That is what it is all about!! You guys do a great job and believe me, it is appreciatedNot every podcast we do will have the effect or meaning as some will. But some WILL heal and some WILL help others
#evocommunity
That is what it is all about!! You guys do a great job and believe me, it is appreciatedNot every podcast we do will have the effect or meaning as some will. But some WILL heal and some WILL help others
#evocommunity
yes i will admit i briefly continued the cycle a bit when i was a teacher and uncle. but i quickly realized that that strategy was way way way less effective. they will grativate to you so much better when you earn their respect with your lifestyle and knowledge by showing them how to be a man vs. beating it out of them or being assholes. they will seek your advice on things and look up to youThat's right @stevesmi ! I raised two wonderful Stepsons, and I made it an intentional thing to not be to them what I had experienced. I did what I could to not perpetuate that cycle! Thank you Steve!
Pretty amazing what reinforcement does to a child's behavior good or bad. I love your analogy at the end. I worked at a youth placement facility for a time in my late 20’s, we used positive reinforcement to encourage good behavior, lots of it, huge kindness and swift consequences for bad..push ups, jumping jacks, losing a day earned, and then moving on from it without a word. While going through training, the professor used your fish in dirty or clean water analogy!!yes i will admit i briefly continued the cycle a bit when i was a teacher and uncle. but i quickly realized that that strategy was way way way less effective. they will grativate to you so much better when you earn their respect with your lifestyle and knowledge by showing them how to be a man vs. beating it out of them or being assholes. they will seek your advice on things and look up to you
they used to have that show 'scared straight' where they would put bad kids in jail to 'scare them straight'.. well years later they realized those kids ended up being WORSE via that program lol. imagine that. putting kids into a bad environment and expecting a different result. they also had a program called DARE where a cop would go to our schools and teach out about drugs. i went through it in as a kid and i thought it was dumb as a kid and dumb as a teacher, well turns out kids who learned about drugs ended up more likely to do drugs! crazy concept!! turns out putting kids in a loving and nuturing environment turns kids into good adults. treating them like wild animals they end up being wild animals as adults! we are products of our environments. put a fish into a bowl with dirty water it will be sick, put a fish in clean water it will be healthy. can't be any simpler
yep and as a teacher i could tell meeting the kids parents who was destined to end up in prison and who wasn't. the kids with no dads, the kids with asshole dads= more likely for prison.Pretty amazing what reinforcement does to a child's behavior good or bad. I love your analogy at the end. I worked at a youth placement facility for a time in my late 20’s, we used positive reinforcement to encourage good behavior, lots of it, huge kindness and swift consequences for bad..push ups, jumping jacks, losing a day earned, and then moving on from it without a word. While going through training, the professor used your fish in dirty or clean water analogy!!
Bottom line, if you beat a kid or only give reinforcement for bad behavior then, it will teach that kid to seek attention using that bad behavior but if you totally cover that kid in love and atta boys for good behavior, then eventually they will learn that good behavior will get more and better attention and that will be how they act.
That is totally the fish in dirty or clean water and either being healthy or living half dead.
Forgiveness is power and kindness and positivity will unlock the universe
Oh yes, it seems to be the trend for years and it is sadyep and as a teacher i could tell meeting the kids parents who was destined to end up in prison and who wasn't. the kids with no dads, the kids with asshole dads= more likely for prison.
Wow @LevButlerov that is intense! I can honestly say, that as painful as everything was, I have zero regrets, I forgave myself and used everything to shape who I am today.The waking up was crazy, I'd get drunk and drink more and more then blackout then on the street and its a day later but I'm laying on a bench or side walk, like a bad movie but I was living it lol@MarkNV
I've been sober for many many years now, dryminus nicotine gum here and there.
EVO family is my addiction and LOVE now![]()
Thank you @Mobster !!No words. I can only thank you for sharing, for healing, for being open and inspiring others.
It's amazing how that resonates with you even at your age. It's going to be stuck with you forever. But I'm glad you're being open about it. It really sucks. My uncle used to abuse me when I was younger. He used to touch me in places I didn't like. @MarkNV@LevButlerov this is what I am going to do, eating hours start at 1000 hours and finish at 1600 hours. Not too early not too late. I am going to be full, but that is okay, I will figure out how to get the food down and get the protein up in that little window.
