both natty, and assisted. I have weighed out everything i eat for the last 16 months, logged into MFP... no days missed. i grow all my own food, except for fruits. my beef is farm raised, my milk, eggs, wheat, and veg. i only buy rice, some veg, flax, bran, canned salmon, and fresh fish. everything else comes from my land.
i don't drink, i don't smoke, i don't gamble. i have twins, and im married. my wife supports me 100% and i couldn't imagine ever coming off. this is my world, and i love it. i try to go about things as safely as possible, i always run cycle supports, and never skimp on products that are needed.
im devoted to the gym, and even if B&C takes time off of my life, which i doubt, at least i was able to thoroughly enjoy every minute of it, doing what i love with the people i love. that being said i would never touch insulin man. i have heard so many storys of people forgetting to carb, and going night night. shit happens man, its just not smart.