You sound like you have your mind up but I hope you'll reconsider. I've been there man, I let myself go a little and was tempted just to jump in thinking steroids would fix my problems. It will only make things worse.
You need to lose a good amount of weight/fat which steroids are not meant for. Get your diet and training in check and then consider running a SARMs fat loss stack. Once you're down to 14-15% maybe run a moderate test only cycle first before adding more compounds.
If you run test and dbol now you will blow up like a balloon, you'll be holding a ton of water and the sides will be out of control. Spend some time researching man, this shit is not a game. Your health and quality of life are on the line.