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Dec 26/27
To put in context about my dad. I couldn't sleep
Took 25mg anavar in morning and 25mg anavar at night. I know it's one of the milder PEDS but I've made slowly noticed my weight comeback in strength and lethargy.
The 0.5 of Adex EOD waiting for for results but it's holidays noticed Energy is better but my shoulders are stiff however showering with magnesium oil and stretching in shower helps.
Legs/Shoulders/Hamstring
Leg Extensions
30kg x 12 reps 2 sets warm up
40kg x 15 reps
50kg x 12 reps
60 x 8 brutal reps reminds of of Dorian Yates clips
4 sets of 10 x 30kg DB Lunges superset DB Lateral Raises 4 sets of 15kg hold at till Lactic Acid
Close Grip Leg Press superset Rear Delt Fly (4 sets of 20 reps and squeeze at the back)
300kg x 8 for 10 for 4 sets
Seated Leg Curls
1 set to failure 35 (LOST COUNT)
@fitnfast86 sorry to hear about your father situationNo pork pics but kettle chips glazed with cheese bacon.
Also visited my dad myself I'm not a fan we had a a tradition go movies together as a father and son memento. Did lose my temper when his file got vandalised.
You trained hard today EVO family supportDec 26/27
To put in context about my dad. I couldn't sleep
Took 25mg anavar in morning and 25mg anavar at night. I know it's one of the milder PEDS but I've made slowly noticed my weight comeback in strength and lethargy.
The 0.5 of Adex EOD waiting for for results but it's holidays noticed Energy is better but my shoulders are stiff however showering with magnesium oil and stretching in shower helps.
Legs/Shoulders/Hamstring
Leg Extensions
30kg x 12 reps 2 sets warm up
40kg x 15 reps
50kg x 12 reps
60 x 8 brutal reps reminds of of Dorian Yates clips
4 sets of 10 x 30kg DB Lunges superset DB Lateral Raises 4 sets of 15kg hold at till Lactic Acid
Close Grip Leg Press superset Rear Delt Fly (4 sets of 20 reps and squeeze at the back)
300kg x 8 for 10 for 4 sets
Seated Leg Curls
1 set to failure 35 (LOST COUNT)
If your psychiatrist gave you a script why are you looking on the black market for the drugs?Oh yes usually I had my psychiatrist have scripts for me for complex PTSD. The treatment I do is CBT however I do need Benz's for my legs as my muscle spasms are painful and I ain't going going down Opiate route ( I know someone who has less severe prognosis and pound 100mg endone a day. I had to use that a year straight when in one year
I tore my chest
Leg accident
Legs got infection and needed 9 debridements.
I decided to batman it and lock myself in my room until the 3 day hump.
It's why I cycle and taper my doses just have quality of life.
I recently went on a boat cruise yes as a guy on test and all those gorgeous foreigners I was close to jumping deck cause sex drive was so high.
S4 and S8 medications are highly regulated and I asked for once off scripts to prevent habit forming to these medicines.If your psychiatrist gave you a script why are you looking on the black market for the drugs?
I do understand your situation and its serious, but it does sound like benzo and pain killer addiction. In the other thread you were looking for valiums and benzos.
You should try Ibogaine and get off all the drugs.
That’s the worst attempt at blacking out info on a pdf that I’ve ever seenS4 and S8 medications are highly regulated and I asked for once off scripts to prevent habit forming to these medicines.
1.I cycle THC, Benzos periodically. I ran out and when I called to make another appointment to see him he's on leave. Made another appointment with psychiatrist and any specialist and no one will help with all necessary paperwork. I still got denied. I have to wait Jan 20th
2. I use them from my legs as due to the injury they convulse which then my body starts alot these medications allow me to maintain some ability to walk longer distances.
Call it an addiction if you want. I am prescribed these to help me walk and I've been offered the Opiate route and I ain't going that way I know friend she has back pain she has 120mg of oxys a day.
I use these one month benzos (xanax or valium then slowly taper this is dependent on tests from a letter from physio showing what stage my legs are and if I need a strong medication.
THC I used for the natural route to pain meds and its other benefits for inflammation..
If your calling me an addict when all I want is proper treatment so I can go to the shops and if I go to hospital I know they'll keep me for days due to my medical history and they will push me for skin graft surgery that doesn't always work that means ill not be working and I won't I'll go through process of rehabilitation, painkillers.
If your in my position what would you do? I've had to go to another source temporarily just to do day to Day things.
