10th January log update
Weight and BP
Weight 108.7, happy with a small drop.
BP 109/58 and HR 53 bpm. Much better.
Training
No training today, but below is WHY I still lift, train and push 41 years after I first picked up a barbell.
I came across this article by Dave Tate years ago and it was like it explained me. I hope you like it, I love it:
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The Void
When I was a kid, the gym was the place I could go to get away from feeling like I was worthless and a failure. I could be in charge and decide whether I succeeded.
It was my place to build and grow, mentally and physically. Much like other young kids who come from similar situations, I built walls around me. My walls were built of cast iron and steel.
It was also something I was good at. And as I grew and got bigger and stronger, the abuse went away very fast. I went from the kid that got "fucked with" to the kid you "don't want to fuck with." And I still see training that way today. The reason for this – and the strong guys reading will be able to relate – is there's something that happens during those very intense sets. It doesn't matter if it's a PR set, a Max Effort set, a strip set, or a high-rep set, as long as it's one that you know going in will be a challenge. You know you need to find a way to up your game, step out of yourself, focus, and see what you're really made of. Cause once the bar is loaded and your set comes around, you find this place that I really can't explain. From the time you approach the bar to the time the set is over, there's nothing.
The fight you had with your girlfriend that day?
Gone.
Your finals?
Gone.
Your work issues?
Gone.
Your bills?
Gone.
The asshole across the gym?
Gone.
The bullies?
Gone.
The hurt?
Gone.
The mental pain is now replaced with physical pain, but this is pain that you crave, because the load you've been carrying all your life in now resting on your back – and you have the power to smash it.
I call this 'nothing' The Void, but it isn't really nothing – it's everything!
When I look back over 30 years of training, my big take away is that training is my therapy. This is why I do what I do, both the positives and even the stupid shit. This is why I'm so passionate about passing on what I know. The Void is the only time that I am truly free – free from the bullshit that other people and life has thrown at me. It's all gone, just me and the weight. And that's where I find my peace. The Void has changed my life, and has become my life. Maybe it could change yours? So to answer the question, I don't give a rat's ass if I get stronger or bigger. Well, I still care, but it's not why I do it.
Training is my therapy.
Meals
Meal 1- Muffins, 100g Salmon, cream cheese, Avocado P57 C27 F31 Cal 615
Meal 3 - Corn Thins, Turkey Breast 160g, Cream Cheese P36 C19 F7 Cal 835
Meal 4 - 180g Eye Fillet, salad P47 C18 F9 Cal 410
Meal 5 - Carmen's bar, Ice Coffee P15 C24 F14 Cal 291
Meal 6 - Bagel, Cream Cheese, P11 C46 F9 Cal 334
Daily Total
P 166
C 134
F 70
Cal 2485
Overall Health and Well-being
Nice and relaxing today. Weather here was extremely hot and windy so we hibernated indoors and generally just chilled

A bit reflective and really focusing on the next bit of my training program and where I would like it to go.
Pics
Just because.....
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