Mobster, it was the podcast that brought me here. I appreciate your feedback very much. Everyone checking in on me and giving feedback daily makes this log very rewarding.
In the course of my work I have seen many young men take gear because they felt like they weren’t strong enough. We had a guy everyone called “meathead” and he would hook you up. I never did do it though, I became a climber and being smaller was an advantage for me. We also had several collegiate athletes including the boss’s son who was an nfl hopeful. Those dudes were all sauced seriously. I remember going over to their apartment and they were all shaving each other

. My whole career I had dudes telling me “you would look so good on gear”. But most of those dudes would just swell up on whatever they were taking(they probably didn’t even know) and they would get strong but then flabby, and I saw some gyno that a t shirt couldn’t hide. When I finally did start dabbling I had been actually lifting and learning how to actually lift like the big three, for four years. And because I had been injured and atrophied before that, people actually did think I was juicing before I ever did.
But I never successfully tracked my food for very long. I don’t have the best impulse control, and I’ve always felt that I should just eat as much as I can because I’m one of those people that will look like a head on a stick if I’m not force feeding myself.
I’m going to post physique update pictures soon. I already look better just from having less bloat and excellent digestion.
I’ll be doing blood work and heart imaging at some point, and deciding if I want to run some real gear in the fall. Right now, I know I will continue to progress for a couple months before I pass my PRs from two years ago. I hadn’t touched a barbell in a year as of April.