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At my age I should not let it get to me. But Between the straight boys intimidating me as a kid and adults being just as bad, and the gays with their judgement as an adult. Even though I’m very confident in 95 percent of what I do…. There are certain situations that still trigger my sense of inadequacy or worthlessness
Do t get me wrong I’m good most of the time.

It’s just these specific moments that get to my core.

I’m good. BroBros I’m good.

When I say I have never met a nicer group of bros tha you all I’m not kidding.
I’m older than all of you ( me and @Mobster are the same age) But I feel like I have protective big bros here lol.

Yes that nuts but whatver i feel it.

Anyway I’m on my walk found a cool new spot I’ll have the pics soon

This tra looks sketchy tho lol
@SFDom415 dont let these guys get to you bro, always stay positive and think about your goals, more muscles and more shred, thats the key
 
Bros I haven’t got around to posting todays fasting walk pics cuz it so busy at work but
I’m gonna dedicate
Todays walk to @stevesmi cuz it was a walk around a fishing preserve🫶


BroBros you know I’m weird but I feel so like hearts over you all today I mean How I feel thatvway about an entire group.
My hormones must be out of wack Hearts 💕 and more hearts 💕

Oh well
 

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BroBros just found more pics from the muscle party

I’m doomed. First, this is what’s in demand. ( first pic below)Does nothing for me I don’t see the appeal. But whatver. Personally when I see this my first thought is “fat with big arms and fat round face” not “ shredded body builder sexy tight cut muscle bro”. These thick men are all over the place . Not my type at all. So I’ll be invisible and setting myself up for rejection because im simply not built this way at 5’9 187 nor do I want to be. and the last thing I want is to gain weight.
But this party deadline is my motivation. I should nthave looked at these pics cuz I have session today at 1130 and I’m driven to attack the German volume trai in for all its worth! I love it.

And that guy like all rest is half my age. I’m so tired of feeling inadequate in my own community. It’s exhausting. And just as I was gaining confidence. Look at him look at me.
They be trippin all over themselves trying to get to him. I’d much rather look like and be chasing this other one.last pic

On the bright side the diet is working and I’m getting leaner again. Time for my fasting walk.
I don’t wanna be with my people I wanna stay here. But the 🍑 is over there.
I’m still gonna kill my German volume training but for you not for them.
 

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Good pics bro......
I may go to the muscle party but I’m not getting on stage after seeing more pics from last years. No way I’m going to put myself out to be passed over by guys half my age and twice a big. I may not even go.
 
Keep pushing. Gotta get ready
I’m completely in depression today. And I just stuffed half of that sourdough loaf in my face and then ate a yogurt and granola parfaits Chico was probably full of sugar. And now I’m a bloated pig.

Even though I seriously killed my German volume training today and was so pumped.
Now everything is destruction.


Imm literally looking at my bicep pump right now it’s never looked this good but my belly just bloated up after a stuffed a loaf of fucking bread in my mouth kver stress

Kill me.

That bey was flat and hard when I woke up now you can see it hanging over my waist.
Just fuck this shit

I mine this anavar but it makes me very agressive and now I’m very fucking pissed off
Even thou gh workout was so good
 

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Todays German Volume training
He didn’t send my chart yet with the numbers but it’s four moves grouped into two super sets of ten sets of ten reps each alternating and
100 reps per and 400 reps total and rest is short.

I really like this work out. I hate lifting weights but this forces me to attack or quit. Cuz you can’t half ass this and you also feel real instant results

Apparently after four weeks you move to second more difficult phase 2 of this German thing.

