Veteran Log First Testosterone Cycle and Beginner Training Log

[vanlife_gymbum]

Day 53: Steam Up & Tour Day
100 Years of Heavy Lifting​

It's fucking windy today. It's steam-up day on the steam crane and we were gonna try drive the crane today but with the wind it's too dodgy and it was already too dodgy

I've been inconsistent with adding sleep and step data lately so here's a 7 day view from Samsung Health, a good advert free app to go with the tracker watch my Dad gave me for my Evo log

Past 7 days, 12th to 18th October:

And the sleep data for the same time period, I need to work on this again:

There's no lavatory on the ship so we go to the museum and I found myself in the same public bathroom I took a picture in one week one, and I didn't take the side shots I told @LevButlerov and @toddthelineman I would the other week.

First week photo:

Today's photo:

Thursday night I didn't sleep at all. Had an appointment very early Friday morning and ended up drinking coffee far past the infendwd cut off point of noon, and past night noon too, and was wired enough that I decided to cut my losses and just stay up until it's time to go to the 6:15am assault bike class, which I also didn't do.

There's an event in the city related to history and preservation of historical artifices and the ship has bits of other ships it helped rescue or salvage including the biggest maritime disaster weve ever had where lots of people died in the 60s I think, the ships crane picked up some of it and the horn and other bits are still on board so I helped the Chinese girl give a tour.

He English is poor so I was super impressed she lead this tour group, stayed behind to catch people if they fell down the ladders

It was built in Glasgow along the banks of the Clyde River by two big time heavy hitters of that time though the shipbuilding firm Fleming & Ferguson and Sir William Arrol & Co who constructed the crane.

The old man himself died in 1919 I think but his company and ideas lived on. An amazing guy to look up if you're into mechanical engineering or other types of lifting. The fact that this thing is still floating a hundred years later is a pretty awesome legacy but thats nothing on this guys resume, well worth looking up. His name is etched into metal all over the ship too.

I've learnt so much about weight distribution and stuff learning about the counter weight systems and lots of other stuff on board, there's some real big brain thinking in lots of parts, the type of shit you never see these days. Like out of the box thinking, not production line shit.

For example this very heavy black hook thing under the thing with 80T on it can be spun around and moved into a different position just by hand. Its smooth as fuck too. No idea how but it trips people out. That's the first stop on the tour where we give a speech about the life work of the great shipbuilder as it's right next to the gangway.

My friend once found a "Kilroy was here" graffiti somewhere down the sides which we've been trying to find again. I vaguely know about this tradition but didn't realise the ship had done shit in the second world war so now I really want to find it. There's parts of the ship nobody would have been in after the 50s when it got diesel to replace the coal.

It is believed to be the last fully operational self-propelled floating steam crane in the whole world. I took tons of photos of it today and planning to write up some of the weight related stuff and show the old school leverage systems that I think will be of interest to The Forum.

And check out what I got in the mail yesterday:

Here's a link to my touchdown thread with pictures and contact details for @SWOLENZ where I got it from. Been talking to him the last couple of weeks and he's a top bloke.

Can't wait to go to the gym tonight. The tour wasn't very taxing.

About to leave and go to the needle exchange to get more picks and to talk to them about the gascromategraph idea I have for doing heavy metals testing and the like on my vials.

Apart from that, the new bottle from AUStarLabs is going good, pins on schedule

And I re-upped on eggs but unhappy, they're cheap ones and say "colony eggs" on them, whatever the fuck that means but I need to know the chickens ate insects outside else the eggs are going to be savagely compromised. It's sickening. I atcually have $20 left this week so will try hit up the farmers market tomorrow.

 

[waggat]

Day 53: Steam Up & Tour Day
100 Years of Heavy Lifting​

It's fucking windy today. It's steam-up day on the steam crane and we were gonna try drive the crane today but with the wind it's too dodgy and it was already too dodgy

I've been inconsistent with adding sleep and step data lately so here's a 7 day view from Samsung Health, a good advert free app to go with the tracker watch my Dad gave me for my Evo log

Past 7 days, 12th to 18th October:

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And the sleep data for the same time period, I need to work on this again:

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There's no lavatory on the ship so we go to the museum and I found myself in the same public bathroom I took a picture in one week one, and I didn't take the side shots I told @LevButlerov and @toddthelineman I would the other week.

First week photo:

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Today's photo:

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Thursday night I didn't sleep at all. Had an appointment very early Friday morning and ended up drinking coffee far past the infendwd cut off point of noon, and past night noon too, and was wired enough that I decided to cut my losses and just stay up until it's time to go to the 6:15am assault bike class, which I also didn't do.

There's an event in the city related to history and preservation of historical artifices and the ship has bits of other ships it helped rescue or salvage including the biggest maritime disaster weve ever had where lots of people died in the 60s I think, the ships crane picked up some of it and the horn and other bits are still on board so I helped the Chinese girl give a tour.

He English is poor so I was super impressed she lead this tour group, stayed behind to catch people if they fell down the ladders

View attachment 131026

It was built in Glasgow along the banks of the Clyde River by two big time heavy hitters of that time though the shipbuilding firm Fleming & Ferguson and Sir William Arrol & Co who constructed the crane.

The old man himself died in 1919 I think but his company and ideas lived on. An amazing guy to look up if you're into mechanical engineering or other types of lifting. The fact that this thing is still floating a hundred years later is a pretty awesome legacy but thats nothing on this guys resume, well worth looking up. His name is etched into metal all over the ship too.

View attachment 131027

I've learnt so much about weight distribution and stuff learning about the counter weight systems and lots of other stuff on board, there's some real big brain thinking in lots of parts, the type of shit you never see these days. Like out of the box thinking, not production line shit.

For example this very heavy black hook thing under the thing with 80T on it can be spun around and moved into a different position just by hand. Its smooth as fuck too. No idea how but it trips people out. That's the first stop on the tour where we give a speech about the life work of the great shipbuilder as it's right next to the gangway.

My friend once found a "Kilroy was here" graffiti somewhere down the sides which we've been trying to find again. I vaguely know about this tradition but didn't realise the ship had done shit in the second world war so now I really want to find it. There's parts of the ship nobody would have been in after the 50s when it got diesel to replace the coal.

It is believed to be the last fully operational self-propelled floating steam crane in the whole world. I took tons of photos of it today and planning to write up some of the weight related stuff and show the old school leverage systems that I think will be of interest to The Forum.

And check out what I got in the mail yesterday:

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Here's a link to my touchdown thread with pictures and contact details for @SWOLENZ where I got it from. Been talking to him the last couple of weeks and he's a top bloke.

Can't wait to go to the gym tonight. The tour wasn't very taxing.

About to leave and go to the needle exchange to get more picks and to talk to them about the gascromategraph idea I have for doing heavy metals testing and the like on my vials.

Apart from that, the new bottle from AUStarLabs is going good, pins on schedule

View attachment 131033

And I re-upped on eggs but unhappy, they're cheap ones and say "colony eggs" on them, whatever the fuck that means but I need to know the chickens ate insects outside else the eggs are going to be savagely compromised. It's sickening. I atcually have $20 left this week so will try hit up the farmers market tomorrow.

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Man those progress picks are

Nice touchdown as well. Are you adding EQ in your first cycle for the E2 control? I think you mentioned you'd be getting bloods soon. Will be interesting to see where your E2 is sitting on TRT dose.

 

[BeMe]

Day 53: Steam Up & Tour Day
100 Years of Heavy Lifting​

It's fucking windy today. It's steam-up day on the steam crane and we were gonna try drive the crane today but with the wind it's too dodgy and it was already too dodgy

I've been inconsistent with adding sleep and step data lately so here's a 7 day view from Samsung Health, a good advert free app to go with the tracker watch my Dad gave me for my Evo log

Past 7 days, 12th to 18th October:

View attachment 131008

And the sleep data for the same time period, I need to work on this again:

View attachment 131009

There's no lavatory on the ship so we go to the museum and I found myself in the same public bathroom I took a picture in one week one, and I didn't take the side shots I told @LevButlerov and @toddthelineman I would the other week.

First week photo:

View attachment 131007

Today's photo:

View attachment 131005

View attachment 131006

Thursday night I didn't sleep at all. Had an appointment very early Friday morning and ended up drinking coffee far past the infendwd cut off point of noon, and past night noon too, and was wired enough that I decided to cut my losses and just stay up until it's time to go to the 6:15am assault bike class, which I also didn't do.

There's an event in the city related to history and preservation of historical artifices and the ship has bits of other ships it helped rescue or salvage including the biggest maritime disaster weve ever had where lots of people died in the 60s I think, the ships crane picked up some of it and the horn and other bits are still on board so I helped the Chinese girl give a tour.

He English is poor so I was super impressed she lead this tour group, stayed behind to catch people if they fell down the ladders

View attachment 131026

It was built in Glasgow along the banks of the Clyde River by two big time heavy hitters of that time though the shipbuilding firm Fleming & Ferguson and Sir William Arrol & Co who constructed the crane.

The old man himself died in 1919 I think but his company and ideas lived on. An amazing guy to look up if you're into mechanical engineering or other types of lifting. The fact that this thing is still floating a hundred years later is a pretty awesome legacy but thats nothing on this guys resume, well worth looking up. His name is etched into metal all over the ship too.

View attachment 131027

I've learnt so much about weight distribution and stuff learning about the counter weight systems and lots of other stuff on board, there's some real big brain thinking in lots of parts, the type of shit you never see these days. Like out of the box thinking, not production line shit.

For example this very heavy black hook thing under the thing with 80T on it can be spun around and moved into a different position just by hand. Its smooth as fuck too. No idea how but it trips people out. That's the first stop on the tour where we give a speech about the life work of the great shipbuilder as it's right next to the gangway.

My friend once found a "Kilroy was here" graffiti somewhere down the sides which we've been trying to find again. I vaguely know about this tradition but didn't realise the ship had done shit in the second world war so now I really want to find it. There's parts of the ship nobody would have been in after the 50s when it got diesel to replace the coal.

It is believed to be the last fully operational self-propelled floating steam crane in the whole world. I took tons of photos of it today and planning to write up some of the weight related stuff and show the old school leverage systems that I think will be of interest to The Forum.

And check out what I got in the mail yesterday:

View attachment 131030

Here's a link to my touchdown thread with pictures and contact details for @SWOLENZ where I got it from. Been talking to him the last couple of weeks and he's a top bloke.

Can't wait to go to the gym tonight. The tour wasn't very taxing.

About to leave and go to the needle exchange to get more picks and to talk to them about the gascromategraph idea I have for doing heavy metals testing and the like on my vials.

Apart from that, the new bottle from AUStarLabs is going good, pins on schedule

View attachment 131033

And I re-upped on eggs but unhappy, they're cheap ones and say "colony eggs" on them, whatever the fuck that means but I need to know the chickens ate insects outside else the eggs are going to be savagely compromised. It's sickening. I atcually have $20 left this week so will try hit up the farmers market tomorrow.

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I reckon that's about one days worth of eggs for you mate lol. How's my accent?

Sweet TD pics. Time to really get going now that you're a skinny bitch haha. Damn that's a really transformation in such a short time. Not even just the weight loss, you built up a good bit too. Chest and arms are starting to form nicely.

Serious congratulations on all your progress bro! You are killn it!

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

I reckon that's about one days worth of eggs for you mate lol. How's my accent?

Hahah you guys don't reckon stuff over there? I came back a little weird after ten years in Australia, but I have a good knowledge of what's colloquial due to interacting with non native speakers so much and learning to speak simply. Different from succinctly or briefly, not too good as those

The other half of the tray that's out of shot is empty so one and a half days do 5 per shake and usually have 4 shakes a day but sometimes have extra ones if I have something like a banana to put in it, which isn't too often. It's pretty chemically without the eggs...

Sweet TD pics. Time to really get going now that you're a skinny bitch haha. Damn that's a really transformation in such a short time. Not even just the weight loss, you built up a good bit too. Chest and arms are starting to form nicely.

Thanks bro! I read your log and looked at all your stuff when I first joined as it's kinda hard to find info like that with just a normal guy like you who's started at the start. And because what you pulled off is super impressive also of course

How's that new gym treating you bro? I was always attracted to gritty gyms and powerlifting type ones but I'm loving thr fancy new gym so much haha. Just go to the other one for cardio group classes and leg day hacksquat and to do captians chairs now. I joined a yoga studio too but haven't started yet.

Serious congratulations on all your progress bro! You are killn it!

I really appreciate it bro - means a lot coming from you bro, I have the sense that I can pull it off now

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Man those progress picks are

Nice touchdown as well. Are you adding EQ in your first cycle for the E2 control? I think you mentioned you'd be getting bloods soon. Will be interesting to see where your E2 is sitting on TRT dose.

Thanks bro! Nah not E2 control specifically but so I can keep cardio ability high, hopefully avoid side effects being too bad and getting clean gains - want to save the nuclear shit for winter.

We've had a few nice spring days but it's still pretty gnarly outside. We cancelled shit due to wind today and now it's raining sideways. But spring and summer are stunning in Wellington, and there's a tourist beach right in the central city next to the ship with a skatepark in it too. And a wide broadwalk along the ocean with girls roller skating and shit. I gotta get my cardio up and get better on rollerskates so can join those girls

There's a half pipe right next to my van too, it's why I park here and not on the beach side which has better views. Be sweet getting up early and going skateboarding for an hour or so.

Was going to get bloods yesterday but I didn't think to check it the place had a branch in my city, just assumed yes as it's the capital but I was wrong, so I need to find somewhere else but will post them as soon as I get them

My prescriber has me on Bodybuilder TRT

Went 300mg for a month and 400mg for the past 3 weeks, after bloods and running it by @LevButlerov I'll move to 500mg and add EQ. Want those bloods to be testosterone only because that will be useful data for the future

 

[Allupfromhere]

Whoaaa bro crazy changes soo fast too!! Well done brother

Funny stuff the cranes bro be suprised how much weight you can easily push around when its hanging off a hook and cable

I reckon that's about one days worth of eggs for you mate lol. How's my accent?

Should have said bro instead of mate, would have been closer haha. Churr bro

 

[LevButlerov]

Day 53: Steam Up & Tour Day
100 Years of Heavy Lifting​

It's fucking windy today. It's steam-up day on the steam crane and we were gonna try drive the crane today but with the wind it's too dodgy and it was already too dodgy

I've been inconsistent with adding sleep and step data lately so here's a 7 day view from Samsung Health, a good advert free app to go with the tracker watch my Dad gave me for my Evo log

Past 7 days, 12th to 18th October:

View attachment 131008

And the sleep data for the same time period, I need to work on this again:

View attachment 131009

There's no lavatory on the ship so we go to the museum and I found myself in the same public bathroom I took a picture in one week one, and I didn't take the side shots I told @LevButlerov and @toddthelineman I would the other week.

First week photo:

View attachment 131007

Today's photo:

View attachment 131005

View attachment 131006

Thursday night I didn't sleep at all. Had an appointment very early Friday morning and ended up drinking coffee far past the infendwd cut off point of noon, and past night noon too, and was wired enough that I decided to cut my losses and just stay up until it's time to go to the 6:15am assault bike class, which I also didn't do.

There's an event in the city related to history and preservation of historical artifices and the ship has bits of other ships it helped rescue or salvage including the biggest maritime disaster weve ever had where lots of people died in the 60s I think, the ships crane picked up some of it and the horn and other bits are still on board so I helped the Chinese girl give a tour.

He English is poor so I was super impressed she lead this tour group, stayed behind to catch people if they fell down the ladders

View attachment 131026

It was built in Glasgow along the banks of the Clyde River by two big time heavy hitters of that time though the shipbuilding firm Fleming & Ferguson and Sir William Arrol & Co who constructed the crane.

The old man himself died in 1919 I think but his company and ideas lived on. An amazing guy to look up if you're into mechanical engineering or other types of lifting. The fact that this thing is still floating a hundred years later is a pretty awesome legacy but thats nothing on this guys resume, well worth looking up. His name is etched into metal all over the ship too.

View attachment 131027

I've learnt so much about weight distribution and stuff learning about the counter weight systems and lots of other stuff on board, there's some real big brain thinking in lots of parts, the type of shit you never see these days. Like out of the box thinking, not production line shit.

For example this very heavy black hook thing under the thing with 80T on it can be spun around and moved into a different position just by hand. Its smooth as fuck too. No idea how but it trips people out. That's the first stop on the tour where we give a speech about the life work of the great shipbuilder as it's right next to the gangway.

My friend once found a "Kilroy was here" graffiti somewhere down the sides which we've been trying to find again. I vaguely know about this tradition but didn't realise the ship had done shit in the second world war so now I really want to find it. There's parts of the ship nobody would have been in after the 50s when it got diesel to replace the coal.

It is believed to be the last fully operational self-propelled floating steam crane in the whole world. I took tons of photos of it today and planning to write up some of the weight related stuff and show the old school leverage systems that I think will be of interest to The Forum.

And check out what I got in the mail yesterday:

View attachment 131030

Here's a link to my touchdown thread with pictures and contact details for @SWOLENZ where I got it from. Been talking to him the last couple of weeks and he's a top bloke.

Can't wait to go to the gym tonight. The tour wasn't very taxing.

About to leave and go to the needle exchange to get more picks and to talk to them about the gascromategraph idea I have for doing heavy metals testing and the like on my vials.

Apart from that, the new bottle from AUStarLabs is going good, pins on schedule

View attachment 131033

And I re-upped on eggs but unhappy, they're cheap ones and say "colony eggs" on them, whatever the fuck that means but I need to know the chickens ate insects outside else the eggs are going to be savagely compromised. It's sickening. I atcually have $20 left this week so will try hit up the farmers market tomorrow.

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Good update.
The steam crane story and history talk something new for me though I remember you talking about this ship before , that’s serious old school engineering power and cool to see you hands on with something still functional after a century. 1926 is a long time ago! @vanlife_gymbum

Sleep and steps data tracking looks good even if you’ve been inconsistent, using the watch and app combo is a smart way to visualize progress. And it helps us too when we check your log.

The new AUStarLabs vial and regular pin schedule looks dialed in, and props for checking into the heavy metal testing idea too, that’s next level attention to detail.

I don't know what colony eggs mean but suspect its like mass farming right? you’re not wrong, better quality always makes a difference. Hitting the farmers market will sort that and you’ll notice it in the meals straight away.

I just got a 1st listen at your podcast episode. Amazing life! I won't spoil it for anyone, but I guess I did miss that you know Japanese.

your transformation is amazing! I’m impressed. True body change! EVO family respect and love!

 

[ROIDDERS]

You're not wrong there bro, both here and in America there's a type of guy, usually in the van due to divorce who sits around all day with the newspaper winding themselves up before going out in public and sharing their opinions to drag everyone else down with them.



Haha I'm sure it will bro but man since I had lost my testosterone and suffered all the affects of that for a fairly long time (3 years) having them bounce back and recover a lot of who I am made me have a great respect for testosterone itself. Although I have been interested in lifting (reading about it instead of atcually doing it ) for a long time, it was atcually crashed test and needing to do self-administered testosterone therapy thar got me here.

