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i almost died years ago from penicillin. was given to me by my dentist after i had my wisdom removed. went into anaphylactic shock and almost choked in my sleep as my throat closed up.. you have no clue what is happening unless you have experienced it and i had people in my house with me. had no clue i was allergic to it. it is very scary when something like this happens but don't blame yourself, even if you were home it would not have mattered like in my situation.. i had people in the next room and i was that close to dying myself and they would have never known as it isn't something where you scream for help. it just happens on its own while you are laying down or sleeping.. i ended up passing out and woke up the next day alive, i could have easily passed out and choked to death and nobody would have known better. had my reaction been a hair worse i would have died 100%.. the next day i called my dentist and told her what happened and she said 'oh sorry you are allergic to pencillin i will write you something else'' what happened had i not called or she had not had the foresight to change my anti biotic, i could have easily had a repeat episode that wouldn't have ended so well. so again not your fault at all
lipster we are your friends and family on here. we all support you and feel very bad over this 
deepest condolences for your loss.
As others have said, this is a horrible situation.
As others have said, this is a horrible situation.
bro that bad news sorry.
we love you, hang in there
we love you, hang in there
I am so sorry brother. I can't even imagine and don't have words for you. I am just so sorry.
Man I hate to hear this.
Log pictures might be off. I've been struggling with my thoughts. Been fighting the good fight just mentally lost and confused.
01-27-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Aromasin 12.5 Mg
Testosterone Enanthate 400mg
Primobolan 250mg
Boldenone 150mg
Deca-Durabolin 250mg
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
No Work out with Water
Lunch Chicken with broccoli and rice and corn with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
01-28-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
Work out with Water
Lunch Family Pot Roast with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
Leg Day Workout Summary
Barbell Squat
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 8
• Set 3: 145 lbs x 8
• Set 4: 185 lbs x 4
• Set 5: 215 lbs x 12
• Set 6: 215 lbs x 12
• Set 7: 215 lbs x 12
Barbell Deep Squat
• Set 1: 135 lbs x 20
Barbell Standing Calf Raise
• Set 1: 250 lbs x 20
• Set 2: 250 lbs x 20
• Set 3: 250 lbs x 20
Machine Leg Extension
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Barbell Standing Calf Raise
• Set 1: 250 lbs x 30
Machine Leg Curl
• Set 1: 80 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 80 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 80 lbs x 12
Cable Pull Through
• Set 1: 110 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 110 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 110 lbs x 12
Smith Machine Squat
• Set 1: 140 lbs x 10
• Set 2: 140 lbs x 15
• Set 3: 140 lbs x 20
01-29-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
Work out with Water
Lunch Sesame Soy Pork Bowls with Sriracha Mayo Cilantro % Crispy Onions with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
Weight Training Workout Log
Barbell Bench Press
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 125 lbs x 8
• Set 3: 155 lbs x 4
• Set 4: 185 lbs x 12
• Set 5: 185 lbs x 11
• Set 6: 185 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press (with Sling Shot)
• Set 1: 185 lbs x 10 (Sling Shot)
• Set 2: 185 lbs x 11 (Sling Shot)
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 20
Barbell Incline Bench Press
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 95 lbs x 8
Barbell Incline Bench Press
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Dumbbell Bench Press
• Set 1: 100 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 100 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 100 lbs x 12
Machine Fly
• Set 1: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 40 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 50 lbs x 12
EZ Bar Decline Close Grip Skull Crusher
• Set 1: 65 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 65 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 65 lbs x 12
