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Hey everyone,
My name is Palermo. I’m currently living in Spain for work, but only temporarily. Seeing doctors here about my situation isn’t easy for two reasons:
I started here in Spain on 125 mg Test E per week. I felt good, calm, mentally stable. Then greed kicked in and I wanted that extra polished, sharp look, so I decided to add Masteron and Tren A — very low dose, or so I thought. Tren A started at 50 mg, then it became 150 mg Tren A, 150 mg Tren E, Test B (sorry), and 150 mg Mast B.
I ran this for about 2–3 months, but I think something went wrong with my DHT and estrogen balance.
During that time I met an amazing woman — honestly, my dream woman — but because of the compounds, everything went completely wrong. I became very distrustful, developed paranoid tendencies, jealousy, controlling behavior, and obsessive thoughts toward her.
I stopped everything, and since early December I’ve been recovering. I’m currently on 240 mg Test E per week. Up until now.
I want to lower it again to 125 mg because I notice my typing is acting weird, and I’m holding a lot of water around my waist. Maybe it’s an E2 rebound, I’m not sure.
I don’t want high dosages anymore. I’d rather add something light — like DHB or Tren E at a very low dose — just to get back in shape. Nothing crazy.
So yeah, that’s what this logbook is about. Any feedback or reactions are always welcome.
As for my background — and I’m not trying to sound arrogant or ego-driven — but I’d say 95% of the people reading this haven’t done what I’ve done in the bodybuilding world. I’ve abused this stuff heavily, partly as an experiment and partly to see what the human body is capable of. I’m more of a researcher than a bodybuilder.
I’ve gone up to 3 grams total dosage in the past.
This year I’ve decided to let all of that go. Bodybuilding can seriously create mental problems, and I’ve experienced that firsthand. From now on I want to keep everything simple and think long-term.
My name is Palermo. I’m currently living in Spain for work, but only temporarily. Seeing doctors here about my situation isn’t easy for two reasons:
- paperwork and administration, and
- cost — it’s very expensive.
I started here in Spain on 125 mg Test E per week. I felt good, calm, mentally stable. Then greed kicked in and I wanted that extra polished, sharp look, so I decided to add Masteron and Tren A — very low dose, or so I thought. Tren A started at 50 mg, then it became 150 mg Tren A, 150 mg Tren E, Test B (sorry), and 150 mg Mast B.
I ran this for about 2–3 months, but I think something went wrong with my DHT and estrogen balance.
During that time I met an amazing woman — honestly, my dream woman — but because of the compounds, everything went completely wrong. I became very distrustful, developed paranoid tendencies, jealousy, controlling behavior, and obsessive thoughts toward her.
I stopped everything, and since early December I’ve been recovering. I’m currently on 240 mg Test E per week. Up until now.
I want to lower it again to 125 mg because I notice my typing is acting weird, and I’m holding a lot of water around my waist. Maybe it’s an E2 rebound, I’m not sure.
I don’t want high dosages anymore. I’d rather add something light — like DHB or Tren E at a very low dose — just to get back in shape. Nothing crazy.
So yeah, that’s what this logbook is about. Any feedback or reactions are always welcome.
As for my background — and I’m not trying to sound arrogant or ego-driven — but I’d say 95% of the people reading this haven’t done what I’ve done in the bodybuilding world. I’ve abused this stuff heavily, partly as an experiment and partly to see what the human body is capable of. I’m more of a researcher than a bodybuilder.
I’ve gone up to 3 grams total dosage in the past.
This year I’ve decided to let all of that go. Bodybuilding can seriously create mental problems, and I’ve experienced that firsthand. From now on I want to keep everything simple and think long-term.
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