How long had you been lifting and how long on PEDs before you tried a cycle of it?

i tried tren after about 3-4 years of steroid use

 

[BeMe]

Hahah you guys don't reckon stuff over there? I came back a little weird after ten years in Australia, but I have a good knowledge of what's colloquial due to interacting with non native speakers so much and learning to speak simply. Different from succinctly or briefly, not too good as those

The other half of the tray that's out of shot is empty so one and a half days do 5 per shake and usually have 4 shakes a day but sometimes have extra ones if I have something like a banana to put in it, which isn't too often. It's pretty chemically without the eggs...



Thanks bro! I read your log and looked at all your stuff when I first joined as it's kinda hard to find info like that with just a normal guy like you who's started at the start. And because what you pulled off is super impressive also of course

How's that new gym treating you bro? I was always attracted to gritty gyms and powerlifting type ones but I'm loving thr fancy new gym so much haha. Just go to the other one for cardio group classes and leg day hacksquat and to do captians chairs now. I joined a yoga studio too but haven't started yet.



I really appreciate it bro - means a lot coming from you bro, I have the sense that I can pull it off now

No fancy gym for me bro. Just my basement lol. I have some pretty fancy gear but nothing crazy. I never train at commercial gyms. Just don't have the time or the patience for it lol. The large groups of kids eating up the machines would drive me insane. Couldn't handle it lol

 

[Allupfromhere]

No fancy gym for me bro. Just my basement lol. I have some pretty fancy gear but nothing crazy. I never train at commercial gyms. Just don't have the time or the patience for it lol. The large groups of kids eating up the machines would drive me insane. Couldn't handle it lol

Dont listen @vanlife_gymbum hes telling furphies lol.. @BeMe home gym is fancy

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

No fancy gym for me bro. Just my basement lol. I have some pretty fancy gear but nothing crazy. I never train at commercial gyms. Just don't have the time or the patience for it lol. The large groups of kids eating up the machines would drive me insane. Couldn't handle it lol

Hahah yeah man, that's exactly why I belong to two. Significantly reduceds violent intrusive thoughts as funny as beating up kids sounds I don't want to think about it all the time. But it's impossible to avoid there, it turns into a fucking afterschool babysitting service at 3pm. And what are they doing? Standing in front of the mirrors in packs of six pointing at.... stuff? on each other's prepubescent bodies... it's lame as fuck. You would seriously get your ass kicked acting even remotely like this at my community collage in the 90s. I don't even get what is happening here.. like you want a couple of Tren Twin videos and think you can take your shirt off in public but skip the bit where you lift shit first? They don't even respond to bullying, there's nothing going on upstairs. Wasted some top jokes on those fucks.

So there's definatly bit advantages to having your own! I like your setup man, it's cool and all yours.. I had another failed attempt at getting into lifting in 2018 when I moved to a cabin in the bush in Australia and had a 20ft shipping container (the half sized ones) as a shed and setup a gym there. I wish I took some photos of it but in Australia home gyms are way more common and there's also tons of crackheads there so any given pawn shop or similar will have all sorts of random gear. All the stuff I had was in the imperial system and just straight blocks of iron. Got like cable racks deom informertials still in their boxes. One thing I got for $100 was called the PILATES POWER GYM that had a really clever design and I had the boxing bags and stuff like that I'd been dragging round for a while. It was pretty complete, was all sorts of things to rest my beer on.

I don't think I'd swap back now tho. It's pretty much the centre of my social life, apart from hanging out with the elderly on Saturdays and eating filthy carbohydrates with them. And also where I get all my electricity and shower. Now I shower every day I'm way more high maintenance and need the gym. My gym either is profiting from the kids being there (unlikely) or this Nanny state we live in is preventing them from fixing it more likely. But the solution of an R18 gym right across the road works good for me, and also keeps all the bums with the $7 membership over one side to make them easy to avoid too. Don't want those filthy pricks in the meditation room while you're trying to get massaged by a robot.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Dont listen @vanlife_gymbum hes telling furphies lol.. @BeMe home gym is fancy

Hahaha exactly in my mind he's a bit metrosexual too, tho I'm not sure what I'm basing that on now I've been called on it

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

i tried tren after about 3-4 years of steroid use

That sounds reasonable bro. I'm weary of it because I've already beaten up my heart on a long term basis.. and that's what all the Aussie kids who go to Thailand die from. Being the only one on a forum of loggers that read Zyzz's forum logs looks like that was it too, 7 cycles of tren from 18 to 22 then heart stopped. I knew this other male model guy called Jaxon Tippet who was the same, he was the guy who said that if he could go back and redo his life he'd stick to testosterone and growth hormone. That stuck with me after he died at 29.

But really it's because I know how it'll go. And I've thought things like that about other drugs. Like in America when herion was king it wasent atcually that bad, but when you start fucking with stuff to make if different you get different side effects too. Like they say "fentynal is 50 times stronger than herion" type shit but a shot of herion will have you okay to return to work and you'll be okay all afternoon, maybe even till morning before you need another shot. Fentynal you nod out for 45 minutes and wake up in withdrawal, and have to go find it again, no work that afternoon as you're busy finding drugs on the street. So fentyal might be stronger in some measures but so what ?

Then there's all the other shit that looks good as fuck. I don't know where to even start but I'm keen as fuck to start on thar equipoise as soon as I get the testosterone only bloods. And I think I'll do two cycles a year, one in the warm months and one in the cold, and change training styles and diet to match. Equally excited to try some of thr classic combos like test and deca and dbol and yeah I've got a pretty big wish list already

But 3 or 4 years is a long time, 8 big cycles at that rate I mentioned, more than the 7 tren cycles zyzz managed. I still love him even though he's dead.

 

[toddthelineman]

7 cycles of tren from 18 to 22 then heart stopped

I’ll eat cat shit if those boys weren’t using rec drugs. They did it to party. Then again, so have we. Probably more than them. So we’re not immune

I think I'll do two cycles a year,

Friendly reminder that you are currently running more than triple a biological dose. And making progress like the Millenium Falcon. You’re going to need a break before you cycle (you’re on cycle, just a baby beginner one) I’m guessing. Bound to have some thick blood. Maybe liver enzymes. For much of my first few years using PEDs I was taking 200-250 test, and frequently adding orals so maybe half the time my total load was +/- 300mg. I got pretty strong like that. Over time. Benched 240 for 5 multiple sets. Estimated 1rep max was 290 and I believe I could’ve done it or more but my shoulder just kept getting worse and worse. Squatted 255 for 5. I hope to get all that back with no pain and actually put three plates up somehow. Those squats had my core looking way crazy from bracing. Definitely the lifting is going to create the look you want, and then it’s the PEDs that will get you there without 15 years of living like a monk to virtue signal your natty purity hahahaha

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

I’ll eat cat shit if those boys weren’t using rec drugs. They did it to party. Then again, so have we. Probably more than them. So we’re not immune

Sure they did estacy at raves and shit did but that's barely even drug use to me. He himself probably got some opiates or benzos out of the doctor and I believe he could have gotten them i. Thailand but I also went to Thailand that year 2o12 and 2013 and it changed, they joined the WTO or something and the pharmacies were locked down, but he would have had connections I didn't have.

He trained hard all year for a couple lf big raves in summer... that's just not a big deal to me. That's cool with me atcually, why shouldn't young guys be like that. Better than playing world of warcraft 24/7 like he did when he was still scared of girls. He trained very hard and was also smart with training. Much smarter than he was with a steriods that's for sure.

Friendly reminder that you are currently running more than triple a biological dose. And making progress like the Millenium Falcon. You’re going to need a break before you cycle (you’re on cycle, just a baby beginner one) I’m guessing. Bound to have some thick blood.

Is this the same problem we were talking about where people go to thr blood bank? I have lined some stuff up related to this, my cousin who works at the blood bank at the hospital is going to help me get some equipment. I can't bring myself to lie to the blood bank, especially after what @trentwin1 doctor girlfriend said about the affects on pregnant woman.

Maybe liver enzymes. For much of my first few years using PEDs I was taking 200-250 test, and frequently adding orals so maybe half the time my total load was +/- 300mg. I got pretty strong like that. Over time. Benched 240 for 5 multiple sets. Estimated 1rep max was 290 and I believe I could’ve done it or more but my shoulder just kept getting worse and worse. Squatted 255 for 5. I hope to get all that back with no pain and actually put three plates up somehow.

Thanks for sharing bro. I'll have a sit down with thr calendar and think and get back to you. Got two leads on the gh. @LevButlerov recommend adding that to the list of things introduced one by one with blood tests in between to see what adding them did. That seemed reasonable to me, I may as well get as much baseline data as I can.

I was gonna ask some more questions about the mk, I didn't quite get weather you were doing gh and mk together or at separate times, and were you using one jnstead of the other? Like mk if you couldn't get gh? Got a lot of push back mentioning mk I'm just trying to figure out why.

Those squats had my core looking way crazy from bracing.

What do you mean by bracing bro? But yeah I'm getting heaps from the squats already, seems to make a more uniform improvement, not isolated to your arms type thing. I feel like, more balanced or something, I dig them

Definitely the lifting is going to create the look you want, and then it’s the PEDs that will get you there without 15 years of living like a monk to virtue signal your natty purity hahahaha

Hahaha nah fuck that bro, I was never going to be like that. The reason I didn't start back in 2008 when I wanted to and had plans to with my friend was because I couldn't quit drinking. I would have started then for sure otherwise. But whatever, I've got my whole 40s right in front of me and I'm gonna do steriods throughout them.

 

[toddthelineman]

same problem we were talking about where people go to thr blood bank?

Yes, that. That’s been a constant issue for me running my little perma-cycle/sports TRT+#%^

Much smarter than he was with a steriods that's for sure.

You really think he was blasting crazy amounts? I feel like I could look like that with just like, somebody slapping the candy out of my mouth. I didn’t think he was on a gram of tren or anything. But I’m baaaaarely aware of him. Seen some pics. He was like, a model, but muscular

estacy at raves and shit did but that's barely even drug use to me.

Yeah every time I did E I was on the verge of a seizure. But I was fine and nobody I know ever was even really hurt. Just makes you stupid and really messes up your emotions off you do it too much.

weather you were doing gh and mk together or at separate times, and were you using one jnstead of the other?

I was doing both at first, 1.8iu at night, 12.5 mg of mk677 morning and night. Upon more research I realized this is a short cut to becoming diabetic AND I became so hungry I could’ve eaten dirt.

So I dropped the morning dose and the gh (if mk raises gh for a fraction of the price, I wanted to give it a fair assessment). The result was: manageable appetite, sleep as good as gh, still getting fast hair and fingernail growth etc. it’s definitely doing the GH thing. AND I’ll be damned if I don’t actually look FULLER on mk 677 than I do on gh, except sometimes with gh I will wake up and look in the mirror like “wtf!” And just look like really amazing, but I never could nail it down.

What do you mean by bracing bro?

When the squats start getting up into your ‘personal best’ numbers, you’ll feel how you have to brace your whole core REALLY STRONGLY. Eventually you might brace into a lifting belt. It feels amazing. This is when squats start really changing you

I'm gonna do steriods throughout them.

Me toooooo hahaha

BTW, I apologize if I came off a little grumpy or anything. You’re kicking ass, seriously, and are well on your way to one of the best transformations I’ve seen. Like you’re just weeks away from that at this pace.

But I have had some frustrations with bloodwork and then you’re feeling ready to blast but you know you can’t start a blast when you’re already compromised. We’re not making a living with this stuff you know? So I thought it might help to remind you, don’t get toooooo excited. Maybe the Reta will have your bloods looking tip top! That would be awesome! Will you continue eating the same way on blast? You’re basically not chewing any solid food rn? That means much less salivary enzymes. Something to think about

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Yes, that. That’s been a constant issue for me running my little perma-cycle/sports TRT+#%^

You really think he was blasting crazy amounts? I feel like I could look like that with just like, somebody slapping the candy out of my mouth. I didn’t think he was on a gram of tren or anything. But I’m baaaaarely aware of him. Seen some pics. He was like, a model, but muscular

Not crazy amounts but still dumb at 18. I think he did 500mg tren only cycles from memory but it was a long time ago I read those. I moved to Australia in 2011 and tried to get into the rave scene right away and zyzz was big in the rave scene and on the rave forums I used. I didn't atcually know he lifted until he died. It was in the newspaperr and I'd also just got back from Pattya Thailand where I went on a pharmacy shopping trip myself so was very interested in this and went back through all his bodybuilding forum logs which were training dairies and gear logs just like here. He trained as hard as anyone else and was not living a wild party lifestyle like everyone says. Going to big festivals in the summertime is what they do in Europe too, I don't see the big deal.

I'm sure they're on archive.org or somewhere. The way I remember it is he did 5 to 7 tren cycles at around 500mg but I know that he was also doing dumb shit like taking dietetics and using saunas all the time and tanning beds and shit. Probably going from dorky teenager to having all that attention was hard to manage for him and he was doing stuff like that because he had to be "on" all the time and now people were taking photos of him a lot so had to be ready. He also moonlighted as a stripper near the end, that sounds funny but he died soon after he started. I just feel like people project a shit load onto this random guy and doent even take the time to see what he was.

What do you think? Be interested to get his weight numbers from his logs, he was progressively working up pretty consistently and over three or four years got some bug weight up I'd imagine.

Before at 17:

21 years old, probably 6 cycles of tren deep now:

And I also found this someone made:

It was girls who loved him for his looks. Guys liked his attitude, he was helpful and positive and wanted everyone to be good too. His tagline was "we're all gonna make it brah". He didn't inspire a whole new generation of bedroom dwelling dorks to go lift just by being naturally skinny.

Yeah every time I did E I was on the verge of a seizure. But I was fine and nobody I know ever was even really hurt. Just makes you stupid and really messes up your emotions off you do it too much.

Haha fair enough.. I only did it at raves and I usually took my own fat chicks to cuddle with along so always had great memories of it. Speed and meth and shit will ruin your heart pretty well. Seen tons of crackheads fall over in Australia and here due to heart failure. Those lifters I know in Surfers Paradise who died were all crackheads too.

I was doing both at first, 1.8iu at night, 12.5 mg of mk677 morning and night. Upon more research I realized this is a short cut to becoming diabetic AND I became so hungry I could’ve eaten dirt.

Okay that makes good sense. I got offered a GH pen that's pharma I think for $350, a similar one is $600 at the source I have. Or MK will be 120 a bottle. I would be happy with trying the mk first based on everything you've said and also the podcast episodes about it seemed generally positive also. I could get that gh pen if I spent everything on it for a week or two but would be easier finically to go with the mk. What do you think I should do?

So I dropped the morning dose and the gh (if mk raises gh for a fraction of the price, I wanted to give it a fair assessment). The result was: manageable appetite, sleep as good as gh, still getting fast hair and fingernail growth etc. it’s definitely doing the GH thing. AND I’ll be damned if I don’t actually look FULLER on mk 677 than I do on gh, except sometimes with gh I will wake up and look in the mirror like “wtf!” And just look like really amazing, but I never could nail it down.

When the squats start getting up into your ‘personal best’ numbers, you’ll feel how you have to brace your whole core REALLY STRONGLY. Eventually you might brace into a lifting belt. It feels amazing. This is when squats start really changing you

Ah I get you now, thanks for this. Out of everything I'm most excited about squats. Changing to one high rep bar only squats day and one heavy leg day has made a big difference to me. One of the main things I got from Tom Platz seminars was that he was doing all manner of squats for all types of reasons, not just trying to lift once the heaviest he can... something about them is really attractive. Chicks at my gym all do various squat techniques too... it's a big topic

Me toooooo hahaha

Haha it is pretty exciting man! I feel like I've been building up to this for a long time. Glad I met you to go along the ride with too

BTW, I apologize if I came off a little grumpy or anything. You’re kicking ass, seriously, and are well on your way to one of the best transformations I’ve seen. Like you’re just weeks away from that at this pace.

But I have had some frustrations with bloodwork and then you’re feeling ready to blast but you know you can’t start a blast when you’re already compromised. We’re not making a living with this stuff you know? So I thought it might help to remind you, don’t get toooooo excited. Maybe the Reta will have your bloods looking tip top! That would be awesome! Will you continue eating the same way on blast? You’re basically not chewing any solid food rn? That means much less salivary enzymes. Something to think about

Nah not at all man! Not even sure what you're referring to but I appreciate your feedback man. You're one of the few people who knows what I'm doing, has done similar before and I want to know what you think. And believe me man, if I wanted to rush it would already be in my ass.

If you mean the Zyzz thing I just get fucked off that nobody reads his logs before drawing conclusions, or just parrot what someone else said who also didnt know shit about him.

He wasent a model he was a dorky teenager from Sydney. Was really skinny and hated that girls were bigger than him and it fucked him up so he sold his wow account and started lifting.

Even when he got bigger and super attractive he was still a fucking nerd so had to fix that too. I'm also introverted and that's hard to do, so he invented this alter ego (Zyzz) who's the opposite of him, and that happened to fit in nicely with him also being an internet troll but somehow this is too complex a set of events and flies over the head of everyone who either listen to what others say about him instead of listen to him themselves or read his logs like we say we use to evaluate things in our own life.

There's stupid young kids here too, and zyzz wasn't even that stupid. I was far, far worse than him but he had a pre-existing heart condition so got hit harder than me but it's just the luck of the draw that he's dead and I'm alive. Also I flatlined in a hotel foyer and was in an ambulance pretty quick and he was alone in a sauna so that's also random not proper planning on my end

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Yes, that. That’s been a constant issue for me running my little perma-cycle/sports TRT+#%^

But I have had some frustrations with bloodwork and then you’re feeling ready to blast but you know you can’t start a blast when you’re already compromised. We’re not making a living with this stuff you know? So I thought it might help to remind you, don’t get toooooo excited.

I'm not eligible for Sports TRT+ as it requires GH apparently, that's what the + is not the extra 100mg I was hoping it was that would sound real nice to my parents haha. But @LevButlerov told me about Bodybuilder TRT and I get prescribed that now. I'll use bloodwork to evaluate weather I do 125mg, 150mg or 200mg (aka @Mobster TRT) but do indeed the "cruise" periods to be an atcual break. I'm going to use fasting and other techniques copied from @stevesmi to have periods of further rest for my organs and heart. Of course keep cardio high most of thr year and maintainable while doing winter cycles with less cardio friendly gear, or maybe try stacking tbol in or experimenting with GW Cardarine and things like that. I'm trying to organise my thoughts and tidy it all up into a cycle design post and that's what I want to take along when I have a proper consultation with Stevesmi with blood test results and stuff too.

Maybe the Reta will have your bloods looking tip top! That would be awesome!

I think it will be a big part of it bro, did you hear that new Nick Walker interview where he's talking about it? He makes the great point that he thinks it will save a lot of people from using clenbuterol and T3 and junk like that because they can control their diets themselves now which I think is valid. I would never do any shit like that, it's got nothing to do with my goals, lifestyle or interests and I want nothing to do with it. Retatrutide on the other hand is going to have a big place in my life but I'm not exactly sure how to play it yet, I'm getting a tolerance already. Maybe I should stop for winter and run it 6 months of the year going forward. Also probably won't work well with my winter diet.

Will you continue eating the same way on blast? You’re basically not chewing any solid food rn? That means much less salivary enzymes. Something to think about

Nah, I want to eat with the seasons and this summer blast coming up will have fruit ans vegetables. Maybe drop one or two shakes but I'm good at making bone broth, I used to do it outside in a big army soup pot in Australia and will do that again, the weather is getting better so I will be able to light fires on the beach and use my outdoor gas element that hooks into an LPG bottle.

