

****meltdown pending*****



Starting weight Day 8 Feb 27
Holding at 187
I think I started at 190 8 days ago.
( here’s where I talk myself into failure watch this….)
That 3 pounds is meaningless water. And I’m hungry Because I didn’t eat nearly enough calories yesterday. My workout today will be weak.
The more I eat the stronger I am and the bigger my fat ugly belly gets
The less I eat the more water I lose the flatter my belly gets but the weaker i get my arms disappear
100 percent of the weight I “lose” from from 190 to 182 Is meaningless water loss. Not fat loss.
The reason I know this is because when I do meth I lose 8-10 pounds in 48 hours from basically fasting and dehydration.
It comes back 24 hours later.
The real fat loss would be from 182 down to 172
Then add my ten pounds of usuall water Bloat to hold at 182 on a “bad” day but flat belly.
Yes I’ll be cut but will lose all my beefy chest and arm gains
THIS is when I want to give up Because I can play with this water all day long and it’s meaningless.
For me to have abs and a real weight of 172 I’ll lose all my beefy daddy thickness up top.
So you tell me …isn’t this a no win situation ?Wont being cut with a tight 34 waist but still beefy and thick up top be a task that will take decades in the gym? Not 90 days. I don’t have decades.
This is the start of my failure headspace spiral.
Talk me off the ledge BroBros !!! before I’m face down in a big meaty sausage Chicago deep dish this afternoon
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Nuclear meltdown imminent

I’ll never be them