I MADE IT.. bit the bullet and decided to log
My Intro:
I’m starting this log because I know there are a lot of guys out there who’ve felt exactly how I did flat, foggy, low libido, no sex drive, no motivation, and watching your body slip away from you no matter how hard you try.
For a long time, I felt like absolute shit.
I tried everything (Man Shake, clen, starving myself, punishing myself with cardio, cutting food to the bone) all the usual desperation moves.
And like many, I thought I just needed to “push harder.”
Turns out, I didn’t have to punish myself at all ... something deeper was going on.
---
The Low Test Reality
I did the right thing and went to the doctor.
Two consecutive blood tests came back with testosterone levels of 9.
Instead of actually talking to me about it, the doctor wanted me to go do a sleep apnea test.
My sleep is perfect.. after the days I have at work, I could fall asleep standing up.
The problem wasn’t sleep.
It was the fog, the dead libido, the zero drive, the lack of motivation, and the tyre forming around my waist that disgusted me.
In my 20s I was shredded, felt like a superstar, and could eat whatever I wanted.
Seeing myself fall apart hit me hard.
My Life Context
I work a modest amount of hours during the week, but I’ve got a busy household.
I train at 7–8pm every night because I’ve got a young son, and I don’t expect my wife to do everything on her own.
Those sacrifices, the late nights, the long days, they make the results mean so much more.
Anyone who trains after a full day of work and family life knows exactly what I mean.
Why I’m Here
I reached out to this forum because honestly, without places like this, a lot of us would be isolated.
You can’t talk about this stuff with everyone.
But here, you can share your story, learn from others, and get advice from people who are walking the same path.
I’ve used gear in the past, short runs of test prop and primobolan and had good experiences.
But I went years without touching anything.
Then I saw that photo last year…
The one that made me say:
“That’s it. I’m done.”
That was the moment everything changed.
The Photos & The Groundwork
The photos I’ve uploaded are a timeline.
People will see progress but I see the work I put in before a single drop of test entered my body. This should be a testament that i dont care what the next lad is doing, I HAVE to be here to see my son grow, that means do it the RIGHT way!
The dieting. The cardio. The discipline.
The nights I trained exhausted.
The mornings I woke up feeling like a shell of myself but still pushed through.
I don’t want anyone thinking this transformation is “just the gear.”
The groundwork was done long before.
My Message to Anyone Reading!
Testosterone isn’t a magic fix.
It’s not a bandaid.
It won’t save you from bad habits or a bad mindset.
If you’re thinking about PCT before you’ve even started, maybe take a step back and ask yourself why you’re doing it.
For me, this wasn’t about shortcuts.
It was about fixing my mental state, my drive, my confidence, and then rebuilding the physical side from there.
This log is my journey. The honest version and I hope it helps someone else who’s been feeling the same way.
---
My Transformation Summary (Updated With Full Timeline)
I began this entire process in August 2025 at 90.8 kg.
Today, i weigh 75.6 kg as of the 12 May 2026.
That is a total loss of 15.2 kg, with the majority being fat while maintaining and in many cases increasing strength.
Weight Timeline
- August 2025: 90.8 kg (starting point)
- November 2025 84kg
- Feb 2026: ~79.2 kg
- Mar 2026: fluctuating 79–81.7 kg (recomp phase)
- Apr 2026: 77.7 kg
- May 2026 (today): 75.6 kg
Recomposition timeline:
- Fat down
- Muscle up
- Strength up
- Waist tighter
- Chest and belly visibly leaner
- Pumps and fullness improved with carb timing and carb loading
I have stayed consistent in the diet, training, and cardio is the reason this worked.
---
Diet Log
My diet has been extremely structured, high‑protein, and low‑fat with controlled carbs.