I was privileged to talk with @stevesmi and @Mobster the other day. I came away more motivated than ever to blast this ship off into a high velocity orbit…so to speak. I could have talked for another two hours.
I am going to share some shit here. @HarleyGuy , thank you for encouraging this.
My mother took up with a man after her and father divorced, at first he seemed like an okay guy. I was 6 and didn’t know the difference.
After he was fully imbedded in our lives, he changed. He was violent, and very emotionally abusive to my sister and I. I played baseball and soccer at a young age and learned fast that I had to lie about being on a team, because that man considered those sports as “Sissy Sports”, so he would refer to me as Sissy, faggot, pussy boy ect ect ect…
My father would sign me up, but since he lived a ways away, I had to get myself to and from practices and games….without the stepdad knowing about it. I had to fucking sneak around as a 6 through 14 year old. And if I got caught, well, I would get the holy hell slapped outta me.
I eventually stopped playing, but in 6 grade, I signed my moms name on a permission slip for wrestling and went on to wrestle for 6 years. I never said a word about, mom never knew I wrestled until I was a sophomore in high school. She only came to one meet.
Thank god by that time she had divorced and remarried a really good man, poor bastard wasn’t ready for what I had to give though. I apologized to him later in life after I had dealt with a lot of damage from mom’s second husband.
That man made me fight the kids in the neighborhood, my friends, and if I didn't win….well, oh boy.
He created a monster in me. For a lot of years, I was that “sudden discharge guy” someone would say something or look at me funny , and I would immediately go off and do whatever I could, to literally destroy them. I wasn’t a nice person.
After my run in with crystal meth, and my soul was at it’s lowest point, I dealt with this, and it was painful. I turned that raging anger and hatred that I felt for another human being into a positive powerful force that drove me forward with a blind determination and an attitude that could not be stopped. It helped me to survive detox, rebuilding, living in my fucking jeep wrangler…I am 6’1”…not much room in that jeep, and becoming a human being again.
I was able to actually share and be kind and I realized that I was a good kid who was a victim of circumstance and that I was everything that my first stepfather wasn’t and that is what he tried to destroy what I was. Because he was an unhappy person
Oh wow, I actually put this into words. I am not afraid to admit that I have tears rolling down my face but I feel happy!!!
Thank you @Mobster and @stevesmi and @HarleyGuy and @ Noah
Remember everyone, WE MATTER!!
I hope everyone has the best day!!!
I know I will for sure!!!
@2Thick Bro!! That is horrible. Adults that touch children are the worst of the worst, especially a family member!! I can’t imagine the confusion that caused!!It's amazing how that resonates with you even at your age. It's going to be stuck with you forever. But I'm glad you're being open about it. It really sucks. My uncle used to abuse me when I was younger. He used to touch me in places I didn't like. @MarkNV
yeah it wasn't good@2Thick Bro!! That is horrible. Adults that touch children are the worst of the worst, especially a family member!! I can’t imagine the confusion that caused!!
@2Thick That you can openly say it, says a lot about the person you are today. You are Strong 2Thick! Thank you for having trust enough to share that.yeah it wasn't good![]()
thanks for sharing this. when i was young my parents took me to a place they send gay kids to make them straight. @MarkNV this place locked me in a cage and gave me a bucket to go to the bathroom in and they tortured me for 3 weeks straight cause they thought i was gay. i will never forgive my parents for that.@LevButlerov this is what I am going to do, eating hours start at 1000 hours and finish at 1600 hours. Not too early not too late. I am going to be full, but that is okay, I will figure out how to get the food down and get the protein up in that little window.
I was privileged to talk with @stevesmi and @Mobster the other day. I came away more motivated than ever to blast this ship off into a high velocity orbit…so to speak. I could have talked for another two hours.
I am going to share some shit here. @HarleyGuy , thank you for encouraging this.
My mother took up with a man after her and father divorced, at first he seemed like an okay guy. I was 6 and didn’t know the difference.