I use all the anger and contempt I have for people who drive to slow on the FWY And channel it into this and the Anavar makes me nuts. I feel like I’ll say anything to anyone. I wanted to walk out side and ask the hot Filipino contractor if he wanted to fuck. Trainer said it might be a bad idea. I don’t know he’s always friendly.
Then I came home and got depressed about the muscle party, assumed it’ll be terrible, then angry again. Then I ate bread, juice, chocolate cake , chocolate bar , lumpia and fried chicken, fed the cat watched porn feel asleep. Now I’m bloated

But I look pretty good in these vids and I feel ok. But im bloated and flabby . ( which will restart the whole cycle all over agiain) 👻🤷
 

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My husband thinks he’s very funny. We were folding laundry and first he was criticizing be for wanting to go party with these people ( the muscle crowd) and why would I go to a party where everyone is going to ignore me and why do I care what I look like the only thing I should care about is health not looks and he also by the way HATES me juicing. ( he’s a nurse so I never hear the end of how everything I do is bad for me even though he’s the one who brought home the lumpia fried chicken and the chocolate cake and put it in front of me which he does all the time (the girls at work bring food)
Diet today a total
Bust.

But I was talking about my 5 week goals while I was putting sheets away inthe walk Iin closet and he said “ is there a chair I there” And I said “ a chair? Why do you need a chair?”
And he said “
So I can sit down while I wait for you to reach your goals.” Which was funny but also irritating since he takes nothing I do or say seriously and thinks I’m wasting my time and money. Training. . And as usually he’s turns in shows in his phone and starts with hung them while I’m watching tv.
I’m so sick and tired of being surrounded by people who are not supportive and downright cunty to me I’m in no mood any more to put up with peoples horseshit my patience is gone. . Jesus how’s the winstrol going to affect my mood when it arrives

I’ll go to the party and bring someone then ignore everyone or better yet I’ll pay a hot muscle boy to go with me then ignore everyone

I wish @BodyMonster34 Was closer hed go with me and everyone would be stopped dead in their tracks. .
 

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My goals and dreams and likes and desires are not a fucking joke no matter many times I start and stop or get sidetracked.
I don’t do that to other people. Just like I don’t block fwy lanes when faster drivers try to get by I pay attention and move the fuck over so they can pass.
Ok I gonna lay here with my nose in my pits and calm down. I have Sunday with my new pretty sissy and she’s very affectionate. That’ll be a nice break.😍
 
Bros I haven’t got around to posting todays fasting walk pics cuz it so busy at work but
I’m gonna dedicate
Todays walk to @stevesmi cuz it was a walk around a fishing preserve🫶


BroBros you know I’m weird but I feel so like hearts over you all today I mean How I feel thatvway about an entire group.
My hormones must be out of wack Hearts 💕 and more hearts 💕

Oh well
@SFDom415 thats a beautiful walk bro :)

BroBros just found more pics from the muscle party

I’m doomed. First, this is what’s in demand. ( first pic below)Does nothing for me I don’t see the appeal. But whatver. Personally when I see this my first thought is “fat with big arms and fat round face” not “ shredded body builder sexy tight cut muscle bro”. These thick men are all over the place . Not my type at all. So I’ll be invisible and setting myself up for rejection because im simply not built this way at 5’9 187 nor do I want to be. and the last thing I want is to gain weight.
But this party deadline is my motivation. I should nthave looked at these pics cuz I have session today at 1130 and I’m driven to attack the German volume trai in for all its worth! I love it.

And that guy like all rest is half my age. I’m so tired of feeling inadequate in my own community. It’s exhausting. And just as I was gaining confidence. Look at him look at me.
They be trippin all over themselves trying to get to him. I’d much rather look like and be chasing this other one.last pic

On the bright side the diet is working and I’m getting leaner again. Time for my fasting walk.
I don’t wanna be with my people I wanna stay here. But the 🍑 is over there.
I’m still gonna kill my German volume training but for you not for them.
you fit right into a muscle party pump it

I’m completely in depression today. And I just stuffed half of that sourdough loaf in my face and then ate a yogurt and granola parfaits Chico was probably full of sugar. And now I’m a bloated pig.

Even though I seriously killed my German volume training today and was so pumped.
Now everything is destruction.


Imm literally looking at my bicep pump right now it’s never looked this good but my belly just bloated up after a stuffed a loaf of fucking bread in my mouth kver stress

Kill me.

