@kcates you a wealth of knowledge. I am sure we cross paths before in jail, i been there many times too. 3 of my sons also serving time along with nelson montana son .That was my young mentality, fuck it I only live once. Now my mentality as I reach 50 is what is best to live as long as possible to be here as long as I can for my family and the family to come. That is a physical and mental quest. I don't want to just be here stuck in a home just being kept alive. I lived a very long selfish life prior. Just drinking, drugging, eating all the things my wife calls the good stuff, basically shit food most of the time. Not caring about anything but my own pleasure. I chased money at any cost doing scrupulous deals, selling drugs, and living that lifestyle. It has given me the pleasure of enjoying so many county jails I have forgotten how many, been to Florida prisons, and Federal prison. 30 years of physical and mental damage I still deal with today. I still struggle with greed, the love of money, and wanting what others have on a daily basis but I know ehat my faults are, I continue to do better, and I don't do illegal things for it any longer. I just work harder and a workaholic at times. I do this out of saying well we need the money. Really what I need is time. My loved ones want my time and don't really need things they just want to spend quality time together and make memories that can be kept when I am gone one day. Now I am conscious of doing better mentally and physically to live as long as I can for my family. I still exhibit some selfish actions in my healthy lifestyle by saying it's for getting healthy but at my age I want to take it slow and make sure I don't do anything that takes time away or at least minimize it as much as possible. Doing the training I do is not the best for this either but selfish me really enjoys it, I know I could just stay on TRT and that is probably the best thing but I do like pushing the limits some to see what can happen. That's the selfish part of me as well. This is where my mind is on taking things slow to not make things worse. I am not 20 years old any more and can't bounce back like I use to. I bounce a little harder and seem to keep bouncing a few times before I stop these days. I like the advice on here and on the Evo podcast of ots a marathon and can take it slow. I am already on TRT year round and bumping up things a few times a year for short spurts sounds like a good plan. Take it slow going up to find that sweat spot for me doesn't sound bad. Then that way I can learn how my body reacts to things. Mm
I use the assisted dip machine. I can't do a bodyweight dip yet but I keep decreasing the weight down. I will get there one day.
people say that shit run in family or whatever, but i don't think so. think it just bad luck.