Dumbbell One-Arm Tricep Kickback
• Set 1: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 30 lbs x 12
Cable Tricep Pushdown
• Set 1: 60 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 60 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 60 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press Close Grip
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press Close Grip
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 25
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 30
01-27-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Aromasin 12.5 Mg
Testosterone Enanthate 400mg
Primobolan 250mg
Boldenone 150mg
Deca-Durabolin 250mg
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
No Work out with Water
Lunch Chicken with broccoli and rice and corn with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
01-28-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
Work out with Water
Lunch Family Pot Roast with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
Leg Day Workout Summary
Barbell Squat
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 8
• Set 3: 145 lbs x 8
• Set 4: 185 lbs x 4
• Set 5: 215 lbs x 12
• Set 6: 215 lbs x 12
• Set 7: 215 lbs x 12
Barbell Deep Squat
• Set 1: 135 lbs x 20
Barbell Standing Calf Raise
• Set 1: 250 lbs x 20
• Set 2: 250 lbs x 20
• Set 3: 250 lbs x 20
Machine Leg Extension
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Barbell Standing Calf Raise
• Set 1: 250 lbs x 30
Machine Leg Curl
• Set 1: 80 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 80 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 80 lbs x 12
Cable Pull Through
• Set 1: 110 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 110 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 110 lbs x 12
Smith Machine Squat
• Set 1: 140 lbs x 10
• Set 2: 140 lbs x 15
• Set 3: 140 lbs x 20
01-29-2025 Logs
Wake up
1 Psyllium Husk Fiber Supplement with Lactobaciilus Acidophillus 6400 mg
15 G Fish oil
N2Guard
1000 Mg Vitamin C
86Mg Baby Asprin
Before sleep
50mg Puerarin
50 mg L-Dopa
Breakfast Oatmeal with protein and egg whites and banana with water
Work out with Water
Lunch Sesame Soy Pork Bowls with Sriracha Mayo Cilantro % Crispy Onions with Milk
Snack Yogurt walnuts blueberries strawberries
Dinner Chicken Breast with Salmon Filet With milk
Last meal Rice and Beans cheese turkey sausage with Protein Drink
Weight Training Workout Log
Barbell Bench Press
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 125 lbs x 8
• Set 3: 155 lbs x 4
• Set 4: 185 lbs x 12
• Set 5: 185 lbs x 11
• Set 6: 185 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press (with Sling Shot)
• Set 1: 185 lbs x 10 (Sling Shot)
• Set 2: 185 lbs x 11 (Sling Shot)
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 20
Barbell Incline Bench Press
• Set 1: 45 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 95 lbs x 8
Barbell Incline Bench Press
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Dumbbell Bench Press
• Set 1: 100 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 100 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 100 lbs x 12
Machine Fly
• Set 1: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 40 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 50 lbs x 12
EZ Bar Decline Close Grip Skull Crusher
• Set 1: 65 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 65 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 65 lbs x 12
Dumbbell One-Arm Tricep Kickback
• Set 1: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 30 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 30 lbs x 12
Cable Tricep Pushdown
• Set 1: 60 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 60 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 60 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press Close Grip
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 12
• Set 3: 115 lbs x 12
Barbell Bench Press Close Grip
• Set 1: 115 lbs x 25
• Set 2: 115 lbs x 30
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@Lipster can you tell us what the issue is? share with the EVO family we can support and help you best we can
at least we can listen.i know the lady passed, Im very soory about this. How are you generally? worried about you brother.
Food pics still look good no matter
and your training close grips PUMPING still.