And the organ meat in ice tray trick I mentioned.

So bone broth and organ meat is the base, alongside fish, and the egg shakes and suppliments in addition to that. That's the diet plan.

Have not been chewing much no, a pot of rice every two days around training, the sandwiches and fruit on Saturday and tuna occasionly. Can you explain more what you mean tho? This I will definitely think about. What do you think I need to figure out?

 

[ROIDDERS]

That sounds reasonable bro. I'm weary of it because I've already beaten up my heart on a long term basis.. and that's what all the Aussie kids who go to Thailand die from. Being the only one on a forum of loggers that read Zyzz's forum logs looks like that was it too, 7 cycles of tren from 18 to 22 then heart stopped. I knew this other male model guy called Jaxon Tippet who was the same, he was the guy who said that if he could go back and redo his life he'd stick to testosterone and growth hormone. That stuck with me after he died at 29.

But really it's because I know how it'll go. And I've thought things like that about other drugs. Like in America when herion was king it wasent atcually that bad, but when you start fucking with stuff to make if different you get different side effects too. Like they say "fentynal is 50 times stronger than herion" type shit but a shot of herion will have you okay to return to work and you'll be okay all afternoon, maybe even till morning before you need another shot. Fentynal you nod out for 45 minutes and wake up in withdrawal, and have to go find it again, no work that afternoon as you're busy finding drugs on the street. So fentyal might be stronger in some measures but so what ?

Then there's all the other shit that looks good as fuck. I don't know where to even start but I'm keen as fuck to start on thar equipoise as soon as I get the testosterone only bloods. And I think I'll do two cycles a year, one in the warm months and one in the cold, and change training styles and diet to match. Equally excited to try some of thr classic combos like test and deca and dbol and yeah I've got a pretty big wish list already

But 3 or 4 years is a long time, 8 big cycles at that rate I mentioned, more than the 7 tren cycles zyzz managed. I still love him even though he's dead.

yeah tren is no joke. its not for everyone

 

[toddthelineman]

What do you think I should do?

I think you should do mk instead of hgh. I think if you get quality hgh you could theoretically get optimal results-in like a year! And that could cost you several thousand dollars. And you could look really fantastic without it. As far as I can tell, MK does everything hgh does possibly with less side effects, except one big one: hunger, and that has proven manageable.

pre-existing heart condition

Ooooh. Well that really sucks man. But yeah, idk about tren for me. I’m pretty vulnerable to mental side effects. I do a really good job of controlling myself and plan to keep it that way. I think I could use it sparingly if I had a good reason. I don’t really need to look any certain way. I want to get bigger and stronger and more resistant to injury. And that will look great on me

I see you as being on a sort of rebuilding/self remodeling journey. You’ve cut all the unneeded things out of your life and you’re doing the things you never did when your vices precluded you from doing anything else. And recreating your self image. What do you think about that?

 

[toddthelineman]

the "cruise" periods to be an atcual break. I'm going to use fasting and other techniques copied from @stevesmi to have periods of further rest for my organs and heart

Man you’re going to do really well I think

I'm getting a tolerance already. Maybe I should stop for winter

Idk. There might be a point where you’re maintaining enough muscle that it isn’t super necessary

light fires on the beach

fires on the beach and use my outdoor gas element that hooks into an LPG bottle.

Man that sounds great except “windiest city in the world” lol.

Have not been chewing much no, a pot of rice every two days around training, the sandwiches and fruit on Saturday and tuna occasionly. Can you explain more what you mean tho? This I will definitely think about

I just listened to a podcast with a couple ifbb pros. One was talking about blending chicken. He’s like 340 pounds, right? So the dude is doing anything to get food in his stomach. And he got fucked up from it, and the prognosis was that because he was blending all of his food, that the predigestive enzymes weren’t adequate. So maybe one would need to spit in the blender or something? Like that movie The Fly? A little vomit should work. Or digestive enzymes? But those never do anything for me. I just eat. I like the shakes though. Like a cheat code

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

I think you should do mk instead of hgh. I think if you get quality hgh you could theoretically get optimal results-in like a year! And that could cost you several thousand dollars. And you could look really fantastic without it. As far as I can tell, MK does everything hgh does possibly with less side effects, except one big one: hunger, and that has proven manageable.

Awesome thanks for this bro. I'm gonna go this route this time. Like Mobster & Stevesmi say, there's always another cycle... I'm attracted yo the skin health stuff, leanneas, joint strength improvements I've read about, etc. It sounds great but also MK sounds fine to me too after hearing your take and the podcast take on it too.
I'll order that soon

Ooooh. Well that really sucks man. But yeah, idk about tren for me. I’m pretty vulnerable to mental side effects. I do a really good job of controlling myself and plan to keep it that way. I think I could use it sparingly if I had a good reason. I don’t really need to look any certain way.

Yeah fair enough bro. I don't think there's a good enough reason and also there's so many more options that will turn out better IMHO. We can reassess in a couple of years but in the meantime... "life is full of sweet sweet things, I'd like to do some tasting"

I want to get bigger and stronger and more resistant to injury. And that will look great on me

That's it bro. That's what separates us from people doing this for the approval of judges. I would never do anything that weakened or compromised my health or strength like dietetics, clenbuterol, t3, etc... it's just not what I'm here for. I read that powerlifting for example can increase bone density and bone strength and am looking into that. If it's true then it will be training for that in the future.. that sort of thing is what I'm after.

I see you as being on a sort of rebuilding/self remodeling journey. You’ve cut all the unneeded things out of your life and you’re doing the things you never did when your vices precluded you from doing anything else. And recreating your self image. What do you think about that?

Yup, that's spot on bro. I'm also trying to take syrain off my liver and heart to give more leeway with new things.

BTW did you notice the little nicotine patches in the new pic? the new photo form yesterday has the new 7mg ones I got, they're little haha. Never mind I have two of them on, I'm working on it haha

 

[toddthelineman]

two of them on, I'm working on it haha

I’ve got a 7milli on rn. I could probably give it up, but not in a big hurry. Did larger patches give you epic dreams? Always did for me. I wore them continuously just for that. Couldn’t wait to go to bed hahaha

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

And he got fucked up from it, and the prognosis was that because he was blending all of his food, that the predigestive enzymes weren’t adequate. So maybe one would need to spit in the blender or something? Like that movie The Fly? A little vomit should work. Or digestive enzymes? But those never do anything for me. I just eat. I like the shakes though. Like a cheat code

Hahaha man fuck blending chicken... I just wipe out future generation's of them blending their eggs in my shakes. Here's the Nick Walker episode queued up to the retatrutide part:

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I'm at the trendy alternative cafe again but no cute goth chicks today so about to walk the 7000 steps back to my van. Cool having the outdoor smoking area to myself too tho

 

[LevButlerov]

Hahaha man fuck blending chicken... I just wipe out future generation's of them blending their eggs in my shakes. Here's the Nick Walker episode queued up to the retatrutide part:

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I'm at the trendy alternative cafe again but no cute goth chicks today so about to walk the 7000 steps back to my van. Cool having the outdoor smoking area to myself too tho


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nice place there and I like the background super gen Z lol

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

nice place there and I like the background super gen Z lol

Haha yeah - it's a hooker bar, very gen z like that shisha tobacco shit. You can rent them by the hour. They don't contain much nicotine so I never got into them

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Day 55: Sleep, Steps,
Soup Kitchen
30,000 Steps & Bar Squats for Reps​

Went to a soup kitchen for the first time today.

Did some good steps.

An absolutely cracking nice spring day.

Skirt season has officially begun in Wellington.

Always a treat in the world's windiest city

A hot Scottish chick in yoga pants washed and dried my clothes for me.

A volunteer at the mobile van full of washing machines and driers. Amazing service haha.

I've been paying $25 at the laundromat to do it myself.

Never again while there's woman willing to do it for free right outside the soup kitchen.

I overhead a steet fight while I was there. No restaurant could possibly provide entertainment to rival this shit

Finally went skateboarding, as transport to and from the community centre with my washing.

Way faster than walking and way harder cardio wise.

Had some cool chats with some cool cats on the Evo forums and in DMs while sitting in the sun at a nice Cafe in town

Walking back I had the sense that every thing is going to be alright, and that I'm on the right path.

Just need to stay the course now.

Caught up a bit from missing that night of sleep.

Went down so quick I forgot to turn off the lights and ran their batteries down.

Had my first shake when I got back, already 10k steps deep

Went to the Needle exchange yesterday

When I returned from my walk into the city my muscles were all warmed up and ready to recieve their daily pin of AUStarLabs Test E:

I love the colour of this gear, especially when it catches the light from the sun streaming in.

The nectar of the man-gods

While the hot lovely Scottish chick was busy doing our washing we went to the free Sunday dinner.

Long story. I'll write it up tomorrow.

They had loads of near expired bread from the supermarket and I got a loaf of $7.99 sourdough.

I'll try a bit before training @LevButlerov - is that a good source of carbs or even that type of bread too dodgy? I'd rather not but it was free...

Need my retatrutide shot, it's not working as good.

It's high rep bar squats night, I'm at the gym charging up now and about to do as many squats with the bar as I can manage.

All in all a nice little Sunday.

 

[HarleyGuy]

Day 55: Sleep, Steps,
Soup Kitchen
30,000 Steps & Bar Squats for Reps​

Went to a soup kitchen for the first time today.

Did some good steps.

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An absolutely cracking nice spring day.

Skirt season has officially begun in Wellington.

Always a treat in the world's windiest city

A hot Scottish chick in yoga pants washed and dried my clothes for me.

A volunteer at the mobile van full of washing machines and driers. Amazing service haha.

I've been paying $25 at the laundromat to do it myself.

Never again while there's woman willing to do it for free right outside the soup kitchen.

I overhead a steet fight while I was there. No restaurant could possibly provide entertainment to rival this shit

Finally went skateboarding, as transport to and from the community centre with my washing.

Way faster than walking and way harder cardio wise.

Had some cool chats with some cool cats on the Evo forums and in DMs while sitting in the sun at a nice Cafe in town

Walking back I had the sense that every thing is going to be alright, and that I'm on the right path.

Just need to stay the course now.

Caught up a bit from missing that night of sleep.

Went down so quick I forgot to turn off the lights and ran their batteries down.

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Had my first shake when I got back, already 10k steps deep

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Went to the Needle exchange yesterday

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When I returned from my walk into the city my muscles were all warmed up and ready to recieve their daily pin of AUStarLabs Test E:

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I love the colour of this gear, especially when it catches the light from the sun streaming in.

The nectar of the man-gods

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While the hot lovely Scottish chick was busy doing our washing we went to the free Sunday dinner.

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Long story. I'll write it up tomorrow.

They had loads of near expired bread from the supermarket and I got a loaf of $7.99 sourdough.

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I'll try a bit before training @LevButlerov - is that a good source of carbs or even that type of bread too dodgy? I'd rather not but it was free...

Need my retatrutide shot, it's not working as good.

It's high rep bar squats night, I'm at the gym charging up now and about to do as many squats with the bar as I can manage.

All in all a nice little Sunday.

The sourdough is a decent choice since it contains significantly less gluten due to the fermentation process. I still get bloated with sourdough but if I was at a restaurant and they didn't have gluten-free that's what I'd order for easier digestion.

Walking back I had the sense that every thing is going to be alright, and that I'm on the right path.

That's part of the 10th step promises we talked about... the fears of social and economic insecurity will be removed and you will be content within yourself and the act of helping others which you're doing will be what makes up your own self esteem now. Your self esteem won't come from needing validation from anyone.

Need my retatrutide shot, it's not working as good.

Might be time to up the dose by 0.5mg?

 

[toddthelineman]

increase bone density and bone strength and am looking into that

Your bones are made out of piezoelectric crystals that generate electricity when they bend or break! That electricity travels up the nerve and signals the process to build the density. You remember Steve Caballero? He’s well in his fifties but all those decades of skateboarding made his femurs very dense. He made a post on IG about his doctor saying that his bones were smoking his drill bits, and he’s like, a vegetarian or close to it. Well yeah, when you skate vert ramps for forty years your bones will hold on to any calcium and collagen they can. Gymnasts have even denser bones. Jumping, jumping off of things, sprinting, kicking things, all signal increased bone density and of course hormones and diet and recovery right? The polarity of your body reverses even you sleep and this is when it happens.

 

[HarleyGuy]

Your bones are made out of piezoelectric crystals that generate electricity when they bend or break! That electricity travels up the nerve and signals the process to build the density. You remember Steve Caballero? He’s well in his fifties but all those decades of skateboarding made his femurs very dense. He made a post on IG about his doctor saying that his bones were smoking his drill bits, and he’s like, a vegetarian or close to it. Well yeah, when you skate vert ramps for forty years your bones will hold on to any calcium and collagen they can. Gymnasts have even denser bones. Jumping, jumping off of things, sprinting, kicking things, all signal increased bone density and of course hormones and diet and recovery right? The polarity of your body reverses even you sleep and this is when it happens.

Niiiiiiiiice post!

 

[toddthelineman]

Niiiiiiiiice post!

There’s a really cool book about it I’m always shilling. The Body Electric

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

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[vanlife_gymbum]

I’ve got a 7milli on rn. I could probably give it up, but not in a big hurry. Did larger patches give you epic dreams? Always did for me. I wore them continuously just for that. Couldn’t wait to go to bed hahaha

Haha nah bro but I'll probably stay up over analysing that tonight and see if I can get me some placebo effect out of it. It's been a while since I hit that

I started taking them off at night. It's a doae reduction just double that but my Samsung watch when I first got it notified me my heart rate was 10bpm above average the first night I fell asleep with it on.

I'm thinking about going back to the pharmacy and getting more 14mg ones. I know it's all in my head but I've had two of them on two days in a row so maybe I'm not ready.

I doubt I'd just bail at this point and start vaping or smoking again but I easily could I guess. I didn't get the lozenges this time tho, those are for the start I recon, you could easily get addicted to that and imagine becoming a filthy gum chewer.

Right as I'm about to out chewing behind me forever

 

[toddthelineman]

Haha nah bro but I'll probably stay up over analysing that tonight and see if I can get me some placebo effect out of it. It's been a while since I hit that

I started taking them off at night. It's a doae reduction just double that but my Samsung watch when I first got it notified me my heart rate was 10bpm above average the first night I fell asleep with it on.

I'm thinking about going back to the pharmacy and getting more 14mg ones. I know it's all in my head but I've had two of them on two days in a row so maybe I'm not ready.

I doubt I'd just bail at this point and start vaping or smoking again but I easily could I guess. I didn't get the lozenges this time tho, those are for the start I recon, you could easily get addicted to that and imagine becoming a filthy gum chewer.

Right as I'm about to out chewing behind me forever

Maybe don’t wear it at night. I think for me it takes more than 14mg to get the dreams. So best to just forget I said that lol. Those lozenges are foul hahaha. I can’t do any oral nicotine

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Niiiiiiiiice post!

Fuck yeah, this is the business - thinking about this sort of thing could lead to big discoveries about strength and resilience into old age I reckon. I feel like that kinda stuff gets overlooked a lot by the bodybuilding as a sport crowd, they don't really care about stuff like that.

I'm really not into that whole "longevity" movement that's a marketing buzz popular on social media. Half there things would kill you on the spot for a start but it's just smoke and mirrors liver king style weaksauce marketing drivel but.

Thinking about how far @Mobster has gotten with consistency over a long time period made me think if just some slight adjustments were made with these goals in mind, over 30 years that'd add up to something advantageous in old age. Like really strong legs and bones would surely help

When I was young I was into street skating only as ramps and skateparks were rare or non-existent and the few that did were all giant Tony Hawk grade ones you'd die attempting as a child.

I might run with this lead from @toddthelineman and approach ramp skating like another exercise at the gym and do sets and reps on it. The way o park at the end of a row means the halfpipe is in my front yard. If I open the side door it's right there.

It's quiet in the mornings when kids are in school and I could spend half an hour and get through quite a few drop in attempts. My friend got a six pack just from skating when he learnt how to drop in properly, he's keen to get back into it too now the weather is getting better so maybe we can hang out and do it together.

 

[toddthelineman]

Fuck yeah, this is the business - thinking about this sort of thing could lead to big discoveries about strength and resilience into old age I reckon. I feel like that kinda stuff gets overlooked a lot by the bodybuilding as a sport crowd, they don't really care about stuff like that.

I'm really not into that whole "longevity" movement that's a marketing buzz popular on social media. Half there things would kill you on the spot for a start but it's just smoke and mirrors liver king style weaksauce marketing drivel but.

Thinking about how far @Mobster has gotten with consistency over a long time period made me think if just some slight adjustments were made with these goals in mind, over 30 years that'd add up to something advantageous in old age. Like really strong legs and bones would surely help

When I was young I was into street skating only as ramps and skateparks were rare or non-existent and the few that did were all giant Tony Hawk grade ones you'd die attempting as a child.

I might run with this lead from @toddthelineman and approach ramp skating like another exercise at the gym and do sets and reps on it. The way o park at the end of a row means the halfpipe is in my front yard. If I open the side door it's right there.

It's quiet in the mornings when kids are in school and I could spend half an hour and get through quite a few drop in attempts. My friend got a six pack just from skating when he learnt how to drop in properly, he's keen to get back into it too now the weather is getting better so maybe we can hang out and do it together.

Yeah dude! I skated my ass off as a kid. I still got my kick flip, heel flip, 180 kickflip, last I checked. Anyone who skates hard is tough as nails. I would be drenched in sweat

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

That's part of the 10th step promises we talked about... the fears of social and economic insecurity will be removed and you will be content within yourself and the act of helping others which you're doing will be what makes up your own self esteem now. Your self esteem won't come from needing validation from anyone.

True! I didn't think of it like that but that's exactly it. That's my favorite of the promises, it takes doing the steps to get it I think. Lots of people misunderstand it too and think it means their current issues will be solved but it says fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us, not you're gonna get a job to pay your bills with I've heard all sorts of takes on this. But you're right thanks man, those fears are gone. I did used to worry about living so close to the edge but in reality I've been doing that for 20 years anyway. I had a high income but no savings at all, if I got fired I would have been in a lot of trouble. Only real good thing I did was to never borrow money so I have never had debts (I don't count insurance companies I don't have a contract with) and to pay off my student loan. I'm comfortable at zero. Almost everyone in the USA and elsewhere in the West is up to their eyeballs in debt, they don't even own their cars but are paying them off with interest. And like over $20k in credit card debt, they blows my mind... why the fuck would you do that? I'm not surprised these people are riddled with anxiety over it.

So thanks for pointing that out bro, I'll meditate on it bit yeah, fear of people and economic insecurity had left me.

Have you ever come across the little AAWS book Best of Bill? It's got his main classic essays Fear, Humility, Honesty and Love and a few other things. It's really little and I keep it in my man-bag with my little Big Book and read it while waiting at the pharmacy in the morning. I've underlined a bunch of stuff relayed to the fear of economic insecurity line and I'll dm you some quotes sometime.

Might be time to up the dose by 0.5mg?

I think this is probably the solution, I was going to wait until it's been ten days since resuming after the ex-source fucked up my dosing schedule and then see how I feel and see what you thought.