After he was fully imbedded in our lives, he changed. He was violent, and very emotionally abusive to my sister and I. I played baseball and soccer at a young age and learned fast that I had to lie about being on a team, because that man considered those sports as “Sissy Sports”, so he would refer to me as Sissy, faggot, pussy boy ect ect ect…
My father would sign me up, but since he lived a ways away, I had to get myself to and from practices and games….without the stepdad knowing about it. I had to fucking sneak around as a 6 through 14 year old. And if I got caught, well, I would get the holy hell slapped outta me.
I eventually stopped playing, but in 6 grade, I signed my moms name on a permission slip for wrestling and went on to wrestle for 6 years. I never said a word about, mom never knew I wrestled until I was a sophomore in high school. She only came to one meet.
Thank god by that time she had divorced and remarried a really good man, poor bastard wasn’t ready for what I had to give though. I apologized to him later in life after I had dealt with a lot of damage from mom’s second husband.
That man made me fight the kids in the neighborhood, my friends, and if I didn't win….well, oh boy.
He created a monster in me. For a lot of years, I was that “sudden discharge guy” someone would say something or look at me funny , and I would immediately go off and do whatever I could, to literally destroy them. I wasn’t a nice person.
After my run in with crystal meth, and my soul was at it’s lowest point, I dealt with this, and it was painful. I turned that raging anger and hatred that I felt for another human being into a positive powerful force that drove me forward with a blind determination and an attitude that could not be stopped. It helped me to survive detox, rebuilding, living in my fucking jeep wrangler…I am 6’1”…not much room in that jeep, and becoming a human being again.
I was able to actually share and be kind and I realized that I was a good kid who was a victim of circumstance and that I was everything that my first stepfather wasn’t and that is what he tried to destroy what I was. Because he was an unhappy person
Oh wow, I actually put this into words. I am not afraid to admit that I have tears rolling down my face but I feel happy!!!
Thank you @Mobster and @stevesmi and @HarleyGuy and @ Noah
Remember everyone, WE MATTER!!
I hope everyone has the best day!!!
I know I will for sure!!!
@MarkNV bros i bought up all the cholula in your town ha! now i gonna sell it back to you 3x the price.Breakfast 1000 hours
Eggs
Chicken
Seeet potato
Diced peppers,
OUT OF CHOLULA!!! Damn it!!!
I am out!! Fucker!!!@MarkNV bros i bought up all the cholula in your town ha! now i gonna sell it back to you 3x the price.![]()
WTF!! Your parents put you in a conversion camp? Bro, I am so sorry. That is cruel shit. You are a survivor and that makes you a badass, gay or not, you survived!! Respectthanks for sharing this. when i was young my parents took me to a place they send gay kids to make them straight. @MarkNV this place locked me in a cage and gave me a bucket to go to the bathroom in and they tortured me for 3 weeks straight cause they thought i was gay. i will never forgive my parents for that.
Diabolical!!!@MarkNV bros i bought up all the cholula in your town ha! now i gonna sell it back to you 3x the price.![]()
Guac with burger sounds really good. nothing better then fresh made guac! It's actually a good fats and protein in that meal you eat that it's a great meal to have. @MarkNVBurger
Guac
Pico
Peppers
This was heavy brother, but we can clearly see what you have made of yourself through these difficult times. You have shown yourself what your capable of and i know it inspires others here on evo and im sure the same to people around you also.@LevButlerov this is what I am going to do, eating hours start at 1000 hours and finish at 1600 hours. Not too early not too late. I am going to be full, but that is okay, I will figure out how to get the food down and get the protein up in that little window.
I was privileged to talk with @stevesmi and @Mobster the other day. I came away more motivated than ever to blast this ship off into a high velocity orbit…so to speak. I could have talked for another two hours.
I am going to share some shit here. @HarleyGuy , thank you for encouraging this.
My mother took up with a man after her and father divorced, at first he seemed like an okay guy. I was 6 and didn’t know the difference.
