How many post? Im messed up bad, ran a 3 yr test tren cycle...really wasn't a cycle...just fucking stupid...came off cold turkey after a divorce and lost my job at same time. That was 20 months ago. It's fried me...its aged m7 skin horribly, my estrogen has been tanked along with test for at least yr nd half. All my joints hurt, severe depression...my dick has been dead forever, the veins looked clogged....its shrinking from no nightime erections and no libido. Im unemployed because Im sp fucked up. I read where you said this could leave on3 disabled for life. This is me. Im 42, any hope? I don't want not can afford trt.