But there's another thing I was worried about where I made a mistake reconstituting it. I'd just read comments from you to a newbie about how to reconstitute and you mentioned you use high gague insulin pins to slow thr water as not to harm the delicate peptides and I got some 31g tips and did the same 3ml of bac water as last time. I used the tip but I forgot to turn the bottle upside down and the pressure inside the bottle sucked the bac water in so quickly I didn't realise what happened initially.

So all that:

Into this in 5 - 10 seconds flat:

Also you mentioned on the podcast the ACV was aiding digestion, were tou timing your swigs around eating?

I've just been doing it at random but remembering most days... still small amounts tho, might have to up it:

For anyone interested in what we were talking about, this is from page 84 in the Big Book, the core text for the 12 Step group I belong to:

....word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.

That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.

Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.

--Alcoholics Anonymous Page 84​

 

[LevButlerov]

Haha yeah - it's a hooker bar, very gen z like that shisha tobacco shit. You can rent them by the hour. They don't contain much nicotine so I never got into them

hooker bar? many girls? lol?

 

[LevButlerov]

True! I didn't think of it like that but that's exactly it. That's my favorite of the promises, it takes doing the steps to get it I think. Lots of people misunderstand it too and think it means their current issues will be solved but it says fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us, not you're gonna get a job to pay your bills with I've heard all sorts of takes on this. But you're right thanks man, those fears are gone. I did used to worry about living so close to the edge but in reality I've been doing that for 20 years anyway. I had a high income but no savings at all, if I got fired I would have been in a lot of trouble. Only real good thing I did was to never borrow money so I have never had debts (I don't count insurance companies I don't have a contract with) and to pay off my student loan. I'm comfortable at zero. Almost everyone in the USA and elsewhere in the West is up to their eyeballs in debt, they don't even own their cars but are paying them off with interest. And like over $20k in credit card debt, they blows my mind... why the fuck would you do that? I'm not surprised these people are riddled with anxiety over it.

So thanks for pointing that out bro, I'll meditate on it bit yeah, fear of people and economic insecurity had left me.

Have you ever come across the little AAWS book Best of Bill? It's got his main classic essays Fear, Humility, Honesty and Love and a few other things. It's really little and I keep it in my man-bag with my little Big Book and read it while waiting at the pharmacy in the morning. I've underlined a bunch of stuff relayed to the fear of economic insecurity line and I'll dm you some quotes sometime.



I think this is probably the solution, I was going to wait until it's been ten days since resuming after the ex-source fucked up my dosing schedule and then see how I feel and see what you thought.

But there's another thing I was worried about where I made a mistake reconstituting it. I'd just read comments from you to a newbie about how to reconstitute and you mentioned you use high gague insulin pins to slow thr water as not to harm the delicate peptides and I got some 31g tips and did the same 3ml of bac water as last time. I used the tip but I forgot to turn the bottle upside down and the pressure inside the bottle sucked the bac water in so quickly I didn't realise what happened initially.

So all that:

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Into this in 5 - 10 seconds flat:

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Also you mentioned on the podcast the ACV was aiding digestion, were tou timing your swigs around eating?

I've just been doing it at random but remembering most days... still small amounts tho, might have to up it:

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For anyone interested in what we were talking about, this is from page 84 in the Big Book, the core text for the 12 Step group I belong to:

....word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.

That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.

Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.

--Alcoholics Anonymous Page 84​

Good pin today @vanlife_gymbum
and I read the whole AA book, was an alcoholic for years. We have to love all ourselves and our brothers, thats why I love the EVO family!

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Good pin today @vanlife_gymbum
and I read the whole AA book, was an alcoholic for years. We have to love all ourselves and our brothers, thats why I love the EVO family!

Yeah bro, that's exactly it

And you're a master of helping people!!

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

hooker bar? many girls? lol?

Okay I looked it up, it's spelt Hookar, and pronounced Who-car judging by my half assed reading of the IPA symbols on Wikipedia. Google said "did you mean hooker?" though so its not just you bro

I tried it on Arab Street in Singapore and huffed on it for a whole hour and had to keep going out for cigarette breaks..

 

[toddthelineman]

it's spelt Hookar, and pronounced Who-car

This is all pretty hilarious in my imagination of different accents. I dummy know that anyone would have understood better in person. We say “who ka” and speak it hookah Which I believe is how our mates down undah say hooker lmao

 

[Eddie Haskell]

Okay I looked it up, it's spelt Hookar, and pronounced Who-car judging by my half assed reading of the IPA symbols on Wikipedia. Google said "did you mean hooker?" though so its not just you bro

I tried it on Arab Street in Singapore and huffed on it for a whole hour and had to keep going out for cigarette breaks..

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I thought it’s a brothel club

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

I thought it’s a brothel club

Haha sorry to disappoint guys. Nice ones of those in Wellington though! With legalised prostitution they're very well marked. If you don't want to be seen you can use the back door tho

 

[LevButlerov]

Okay I looked it up, it's spelt Hookar, and pronounced Who-car judging by my half assed reading of the IPA symbols on Wikipedia. Google said "did you mean hooker?" though so its not just you bro

I tried it on Arab Street in Singapore and huffed on it for a whole hour and had to keep going out for cigarette breaks..

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I think you mean hookah right? not hooker got me excited for a second lol

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

I think you mean hookah right? not hooker got me excited for a second lol

Hmmm, I'm confused now too. If you're paying I mean hooker

 

[LevButlerov]

Yeah bro, that's exactly it

And you're a master of helping people!!

doing my best

 

[waggat]

Day 55: Sleep, Steps,
Soup Kitchen
30,000 Steps & Bar Squats for Reps​

Went to a soup kitchen for the first time today.

Did some good steps.

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An absolutely cracking nice spring day.

Skirt season has officially begun in Wellington.

Always a treat in the world's windiest city

A hot Scottish chick in yoga pants washed and dried my clothes for me.

A volunteer at the mobile van full of washing machines and driers. Amazing service haha.

I've been paying $25 at the laundromat to do it myself.

Never again while there's woman willing to do it for free right outside the soup kitchen.

I overhead a steet fight while I was there. No restaurant could possibly provide entertainment to rival this shit

Finally went skateboarding, as transport to and from the community centre with my washing.

Way faster than walking and way harder cardio wise.

Had some cool chats with some cool cats on the Evo forums and in DMs while sitting in the sun at a nice Cafe in town

Walking back I had the sense that every thing is going to be alright, and that I'm on the right path.

Just need to stay the course now.

Caught up a bit from missing that night of sleep.

Went down so quick I forgot to turn off the lights and ran their batteries down.

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Had my first shake when I got back, already 10k steps deep

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Went to the Needle exchange yesterday

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When I returned from my walk into the city my muscles were all warmed up and ready to recieve their daily pin of AUStarLabs Test E:

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I love the colour of this gear, especially when it catches the light from the sun streaming in.

The nectar of the man-gods

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While the hot lovely Scottish chick was busy doing our washing we went to the free Sunday dinner.

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Long story. I'll write it up tomorrow.

They had loads of near expired bread from the supermarket and I got a loaf of $7.99 sourdough.

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I'll try a bit before training @LevButlerov - is that a good source of carbs or even that type of bread too dodgy? I'd rather not but it was free...

Need my retatrutide shot, it's not working as good.

It's high rep bar squats night, I'm at the gym charging up now and about to do as many squats with the bar as I can manage.

All in all a nice little Sunday.

Is the soup kitchen thing something that is available all the time?

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Is the soup kitchen thing something that is available all the time?

Nah bro, every Sunday - I'm not sure I'll go again, there was dodgy shit of multiple varieties going on and they were all not the type of people I want to associate with, both the organisers and the other riff-raff.

Next time I'll just drop my washing off to the mobile washing machine van and go bum around on the beach for a couple of hours while those ladies are taking care of it for me.

What a fucking great world, really surprises you sometimes

 

[HarleyGuy]

Also you mentioned on the podcast the ACV was aiding digestion, were tou timing your swigs around eating?

The idea is it is so acidic it helps ready the stomach for incoming macros so my swig is right before a meal. If I forget then I'll do it afterwards sometimes too. It's believed to help breakdown protein in the stomach by increasing acidity.

One thing that is not arguable is that it inhibits the enzymes that break down carbs and therefore slows the release of glucose into the blood so your glucose spike is lessened and your insulin sensitivity stays more in check with ACV.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

The idea is it is so acidic it helps ready the stomach for incoming macros so my swig is right before a meal. If I forget then I'll do it afterwards sometimes too. It's believed to help breakdown protein in the stomach by increasing acidity.

One thing that is not arguable is that it inhibits the enzymes that break down carbs and therefore slows the release of glucose into the blood so your glucose spike is lessened and your insulin sensitivity stays more in check with ACV.

Okay awesome thanks man. Just need any reason to cling to for ten seconds while the shock wears off and taste leaves me... my Dad is into making sourkraut and I'm gonna get in on that soon too. Changing my diet to raw organ meat and bone broth soon, just got some prep work to do first.

 

[Pigsy]

Good read this log

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Good read this log

Much appreciated thanks bro we're getting some nice spring days in NZ now and I'm hoping to start cooking and doing cardio outside again so I can have cool scenery in the pics too. Bet it's stinking hot over there already

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

The idea is it is so acidic it helps ready the stomach for incoming macros so my swig is right before a meal. If I forget then I'll do it afterwards sometimes too. It's believed to help breakdown protein in the stomach by increasing acidity.

One thing that is not arguable is that it inhibits the enzymes that break down carbs and therefore slows the release of glucose into the blood so your glucose spike is lessened and your insulin sensitivity stays more in check with ACV.

Also what do you think about the reconstitution problem? The whole 3ml sucked full tit into the reta bottle all at once? I slightly upped my dose but still haven't recovered from that week+ off when the life forge guy fucked up my dosing schedule. Beem eating a lot more, but with my high step count etc I'm sure I'm still in a decent deficit. I'm still worried I damaged them tho. I need to find a new source for it or start getting everything prepped to do meal prep in the kitchen on the ship so I can eat cleanly it I have to stop.

 

[LevButlerov]

The idea is it is so acidic it helps ready the stomach for incoming macros so my swig is right before a meal. If I forget then I'll do it afterwards sometimes too. It's believed to help breakdown protein in the stomach by increasing acidity.

One thing that is not arguable is that it inhibits the enzymes that break down carbs and therefore slows the release of glucose into the blood so your glucose spike is lessened and your insulin sensitivity stays more in check with ACV.

Well said, thats a fact on ACV it helps with digestion and insulin

 

[25homes]

Heavy Leg Press Day
New PB @ 109kg​

I listened to a very inspiring podcast episode yesterday and highly recommended you do also:

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I also suddenly had a bright idea.

You think just because I'm homeless I miss out on the trappings of regular white-trash life?

Nah, I also have a car on blocks in my front yard.

It's been kinda playing on my mind though.

It's a 1997 Toyota Estima and I spent all winter lying in it, can't stand up but it's pretty roomy for an SUV. I was planning on giving it to a tourist but it's probably more of a burden to them now.

I could sell it to a wrecker for $500 probably and use that money to buy more of my summer stack up.

Lately charities have been putting flyers I under the window wipers and someone left a bag of towels at it.

Very nice of them but I don't like this attention, especially because I'm over the other side of the park now. It's registered in my name but the registration expired.

The police won't do anything because I'm also a registered homeless person (long story) and they don't want to be seen to be "targeting the homeless".

What a fucking great country this is. $500 would be 20 x 10ml EQ ampules and 3 blood tests.

Spring also started creeping in a bit. It's been raining overnight and still but I can feel spring coming finally.

People are out doing shit.

There's a halfpipe about 30 meters from my van and there were skateboarders when I returned from the gym at 1am last night.

I love that shit. It's cardio season.

Second month supplies arrived from Life Forge

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Check out my touchdown pictures thread in the NZ Sources sub forum.

Carbs in before gym like @LevButlerov said to

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Testosterone in like the Gods said to:

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Peptides in. Shakes in.

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I found this girl on reddit who runs monthly "darkwave night skate" meet ups where she gets her giant N.W.A style 1980s ghetto-blaster and blasts darkwave music and leads 30 goth looking rollerskaters and skateboarders through the city on a big loop.

That seems like a good place to get cardio in and meet loose woman. I never miss an opportunity to disrupt traffic too, it sounds pretty funny.

"Get used to being uncomfortable,
especially on fucking leg day"

--@Mobster​

Started on Stairmaster again.

One of my friends is a closeted homosexual who tries to act straight by saying things such as "the stairmaster is for woman"

You know the type of guy who's gonna be waiting for the elevator when his apartment building is on fire

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Not a master of the stairs like I'm training to be.

Heart rate to 173bpm this time, holy fuck.

But I do appreciate what the stairmaster does for woman.

More than he'll ever know.

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It's moved down every day this week. I have never before ever seen it move at all, so, things are changing.

I'm not a mirror guy but shit, I'd fuck me.

Bar-Squats

Used a 20kg plate on the floor again, but bailed on the bench behind after one set and went all the way down, I can keep my chest out or up stay straight.

Definitely getting better, I'll take another form video soon

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Last set I added a 5kg plate each side to see if that made the bar more stable like some people suggested to me

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And did 10kg x 12 which was manageable but noticeably more difficult, I do see what they're saying about stability but I'm gonna stick with the bar for now and try push up the volume as per the Monster-approved plan.

Leg Extension

27kg x 16 extra reps due to adjustments
32kg x 12
36kg x 12
41kg x 12
46kg x 12 legs were wobbly after that

Did two sets of shrugs at 20 then 22kg while waiting

Leg Curl

32kg x 12
41kg x 12
46kg x 12 last set seemed easier 1st set

Leg press

82kg x 12
91kg x 12
100kg x 12
109kg x 12 that did me in, calf raises cancelled

First time doing 100kg since the PT and the 109kg is the heaviest I've even gone on it.

It's a Nautilus one that starts in the down position opposite of the Hammer Strength plate loaded machine

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Next half of the stack looks ahh, heavy

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"Listen guys:

If you're not pushing your asses in the gym to train legs properly;

If you're not getting under the god-damn bar;

If you're pussy-footing your way out of heavy squats and leg presses;

If you're not doing the rest-pause;

If you're not really putting your heart and soul into this stuff, and I don't care weather you want to be a crazy freak strongman, crazy freak power lifter, or make Tom Platz cry when he sees your quads;

I don't care if you don't want those things that, you know, make people stop and look at your legs in the street. Maybe that's not your thing;

But if you're not putting some effort into your legs, if you do want crazy muscles, if you do want crazy strength, if you do want to go up there and flip fucking five hundred kilo tires;

Get your ass into the gym."

--@Mobster


​

Good update right here bro

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Day 56: Offically On-Cycle Now
250mg Equipoise --> Ass​

Everything's gone to shit with getting private blood tests done.

I talked to a friendly pharmacist and a doctor who's a friend of my Dads. The pharmacist didn't even believe that the private place I found exists, but when I showed them warned me to get a second opinion and that it'd be like some sort of automated machine report. I dunno but they were not impressed by it that's for sure

The two lifters I talked to who've done it lately got them through the regular doctors channels or used the place I was planning to in different cities.

Going to any doctor or specialist connected into The Public Health System is off the table for me. There's no privacy inside the system itself, everyone knows everything and there's flagging and alerting functions between departments and other entities.

The methadone clinic knew as soon as I got my medical cannabis prescription and called me that same day to ask about it. That script was from a private clinic that's not publicly funded but still they have to lodge the scripts centrally and then it raises a flag at the clinic that my regime has been changed by an external party, and they care greatly about that at the methadone clinic. They hate it when you try and fix your own problems, especially ones they've already told you are not problems.

They did not care about that MC script and agreed it was beneficial and signed off on that, but that will not be the case this time. They will be absolutely beside themselves if they knew I was injecting testosterone.

There's politics and shit at play here that I'm far to intelligent to understand but the long and short of it is that the government doesn't like to pay for TRT and don't want to pay for it so they deny it's nessary at all. Unless you wanted to change your gender of course, then you can have whatever you want.

So telling the doctor would soon filter down and shortly after I would he flagged as non-compliant with the requirements of the methadone program as I'm taking controlled drugs without prescription which means from then on I'll be failing my monthly drug tests.

Then they would take interest in my hormone levels and start testing me every month... what a fucking joke. See how this is just another set of bullshit? You guys have your insurance companies and we have the government health system.

We can't just go in and order tests or buy stuff, there's no upselling because nothing is for sale to buy more of. There's a lot of regulation too of course and they will crack down on dodgy scripts very quickly. There was a doctor writing loose trt scripts I heard about from reddit, but when trying to book with him his office lady said he's not allowed to do that any more... so I guess they threatened to take his license or something.

I knew it's tightly controlled but still thought for money I could get simple blood tests done.

I'll still get liver and kidney tests every three months as a requirement of the methadone program but not as much as I was required to do when I was also taking Antabuse, it's day 9 off that now.

Required to get quarterly ECGs too. I don't think many gear users worry as much about their heart as they do blood testing for other stuff. The 3 dead gear users I knew irl were all heart related. I have continuous monitoring via the Samsung watch, which is awesome data when correlated with activities.

I've seen a good few patterns now and adjusted my behaviour, for example removing my nicotine patches before bed reduced my resting heart rate by 10bpm where the prescription says to wear it 24 hours.

I've got a plan to reduce caffine (harder than I thought) and nicotine to take more load off mine and I've been doing good with steps and cardio and plan to up that too. Was a big part of why I chose EQ and TBOL to go with testosterone for my first stack and first cycle, also because the cycle runs through spring and summer so will have the diet and training style to match.

I can't fuck up my recovery program, that's the only thing I haven't fucked up in the past two years. I have two and a half years worth of clean drug tests through the clinic which are very important to me. I need them prove I've been sober to polite society, the police, my parents, the courts, and the courts in Australia if I was involved in anything to do with my kid in the future.

Having a big FAIL: NON COMPLIANT stamp over my test will he very difficult to explain to my mother and I'd rather risk gyno than cause her to miss any more sleep because of me.

I don't see any way I can make up a story that would involve getting esteogen checked and until I find a private blood testing place I'm not going to risk it. I can take blood out of my arm myself, maybe there's a way to get them to post me vials and post them a sample back.

Getting some advice from @toddthelineman about the blood pressure issues with eq and in general so still figuring it all out myself but I will log all my moves.

I'm going to start prepping soon to be able to take blood out myself instead of going to the blood bank. I'm not prepared to lie to the blood bank about my use of seriods and if I was honest that'd go into The System too, so instead I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

I've at least got baseline liver, kidney and testosterone level blood tests from 7 weeks ago I got before my first pin. I left the doctor yet another voicemail yesterday about getting a copy of the results. Should he easier going forward to get results of new tests, as I'll be sent a copy as well as the doctor.

The two testosterone tests I got over those two years were just the testosterone only ones. It's lucky they don't care atcually else they'll see what I'm doing and absolutely lose their rag.

That's why I turned down their government TRT in the first place. Well that and all the insane requirements, almost had as much overhead as methadone. My TIT plan worked way better anyway, I love the TIT

It'll be so hot in my uninsulated van soon I'll have no choice but to go outside surfing and skateboarding and trail hiking and beach volleyball and shagging loose woman with enthusiasm, hopefully rollerskatering too. I joined a yoga studio and intended to start the hot yoga style recommended by @stevesmi.