Daily Eating Pattern
- High‑protein breakfast
- Lean protein lunch
- High‑protein snacks or Healthy fats
- Pre‑gym wrap or rice crackers with honey
- Post‑gym whey
- Lean dinner
Foods I Eat Consistently
- Whey protein (Gold Standard, R1, WPI Synergy and high carb days i use monst3r gainer by Anabolix)
- Greek yoghurt (full‑fat, no sugar)
- Organic frozen fruits (blueberries & Strawberries)
- Eggs + egg whites
- Chicken breast
- Whiting fish
- Tuna cans
- Low‑carb wraps
- Cold Pressed Fibre Boost bar (20g protein, 25g fibre, 0.7g carbs)
- Vegetables: pumpkin, carrot, broccoli, sweet potato
- Avocados
Macro Pattern Average Daily
- Protein: 150–200g
- Carbs: 70–180g
- Fat: 30–65g
Calorie Tatget:
- Fat Loss Phase (1600)
- Calories now - 2000 - 2500
This macro setup is why i have been able to lose fat while gaining strength.
---
Training Log
My training is high‑volume bodybuilding with progressive overload. I try and do stair master after every session as a mental break and cardiovascular health. Maybe overkill but I love it.
Training Style
- Daily sessions 6 days a week usually if I dont have weekend work on.
- Heavy compounds
- High‑volume isolation
- Progressive overload
- Pump‑focused work
- Strength increasing weekly
Exercise Variations i use:
Biceps day:
- Barbell curls
- Dumbbell curls
- Cable curls
- Hammer curls
- Machine curls
Shoulders day:
- Shoulder press
- Lateral raises
- Rear delt fly
- Upright rows
- Cable laterals
Chest
- Flat bench
- Decline Bench
- Chest flys top, middle and low
- Barbell Chest presses
- Dips
- Seated chest press
- Seated wide chest press full motion
Back Day Exercises
- Lat Pulldown - wide, medium, or underhand variations
- Seated Row - close‑grip and wide‑grip
- Barbell Row
- Dumbbell Row - single‑arm, full stretch
- T‑Bar Row - Chest‑supported
- Cable Pullover
- Machine Row - plate‑loaded or selectorised
- Deadlift
---
Leg Day Exercises
- Leg Press
- Hack Squat
- Barbell Squat — back or front squat
- Leg Extension
- Hamstring Curl — seated or lying dependinf on machine availability
- Romanian Deadlift
- Walking Lunges dumbbells
- Calf Raises — seated
---
Abs / Core Exercises
- Cable Crunch
- Hanging Leg Raise
- Decline Sit‑Up
---
Cardio Routine
- Stair Master 20mins HIIT
- 20 minutes incline treadmill after weights
- Occasional extra sessions on rest days
- Helps fat loss, HDL, and conditioning
---
Supplement Routine
Currently using
- Vitamin C
- Digestive enzymes
- N2guard
- Probiotics
- Oil of Oregano 10:1
- Tudca
- NAC
(Depending on how my rotator cuff is another addition of GLOW stack may be added - stuff is magic)
---
Morning Routine
My mornings are extremely consistent:
1. Hydration
2. Protein bowl (whey + yoghurt + berries)
3. Eggs + egg whites
4. Work
5. Lean protein lunch
---
Full Day of Eating
Meal 1 – Morning bowl
- 2 scoops whey
- 5 Table spoons of Farmers Union Greek yoghurt
- 60g Berries or Strawberies
- Depending on Carb days I add the oats or weetbix
Meal 2 – Lunch
- Low‑carb wrap with Tuna and veggies
- Egg‑white omelette with vegetables
- Chicken, rice and veggies
(I tend to rotate between set meals weekly)
Snack
- Fibre Boost bar
- Watermelon
- Avocado
- Mixed Nuts
Meal 4 – Pre‑Gym
- Low‑carb wrap with Tuna
- Rice Crackers with Honey Comb
- Preworkout with a sprinkle of Salt. (Crazy pump)
Meal 5 – Post‑Gym
- Whey protein 2 Scoops
Dinner
- Lean protein (fish, chicken, sausages)
- Small serve of rice
- Egg whites Or Omelette
- Bowl of Tuna on a bed of Salad
(I also switch this up and rotate through the list)
---
Current Cycle & Blood Work
I get my blood work every quater which I will upload in the attachments.
- Current cycle @Raptor Labs Test E 400mg (0.2mg every Mon, Wed, Friday)
(Please see photos for results)
Hope this intro is of standard. I have logged 1.5 years of activity in my phone which made this so much easier to summarise.