After he was fully imbedded in our lives, he changed. He was violent, and very emotionally abusive to my sister and I. I played baseball and soccer at a young age and learned fast that I had to lie about being on a team, because that man considered those sports as “Sissy Sports”, so he would refer to me as Sissy, faggot, pussy boy ect ect ect…
My father would sign me up, but since he lived a ways away, I had to get myself to and from practices and games….without the stepdad knowing about it. I had to fucking sneak around as a 6 through 14 year old. And if I got caught, well, I would get the holy hell slapped outta me.
I eventually stopped playing, but in 6 grade, I signed my moms name on a permission slip for wrestling and went on to wrestle for 6 years. I never said a word about, mom never knew I wrestled until I was a sophomore in high school. She only came to one meet.
Thank god by that time she had divorced and remarried a really good man, poor bastard wasn’t ready for what I had to give though. I apologized to him later in life after I had dealt with a lot of damage from mom’s second husband.
That man made me fight the kids in the neighborhood, my friends, and if I didn't win….well, oh boy.
He created a monster in me. For a lot of years, I was that “sudden discharge guy” someone would say something or look at me funny , and I would immediately go off and do whatever I could, to literally destroy them. I wasn’t a nice person.
After my run in with crystal meth, and my soul was at it’s lowest point, I dealt with this, and it was painful. I turned that raging anger and hatred that I felt for another human being into a positive powerful force that drove me forward with a blind determination and an attitude that could not be stopped. It helped me to survive detox, rebuilding, living in my fucking jeep wrangler…I am 6’1”…not much room in that jeep, and becoming a human being again.
I was able to actually share and be kind and I realized that I was a good kid who was a victim of circumstance and that I was everything that my first stepfather wasn’t and that is what he tried to destroy what I was. Because he was an unhappy person
Oh wow, I actually put this into words. I am not afraid to admit that I have tears rolling down my face but I feel happy!!!
Thank you @Mobster and @stevesmi and @HarleyGuy and @ Noah
Remember everyone, WE MATTER!!
I hope everyone has the best day!!!
I know I will for sure!!!
You turned all that pain into something solid and the way you cut off excuses shows why you rebuilt yourself the way you did.Wow @LevButlerov that is intense! I can honestly say, that as painful as everything was, I have zero regrets, I forgave myself and used everything to shape who I am today.
It is weird deal, I will reach my hand out to help anybody that needs it and asks for it, I will help anybody with all my efforts to get the resources they need to get well….until the excuses start. And then I will just turn it off. I hate hearing “I Can’t” or “I was going to, BUT” or the one that gets me deep…”It is their fault”. Nope nope nope
The gym, eating properly and surrounding ourselves with other people who get it and are always searching for a way to be better for themselves is the best addiction known to man….well, A nice warm woman keeping me cozy at night is a pretty good addiction too!!
Well said brother, evo provides so many and makes me happy to see everyone wanting to give some back and help the next person. Massive love for eveo and huge respect for you brother putting in endless time and effort to help and bring everyone upYou turned all that pain into something solid and the way you cut off excuses shows why you rebuilt yourself the way you did.Surrounding yourself with people who push forward and keeping the gym and structure as your anchor is exactly why you keep growing. @MarkNV
I love the EVO family and it changed my life, I hope to change others my EVO brother![]()
Weight coming back to 245 with water dropping like that is normal and it sounds like you tightened things up fast.FRIDAY MORNING BOYS and GIRLS!! Yay!!
Okay went in for a bit and did some cardio.
Will be seeing the Trainer today at 0700 hours for legs and light shoulders and she will work me through some core. I will get a few minutes of cardio before the session and will log the workout
I will be doing this workout fasted because I won’t eat until 1000 hours.
@LevButlerov I weighed in at 245.00, it is coming back down and it feels like I am a little more muscular. I don’t know where that weird weight gain came from, but I have shed a lot of water in the last several days. I did cook up some really high protein soups, I am thinking that I used a bit to much sodium and I retained water. I have been so clean that I am thinking the body didn’t like the sodium….I love salt!!! Live and learn!!!
LFG!!!!