Also going to switch to raw organ and bone broth at the core of the diet. Gonna move this bone broth operation to the beach and cook over an open fire unless it's too windy, in which case there's some old war ruins up on the hill I can make a fire in for this. Can't afford to cook with gas for that long.

I think everything is pretty much lined up, next four months of gear, lifting and diet is mostly planned already, few details to work out, few things left to buy but comfortable and very happy things are moving. I'm always open to suggestions and modifications or additions and will fairly evaluate everything that comes my way. @LevButlerov has been helping me adding a low dose of Proviron to this stack to help with the estrogen issues, which I really appreciate. I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can. Also started tracking mood as recommended by @HarleyGuy and set up my watch to ask me twice a day.

To be honest dealing with doctors and the health system and fretting about this blood testing has been really stressing me out. Especially running into brick walls over things that aren't even an issue for other people.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I've also been looking forward to this for a very very long time now. I wanted to start steriods in 2008 but it's taken this long. But that's cool, I'm here now. I have my entire 40s ahead of me. I'm going to spend it cycling steriods and lifting.

It'll be 16 weeks of test and eq at the core of it, with some orals too. Thanks to @HarleyGuy for helping me with duration, in all my research in the eq community research thread and leaening from the podcast episodes about it 16 weeks seems like the ticket. This feels perfect too and the timing is great, it means I can take autumn off and drop to trt dose of test and try some fasting and take it easy and stockpile and prepare everything for a different type of training, diet and steriods come winter. That's way in the future tho, spring is about to start here and I am ready!! Skirts are flying up all around me.

Day 56 is exactly eight weeks on test only so good day to add equipoise, almost looks planned. 300mg for the first month, 400mg the second and today I'll up my dose to 500mg to keep a 2:1 ratio with the 250mg of eq I've beem advised about.

I listened to and gave proper consideration to all the advice I got. I'm particularly grateful to all the advice Lev gave me about EQ dosing and test ratios and Todd for advice around blood pressure issues and for putting the + into my stack, and HarleyGuy for duration tips - between all this I think my stack is near perfect for me. There's still a few things left that aren't 100% but after all the shit with the medical system I've decided against talking to soon and assuming things will work.

I couldn't expect to get my friends and mentors here to sign off on my incomplete plan. I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further and gave back the money I borrowed for the blood tests and got my needles and ampules out of the chilly bin/esky/cooler and got out the beautiful equipoise amplue kit from @SWOLENZ

And begun

First time I've done more than .3 - an entire ml of liquid!

I've only seen Narcan in ampules before. They gave me 5 of them when I joined the methadone program but I gave them to a woman at a 12 step meeting. I did break one to see how they worked tho. Had a little dot and line around the neck, I wasent sure if you were suppost to use a knife around that line or what but I just snapped it whole holding it with a paper towel and it came off clean. That narcan cost me nothing so I didn't care to do it carefully but not so with this precious equipoise.

First I washed and sanitised my hands because I'm flash as fuck these days. All needle users should have an alcohol habd sanitatiser pump on their wall so they can pin at a moments notice and still stay clean, can't let those gains slip away.

This ampule has a dot on the neck of the ampule, the narcan one had a line around it which I guess was for tracking with a knife or tool? Not sure what this dot means exactly but I didn't have any ideas beyond just trying to snap it

I wiped down the neck of the ampule with an alcohol swab to disinfect it then held the ampule upright and made sure liquid was all below the neck by gently flicking the top.. that'll become a nice part of the prep ritual.

Used the alcohol wipes to grip the top and bottom and took a bit of pressure but I snapped it fairly clean. Didn't drop any of the precious nectar.

And whacked it in slow and steady

And of course I didn't forget about my old friends just because a hot new chick turns up

You guys are coming too

I absolutely love the colour of this Test E from AUStarLabs. There's some more testosterone bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Fuck yeah, life is fucking good. Every day things are moving forward in the right direction. I'm happy, I have energy to spare and love to give. I feel like going out and flinging wads of rainbow jjzz into the world.

This summer is gonna be awesome. The woman in a 50 mile radius around my van don't know it yet, but they're gonna have an awesome time this summer too

The retatrutide is working more now though, @HarleyGuy is right I think, it's tolerance starting to build. I've pushed up to more like 2.5mg a week with the shot today. I'll calculate exactly how much for the next shot.

I thought I'd try low fat milk and bought a litre for coffee. I had a few with no problems yesterday but this morning number three isn't sitting well. The litre is almost finished and won't get another but a sign the reta is still at least somewhat still okay despite my mistake reconstituting it.

Had carbs before and after the gym - had 101g of protien in a five egg and whey shake to wash down this half finished bowl of rice and tuna:

Then when I got home just after 1am I had the rest of the sourdough and tuna, a two ingredient meal! First chewing and now this... I need more retatrutide.

I always forget to weigh myself first and I had about a litre of water in the half hour I was screwing around on my phone with it plugged into the wall charging prior to lifting so I could listen to the Evo podcast while lifting.

I listened to the episode about how to improve your bench-press first:

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I had a lot on my mind last night so just went for my machine version of the @2G2B upper stack.
The R18 gym I go to has three Nautilus machines in a row: biceps curl, chest press and shoulder press and I do a form of supersetting I guess where I do 3 sets of 12 on each in total but go from one to the next and do three laps.

This let's me cut down the rest time to 30 seconds pretty easily. I think it's easier than doing them one at a time. I sometimes add a forth thing to the rotation, shrugs or eazy-bar preacher curls.

Got it my ten minutes on the stairmaster at intensity level 8, but i was seriously watching the clock and ready to bail soon after I noticed 10 minutes was up.

Biceps Curl

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Chest Press

I was trying to be lazy and do a light 23kg on all but the pins on these Nautilus machines work differently than the Startrack machines at the gym across the road and I atcually had it on 36kg. It was hard but I managed, surprised myself atcually.

36kg x 12
36kg x 12
36kg x 12

Shoulder Press

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Dumbbell Shrugs

16kg x 12
18kg x 12
18kg x 12

Ab Crunches

23kg x 20
23kg x 25

Then hit the showers, still doing those daily, but it was past midnight so I skipped the massage chair. Been really slack with that lately.

Fuck yeah.

What a fucking day

 

[HarleyGuy]

Day 56: Offically On-Cycle Now
250mg Equipoise --> Ass​

Everything's gone to shit with getting private blood tests done.

I talked to a friendly pharmacist and a doctor who's a friend of my Dads. The pharmacist didn't even believe that the private place I found exists, but when I showed them warned me to get a second opinion and that it'd be like some sort of automated machine report. I dunno but they were not impressed by it that's for sure

The two lifters I talked to who've done it lately got them through the regular doctors channels or used the place I was planning to in different cities.

Going to any doctor or specialist connected into The Public Health System is off the table for me. There's no privacy inside the system itself, everyone knows everything and there's flagging and alerting functions between departments and other entities.

The methadone clinic knew as soon as I got my medical cannabis prescription and called me that same day to ask about it. That script was from a private clinic that's not publicly funded but still they have to lodge the scripts centrally and then it raises a flag at the clinic that my regime has been changed by an external party, and they care greatly about that at the methadone clinic. They hate it when you try and fix your own problems, especially ones they've already told you are not problems.

They did not care about that MC script and agreed it was beneficial and signed off on that, but that will not be the case this time. They will be absolutely beside themselves if they knew I was injecting testosterone.

There's politics and shit at play here that I'm far to intelligent to understand but the long and short of it is that the government doesn't like to pay for TRT and don't want to pay for it so they deny it's nessary at all. Unless you wanted to change your gender, then you can have whatever you want.

So telling the doctor would soon filter down and shortly after I would he flagged as non-compliant with the requirements methadone program as I'm taking controlled drugs without prescription which means from them on I'll be failing drug tests.

Then they would take interest in my hormone levels and start testing me every month... what a fucking joke. See how this is just another set of billshit? You guys have your insurance companies and we have the government health system.

We can't just go in and buy stuff, there's no upselling because nothing is for sale to buy more of. There's a lot of regulation too of course and they will crack down on dodgy scripts very quickly. There was a doctor writing loose trt scripts I heard about from reddit, but when trying to book with him his office lady said he's not allowed to do that any more... so I guess they threatened to take his license or something.

I knew it's tightly controlled but still though doe money I could get simple blood tests done.

I'll still get liver and kidney tests every three months as a requirement of methadone but not as mich as I was when i was also taking Antabuse, it's day 9 off that now.

Quarterly ECGs too. I don't think many gear users worry as much about their heart as they do blood testing for other stuff. The 3 dead gear users I knew irl were all heart related. I have continuous monitoring via the Samsung watch, which is awesome data when correlated with activities.

I've seen a good few patterns now and adjusted my behaviour, for example removing my nicotine patches before bed reduced my resting heart rate by 10bpm where the prescription says to wear it 24 hours.

I've got a plan to reduce caffine (harder than I thought) and nicotine to take more load off mine and I've been doing good with steps and cardio and plan to up that too. Was a big part of why I chose EQ and TBOL to go with testosterone for my first stack and first cycle, also because the cycle runs through spring and summer so will have the diet and training style to match.

I can't fuck up my recovery program, that's the only thing I haven't fucked up in the past two years. I have two and a half years worth of clean drug tests through the clinic which are very important to me. I need them prove I've been sober to polite society, the police, my parents, the courts, and the courts in Australia if I was involved in anything to do with my kid in the future.

Having a big FAIL: NON COMPLIANT stamp over my test will he very difficult to explain to my mother and I'd rather risk gyno than cause her to miss any more sleep because of me.

I don't see any way I can make it a story that would involve getting esteogen checked and until I find a private blood testing place I'm not going to risk it. I can take blood out of my arm myself, maybe there's a way to get them to poat me vials and post them a sample back.

Getting some advice from @toddthelineman about the blood pressure issues with eq and in general so still figuring it all out myself but I will log all my moves.

I'm going to start prepping soon to be able to take blood out myself instead of going to the blood bank. I'm not prepared to lie to the blood bank about my use of seriods and if I was honest that'd go into The System too, so instead I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

I've at least got baseline liver, kidney and testosterone level tests from 7 weeks ago I got before my first pin. I left the doctor yet another voicemail yesterday about getting a copy of the results. Should he easier going forward to get results of new tests, as I'll be sent a copy as well as the doctor.

The two testosterone tests I got over those two years were just the testosterone only ones. It's lucky they don't care atcually else they'll see what I'm doing and absolutely lose their rag.

That's why I turned down their government TRT in the first place. Well that and all the insane requirements, almost had as much overhead as methadone. My TIT plan worked way better anyway, I loved the TIT

It'll be so hot in my uninsulated van soon I'll have no choice but to go outside: surfing and skateboarding and trail hiking and beach volleyball and shagging loose woman with enthusiasm, hopefully rollerskatering too. I joined a yoga studio and intended to start the hot yoga style recommended by @stevesmi.

Also going to switch to raw organ and bone broth at the core of the diet. Gonna move this bone broth operation to the beach and cook over an open fire unless it's too windy, in which case there's some old war ruins up on the hill I can make a fire in for this. Can't afford to cook with gas for that long.

I think everything is pretty much lined up, next four months of gear, lifting and diet is mostly planned already, few details to work out, few things left to buy but comfortable and very happy things are moving. I'm always open to suggestions and modifications or additions and will fairly evaluate everything that comes my way. @LevButlerov has been helping me adding a low dose of Proviron to this stack to help with the estrogen issues, which I really appreciate. I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can. Also started tracking mood as recommended by @HarleyGuy and set up my watch to ask me twice a day.

To be honest dealing with doctors and the health system and fretting about this blood testing has been really stressing me out. Especially running into brick walls over things that aren't even an issue for other people.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I've also been looking forward to this for a very very long time now. I wanted to start steriods in 2008 but it's taken this long. But that's cool, I'm here now. I have my entire 40s ahead of me. I'm going to spend it cycling steriods and lifting.

It'll be 16 weeks of test and eq at the core of it, with some orals too. Thanks to @HarleyGuy for helping me with duration, in all my research in the eq community research thread and leaening from the podcast episodes about it 16 weeks seems like the ticket. This feels perfect too and the timing is great, it means I can take autumn off and drop to trt dose of test and try some fasting and take it easy and stockpile and prepare everything for a different type of training, diet and steriods. That's way in the future tho, spring is about to start here and I am ready!!

Day 56 is exactly eight weeks on test only so good day to add equipoise, almost looks planned. 300mg for the first month, 400mg the second and today I'll up my dose to 500mg to keep a 2:1 ratio with the 250mg of eq I've beem advised about.

I listened to and gave proper consideration to all the advice I got. I'm particularly grateful to all the advice Lev gave me about EQ dosing and test ratios and Todd for advice around blood pressure issues and for putting the + into my stack, and HarleyGuy for duration tips - between all this I think my stack is near perfect for me. There's still a few things left that aren't 100% but after all the shit with the medial system I've decided against talking to soon and assuming things will work.

I couldn't expect to get my friends and mentors here to sign off on my incomplete plan. I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further and transferred the money I borrowed for the blood tests and got my needles and ampules out of the chilly bin/esky/cooler and got out the beautiful equipoise amplue kit from @SWOLENZ

View attachment 131982

And begun

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First time I've done more than .3 - an entire ml of liquid!

I've only seen Narcan in ampules before. They gave me 5 of them when I joined the methadone program but I gave them to a woman at a 12 step meeting. I did break one to see how they worked tho. Had a little dot and line around the neck, I wasent sure if you were suppost to use a knife around that line or what but I just snapped it whole holding it with a paper towel and it came off clean. That narcan cost me nothing so I didn't care to do it carefully but not so with this precious equipoise.


First I washed and sanitised my hands because I'm flash as fuck these days. All needle users should have an alcohol habd sanitatiser pump on their wall so they can pin at a moments notice and still stay clean, can't let those gains slip away.

This ampule has a dot on the neck of the ampule, the narcan one had a line around it which I guess was for tracking with a knife or tool? Not sure what this dot means exactly but I didn't have any ideas beyond just trying to snap it

I wiped down the neck of the ampule with an alcohol swab to disinfect it then held the ampule upright and made sure liquid was all below the neck by gently flicking the top.. that'll become a nice part of the prep ritual.

Used the alcohol wipes to grip the top and bottom and took a bit of pressure but I snapped it fairly clean. Didn't drop any of the precious nectar.

And whacked it in slow and steady

View attachment 131984

And of course I didn't forget about my old friends just because a hot new chick turns up

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You guys are coming too

View attachment 131992

I absolutely love the colour of this Test E from AUStarLabs. There's some more testosterone bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

View attachment 131993

Fuck yeah, life is fucking good. Every day things are moving forward in the right direction. I'm happy, I have energy to spare and love to give. I feel like going out and flinging wads of rainbow jjzz into the world.

This summer is gonna be awesome. The woman in a 50 mile radius around my van don't know it yet, but they're gonna have an awesome time this summer too

The retatrutide is working more now though, @HarleyGuy is right I think, it's tolerance starting to build. I've pushed up to more like 2.5mg a week with the shot today. I'll calculate exactly how much for the next shot.

I thought I'd try low fat milk and bought a litre for coffee. I had a few with no problems yesterday but this morning number three isn't sitting well. The litre is almost finished and won't get another but a sign the reta is still at least somewhat still okay despite my mistake reconstituting it.

Had carbs before and after the gym - had 101g of protien in a five egg and whey shake to wash down this half finished bowl of rice and tuna:

View attachment 131949

Then when I got home just after 1am I had the rest of the sourdough and tuna, a two ingredient meal! First chewing and now this... I need more retatrutide.

View attachment 131958

I always forget to weigh myself first and I had about a litre of water in the half hour I was screwing around on my phone with it plugged into the wall charging prior to lifting so I could listen to the Evo podcast while lifting.

View attachment 131959

I listened to the episode about how to improve your bench-press first:

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I had a lot on my mind last night so just went for my machine version of the @2G2B upper stack.
The R18 gym I go to has three Nautilus machines in a row: biceps curl, chest press and shoulder press and I do a form of supersetting I guess where I do 3 sets of 12 on each in total but go from one to the next and do three laps.

This let's me cut down the rest time to 30 seconds pretty easily. I think it's easier than doing them one at a time. I sometimes add a forth thing to the rotation, shrugs or eazy-bar preacher curls.

Got it my ten minutes on the stairmaster at intensity level 8, but i was seriously watching the clock and ready to bail soon after I noticed 10 minutes was up.

View attachment 131948


Biceps Curl

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Chest Press

I was trying to be lazy and do a light 23kg on all but the pins on these Nautilus machines work differently than the Startrack machines at the gym across the road and I atcually had it on 36kg. It was hard but I managed, surprised myself atcually.

36kg x 12
36kg x 12
36kg x 12

Shoulder Press

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Dumbbell Shrugs

16kg x 12
18kg x 12
18kg x 12

Ab Crunches

23kg x 20
23kg x 25

Then hit the showers, still doing those daily, but it was past midnight so I skipped the massage chair. Been really slack with that lately.

Fuck yeah.

What a fucking day

Now that's what I call a damned log update! I find myself reading your posts like a Stephen King short story without you killing anyone.

I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further

Good Step 7 work here. We don't use our old ways.

I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

Just be careful there Rambo! LOL. If it were me I'd take the bleed ml's and splash it on the side of your van with a streaking downward handprint too and let the people gossip. Walk out every day with a dirty look on your face too and stare.

I can take blood out of my arm myself,

I can too and almost did except it was to intentionally bleed out and die; I took a cab to walmart to buy a fishing filet knife and it was during covid and the damn hunting section was roped off. I walked out of walmart and randomly said "fuck you" to the greeter and hopped back in the cab. I took it as a sign and went home and got more drunk instead.

I can't fuck up my recovery program

Correct. Anything you put before your recovery you will lose. I tell guys that, even your own kids, you put them before your recovery and you'll lose them. Recovery comes first and foremost that's when being selfish is the key; being selfish and being self-centered are two very different things.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Now that's what I call a damned log update! I find myself reading your posts like a Stephen King short story without you killing anyone.

Still early days bro!

Good Step 7 work here. We don't use our old ways.

Yep that's it man. Exactly what I was thinking when I wrote that.

Just be careful there Rambo! LOL. If it were me I'd take the bleed ml's and splash it on the side of your van with a streaking downward handprint too and let the people gossip. Walk out every day with a dirty look on your face too and stare.

Consider it done. After I accidentally got myself added to the Homeless Persons Register by the police they left me alone - both my deregistered cars are on public roads and the police know I'm here and as soon as I was added I stopped getting shit about it completely. At first I felt like I should call the police station and make sure they're all okay

So I think I'm in a good position to push my luck a bit. I'll try splatter a skull in blood on the front with a stencil in your honor.

I can too and almost did except it was to intentionally bleed out and die; I took a cab to walmart to buy a fishing filet knife and it was during covid and the damn hunting section was roped off.

Fucking hell bro! That really is a sign. I mean, that'd never happen otherwise right? That's trippy man. The universe really does look out for us because we are a part of it.

I'm glad your plan fell through!! Else if have no idea how to decorate my van.

Correct. Anything you put before your recovery you will lose. I tell guys that, even your own kids, you put them before your recovery and you'll lose them. Recovery comes first and foremost that's when being selfish is the key; being selfish and being self-centered are two very different things.