Look forward to the next one!
My Intro:
I’m starting this log because I know there are a lot of guys out there who’ve felt exactly how I did flat, foggy, low libido, no sex drive, no motivation, and watching your body slip away from you no matter how hard you try.
For a long time, I felt like absolute shit.
I tried everything (Man Shake, clen, starving myself, punishing myself with cardio, cutting food to the bone) all the usual desperation moves.
And like many, I thought I just needed to “push harder.”
Turns out, I didn’t have to punish myself at all ... something deeper was going on.
---
The Low Test Reality
I did the right thing and went to the doctor.
Two consecutive blood tests came back with testosterone levels of 9.
Instead of actually talking to me about it, the doctor wanted me to go do a sleep apnea test.
My sleep is perfect.. after the days I have at work, I could fall asleep standing up.
The problem wasn’t sleep.
It was the fog, the dead libido, the zero drive, the lack of motivation, and the tyre forming around my waist that disgusted me.
In my 20s I was shredded, felt like a superstar, and could eat whatever I wanted.
Seeing myself fall apart hit me hard.
My Life Context
I work a modest amount of hours during the week, but I’ve got a busy household.
I train at 7–8pm every night because I’ve got a young son, and I don’t expect my wife to do everything on her own.
Those sacrifices, the late nights, the long days, they make the results mean so much more.
Anyone who trains after a full day of work and family life knows exactly what I mean.
Why I’m Here
I reached out to this forum because honestly, without places like this, a lot of us would be isolated.
You can’t talk about this stuff with everyone.
But here, you can share your story, learn from others, and get advice from people who are walking the same path.
I’ve used gear in the past, short runs of test prop and primobolan and had good experiences.
But I went years without touching anything.
Then I saw that photo last year…
The one that made me say:
“That’s it. I’m done.”
That was the moment everything changed.
The Photos & The Groundwork
The photos I’ve uploaded are a timeline.
People will see progress but I see the work I put in before a single drop of test entered my body. This should be a testament that i dont care what the next lad is doing, I HAVE to be here to see my son grow, that means do it the RIGHT way!
The dieting. The cardio. The discipline.
The nights I trained exhausted.
The mornings I woke up feeling like a shell of myself but still pushed through.
I don’t want anyone thinking this transformation is “just the gear.”
The groundwork was done long before.
My Message to Anyone Reading!
Testosterone isn’t a magic fix.
It’s not a bandaid.
It won’t save you from bad habits or a bad mindset.
If you’re thinking about PCT before you’ve even started, maybe take a step back and ask yourself why you’re doing it.
For me, this wasn’t about shortcuts.
It was about fixing my mental state, my drive, my confidence, and then rebuilding the physical side from there.
This log is my journey. The honest version and I hope it helps someone else who’s been feeling the same way.
---
My Transformation Summary (Updated With Full Timeline)
I began this entire process in August 2025 at 90.8 kg.
Today, i weigh 75.6 kg as of the 12 May 2026.
That is a total loss of 15.2 kg, with the majority being fat while maintaining and in many cases increasing strength.
Weight Timeline
- August 2025: 90.8 kg (starting point)
- November 2025 84kg
- Feb 2026: ~79.2 kg
- Mar 2026: fluctuating 79–81.7 kg (recomp phase)
- Apr 2026: 77.7 kg
- May 2026 (today): 75.6 kg
Recomposition timeline:
- Fat down
- Muscle up
- Strength up
- Waist tighter
- Chest and belly visibly leaner
- Pumps and fullness improved with carb timing and carb loading
I have stayed consistent in the diet, training, and cardio is the reason this worked.
---
Diet Log
My diet has been extremely structured, high‑protein, and low‑fat with controlled carbs.