You are totally changing lives!!You turned all that pain into something solid and the way you cut off excuses shows why you rebuilt yourself the way you did.Surrounding yourself with people who push forward and keeping the gym and structure as your anchor is exactly why you keep growing. @MarkNV
I love the EVO family and it changed my life, I hope to change others my EVO brother![]()
Thank you bro!!This was heavy brother, but we can clearly see what you have made of yourself through these difficult times. You have shown yourself what your capable of and i know it inspires others here on evo and im sure the same to people around you also.
Keep being you brother im glad we we able to cross paths in whatever way![]()
I was able to actually share and be kind and I realized that I was a good kid who was a victim of circumstance and that I was everything that my first stepfather wasn’t and that is what he tried to destroy what I was. Because he was an unhappy person
Oh wow, I actually put this into words. I am not afraid to admit that I have tears rolling down my face but I feel happy!!!
It hit the spot!!Guac with burger sounds really good. nothing better then fresh made guac! It's actually a good fats and protein in that meal you eat that it's a great meal to have. @MarkNV
Thank you!! @vanlife_gymbumThat's fucking amazing bro, well done. It's not easy, especially as men to talk about these things but we have to change that and it takes courageous guys doing what you just did to change that. The impact is so profound that I hear weird shit at AA meetings all the time like "I'm grateful to be an alcoholic" and at first I didn't get it. But why they say that is because it was their alcoholism that forced them to the point that they atcually had to deal with their childhood, any tramas, whatever it was, to open up to others, to put their ego aside and accept help from others, to find the courage to talk openly about their demons, feelings, etc...
You're doing really good bro. I can tell you're getting some of the same benefits from Evo as I am. I feel so happy in general, a feel secure in that even though my life is still pretty up and down, I'm on the right path and headed in r right direction, and I feel that, not just think I should feel it.
Thank you!! @vanlife_gymbum
I love your attitude brother!! Mastering the ego and putting it aside is no small task and neither is developing trust, and you recognize that !! That makes you a rare human being!
I listened to your interview and I heard a person that is driven by pure intention, our lives will always be up and down, but you have learned to ride it like a favorite rollercoaster and I love that!!
bros haha! you gotta make your own sauceDiabolical!!!![]()
yeah exactly that is what it was. the kid next to me in the cage became a good friend throughout. the smell was awful going through thatWTF!! Your parents put you in a conversion camp? Bro, I am so sorry. That is cruel shit. You are a survivor and that makes you a badass, gay or not, you survived!! Respect
Yes. Sounds really good.It hit the spot!!
no words brotheryeah exactly that is what it was. the kid next to me in the cage became a good friend throughout. the smell was awful going through that
I will, it would be a project to do correctlybros haha! you gotta make your own sauce
A+++ that is what its about!@2Thick That you can openly say it, says a lot about the person you are today. You are Strong 2Thick! Thank you for having trust enough to share that.
I’ve got your back!! You are a badass
yeah it was not a vacation i can tell you that!no words brother
Nope, I don’t suppose that would be.yeah it was not a vacation i can tell you that!
You training beast modeHoly crap I am sore
I love this shit. I am going to switch up my split. 2 days on 1 day off, 3 days on 1 day just cardio. I got back from the East Coast 2 weeks ago, and I have gone balls to the wall ever since, hell, even when I was gone. I may try this split for a month. @LevButlerov suggested that I go time restricted eating, 6 hour window. It was a tough adjustment. But for several days now, I have managed over 200g protein a day. About 1800 to 2000 calories, the deficit seems to work well at those numbers. Damn, getting the calories and protein is tough, at only 6 hours, I get really full. But I am finding that I still feel really empty in the mornings and I like that feeling!!
I am hoping with this new split, the calorie deficit will be easier to manage
1800-2000 calories would be a pretty big deficit wouldnt it? be careful not to undereat tooHoly crap I am sore
I love this shit. I am going to switch up my split. 2 days on 1 day off, 3 days on 1 day just cardio. I got back from the East Coast 2 weeks ago, and I have gone balls to the wall ever since, hell, even when I was gone. I may try this split for a month. @LevButlerov suggested that I go time restricted eating, 6 hour window. It was a tough adjustment. But for several days now, I have managed over 200g protein a day. About 1800 to 2000 calories, the deficit seems to work well at those numbers. Damn, getting the calories and protein is tough, at only 6 hours, I get really full. But I am finding that I still feel really empty in the mornings and I like that feeling!!