Absolutely agree. For us all things stem from sobriety and our spiritual connection. I wouldn't be here and definitely wouldn't be well enough to do steriods had I not gotten sober two years ago. And even after, that 40mg methadone taper I did at the start of the year had me in bed most of it. I had to do a lot of shit to prepare to get ready for this, it's not a knee jerk decision.

I appreciate the reply man, thanks very much

I carry a little big book and copy of the best of Bill around in my man-bag and get a couple of pages on every morning waiting at the pharmacy, thought toi might dig the pages from today, such great shit as always. That guy was an enlightened master, one of god's own prototypes:

 

[toddthelineman]

Day 56: Offically On-Cycle Now
250mg Equipoise --> Ass​

Everything's gone to shit with getting private blood tests done.

I talked to a friendly pharmacist and a doctor who's a friend of my Dads. The pharmacist didn't even believe that the private place I found exists, but when I showed them warned me to get a second opinion and that it'd be like some sort of automated machine report. I dunno but they were not impressed by it that's for sure

The two lifters I talked to who've done it lately got them through the regular doctors channels or used the place I was planning to in different cities.

Going to any doctor or specialist connected into The Public Health System is off the table for me. There's no privacy inside the system itself, everyone knows everything and there's flagging and alerting functions between departments and other entities.

The methadone clinic knew as soon as I got my medical cannabis prescription and called me that same day to ask about it. That script was from a private clinic that's not publicly funded but still they have to lodge the scripts centrally and then it raises a flag at the clinic that my regime has been changed by an external party, and they care greatly about that at the methadone clinic. They hate it when you try and fix your own problems, especially ones they've already told you are not problems.

They did not care about that MC script and agreed it was beneficial and signed off on that, but that will not be the case this time. They will be absolutely beside themselves if they knew I was injecting testosterone.

There's politics and shit at play here that I'm far to intelligent to understand but the long and short of it is that the government doesn't like to pay for TRT and don't want to pay for it so they deny it's nessary at all. Unless you wanted to change your gender of course, then you can have whatever you want.

So telling the doctor would soon filter down and shortly after I would he flagged as non-compliant with the requirements of the methadone program as I'm taking controlled drugs without prescription which means from then on I'll be failing my monthly drug tests.

Then they would take interest in my hormone levels and start testing me every month... what a fucking joke. See how this is just another set of bullshit? You guys have your insurance companies and we have the government health system.

We can't just go in and order tests or buy stuff, there's no upselling because nothing is for sale to buy more of. There's a lot of regulation too of course and they will crack down on dodgy scripts very quickly. There was a doctor writing loose trt scripts I heard about from reddit, but when trying to book with him his office lady said he's not allowed to do that any more... so I guess they threatened to take his license or something.

I knew it's tightly controlled but still thought for money I could get simple blood tests done.

I'll still get liver and kidney tests every three months as a requirement of the methadone program but not as much as I was required to do when I was also taking Antabuse, it's day 9 off that now.

Required to get quarterly ECGs too. I don't think many gear users worry as much about their heart as they do blood testing for other stuff. The 3 dead gear users I knew irl were all heart related. I have continuous monitoring via the Samsung watch, which is awesome data when correlated with activities.

I've seen a good few patterns now and adjusted my behaviour, for example removing my nicotine patches before bed reduced my resting heart rate by 10bpm where the prescription says to wear it 24 hours.

I've got a plan to reduce caffine (harder than I thought) and nicotine to take more load off mine and I've been doing good with steps and cardio and plan to up that too. Was a big part of why I chose EQ and TBOL to go with testosterone for my first stack and first cycle, also because the cycle runs through spring and summer so will have the diet and training style to match.

I can't fuck up my recovery program, that's the only thing I haven't fucked up in the past two years. I have two and a half years worth of clean drug tests through the clinic which are very important to me. I need them prove I've been sober to polite society, the police, my parents, the courts, and the courts in Australia if I was involved in anything to do with my kid in the future.

Having a big FAIL: NON COMPLIANT stamp over my test will he very difficult to explain to my mother and I'd rather risk gyno than cause her to miss any more sleep because of me.

I don't see any way I can make up a story that would involve getting esteogen checked and until I find a private blood testing place I'm not going to risk it. I can take blood out of my arm myself, maybe there's a way to get them to post me vials and post them a sample back.

Getting some advice from @toddthelineman about the blood pressure issues with eq and in general so still figuring it all out myself but I will log all my moves.

I'm going to start prepping soon to be able to take blood out myself instead of going to the blood bank. I'm not prepared to lie to the blood bank about my use of seriods and if I was honest that'd go into The System too, so instead I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

I've at least got baseline liver, kidney and testosterone level blood tests from 7 weeks ago I got before my first pin. I left the doctor yet another voicemail yesterday about getting a copy of the results. Should he easier going forward to get results of new tests, as I'll be sent a copy as well as the doctor.

The two testosterone tests I got over those two years were just the testosterone only ones. It's lucky they don't care atcually else they'll see what I'm doing and absolutely lose their rag.

That's why I turned down their government TRT in the first place. Well that and all the insane requirements, almost had as much overhead as methadone. My TIT plan worked way better anyway, I love the TIT

It'll be so hot in my uninsulated van soon I'll have no choice but to go outside surfing and skateboarding and trail hiking and beach volleyball and shagging loose woman with enthusiasm, hopefully rollerskatering too. I joined a yoga studio and intended to start the hot yoga style recommended by @stevesmi.

Also going to switch to raw organ and bone broth at the core of the diet. Gonna move this bone broth operation to the beach and cook over an open fire unless it's too windy, in which case there's some old war ruins up on the hill I can make a fire in for this. Can't afford to cook with gas for that long.

I think everything is pretty much lined up, next four months of gear, lifting and diet is mostly planned already, few details to work out, few things left to buy but comfortable and very happy things are moving. I'm always open to suggestions and modifications or additions and will fairly evaluate everything that comes my way. @LevButlerov has been helping me adding a low dose of Proviron to this stack to help with the estrogen issues, which I really appreciate. I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can. Also started tracking mood as recommended by @HarleyGuy and set up my watch to ask me twice a day.

To be honest dealing with doctors and the health system and fretting about this blood testing has been really stressing me out. Especially running into brick walls over things that aren't even an issue for other people.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I've also been looking forward to this for a very very long time now. I wanted to start steriods in 2008 but it's taken this long. But that's cool, I'm here now. I have my entire 40s ahead of me. I'm going to spend it cycling steriods and lifting.

It'll be 16 weeks of test and eq at the core of it, with some orals too. Thanks to @HarleyGuy for helping me with duration, in all my research in the eq community research thread and leaening from the podcast episodes about it 16 weeks seems like the ticket. This feels perfect too and the timing is great, it means I can take autumn off and drop to trt dose of test and try some fasting and take it easy and stockpile and prepare everything for a different type of training, diet and steriods come winter. That's way in the future tho, spring is about to start here and I am ready!! Skirts are flying up all around me.

Day 56 is exactly eight weeks on test only so good day to add equipoise, almost looks planned. 300mg for the first month, 400mg the second and today I'll up my dose to 500mg to keep a 2:1 ratio with the 250mg of eq I've beem advised about.

I listened to and gave proper consideration to all the advice I got. I'm particularly grateful to all the advice Lev gave me about EQ dosing and test ratios and Todd for advice around blood pressure issues and for putting the + into my stack, and HarleyGuy for duration tips - between all this I think my stack is near perfect for me. There's still a few things left that aren't 100% but after all the shit with the medical system I've decided against talking to soon and assuming things will work.

I couldn't expect to get my friends and mentors here to sign off on my incomplete plan. I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further and gave back the money I borrowed for the blood tests and got my needles and ampules out of the chilly bin/esky/cooler and got out the beautiful equipoise amplue kit from @SWOLENZ

View attachment 131982

And begun

View attachment 131983

First time I've done more than .3 - an entire ml of liquid!

I've only seen Narcan in ampules before. They gave me 5 of them when I joined the methadone program but I gave them to a woman at a 12 step meeting. I did break one to see how they worked tho. Had a little dot and line around the neck, I wasent sure if you were suppost to use a knife around that line or what but I just snapped it whole holding it with a paper towel and it came off clean. That narcan cost me nothing so I didn't care to do it carefully but not so with this precious equipoise.

First I washed and sanitised my hands because I'm flash as fuck these days. All needle users should have an alcohol habd sanitatiser pump on their wall so they can pin at a moments notice and still stay clean, can't let those gains slip away.

This ampule has a dot on the neck of the ampule, the narcan one had a line around it which I guess was for tracking with a knife or tool? Not sure what this dot means exactly but I didn't have any ideas beyond just trying to snap it

I wiped down the neck of the ampule with an alcohol swab to disinfect it then held the ampule upright and made sure liquid was all below the neck by gently flicking the top.. that'll become a nice part of the prep ritual.

Used the alcohol wipes to grip the top and bottom and took a bit of pressure but I snapped it fairly clean. Didn't drop any of the precious nectar.

And whacked it in slow and steady

View attachment 131984

And of course I didn't forget about my old friends just because a hot new chick turns up

View attachment 131991

You guys are coming too

View attachment 131992

I absolutely love the colour of this Test E from AUStarLabs. There's some more testosterone bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

View attachment 131993

Fuck yeah, life is fucking good. Every day things are moving forward in the right direction. I'm happy, I have energy to spare and love to give. I feel like going out and flinging wads of rainbow jjzz into the world.

This summer is gonna be awesome. The woman in a 50 mile radius around my van don't know it yet, but they're gonna have an awesome time this summer too

The retatrutide is working more now though, @HarleyGuy is right I think, it's tolerance starting to build. I've pushed up to more like 2.5mg a week with the shot today. I'll calculate exactly how much for the next shot.

I thought I'd try low fat milk and bought a litre for coffee. I had a few with no problems yesterday but this morning number three isn't sitting well. The litre is almost finished and won't get another but a sign the reta is still at least somewhat still okay despite my mistake reconstituting it.

Had carbs before and after the gym - had 101g of protien in a five egg and whey shake to wash down this half finished bowl of rice and tuna:

View attachment 131949

Then when I got home just after 1am I had the rest of the sourdough and tuna, a two ingredient meal! First chewing and now this... I need more retatrutide.

View attachment 131958

I always forget to weigh myself first and I had about a litre of water in the half hour I was screwing around on my phone with it plugged into the wall charging prior to lifting so I could listen to the Evo podcast while lifting.

View attachment 131959

I listened to the episode about how to improve your bench-press first:

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I had a lot on my mind last night so just went for my machine version of the @2G2B upper stack.
The R18 gym I go to has three Nautilus machines in a row: biceps curl, chest press and shoulder press and I do a form of supersetting I guess where I do 3 sets of 12 on each in total but go from one to the next and do three laps.

This let's me cut down the rest time to 30 seconds pretty easily. I think it's easier than doing them one at a time. I sometimes add a forth thing to the rotation, shrugs or eazy-bar preacher curls.

Got it my ten minutes on the stairmaster at intensity level 8, but i was seriously watching the clock and ready to bail soon after I noticed 10 minutes was up.

View attachment 131948


Biceps Curl

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Chest Press

I was trying to be lazy and do a light 23kg on all but the pins on these Nautilus machines work differently than the Startrack machines at the gym across the road and I atcually had it on 36kg. It was hard but I managed, surprised myself atcually.

36kg x 12
36kg x 12
36kg x 12

Shoulder Press

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Dumbbell Shrugs

16kg x 12
18kg x 12
18kg x 12

Ab Crunches

23kg x 20
23kg x 25

Then hit the showers, still doing those daily, but it was past midnight so I skipped the massage chair. Been really slack with that lately.

Fuck yeah.

What a fucking day

Happy blast day, bro. Helluva post!

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Happy blast day, bro. Helluva post!

Thanks very much brother!! I really appreciate all the guidance you've been giving me too

I've not heard that term before, that's some funny shit

My short term memory is fucked but the Evo log will remember my blastday forever and can't be erased or modified!

 

[HarleyGuy]

I'll try splatter a skull in blood on the front with a stencil in your honor.

Now that would be an honour if you did that just for me, that would be so badass!

 

[toddthelineman]

Thanks very much brother!! I really appreciate all the guidance you've been giving me too

I've not heard that term before, that's some funny shit

My short term memory is fucked but the Evo log will remember my blastday forever and can't be erased or modified!

You heard it here first!

 

[LevButlerov]

Day 56: Offically On-Cycle Now
250mg Equipoise --> Ass​

Everything's gone to shit with getting private blood tests done.

I talked to a friendly pharmacist and a doctor who's a friend of my Dads. The pharmacist didn't even believe that the private place I found exists, but when I showed them warned me to get a second opinion and that it'd be like some sort of automated machine report. I dunno but they were not impressed by it that's for sure

The two lifters I talked to who've done it lately got them through the regular doctors channels or used the place I was planning to in different cities.

Going to any doctor or specialist connected into The Public Health System is off the table for me. There's no privacy inside the system itself, everyone knows everything and there's flagging and alerting functions between departments and other entities.

The methadone clinic knew as soon as I got my medical cannabis prescription and called me that same day to ask about it. That script was from a private clinic that's not publicly funded but still they have to lodge the scripts centrally and then it raises a flag at the clinic that my regime has been changed by an external party, and they care greatly about that at the methadone clinic. They hate it when you try and fix your own problems, especially ones they've already told you are not problems.

They did not care about that MC script and agreed it was beneficial and signed off on that, but that will not be the case this time. They will be absolutely beside themselves if they knew I was injecting testosterone.

There's politics and shit at play here that I'm far to intelligent to understand but the long and short of it is that the government doesn't like to pay for TRT and don't want to pay for it so they deny it's nessary at all. Unless you wanted to change your gender of course, then you can have whatever you want.

So telling the doctor would soon filter down and shortly after I would he flagged as non-compliant with the requirements of the methadone program as I'm taking controlled drugs without prescription which means from then on I'll be failing my monthly drug tests.

Then they would take interest in my hormone levels and start testing me every month... what a fucking joke. See how this is just another set of bullshit? You guys have your insurance companies and we have the government health system.

We can't just go in and order tests or buy stuff, there's no upselling because nothing is for sale to buy more of. There's a lot of regulation too of course and they will crack down on dodgy scripts very quickly. There was a doctor writing loose trt scripts I heard about from reddit, but when trying to book with him his office lady said he's not allowed to do that any more... so I guess they threatened to take his license or something.

I knew it's tightly controlled but still thought for money I could get simple blood tests done.

I'll still get liver and kidney tests every three months as a requirement of the methadone program but not as much as I was required to do when I was also taking Antabuse, it's day 9 off that now.

Required to get quarterly ECGs too. I don't think many gear users worry as much about their heart as they do blood testing for other stuff. The 3 dead gear users I knew irl were all heart related. I have continuous monitoring via the Samsung watch, which is awesome data when correlated with activities.

I've seen a good few patterns now and adjusted my behaviour, for example removing my nicotine patches before bed reduced my resting heart rate by 10bpm where the prescription says to wear it 24 hours.

I've got a plan to reduce caffine (harder than I thought) and nicotine to take more load off mine and I've been doing good with steps and cardio and plan to up that too. Was a big part of why I chose EQ and TBOL to go with testosterone for my first stack and first cycle, also because the cycle runs through spring and summer so will have the diet and training style to match.

I can't fuck up my recovery program, that's the only thing I haven't fucked up in the past two years. I have two and a half years worth of clean drug tests through the clinic which are very important to me. I need them prove I've been sober to polite society, the police, my parents, the courts, and the courts in Australia if I was involved in anything to do with my kid in the future.

Having a big FAIL: NON COMPLIANT stamp over my test will he very difficult to explain to my mother and I'd rather risk gyno than cause her to miss any more sleep because of me.

I don't see any way I can make up a story that would involve getting esteogen checked and until I find a private blood testing place I'm not going to risk it. I can take blood out of my arm myself, maybe there's a way to get them to post me vials and post them a sample back.

Getting some advice from @toddthelineman about the blood pressure issues with eq and in general so still figuring it all out myself but I will log all my moves.

I'm going to start prepping soon to be able to take blood out myself instead of going to the blood bank. I'm not prepared to lie to the blood bank about my use of seriods and if I was honest that'd go into The System too, so instead I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

I've at least got baseline liver, kidney and testosterone level blood tests from 7 weeks ago I got before my first pin. I left the doctor yet another voicemail yesterday about getting a copy of the results. Should he easier going forward to get results of new tests, as I'll be sent a copy as well as the doctor.

The two testosterone tests I got over those two years were just the testosterone only ones. It's lucky they don't care atcually else they'll see what I'm doing and absolutely lose their rag.

That's why I turned down their government TRT in the first place. Well that and all the insane requirements, almost had as much overhead as methadone. My TIT plan worked way better anyway, I love the TIT

It'll be so hot in my uninsulated van soon I'll have no choice but to go outside surfing and skateboarding and trail hiking and beach volleyball and shagging loose woman with enthusiasm, hopefully rollerskatering too. I joined a yoga studio and intended to start the hot yoga style recommended by @stevesmi.

Also going to switch to raw organ and bone broth at the core of the diet. Gonna move this bone broth operation to the beach and cook over an open fire unless it's too windy, in which case there's some old war ruins up on the hill I can make a fire in for this. Can't afford to cook with gas for that long.

I think everything is pretty much lined up, next four months of gear, lifting and diet is mostly planned already, few details to work out, few things left to buy but comfortable and very happy things are moving. I'm always open to suggestions and modifications or additions and will fairly evaluate everything that comes my way. @LevButlerov has been helping me adding a low dose of Proviron to this stack to help with the estrogen issues, which I really appreciate. I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can. Also started tracking mood as recommended by @HarleyGuy and set up my watch to ask me twice a day.

To be honest dealing with doctors and the health system and fretting about this blood testing has been really stressing me out. Especially running into brick walls over things that aren't even an issue for other people.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I've also been looking forward to this for a very very long time now. I wanted to start steriods in 2008 but it's taken this long. But that's cool, I'm here now. I have my entire 40s ahead of me. I'm going to spend it cycling steriods and lifting.

It'll be 16 weeks of test and eq at the core of it, with some orals too. Thanks to @HarleyGuy for helping me with duration, in all my research in the eq community research thread and leaening from the podcast episodes about it 16 weeks seems like the ticket. This feels perfect too and the timing is great, it means I can take autumn off and drop to trt dose of test and try some fasting and take it easy and stockpile and prepare everything for a different type of training, diet and steriods come winter. That's way in the future tho, spring is about to start here and I am ready!! Skirts are flying up all around me.

Day 56 is exactly eight weeks on test only so good day to add equipoise, almost looks planned. 300mg for the first month, 400mg the second and today I'll up my dose to 500mg to keep a 2:1 ratio with the 250mg of eq I've beem advised about.

I listened to and gave proper consideration to all the advice I got. I'm particularly grateful to all the advice Lev gave me about EQ dosing and test ratios and Todd for advice around blood pressure issues and for putting the + into my stack, and HarleyGuy for duration tips - between all this I think my stack is near perfect for me. There's still a few things left that aren't 100% but after all the shit with the medical system I've decided against talking to soon and assuming things will work.

I couldn't expect to get my friends and mentors here to sign off on my incomplete plan. I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further and gave back the money I borrowed for the blood tests and got my needles and ampules out of the chilly bin/esky/cooler and got out the beautiful equipoise amplue kit from @SWOLENZ

View attachment 131982

And begun

View attachment 131983

First time I've done more than .3 - an entire ml of liquid!