I can't do ibogaine I have complex PTSD I rarely have moments my fight or flight response can be violent and I'm not looking to hurt anyone I just get the treatment.
Your post is exactly one of the reasons I decided next year with about men's mental and physical health and its not just an easy band aid fix there's more to this than you realise. You already put me in position being judged for my disability and also I'm trying to to do the least harmful way.
@fitnfast86 your story is very unique and rare. Generally speaking what you describe is an addiction clearly, but you make some valid points.S4 and S8 medications are highly regulated and I asked for once off scripts to prevent habit forming to these medicines.
1.I cycle THC, Benzos periodically. I ran out and when I called to make another appointment to see him he's on leave. Made another appointment with psychiatrist and any specialist and no one will help with all necessary paperwork. I still got denied. I have to wait Jan 20th
2. I use them from my legs as due to the injury they convulse which then my body starts alot these medications allow me to maintain some ability to walk longer distances.
Call it an addiction if you want. I am prescribed these to help me walk and I've been offered the Opiate route and I ain't going that way I know friend she has back pain she has 120mg of oxys a day.
I use these one month benzos (xanax or valium then slowly taper this is dependent on tests from a letter from physio showing what stage my legs are and if I need a strong medication.
THC I used for the natural route to pain meds and its other benefits for inflammation..
If your calling me an addict when all I want is proper treatment so I can go to the shops and if I go to hospital I know they'll keep me for days due to my medical history and they will push me for skin graft surgery that doesn't always work that means ill not be working and I won't I'll go through process of rehabilitation, painkillers.
If your in my position what would you do? I've had to go to another source temporarily just to do day to Day things.
I can't do ibogaine I have complex PTSD I rarely have moments my fight or flight response can be violent and I'm not looking to hurt anyone I just get the treatment.
Your post is exactly one of the reasons I decided next year with about men's mental and physical health and its not just an easy band aid fix there's more to this than you realise. You already put me in position being judged for my disability and also I'm trying to to do the least harmful way.
you're saying you have open skin wound still or has it healed bro?I've tried all avenues.
The skin graft they been pushing also with ligament reattached but when informed the success rate.
im sorry but I 100% doubt that you have no withdrawal symptoms from benzos broAs for Benzos. No withdrawals symptom.
you're saying you did ibogaine treatment bro and you couldnt get thru it? i just want to understandAs for other treatments ibogaine or EDMR. It was embarrassing a Winter Solider moment happened no matter restraints stopped me from breaking lose (especially having a background in Specil Ops and Combat) it was quite embarrassing worse than my accident in my legs where 12 officers had to hold me down.
is there anyway you can consider taking care of the leg issue so you dont need the pain killers bro? open conversation as I dont actually know @fitnfast86Yes I did benzo without the sweats, increased anxiety, agitation.
Grafts after told may not work successfully as it will work successfully and not good outcomes and painkillers for potential and I already had it for a year a year.
Today I've spaced it out to 0.25 valiums I've had 3 falls. It was annoying
training is legit broDec 1st Last Day of Training I did circuit
(My time is spent with all health talk I'm helping my friend go though a burst polyps so I'm playing uncle)
25 rep 4 sets
60kg AT
Smith Squats with leg raises after for abs and hold for core strength
20 reps 4 sets
DB Lunges 20kg 10 reps side superset
25kg Stiff Dead Hamstring curts
Incline Bench Press
20 x 60kg 4 sets superset with BW Pull-ups 10 reps
Flat Bench DB
30kg for 8 10 reps and with Rope slams and songs (killer arm workout)
4 sets of 15 (50kg) Smith Machine Behind Back (after using some mobility to help range of motion) superset DB Lat Raise DB Rear Fly 12.5kg both failure
Last Exercise 4 sets
60kg ran to of allocated spot and used it as Sled Pull where I use the rope pull towards the body (highly recommended traditional body rooutine) and repeat.
Cooldown:
Boxing on bag. Not bout power and more spit and movement.
Really fun work end of the year.
Went to GP must be new I asked for Estradiol and even explained why I gotta for my regular do regular check-ups and I told him I'm in 300mg test and 2GH IU.
Gave me a big lecture my lawyer side came and I asked from you appearance you use billers filler to look young. Why me a 38 year old man even with all my medical documents explaining why I am using PEDS there is an inherent stigma.
I told her about my legs atm about benzso her first reaction Codeine. I been using 0.25 of Val's a day and a electro therapy to help with basic needs