I am hoping with this new split, the calorie deficit will be easier to manage
yes my best days are ahead for sure. i need to find a new wife after my last one diedNope, I don’t suppose that would be.
Thank god we go forward!!
Lots of great life to live brother!!
bros would def buy it!I will, it would be a project to do correctly
It can take a little for the body to adjust with the bigger volume of food in such a short time frame. The main thing is prioritise your protein first, then your healthy fats for recovery. Whatever your body allows you to comfortably consume after that fill with carbs. Can slowly and more carbs as your body adjusts and allows. But dont force yourself to eat untill your sick you will just stuff up your digestion.Holy crap I am sore
I love this shit. I am going to switch up my split. 2 days on 1 day off, 3 days on 1 day just cardio. I got back from the East Coast 2 weeks ago, and I have gone balls to the wall ever since, hell, even when I was gone. I may try this split for a month. @LevButlerov suggested that I go time restricted eating, 6 hour window. It was a tough adjustment. But for several days now, I have managed over 200g protein a day. About 1800 to 2000 calories, the deficit seems to work well at those numbers. Damn, getting the calories and protein is tough, at only 6 hours, I get really full. But I am finding that I still feel really empty in the mornings and I like that feeling!!
I am hoping with this new split, the calorie deficit will be easier to manage
I absolutely will keep you guys updated!!! I will need all the help I can get!!!It can take a little for the body to adjust with the bigger volume of food in such a short time frame. The main thing is prioritise your protein first, then your healthy fats for recovery. Whatever your body allows you to comfortably consume after that fill with carbs. Can slowly and more carbs as your body adjusts and allows. But dont force yourself to eat untill your sick you will just stuff up your digestion.
I was the same late last year when i was utilising I.F i started with a 16/8 window and moved to a 18/6. Fibre/psyllium and digest enzymes will be your best friend here. Especially if your foods are higher in fat.
Lean cuts of meat and preferably white will be easier to digest as high saturated fatty foods will linger satiety and make consuming more calories difficult.
Believe me though IF really works brother and can work fast at the start too!
Good luck bro keep us updated so we can help if you hit any hurdles![]()
We all got ya brotherI absolutely will keep you guys updated!!! I will need all the help I can get!!!
Your trainer kicked your ass on this oneHey there !!!
Friday morning 0615
45 minutes cardio
Core and mobility 15 minutes
Legs.
This was different. The trainer beat the shit outta my legs with just 4 simple movements to failure
Medial Glute cable kickbacks
Each leg
12.5kg x 15
17.5kg x 15
Cable mule kicks holy FUCK!!
Each leg
17.5kg x 15
22.5kg x failure
27.5kg x amrap…wasn’t very many
Elevated heel goblet squats/walking lunges
Deeeeeep squat
30lbs x 15/20 walking lunges
35lbs x 15/20 walking lunges
40lbs x amrap/20 lunges
45lbs x amrap/drop to body weight heel elevated squats X Amrap
Done!
It looks simple on paper, but I almost threw up in the parking lot!!
I never leave with anything left on the tableYour trainer kicked your ass on this one
Love it![]()
That's the Mark we know and love keep it going!I never leave with anything left on the table
Let’s fucking go!!That's the Mark we know and love keep it going!
@HarleyGuy How are things going up there in Nova Scotia ?Lunch
Eggs
Ground chicken
Sweet potato
Peppers
Pico
Finally home just getting caught up with everything and sitting down for some EVO in between of course@HarleyGuy How are things going up there in Nova Scotia ?
Welcome home!!Finally home just getting caught up with everything and sitting down for some EVO in between of course
Breakfast 1000 hours at Bully’s
Bacon and hash browns and 3 eggs
KILLING it againLunch
Eggs
Ground chicken
Sweet potato
Peppers
Pico
@MarkNV always good to hear about the hardcore food! that is what we like to see. and the eggs and chicken is amazingLunch
Eggs
Ground chicken
Sweet potato
Peppers
Pico
It was pretty good!! Ran outta Cholula!!@MarkNV always good to hear about the hardcore food! that is what we like to see. and the eggs and chicken is amazing
HaIt was pretty good!! Ran outta Cholula!!