I am so hurt I'm just trying to survive. She loved watching me workout. The crazy thing is 20 years ago she is the girl who said I was fat. In school the cool guy you know. Her first crush. I was her first heart break. But after I got married and she said I was embarrassed. After my divorce I always wanted to get in shape and better shape. Then I had some issues and several relationships go bad. I took counseling. I tried to change. Alot to do with this one girl. I wanted to be a good guy not bad no more. Then I might the last girlfriend. It was nice being a good man. But it didn't work out. No hard feelings just didn't work. This other girl wanted to be with me her whole life. We been on and off our whole life just always had stuff happen. Never fought with each other just other life issues. But we were always there. Sad I always dated her after a bad relationship so I wasn't ready and she got hurt over and over. Well when my relationship ended she seen and started hitting me up one more time. I waited 6 months before saying yes but we talked alot. Well before that I went there for comfort drank for the first time in 10 years. We had sex. When I was sober I knew I wasn't ready yet. So I asked to slow down. She thought I was running. But we stayed talking. Then the bird flu hit here. That took 6 months to clean. Soon as my days were normal I asked to see her. We bonded. I told her I wanted her to see the new me so let's go slow. I wanted to treat her right. Treat her special. She was confused at first as we have always had sex. But I explained i wanted more then sex. So we bonded on a new level. It was wonderful and mind blowing. I asked myself what I was so dumb for as I had this woman my whole life waiting. I was her second boyfriend she was my third girlfriend in life and I was her last too. I always had a trick question in past. That determines the relationship. I was a asshole back then. No one ever got it right. Well as I made a amends to her. A real amends it was nice because I meant it. She was like I never held anything against you. But I was like you still deserve the apology. Then I explained my secret thoughts when I was younger. They were twisted and perverted. Liked sex you know. Young good looking man full of idiocy. So she asked what the question was. I said I don't play that no more. No games. But we are very close so she wanted to know. I told her. She answered and surprised me. She said what others said which I thought she never would. Sorta liked it but it was the answer I did not want. Although as a kid if I ever got the right answer I would of probably ran faster and further then forest Gump. We went to bed. We woke and she was waiting. She says she wants to answer the question truthfully. She did. And it was perfect. My heart melted. I never felt special before. We made love. This is my first time making love with someone in my life. I went to work. I came home to confess I wanted my life to be with her forever. She waited 30 years to hear. As I told her she was passed away and never heard.
She had some issues with mites and skin. And a hurt back. She was on dupixent and some pain killers. But when she started dupixent in December it was making her extremely tired. The doctor was suppose to reevaluate. She did her third shots on Wednesday. She got sick after for two days. And on Sunday morning she never woke.
Now here I am. I wonder my purpose in life. I wasted her life waiting for me. I wish I could give her my heart so she could have a second chance
She had some issues with mites and skin. And a hurt back. She was on dupixent and some pain killers. But when she started dupixent in December it was making her extremely tired. The doctor was suppose to reevaluate. She did her third shots on Wednesday. She got sick after for two days. And on Sunday morning she never woke.
Now here I am. I wonder my purpose in life. I wasted her life waiting for me. I wish I could give her my heart so she could have a second chance
Made a big post@Lipster can you tell us what the issue is? share with the EVO family we can support and help you best we can
i know the lady passed, Im very soory about this. How are you generally? worried about you brother.
I did my best at the funeral. They were very pleased to know how happy she was. They all told me it's the happiest in 20 years. I feel so horrible for being a person's vessel to heaven
@Lipster this is a a deep issue. The purpose of life will change as time goes on. You have to grieve her and keep her in your heart, but she would want you to grieve but live your life happy and positive. She seems like an amazing woman, and you know she would want you to live your life as a man with your training life goals.
you're a strong man brother stay strong @Lipster
EVO family is here for you, keep your head above water and stay with us, stay in the gym and eat and update, we can do this
Doing my best. Just my mind is all over. Still trying though. As for my cycle. It saddens me how much got Set back for my winter bulk. I would say I love the way I feel in this cycle just hit a lot of obstacles. Within 3 weeks I was almost pushing my better volume and pushing weights great. The dog tugging on the shoulder set back one. Not bad not great. Then I got the flu twice. And then walking pneumonia. I lost half the weight a little strength. Put the weight back on was doing well with the shoulder. Then the passing of my girlfriend. Mind and mentality cracked. Her parents and brother came to pick up her car. They got stuck in a snow drift. They couldn't get the tow strap under the car. I said get in I'll push. Between the shock and adrenaline I grabbed the back of the car and lifted and push. I felt my shoulder twist my Bicep pulled and a tendon in my front part of the forearm. I'm finishing up week 8. I lost the weight again at first due to stress. I put some back on. Still at 200 from 186. I added bpc157 and tb500. But I think i am about two weeks away from recovery. But I can work out safely. Guess I am trying to get ready for my next cycle as I finish this. Just trying to not give up. But for sure overwhelmed.