Daily Eating Pattern
- High‑protein breakfast
- Lean protein lunch
- High‑protein snacks or Healthy fats
- Pre‑gym wrap or rice crackers with honey
- Post‑gym whey
- Lean dinner
Foods I Eat Consistently
- Whey protein (Gold Standard, R1, WPI Synergy and high carb days i use monst3r gainer by Anabolix)
- Greek yoghurt (full‑fat, no sugar)
- Organic frozen fruits (blueberries & Strawberries)
- Eggs + egg whites
- Chicken breast
- Whiting fish
- Tuna cans
- Low‑carb wraps
- Cold Pressed Fibre Boost bar (20g protein, 25g fibre, 0.7g carbs)
- Vegetables: pumpkin, carrot, broccoli, sweet potato
- Avocados
Macro Pattern Average Daily
- Protein: 150–200g
- Carbs: 70–180g
- Fat: 30–65g
Calorie Tatget:
- Fat Loss Phase (1600)
- Calories now - 2000 - 2500
This macro setup is why i have been able to lose fat while gaining strength.
---
Training Log
My training is high‑volume bodybuilding with progressive overload. I try and do stair master after every session as a mental break and cardiovascular health. Maybe overkill but I love it.
Training Style
- Daily sessions 6 days a week usually if I dont have weekend work on.
- Heavy compounds
- High‑volume isolation
- Progressive overload
- Pump‑focused work
- Strength increasing weekly
Exercise Variations i use:
Biceps day:
- Barbell curls
- Dumbbell curls
- Cable curls
- Hammer curls
- Machine curls
Shoulders day:
- Shoulder press
- Lateral raises
- Rear delt fly
- Upright rows
- Cable laterals
Chest
- Flat bench
- Decline Bench
- Chest flys top, middle and low
- Barbell Chest presses
- Dips
- Seated chest press
- Seated wide chest press full motion
Back Day Exercises
- Lat Pulldown - wide, medium, or underhand variations
- Seated Row - close‑grip and wide‑grip
- Barbell Row
- Dumbbell Row - single‑arm, full stretch
- T‑Bar Row - Chest‑supported
- Cable Pullover
- Machine Row - plate‑loaded or selectorised
- Deadlift
---
Leg Day Exercises
- Leg Press
- Hack Squat
- Barbell Squat — back or front squat
- Leg Extension
- Hamstring Curl — seated or lying dependinf on machine availability
- Romanian Deadlift
- Walking Lunges dumbbells
- Calf Raises — seated
---
Abs / Core Exercises
- Cable Crunch
- Hanging Leg Raise
- Decline Sit‑Up
---
Cardio Routine
- Stair Master 20mins HIIT
- 20 minutes incline treadmill after weights
- Occasional extra sessions on rest days
- Helps fat loss, HDL, and conditioning
---
Supplement Routine
Currently using
- Vitamin C
- Digestive enzymes
- N2guard
- Probiotics
- Oil of Oregano 10:1
- Tudca
- NAC
(Depending on how my rotator cuff is another addition of GLOW stack may be added - stuff is magic)
---
Morning Routine
My mornings are extremely consistent:
1. Hydration
2. Protein bowl (whey + yoghurt + berries)
3. Eggs + egg whites
4. Work
5. Lean protein lunch
---
Meal 1 – Morning bowl
- 2 scoops whey
- 5 Table spoons of Farmers Union Greek yoghurt
- 60g Berries or Strawberies
- Depending on Carb days I add the oats or weetbix
Meal 2 – Lunch
- Low‑carb wrap with Tuna and veggies
- Egg‑white omelette with vegetables
- Chicken, rice and veggies
(I tend to rotate between set meals weekly)
Snack
- Fibre Boost bar
- Watermelon
- Avocado
- Mixed Nuts
Meal 4 – Pre‑Gym
- Low‑carb wrap with Tuna
- Rice Crackers with Honey Comb
- Preworkout with a sprinkle of Salt. (Crazy pump)
Meal 5 – Post‑Gym
- Whey protein 2 Scoops
Dinner
- Lean protein (fish, chicken, sausages)
- Small serve of rice
- Egg whites Or Omelette
- Bowl of Tuna on a bed of Salad
(I also switch this up and rotate through the list)
---
Current Cycle & Blood Work
I get my blood work every quater which I will upload in the attachments.
- Current cycle @Raptor Labs Test E 400mg (0.2mg every Mon, Wed, Friday)
(Please see photos for results)
Hope this intro is of standard. I have logged 1.5 years of activity in my phone which made this so much easier to summarise.
Look forward to the next one!
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