I've only seen Narcan in ampules before. They gave me 5 of them when I joined the methadone program but I gave them to a woman at a 12 step meeting. I did break one to see how they worked tho. Had a little dot and line around the neck, I wasent sure if you were suppost to use a knife around that line or what but I just snapped it whole holding it with a paper towel and it came off clean. That narcan cost me nothing so I didn't care to do it carefully but not so with this precious equipoise.

First I washed and sanitised my hands because I'm flash as fuck these days. All needle users should have an alcohol habd sanitatiser pump on their wall so they can pin at a moments notice and still stay clean, can't let those gains slip away.

This ampule has a dot on the neck of the ampule, the narcan one had a line around it which I guess was for tracking with a knife or tool? Not sure what this dot means exactly but I didn't have any ideas beyond just trying to snap it

I wiped down the neck of the ampule with an alcohol swab to disinfect it then held the ampule upright and made sure liquid was all below the neck by gently flicking the top.. that'll become a nice part of the prep ritual.

Used the alcohol wipes to grip the top and bottom and took a bit of pressure but I snapped it fairly clean. Didn't drop any of the precious nectar.

And whacked it in slow and steady

View attachment 131984

And of course I didn't forget about my old friends just because a hot new chick turns up

View attachment 131991

You guys are coming too

View attachment 131992

I absolutely love the colour of this Test E from AUStarLabs. There's some more testosterone bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

View attachment 131993

Fuck yeah, life is fucking good. Every day things are moving forward in the right direction. I'm happy, I have energy to spare and love to give. I feel like going out and flinging wads of rainbow jjzz into the world.

This summer is gonna be awesome. The woman in a 50 mile radius around my van don't know it yet, but they're gonna have an awesome time this summer too

The retatrutide is working more now though, @HarleyGuy is right I think, it's tolerance starting to build. I've pushed up to more like 2.5mg a week with the shot today. I'll calculate exactly how much for the next shot.

I thought I'd try low fat milk and bought a litre for coffee. I had a few with no problems yesterday but this morning number three isn't sitting well. The litre is almost finished and won't get another but a sign the reta is still at least somewhat still okay despite my mistake reconstituting it.

Had carbs before and after the gym - had 101g of protien in a five egg and whey shake to wash down this half finished bowl of rice and tuna:

View attachment 131949

Then when I got home just after 1am I had the rest of the sourdough and tuna, a two ingredient meal! First chewing and now this... I need more retatrutide.

View attachment 131958

I always forget to weigh myself first and I had about a litre of water in the half hour I was screwing around on my phone with it plugged into the wall charging prior to lifting so I could listen to the Evo podcast while lifting.

View attachment 131959

I listened to the episode about how to improve your bench-press first:

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and then this one about Anavar:

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I had a lot on my mind last night so just went for my machine version of the @2G2B upper stack.
The R18 gym I go to has three Nautilus machines in a row: biceps curl, chest press and shoulder press and I do a form of supersetting I guess where I do 3 sets of 12 on each in total but go from one to the next and do three laps.

This let's me cut down the rest time to 30 seconds pretty easily. I think it's easier than doing them one at a time. I sometimes add a forth thing to the rotation, shrugs or eazy-bar preacher curls.

Got it my ten minutes on the stairmaster at intensity level 8, but i was seriously watching the clock and ready to bail soon after I noticed 10 minutes was up.

View attachment 131948


Biceps Curl

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Chest Press

I was trying to be lazy and do a light 23kg on all but the pins on these Nautilus machines work differently than the Startrack machines at the gym across the road and I atcually had it on 36kg. It was hard but I managed, surprised myself atcually.

36kg x 12
36kg x 12
36kg x 12

Shoulder Press

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Dumbbell Shrugs

16kg x 12
18kg x 12
18kg x 12

Ab Crunches

23kg x 20
23kg x 25

Then hit the showers, still doing those daily, but it was past midnight so I skipped the massage chair. Been really slack with that lately.

Fuck yeah.

What a fucking day

Best log update EVER in the EVO family I think! @vanlife_gymbum you're legit and should be a mod with all the work you put in.
Good call locking in the EQ at 250 mg and dialing the Test E ratio clean, that cycle should control E2, we can monitor sides no bloods, if you feel off, we can always go up on EQ.
Love your pin pics, real legit!

Training looks consistent, are you able to add drop sets?
and add planks to training as well.

Food looks nice too, Tuna is the way to go, high protein and tastes good. I mix it with ketchup (try to find no sugar if you have budget if not a bit of sugar no issues).

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Best log update EVER in the EVO family I think! @vanlife_gymbum you're legit and should be a mod with all the work you put in.
Good call locking in the EQ at 250 mg and dialing the Test E ratio clean, that cycle should control E2, we can monitor sides no bloods, if you feel off, we can always go up on EQ.
Love your pin pics, real legit!

Training looks consistent, are you able to add drop sets?
and add planks to training as well.

Food looks nice too, Tuna is the way to go, high protein and tastes good. I mix it with ketchup (try to find no sugar if you have budget if not a bit of sugar no issues).

Aww thanks a lot brother, I really appreciate your support

I totally agree about tuna, so easy to eat. Eating fish is usually an ordeal but their macros are flat out amazing. I'm trying to overcome a mental barrier to step up my fish game. I can get big 440g cans of mackerel for like $2.20 and the macros are just amazing, but in my head I've built it up to be gross and I haven't even tried it. If I can mix it with rice and drown in salt it'll be great financially and for macro goodness check it out:

I'll try out adding in drop sets and planks tonight and get back to you about it tomorrow

 

[toddthelineman]

Aww thanks a lot brother, I really appreciate your support

I totally agree about tuna, so easy to eat. Eating fish is usually an ordeal but their macros are flat out amazing. I'm trying to overcome a mental barrier to step up my fish game. I can get big 440g cans of mackerel for like $2.20 and the macros are just amazing, but in my head I've built it up to be gross and I haven't even tried it. If I can mix it with rice and drown in salt it'll be great financially and for macro goodness check it out:

View attachment 132059

View attachment 132060

I'll try out adding in drop sets and planks tonight and get back to you about it tomorrow

Mackerel. My buddy did a few years in Texas prison. Said he ate a can of mackerel every day and all body weight prison style workouts. Was impressive. They have some interesting ways to make workouts more effective. Like instead of full ROM, they’ll only do the hardest parts of the movement and keep constant tension. You can actually prevent injury like that too.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Mackerel. My buddy did a few years in Texas prison. Said he ate a can of mackerel every day and all body weight prison style workouts. Was impressive. They have some interesting ways to make workouts more effective. Like instead of full ROM, they’ll only do the hardest parts of the movement and keep constant tension. You can actually prevent injury like that too.

They work in pairs and lift each other up and link hands and stuff too. I read some of their advice when I was trying to do a little bit of focused training to get better at lifting up big buxom girls in the bedroom

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Tuna is the way to go, high protein and tastes good.

This triggered the idea to put tons of my rock and pink salt mix into the tuna and mix it up to make it more addictive. It was salty as fuck, my mouth was watering it was crazy. Got the salty taste all over my lips and shit. New method of getting tons of salt down for electrolytes that also makes tuna almost bingeable. I'll get more and smash it

 

[waggat]

Day 56: Offically On-Cycle Now
250mg Equipoise --> Ass​

Everything's gone to shit with getting private blood tests done.

I talked to a friendly pharmacist and a doctor who's a friend of my Dads. The pharmacist didn't even believe that the private place I found exists, but when I showed them warned me to get a second opinion and that it'd be like some sort of automated machine report. I dunno but they were not impressed by it that's for sure

The two lifters I talked to who've done it lately got them through the regular doctors channels or used the place I was planning to in different cities.

Going to any doctor or specialist connected into The Public Health System is off the table for me. There's no privacy inside the system itself, everyone knows everything and there's flagging and alerting functions between departments and other entities.

The methadone clinic knew as soon as I got my medical cannabis prescription and called me that same day to ask about it. That script was from a private clinic that's not publicly funded but still they have to lodge the scripts centrally and then it raises a flag at the clinic that my regime has been changed by an external party, and they care greatly about that at the methadone clinic. They hate it when you try and fix your own problems, especially ones they've already told you are not problems.

They did not care about that MC script and agreed it was beneficial and signed off on that, but that will not be the case this time. They will be absolutely beside themselves if they knew I was injecting testosterone.

There's politics and shit at play here that I'm far to intelligent to understand but the long and short of it is that the government doesn't like to pay for TRT and don't want to pay for it so they deny it's nessary at all. Unless you wanted to change your gender of course, then you can have whatever you want.

So telling the doctor would soon filter down and shortly after I would he flagged as non-compliant with the requirements of the methadone program as I'm taking controlled drugs without prescription which means from then on I'll be failing my monthly drug tests.

Then they would take interest in my hormone levels and start testing me every month... what a fucking joke. See how this is just another set of bullshit? You guys have your insurance companies and we have the government health system.

We can't just go in and order tests or buy stuff, there's no upselling because nothing is for sale to buy more of. There's a lot of regulation too of course and they will crack down on dodgy scripts very quickly. There was a doctor writing loose trt scripts I heard about from reddit, but when trying to book with him his office lady said he's not allowed to do that any more... so I guess they threatened to take his license or something.

I knew it's tightly controlled but still thought for money I could get simple blood tests done.

I'll still get liver and kidney tests every three months as a requirement of the methadone program but not as much as I was required to do when I was also taking Antabuse, it's day 9 off that now.

Required to get quarterly ECGs too. I don't think many gear users worry as much about their heart as they do blood testing for other stuff. The 3 dead gear users I knew irl were all heart related. I have continuous monitoring via the Samsung watch, which is awesome data when correlated with activities.

I've seen a good few patterns now and adjusted my behaviour, for example removing my nicotine patches before bed reduced my resting heart rate by 10bpm where the prescription says to wear it 24 hours.

I've got a plan to reduce caffine (harder than I thought) and nicotine to take more load off mine and I've been doing good with steps and cardio and plan to up that too. Was a big part of why I chose EQ and TBOL to go with testosterone for my first stack and first cycle, also because the cycle runs through spring and summer so will have the diet and training style to match.

I can't fuck up my recovery program, that's the only thing I haven't fucked up in the past two years. I have two and a half years worth of clean drug tests through the clinic which are very important to me. I need them prove I've been sober to polite society, the police, my parents, the courts, and the courts in Australia if I was involved in anything to do with my kid in the future.

Having a big FAIL: NON COMPLIANT stamp over my test will he very difficult to explain to my mother and I'd rather risk gyno than cause her to miss any more sleep because of me.

I don't see any way I can make up a story that would involve getting esteogen checked and until I find a private blood testing place I'm not going to risk it. I can take blood out of my arm myself, maybe there's a way to get them to post me vials and post them a sample back.

Getting some advice from @toddthelineman about the blood pressure issues with eq and in general so still figuring it all out myself but I will log all my moves.

I'm going to start prepping soon to be able to take blood out myself instead of going to the blood bank. I'm not prepared to lie to the blood bank about my use of seriods and if I was honest that'd go into The System too, so instead I'll just take it out myself. I got a butterfly clip and a lead to a 10ml barrel but think I'll get a 50ml one for it.

I've at least got baseline liver, kidney and testosterone level blood tests from 7 weeks ago I got before my first pin. I left the doctor yet another voicemail yesterday about getting a copy of the results. Should he easier going forward to get results of new tests, as I'll be sent a copy as well as the doctor.

The two testosterone tests I got over those two years were just the testosterone only ones. It's lucky they don't care atcually else they'll see what I'm doing and absolutely lose their rag.

That's why I turned down their government TRT in the first place. Well that and all the insane requirements, almost had as much overhead as methadone. My TIT plan worked way better anyway, I love the TIT

It'll be so hot in my uninsulated van soon I'll have no choice but to go outside surfing and skateboarding and trail hiking and beach volleyball and shagging loose woman with enthusiasm, hopefully rollerskatering too. I joined a yoga studio and intended to start the hot yoga style recommended by @stevesmi.

Also going to switch to raw organ and bone broth at the core of the diet. Gonna move this bone broth operation to the beach and cook over an open fire unless it's too windy, in which case there's some old war ruins up on the hill I can make a fire in for this. Can't afford to cook with gas for that long.

I think everything is pretty much lined up, next four months of gear, lifting and diet is mostly planned already, few details to work out, few things left to buy but comfortable and very happy things are moving. I'm always open to suggestions and modifications or additions and will fairly evaluate everything that comes my way. @LevButlerov has been helping me adding a low dose of Proviron to this stack to help with the estrogen issues, which I really appreciate. I want to make sure I'm doing everything I can. Also started tracking mood as recommended by @HarleyGuy and set up my watch to ask me twice a day.

To be honest dealing with doctors and the health system and fretting about this blood testing has been really stressing me out. Especially running into brick walls over things that aren't even an issue for other people.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I've also been looking forward to this for a very very long time now. I wanted to start steriods in 2008 but it's taken this long. But that's cool, I'm here now. I have my entire 40s ahead of me. I'm going to spend it cycling steriods and lifting.

It'll be 16 weeks of test and eq at the core of it, with some orals too. Thanks to @HarleyGuy for helping me with duration, in all my research in the eq community research thread and leaening from the podcast episodes about it 16 weeks seems like the ticket. This feels perfect too and the timing is great, it means I can take autumn off and drop to trt dose of test and try some fasting and take it easy and stockpile and prepare everything for a different type of training, diet and steriods come winter. That's way in the future tho, spring is about to start here and I am ready!! Skirts are flying up all around me.

Day 56 is exactly eight weeks on test only so good day to add equipoise, almost looks planned. 300mg for the first month, 400mg the second and today I'll up my dose to 500mg to keep a 2:1 ratio with the 250mg of eq I've beem advised about.

I listened to and gave proper consideration to all the advice I got. I'm particularly grateful to all the advice Lev gave me about EQ dosing and test ratios and Todd for advice around blood pressure issues and for putting the + into my stack, and HarleyGuy for duration tips - between all this I think my stack is near perfect for me. There's still a few things left that aren't 100% but after all the shit with the medical system I've decided against talking to soon and assuming things will work.

I couldn't expect to get my friends and mentors here to sign off on my incomplete plan. I'm not looking for someone to take responsibility for my actions so I didn't seek anything further and gave back the money I borrowed for the blood tests and got my needles and ampules out of the chilly bin/esky/cooler and got out the beautiful equipoise amplue kit from @SWOLENZ

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And begun

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First time I've done more than .3 - an entire ml of liquid!

I've only seen Narcan in ampules before. They gave me 5 of them when I joined the methadone program but I gave them to a woman at a 12 step meeting. I did break one to see how they worked tho. Had a little dot and line around the neck, I wasent sure if you were suppost to use a knife around that line or what but I just snapped it whole holding it with a paper towel and it came off clean. That narcan cost me nothing so I didn't care to do it carefully but not so with this precious equipoise.

First I washed and sanitised my hands because I'm flash as fuck these days. All needle users should have an alcohol habd sanitatiser pump on their wall so they can pin at a moments notice and still stay clean, can't let those gains slip away.

This ampule has a dot on the neck of the ampule, the narcan one had a line around it which I guess was for tracking with a knife or tool? Not sure what this dot means exactly but I didn't have any ideas beyond just trying to snap it

I wiped down the neck of the ampule with an alcohol swab to disinfect it then held the ampule upright and made sure liquid was all below the neck by gently flicking the top.. that'll become a nice part of the prep ritual.

Used the alcohol wipes to grip the top and bottom and took a bit of pressure but I snapped it fairly clean. Didn't drop any of the precious nectar.

And whacked it in slow and steady

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And of course I didn't forget about my old friends just because a hot new chick turns up

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You guys are coming too

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I absolutely love the colour of this Test E from AUStarLabs. There's some more testosterone bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

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Fuck yeah, life is fucking good. Every day things are moving forward in the right direction. I'm happy, I have energy to spare and love to give. I feel like going out and flinging wads of rainbow jjzz into the world.

This summer is gonna be awesome. The woman in a 50 mile radius around my van don't know it yet, but they're gonna have an awesome time this summer too

The retatrutide is working more now though, @HarleyGuy is right I think, it's tolerance starting to build. I've pushed up to more like 2.5mg a week with the shot today. I'll calculate exactly how much for the next shot.

I thought I'd try low fat milk and bought a litre for coffee. I had a few with no problems yesterday but this morning number three isn't sitting well. The litre is almost finished and won't get another but a sign the reta is still at least somewhat still okay despite my mistake reconstituting it.

Had carbs before and after the gym - had 101g of protien in a five egg and whey shake to wash down this half finished bowl of rice and tuna:

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Then when I got home just after 1am I had the rest of the sourdough and tuna, a two ingredient meal! First chewing and now this... I need more retatrutide.

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I always forget to weigh myself first and I had about a litre of water in the half hour I was screwing around on my phone with it plugged into the wall charging prior to lifting so I could listen to the Evo podcast while lifting.

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I listened to the episode about how to improve your bench-press first:

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I had a lot on my mind last night so just went for my machine version of the @2G2B upper stack.
The R18 gym I go to has three Nautilus machines in a row: biceps curl, chest press and shoulder press and I do a form of supersetting I guess where I do 3 sets of 12 on each in total but go from one to the next and do three laps.

This let's me cut down the rest time to 30 seconds pretty easily. I think it's easier than doing them one at a time. I sometimes add a forth thing to the rotation, shrugs or eazy-bar preacher curls.

Got it my ten minutes on the stairmaster at intensity level 8, but i was seriously watching the clock and ready to bail soon after I noticed 10 minutes was up.

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Biceps Curl

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Chest Press

I was trying to be lazy and do a light 23kg on all but the pins on these Nautilus machines work differently than the Startrack machines at the gym across the road and I atcually had it on 36kg. It was hard but I managed, surprised myself atcually.

36kg x 12
36kg x 12
36kg x 12

Shoulder Press

23kg x 12
23kg x 12
27kg x 12

Dumbbell Shrugs

16kg x 12
18kg x 12
18kg x 12

Ab Crunches

23kg x 20
23kg x 25

Then hit the showers, still doing those daily, but it was past midnight so I skipped the massage chair. Been really slack with that lately.

Fuck yeah.

What a fucking day

Such an awesome log entry. Love the 'day in the life' that they give us. I mean, who doesn't dream of fucking off from corporate life and living a simple life.

I really surprised you guys don't have private blood testing. We've had it over here for at least 10 years and we're not exactly progressive.

 

[waggat]

Aww thanks a lot brother, I really appreciate your support

I totally agree about tuna, so easy to eat. Eating fish is usually an ordeal but their macros are flat out amazing. I'm trying to overcome a mental barrier to step up my fish game. I can get big 440g cans of mackerel for like $2.20 and the macros are just amazing, but in my head I've built it up to be gross and I haven't even tried it. If I can mix it with rice and drown in salt it'll be great financially and for macro goodness check it out:

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I'll try out adding in drop sets and planks tonight and get back to you about it tomorrow

Never tried the tinned mackerel. Can understand your hesitation. I don't mind sardines, particularly on toast.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Such an awesome log entry. Love the 'day in the life' that they give us. I mean, who doesn't dream of fucking off from corporate life and living a simple life.