That bey was flat and hard when I woke up now you can see it hanging over my waist.
Just fuck this shit

I mine this anavar but it makes me very agressive and now I’m very fucking pissed off
Even thou gh workout was so good
anavar shouldnt make you aggressive bro, you sure its not tbol?

Todays German Volume training
He didn’t send my chart yet with the numbers but it’s four moves grouped into two super sets of ten sets of ten reps each alternating and
100 reps per and 400 reps total and rest is short.

I really like this work out. I hate lifting weights but this forces me to attack or quit. Cuz you can’t half ass this and you also feel real instant results

Apparently after four weeks you move to second more difficult phase 2 of this German thing.

I use all the anger and contempt I have for people who drive to slow on the FWY And channel it into this and the Anavar makes me nuts. I feel like I’ll say anything to anyone. I wanted to walk out side and ask the hot Filipino contractor if he wanted to fuck. Trainer said it might be a bad idea. I don’t know he’s always friendly.
Then I came home and got depressed about the muscle party, assumed it’ll be terrible, then angry again. Then I ate bread, juice, chocolate cake , chocolate bar , lumpia and fried chicken, fed the cat watched porn feel asleep. Now I’m bloated

But I look pretty good in these vids and I feel ok. But im bloated and flabby . ( which will restart the whole cycle all over agiain) 👻🤷
My husband thinks he’s very funny. We were folding laundry and first he was criticizing be for wanting to go party with these people ( the muscle crowd) and why would I go to a party where everyone is going to ignore me and why do I care what I look like the only thing I should care about is health not looks and he also by the way HATES me juicing. ( he’s a nurse so I never hear the end of how everything I do is bad for me even though he’s the one who brought home the lumpia fried chicken and the chocolate cake and put it in front of me which he does all the time (the girls at work bring food)
Diet today a total
Bust.

But I was talking about my 5 week goals while I was putting sheets away inthe walk Iin closet and he said “ is there a chair I there” And I said “ a chair? Why do you need a chair?”
And he said “
So I can sit down while I wait for you to reach your goals.” Which was funny but also irritating since he takes nothing I do or say seriously and thinks I’m wasting my time and money. Training. . And as usually he’s turns in shows in his phone and starts with hung them while I’m watching tv.
I’m so sick and tired of being surrounded by people who are not supportive and downright cunty to me I’m in no mood any more to put up with peoples horseshit my patience is gone. . Jesus how’s the winstrol going to affect my mood when it arrives

I’ll go to the party and bring someone then ignore everyone or better yet I’ll pay a hot muscle boy to go with me then ignore everyone

I wish @BodyMonster34 Was closer hed go with me and everyone would be stopped dead in their tracks. .
you look MUSCH leaner on the training, way leaner I can see real progress bro
 
if bodymonster went with you he would end up in jail along with you cause he would be picking fights lol

also love that fishing preserve. i would LOVE to live where you are at. beautiful and best of all. NO PEOPLE!
 
@SFDom415 thats a beautiful walk bro :)


you fit right into a muscle party pump it


anavar shouldnt make you aggressive bro, you sure its not tbol?



you look MUSCH leaner on the training, way leaner I can see real progress bro
Tha me maybe you see what I don’t see. O Moslty se failure but sometimes I see process. But then I think about me peers and feel like shit again.

I stopped the Tbol when I started the anavar and I’m adding five weeks of winstrol when it arrives
.
Test 300wk
Mast 400wk
Var 50 day
Win 40 day

I woke up with a headache from the excessive sugar I ate last night when I was depressed and angry now I feel like still depressed. Just generally thinking about this stupid party and my peers whom I’ll never be able to keep up with or be good enough for.

But fuck it I’m going to planet instead of the lake for my walk cuz I’ll be more efficient. So wing gave nice to share . Trainer said I’m allowed to do abs snd things that don’t fuck the regime. I can stair cling so abs do my tanning etc. maybe I’ll do a massage chair.

I do wish Papi @BodyMonster34
Was here I’d take him to the city with me tomorrow beer bust at https://sf-eagle.com/ and everyone woukd clear a path 💕😻😘
 
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