Week 4 ( 18 Jan to 23rd Jan)
I am trying to be consistent but this log is not going to be as detailed as usually they are. I am not in a good shape in every way possible.
I hurt my shoulder, don't know if I am sleeping funny or its from the workout but I couldnt do any upper body workout.
It's so bad today, that I couldn't even write on a paper.
I am as genuine as I possible with everything thats why I am saying this here.
Something happened on the weekend and my relationship is rocky. I can't get over some incident and I haven't seen him since then.
My partner used to give me topical bpc and tb 500, on the back side of my shoulder. I cant reach that area on my own. I dont have much fat, so cant pinch the skin either.
Also, no photos this week as he used to take the photos and I need to figure out a way to do these things on my own.
Espcially the back and side photos.
I did my last dose of Reta by
@ZenithHealth yesterday. Again no pain.
Diet and sleep- Not great. I couldn't eat, sleep or train. Not hydrated enough either. Not due to Reta or anything else but with whats going on with my life. Probably just eating one meal and a protein shake.
Weight loss- I know it's not ideal but I have lost a fair bit of size. My xs clothes were loose ( like falling off me kinda loose) on me.
I am about size 4 now. I didnt realise, when clothes shrink, they become longer

My friends took me out last night to cheer me up but I had nothing to wear that fits me. Ngl it's a good problem to have
Cleavage- I naturally had fuller cleavage but have noticed it was getting smaller and seeing loss in upper pole fullness.
I was ready for it as you can't eat your cake and have it too.
I always wanted to have smaller waist and bigger boobs. I felt I am at a good spot now so I booked my consult with the plastic surgeon.
To give you some background- I had consult with 4 different surgeons and they all said I naturally have big girls, I will need a lift and an implant. I hated the idea of having a scar so prominent and chances of loosing sensation there that I kept delaying it.
It must be the combination of reta, GHK cu, regular chest workout that it must have lifted my girls and the surgeon said I dont need a lift.
I was soooo happy, as I was absolutely dreading the scar you get from the lift.
For implant alone, scar is not visible and very small. I am planning to have my surgery done in March and by that time, hopefully I will be at my targetted BF %
About my shoulder- I would love to have a recommendation in Sydney- a good excercise physiologist or a coach who can see my form, check what I am doing wrong and correct it. I have tried to work with a couple of PTs but wasn't impressed.