Food And New Goal
Day 3 /90 Feb 22
Revised
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2 coffee w nonfat creamer
2 slice sourdough toast
About 10 oz chicken
About a cup of cooked rice
1 apple
1 orange
4 strawberries
4 cantaloupe slices
Small napa salad
1 Noosii * Yogurt
Quest peanut butter cookie
2 sliced cheese with 6 saltine crackers
64 oz water
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what I see is no junk or fast food but I see not enough protein here. Also what happens when I cut my sugar and carbs they slip back in in the form of fruit. I’ll dial that back
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I get home from work at midnight and have cravings that won’t let me sleep. Thus the 6 plain crackers with cheese…better than an entire frozen pizza. Just enough bite to calm the craving. Cut that out.gotta go.
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I did accept the homemade brownie from coworker but did NOT shove it in my face. It’s in the freezer for an emergency.

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it’s 1am now when Im usually going through the kitchen eating anything I can fjnd. But I’m going to bed hungry instead.


no grazing

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The goal of getting from 189/92 down to 182
Gives me a flat stomach. But the truth is it’s all water. I actually need to lose 10 pounds of visceral belly fat so that my real weight is 172 And my bloated watery weight is 182 That way I can be bloated and still look good. That is much harder task. I’ll also lose all my beefy looks up top and be in the wrong category. Beefy Daddy is more popular than cut jock. can’t be both.

Maybe compromise and split the difference
And this recti thing means my belly pushes out no matter what. So that internal fat really needs to go. I know what to do. Start jogging
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Day three of diet and I’m bloated constipated and look like shit. This is when i usually give up and go into depression.
“It’s not worth it” “thisis a waste of time” “no matter what I do I’ll be old and ugly” etc
Etc Then “ fuck it I’m calling Domino’s”
Luckily I’m here at evo and made a commitment. I’m getting so much support here so I don’t wanna give up look and like a little bitch I’ll ask trainer to say mean things and smack me In the head… that might help


Lotta words. Wide awake mind racing at 2am
can’t sleep.