The Cholula King!!!bros i'm gonna get rich off brokering cholula. will be next drug lord @MarkNV @SPOONMAN366
bros hell yeahThe Cholula King!!!
no cholula= no dice ha! i know you like that one @MarkNV maybe order some in bulk and do auto order each month lolLunch
Eggs
Ground chicken
Sweet potato
Peppers
Pico
they don't sell it online?I am going crazy without it. I need to make a Costco run!! I will restock. I am getting the shakes and getting a bit grumpy without it!!!
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Oh yes, I hate waitingthey don't sell it online?
Lets fucking go!!Sounds like you've got a good system going! Keep up the hard work, it'll pay off.![]()
@MarkNV your meals aren't worth a damn without that cholula sauce! haha. nah looks good. reminds me of my wife's cooking from when we first got married. i miss her EDBreakfast
Eggs
Ground beef
Sweet potato
Peppers
PICO!!
That Cholula makes it!! Coscto run this week buddy.@MarkNV your meals aren't worth a damn without that cholula sauce! haha. nah looks good. reminds me of my wife's cooking from when we first got married. i miss her ED![]()
@MarkNV bro it takes a lot of courage to share this.....you've faced a lot.....no kid should suffer but life happens....what important is to overcome and be a good human and set example for others....that you have gracefully done.....proud of you......@LevButlerov this is what I am going to do, eating hours start at 1000 hours and finish at 1600 hours. Not too early not too late. I am going to be full, but that is okay, I will figure out how to get the food down and get the protein up in that little window.
I was privileged to talk with @stevesmi and @Mobster the other day. I came away more motivated than ever to blast this ship off into a high velocity orbit…so to speak. I could have talked for another two hours.
I am going to share some shit here. @HarleyGuy , thank you for encouraging this.
My mother took up with a man after her and father divorced, at first he seemed like an okay guy. I was 6 and didn’t know the difference.
After he was fully imbedded in our lives, he changed. He was violent, and very emotionally abusive to my sister and I. I played baseball and soccer at a young age and learned fast that I had to lie about being on a team, because that man considered those sports as “Sissy Sports”, so he would refer to me as Sissy, faggot, pussy boy ect ect ect…
My father would sign me up, but since he lived a ways away, I had to get myself to and from practices and games….without the stepdad knowing about it. I had to fucking sneak around as a 6 through 14 year old. And if I got caught, well, I would get the holy hell slapped outta me.
I eventually stopped playing, but in 6 grade, I signed my moms name on a permission slip for wrestling and went on to wrestle for 6 years. I never said a word about, mom never knew I wrestled until I was a sophomore in high school. She only came to one meet.
Thank god by that time she had divorced and remarried a really good man, poor bastard wasn’t ready for what I had to give though. I apologized to him later in life after I had dealt with a lot of damage from mom’s second husband.
That man made me fight the kids in the neighborhood, my friends, and if I didn't win….well, oh boy.
He created a monster in me. For a lot of years, I was that “sudden discharge guy” someone would say something or look at me funny , and I would immediately go off and do whatever I could, to literally destroy them. I wasn’t a nice person.
After my run in with crystal meth, and my soul was at it’s lowest point, I dealt with this, and it was painful. I turned that raging anger and hatred that I felt for another human being into a positive powerful force that drove me forward with a blind determination and an attitude that could not be stopped. It helped me to survive detox, rebuilding, living in my fucking jeep wrangler…I am 6’1”…not much room in that jeep, and becoming a human being again.
I was able to actually share and be kind and I realized that I was a good kid who was a victim of circumstance and that I was everything that my first stepfather wasn’t and that is what he tried to destroy what I was. Because he was an unhappy person
Oh wow, I actually put this into words. I am not afraid to admit that I have tears rolling down my face but I feel happy!!!
Thank you @Mobster and @stevesmi and @HarleyGuy and @ Noah
Remember everyone, WE MATTER!!
I hope everyone has the best day!!!
I know I will for sure!!!
Thank you!! That was a really nice thing to say, thank you so much@MarkNV bro it takes a lot of courage to share this.....you've faced a lot.....no kid should suffer but life happens....what important is to overcome and be a good human and set example for others....that you have gracefully done.....proud of you......
with the colder weather these soups are amazing. and they are so nutritious too. always good for us @MarkNVI some leftover home made chicken soup. I tossed an additional 5.5 oz of chicken a 1/4 cup rice and called it lunch!!! I miss the Cholula!!
No cans!! All clean, even make my own stockswith the colder weather these soups are amazing. and they are so nutritious too. always good for us @MarkNV
that is the ONLY way to do it! the canned soups are horrible!No cans!! All clean, even make my own stocks
Hell yes!!that is the ONLY way to do it! the canned soups are horrible!
quest acceptedI am going on a quest to make protein dense food with perfect carbs and fats that are voluminous but very low in calories, or as low as I can make it.
I love food, but I love getting leaner even more
perfect mixDinner
ChickenI am growing muscled feathers!!
Broccoli
Eggs
Pico
Macros current for the day
Bro go full carnivore the volume is insaneI am going on a quest to make protein dense food with perfect carbs and fats that are voluminous but very low in calories, or as low as I can make it.
I love food, but I love getting leaner even more
I have been giving it a big thoughtBro go full carnivore the volume is insane![]()
Good pull day logged, the 80 kg pulldowns and the 65 lb curls are powerMonday 0145
Back and Bi’s , cardio core
25 minutes cardio
Planks, lateral and standard 4 x 45 seconds squeeeeeeeezinnnng hard
Double pulley wide grip pulldowns/standing lat prayers super set
50kg/30kg x 15
60kg/30kg x 13
70kg/30kg x 10
80kg x 8
Chest supported DB Rows/Kelso shrugs 20lbs
40lbs/20lbs 2 x 15
45lbs/20lbs x 10
50lbs/20lbs x 8
Seated high cable pulls/cable row super set
47kg x 14
52.5kg 2 x 12
DB shrugs
55lb x 15
60lb x 15
65lb x 15
Bi’s
Standard straight bar curl
65lb x 12
70lb 2 x 10
75lb x 8
DB wide curl/hammer curl super set
20lb x 10 each
25lb x 10 each
30lb x 10 each
Concentration curl
25lb 3 x amrap slow burn squeeze!!!
25 minutes cardio
Done
Tuesday morning 0215 hours!!!
Cardio day!!! On the Tmill right now, gonna knock out an hour.
Hahaha I bet I do some legs, even though, right now I know I shouldn’t. It is so hard to lay off sometimes, I JUST WANT TO FUCKING GO!!
The cardio will be good and when I am done, I will knock out some mellow core and shoulder mobility work.
I am starting to really understand something, it isn’t always about having the perfect genetics, or the amount of juice your pumping in…..it is about showing the fuck up!! Tired?…. Fuck you, show up!! Sad because Mary Jane rotten crouch rejected you….FUCK YOU, show up!! Had a bad day…..Sorry bout that, Fuck you show up….
SHOW THE FUCK UP AND LETS FUCKING GO!!!!’
I am ready to go!!!
I felt it this morning, so I really did end up laying off legs, will make it up with the trainer on Friday for our leg day…if everything is good!!Good pull day logged, the 80 kg pulldowns and the 65 lb curls are power@MarkNV
Cardio volume is hot and the 1hr on the treadmill will keep you lean.
but if you have pain in legs, go slow please
@MarkNV good work with the good manLunch
Eggs
Ground chicken
Sweet potato
Peppers
Pico
yes the insurance money from her death ( i got 2M smackers) can buy me a lot of cholula lolThat Cholula makes it!! Coscto run this week buddy.
I can imagine you do miss her every day. That is a heart breaking thing that happened brother.
More Cholula than you could ever eat!!yes the insurance money from her death ( i got 2M smackers) can buy me a lot of cholula lol
yeah and if i come to NV i could blow through it all in 1 night too with all the strip clubs and gambling you get to enjoy out thereMore Cholula than you could ever eat!!
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