I really surprised you guys don't have private blood testing. We've had it over here for at least 10 years and we're not exactly progressive.

Thanks bro, I appreciate that yeah I think it's even worse in Australia generally thought. I've had mixed results. You need referrals even more so than here I think. Like I've got really flat feet and wear orthotics in my shoes and had a clay mould of them and I just wanted to get some of those made up so go to place, he laughs at me like I'm stupid for just turning up with my moulds and not a mountain of paperwork and so I went to a GP which as $80 just for signing in where I had to let them weigh and measure me on a separate appointment then the real one was $120 just to get a referral which he wrote down off the bit of paper I bought in with the first cunt's address on it. So im $200 down just to start talking to this guy, who called my moulds "unofficial". I was so fucked off I biffed his gay parker pen with his name etched on it out the window into the river when he wasent looking. Broke a few other things that looked about $200 worth and then he used the same lazer machine the dude in Veitnam had. I'll spare you the rest of the details but I paid $1800 for them in the end and they weren't any better than the veitnamese ones, wish I didn't loose them. I think all Australians should go to Veitnam for medical shit, they're atcually competent over there and everyone has an atcual purpose not just trying to get a clip of the ticket they don't deserve. My parents go every year and had full sets of teeth implants that cost them the same as what I was quoted with one. Cost more to get one tooth pulled out with pliers in Australia than their implanta did..

 

[waggat]

Thanks bro, I appreciate that yeah I think it's even worse in Australia generally thought. I've had mixed results. You need referrals even more so than here I think. Like I've got really flat feet and wear orthotics in my shoes and had a clay mould of them and I just wanted to get some of those made up so go to place, he laughs at me like I'm stupid for just turning up with my moulds and not a mountain of paperwork and so I went to a GP which as $80 just for signing in where I had to let them weigh and measure me on a separate appointment then the real one was $120 just to get a referral which he wrote down off the bit of paper I bought in with the first cunt's address on it. So im $200 down just to start talking to this guy, who called my moulds "unofficial". I was so fucked off I biffed his gay parker pen with his name etched on it out the window into the river when he wasent looking. Broke a few other things that looked about $200 worth and then he used the same lazer machine the dude in Veitnam had. I'll spare you the rest of the details but I paid $1800 for them in the end and they weren't any better than the veitnamese ones, wish I didn't loose them. I think all Australians should go to Veitnam for medical shit, they're atcually competent over there and everyone has an atcual purpose not just trying to get a clip of the ticket they don't deserve. My parents go every year and had full sets of teeth implants that cost them the same as what I was quoted with one. Cost more to get one tooth pulled out with pliers in Australia than their implanta did..

Yeah medical holidays particularly for dental are pretty popular.

I love that you chucked the guys pen out the window

 

[LevButlerov]

This triggered the idea to put tons of my rock and pink salt mix into the tuna and mix it up to make it more addictive. It was salty as fuck, my mouth was watering it was crazy. Got the salty taste all over my lips and shit. New method of getting tons of salt down for electrolytes that also makes tuna almost bingeable. I'll get more and smash it

isn't the tuna salty already? lol @vanlife_gymbum
if you got high sodium tuna, adjust your daily salt intake please

 

[LevButlerov]

Aww thanks a lot brother, I really appreciate your support

I totally agree about tuna, so easy to eat. Eating fish is usually an ordeal but their macros are flat out amazing. I'm trying to overcome a mental barrier to step up my fish game. I can get big 440g cans of mackerel for like $2.20 and the macros are just amazing, but in my head I've built it up to be gross and I haven't even tried it. If I can mix it with rice and drown in salt it'll be great financially and for macro goodness check it out:

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I'll try out adding in drop sets and planks tonight and get back to you about it tomorrow

Sodium is pretty high but not too bad, can you wash it out before eating? to get the salt out? @vanlife_gymbum

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Day 57: Protien & Creatine Re-Up
half-assed poorman's n2guard
​

Now I've had some of my drive and motivation return I can manage more basic tasks and and slowly trying to sort out the two fucked vans I have on the other side of the park in addition to my van. So I reached out to my ex-girlfriend about getting my shit back.

The sunset was stunning, the beach is at the end of the road you can see there, I'm standing where my van is usually parked but I have a fence to hide from the wind behind, else sandstorms come and sand gets in everywhere.

In my first van that got stolen I used to park right at the beach but after a year of that there was sand fucking everywhere. Glad I didn't have to deal with that in the end.

I just know I'm going to shag my ex-girlfriend next week. God damn testosterone, I feel powerless to stop it but ah well, a friendly party to evaluate weather my shit still works will be good I guess. Wonder what she's going to think of my changes, I last saw her on January 8th, after walking out at a brisk pace on December 28th.

We haven't really talked this year, apart from some half assed plans to swap stuff back. I have her Mazda MPV still, which is a giant pain in the ass and I hope people haven't clicked that it's mine, as that's really pushing my luck having two fucked SUVs and a fucked van.

I reached out and she apologised for the radio silence I was secretly thankful for but accepted that and we made plans to meet up next week.

I told her to come over here so we can evaluate the situation and make plans to solve them but I'm instead going to ask vanbum lady for a jumpstart and go and pick her up because that would let me have a first crack at her hoarding pile and grab the laptops and juggling clubs and other things I want the most.

Can't even remember what stuff I have anymore, it was all in boxes when I lived at her record store already so some things I haven't seen since my parents place in early 2022.

Things I remember:

• Book collection​
• Heavy Metal CDs​
• Hippy outfits​
• Business attire soon to be missing sleeves​
• Stab resistant leather jacket​
• Kitchen gear from old van​
• Slow cooker, Dutch oven​
• LED juggling balls and fire clubs​
• R.M. Williams Boots from Australia - all partners at the big 4 have these and tho I was just a lowly director I got some too. They were $800. Classic Australian (now American owned ) brand though. I got an Akubra hat too as a souvenir.​
• Four laptops​
• Three Raspberry PIs with ARM CPUs​
• Low-power USB screen​
• Mechanical keyboard collection​
• Two old style flat screen monitors - my friend recently gave me a dual-screen wall mounting bracket so if I bolt tjar into the side of the van I will have an appropriate monitors for:​
  • Poorman's Karaoke machine - thanks to @HarleyGuy for the idea. Might save me from having to sit through another season of Love Island with Tinder girls, though Sober-karaoke could just as easily backfire, neither of us has checked
  • Swinging around to watch TV in bed - I need to move the bed to the opposite end of the van, I suddenly thought the other night if I get rare ended I probably won't survive as I'd take the entire impact, and there's a high chance of getting rare ended since I park on roads a lot.
  • Sitting down at my Raspberry PI Linux ARMv6 machine, full keyboard, full-screen'd command line terminals on both screens with the knowledge and hardware to tackle any problem the internet could throw at me. I haven't used a proper computer since last year and I'm itching to hack on some shit. I want to make a few little tools to organise my log better and alert me to log entries from guys on the sister sites like @ceo , @2Thick and @ballin2504
• Collection of mechanical vaporisers that could potentially be sold for steriod money. I got somewhat addicted to buying these when I first got sober. Also quit smoking after 20 years with them and learnt a lot about power, ohms law and metal work, cnc machines and metal-lathes. Artificial flavors and making juice taught me a lot too. Easily spent $20k AUD and some of these are rare. The Kennedy 25 should be worth a bit now Kennedy has been shut down by the US Government. It's beautiful and made of copper. Real high maintenance but if you're buying a copper mechanical vape you're probably down for that anyway. So might be able to get a few hundred back

I'm close to having a industrial grade power system in my van and want my computers back. That alone will make me a better Evo Logger. I have three nice laptops, including the $9000 AUD one my last Big 4 finance employer gifted me. I think that's what happened, definitely how I remember it. That has 64GB of RAM and is 5 years old and is insanely spec'd but uses a lot of power.

It has a clever system of two inbuilt graphics cards, one a big full GPU gamer type card and the regular type and a switch, so the GPU stays off most the time unless you're playing games or cracking passwords or mining bitcoin with the GPU. I haven't played a game since Street Fighter II in the 90s, and I don't mine bitcoin.

If you think I use too much text now, wait until I get my keyboard back. I can type faster than I can think with 98% accuracy, so aren't slowed down by any filters that catch things as I'm fat fingering them into the phone at a painfully slow rate.

I'll also be able to write scripts and little programs again and will build and index or table of contents for my log with direct links so you can ignore more of my posts and get to the one you want

I found a nice faux-leather office chair with a FREE sign on it the other day and now that's piled on my bed. I have access to the workshop on the steamship which has a wood lathe and bench mounted saws and shit so I can make a nice desk and have a proper little van-office for my Evo activities! Just gotta get some screens.

I had to go into the city to check on the ship this morning. Nice they reached out to me to go, they either have prior engagements or trust me more now. There's a weather red warning for tomorrow with high winds blowing at the ship so I'm gonna be on call. Might have to abandon squats mid set and go watch the ship sink or, I'm not sure what I'm suppost to do about anything but I'll be there anyway.

I'm feeling really great I got everything going with my cycle finally. Still a few kinks to iron out, I was getting a bit ahead of myself and was starting to forget I need to maintain the baseline. That means getting whey and eggs.

On the dole they give you an extra $30 a week to spend on electricity or blankets, but now the weather is coming right they took it away. I forgot about it and from this week I get $320 NZD a week ($183.72 USD today) and my 5lbs tub of ON Gold Whey powder is $175 and eggs about $15 a day on average, depending on what I can get and what's on sale.

Have been out of creatine for a few weeks and got more of that too. Managed to get the banana flavor again thankfully, chocolate and cookies and cream flavors were a mistake. I was hoping to keep some on hand for when I have big girls over and they get hungry but oh well, I'll explain to them what a banana is first and sure I can sell them on the idea of trying it.

They're really nice with an atcual banana, I made one for vanbum lady the other day and didn't mention the 5 eggs and she loved it.

I've been getting through these, had all 4 after 7pm. Looked like a bomb site with egg shells and banana skins all over the place.. I usually have some standards at least...

Had bananas in all them just because they were nice, and stopped 2 hours before squats and my stomach was good by the time I got to the gym.

Getting the EQ wiped me out financially last week and I couldn't get more protein powder and ended up using the little bits from the past tubs to get through the week without dipping below 400g protein a day. Have to protect my PROTIEN KING forum badge - it means more to me than woman and employment.

I'm happy 250mg of Equipoise is in my ass with its long esters doing their thing, don't need to worry about that again until Monday and I have 9 more 250mg ampules, 9 weeks worth.

So last night I restocked my whey and egg supplies and got a bunch of bananas imported from fucking Ecuador which I didn't notice until I was back home. Argh. Also got some apples but didn't look where they were from. Got a kilo of rice left in the bag too I recon.
Gonna start using food banks soon, I need some more money free to get supplements.

New organic outdoor eggs have a nice colour to my eyes

Shipping was too mich for n2guard but I really wanted to get that. I understand that's Ricky the podcast guy's company? Would love to support that guy if I could. Is he still around? If so how can I follow him? Love that guy's vibe and opinions and he has a cool voice & accent too

This is all I could manage at the warehouse sized supplement store. There's a place I found online that has straight TUDCA for $60 a bottle, gonna add that to these and continue my search for sources of that kind of thing:

Been trying to get small amounts of carbs in before and after training as recommended by @LevButlerov - also will re-evaluate my salt intake and do some calculations. I thought I was going up not down, I've been having a heaped spoonful and washing it down with the @HarleyGuy juice.

I believe you need to be more mindful of salt when on carnivore type diets. All processed food contains lots and it all adds up but when you remove factory food completely you need to start getting it elsewhere. I think factory food hijacks your taste senses and makes them useless.

I also believe the term "salt to taste" has a deeper meaning and once you've done a pallet reset from at least a month on carnivore you can "salt to taste" and when it's nearly too much go with that, you'll notice if you try a few days later with the same amount it'll taste different.

I add salt to meat I'm cooking but that's about it, I was making an effort to add more of it to more things.

I was a little frustrated about something and decided I wanted to clear my head at the gym and left my phone and bag and all my shit I usually charge up and just went and did bar squats until I'd had enough.

The 7mg patches aren't enough, gotta go back to 14mg for a while. I had a few of the old ones just took off before sleep and stuck to the wall next to my bed on. Got nic sick doing this so only got one big one and one little one now. Just making sure they work still

Everything is on track with the new bottle of Test E from Rob at AUStarLabs, I can't get enough of the colour of it. The Nectar of the Man-Gods!

More bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Ten minute stairmaster warmup again, so glad I switched, this machine is hardcore. Gonna take a while to tame that beast:

Bar Squats

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

10 minutes at least looking at my textbook, wasent warm anymore, whoops.

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Ab Crunch Machine

23kg x 20
23kg x 20

Was planning to do the massage chair post sports recovery routine but it was after midnight a day I want to get my sleep fixed again so I can go to the 6:15am assault bike class.

I joined a yoga studio recently to try more @stevesmi techniques out but haven't been to a class yet. I got a mat with some hippy shit and love hearts

Soon I'll have my morning cardio fixed. Haven't missed my hour fasted walk lately. Not going into crippling opiod withdrawl by taking my morning methadone dose provides sufficient motivation to walk to go get it

 

[LevButlerov]

Day 57: Protien & Creatine Re-Up
half-assed poorman's n2guard
​

Now I've had some of my drive and motivation return I can manage more basic tasks and and slowly trying to sort out the two fucked vans I have on the other side of the park in addition to my van. So I reached out to my ex-girlfriend about getting my shit back.

The sunset was stunning, the beach is at the end of the road you can see there, I'm standing where my van is usually parked but I have a fence to hide from the wind behind, else sandstorms come and sand gets in everywhere.

In my first van that got stolen I used to park right at the beach but after a year of that there was sand fucking everywhere. Glad I didn't have to deal with that in the end.

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I just know I'm going to shag my ex-girlfriend next week. God damn testosterone, I feel powerless to stop it but ah well, a friendly party to evaluate weather my shit still works will be good I guess. Wonder what she's going to think of my changes, I last saw her on January 8th, after walking out at a brisk pace on December 28th.

We haven't really talked this year, apart from some half assed plans to swap stuff back. I have her Mazda MPV still, which is a giant pain in the ass and I hope people haven't clicked that it's mine, as that's really pushing my luck having two fucked SUVs and a fucked van.

I reached out and she apologised for the radio silence I was secretly thankful for but accepted that and we made plans to meet up next week.

I told her to come over here so we can evaluate the situation and make plans to solve them but I'm instead going to ask vanbum lady for a jumpstart and go and pick her up because that would let me have a first crack at her hoarding pile and grab the laptops and juggling clubs and other things I want the most.

Can't even remember what stuff I have anymore, it was all in boxes when I lived at her record store already so some things I haven't seen since my parents place in early 2022.

Things I remember:

• Book collection​
• Heavy Metal CDs​
• Hippy outfits​
• Business attire soon to be missing sleeves​
• Stab resistant leather jacket​
• Kitchen gear from old van​
• Slow cooker, Dutch oven​
• LED juggling balls and fire clubs​
• R.M. Williams Boots from Australia - all partners at the big 4 have these and tho I was just a lowly director I got some too. They were $800. Classic Australian (now American owned ) brand though. I got an Akubra hat too as a souvenir.​
• Four laptops​
• Three Raspberry PIs with ARM CPUs​
• Low-power USB screen​
• Mechanical keyboard collection​
• Two old style flat screen monitors - my friend recently gave me a dual-screen wall mounting bracket so if I bolt tjar into the side of the van I will have an appropriate monitors for:​
  • Poorman's Karaoke machine - thanks to @HarleyGuy for the idea. Might save me from having to sit through another season of Love Island with Tinder girls, though Sober-karaoke could just as easily backfire, neither of us has checked
  • Swinging around to watch TV in bed - I need to move the bed to the opposite end of the van, I suddenly thought the other night if I get rare ended I probably won't survive as I'd take the entire impact, and there's a high chance of getting rare ended since I park on roads a lot.
  • Sitting down at my Raspberry PI Linux ARMv6 machine, full keyboard, full-screen'd command line terminals on both screens with the knowledge and hardware to tackle any problem the internet could throw at me. I haven't used a proper computer since last year and I'm itching to hack on some shit. I want to make a few little tools to organise my log better and alert me to log entries from guys on the sister sites like @ceo , @2Thick and @ballin2504
• Collection of mechanical vaporisers that could potentially be sold for steriod money. I got somewhat addicted to buying these when I first got sober. Also quit smoking after 20 years with them and learnt a lot about power, ohms law and metal work, cnc machines and metal-lathes. Artificial flavors and making juice taught me a lot too. Easily spent $20k AUD and some of these are rare. The Kennedy 25 should be worth a bit now Kennedy has been shut down by the US Government. It's beautiful and made of copper. Real high maintenance but if you're buying a copper mechanical vape you're probably down for that anyway. So might be able to get a few hundred back

I'm close to having a industrial grade power system in my van and want my computers back. That alone will make me a better Evo Logger. I have three nice laptops, including the $9000 AUD one my last Big 4 finance employer gifted me. I think that's what happened, definitely how I remember it. That has 64GB of RAM and is 5 years old and is insanely spec'd but uses a lot of power.

It has a clever system of two inbuilt graphics cards, one a big full GPU gamer type card and the regular type and a switch, so the GPU stays off most the time unless you're playing games or cracking passwords or mining bitcoin with the GPU. I haven't played a game since Street Fighter II in the 90s, and I don't mine bitcoin.

If you think I use too much text now, wait until I get my keyboard back. I can type faster than I can think with 98% accuracy, so aren't slowed down by any filters that catch things as I'm fat fingering them into the phone at a painfully slow rate.

I'll also be able to write scripts and little programs again and will build and index or table of contents for my log with direct links so you can ignore more of my posts and get to the one you want

I found a nice faux-leather office chair with a FREE sign on it the other day and now that's piled on my bed. I have access to the workshop on the steamship which has a wood lathe and bench mounted saws and shit so I can make a nice desk and have a proper little van-office for my Evo activities! Just gotta get some screens.

I had to go into the city to check on the ship this morning. Nice they reached out to me to go, they either have prior engagements or trust me more now. There's a weather red warning for tomorrow with high winds blowing at the ship so I'm gonna be on call. Might have to abandon squats mid set and go watch the ship sink or, I'm not sure what I'm suppost to do about anything but I'll be there anyway.

I'm feeling really great I got everything going with my cycle finally. Still a few kinks to iron out, I was getting a bit ahead of myself and was starting to forget I need to maintain the baseline. That means getting whey and eggs.

On the dole they give you an extra $30 a week to spend on electricity or blankets, but now the weather is coming right they took it away. I forgot about it and from this week I get $320 NZD a week ($183.72 USD today) and my 5lbs tub of ON Gold Whey powder is $175 and eggs about $15 a day on average, depending on what I can get and what's on sale.

Have been out of creatine for a few weeks and got more of that too. Managed to get the banana flavor again thankfully, chocolate and cookies and cream flavors were a mistake. I was hoping to keep some on hand for when I have big girls over and they get hungry but oh well, I'll explain to them what a banana is first and sure I can sell them on the idea of trying it.

They're really nice with an atcual banana, I made one for vanbum lady the other day and didn't mention the 5 eggs and she loved it.

View attachment 132378

I've been getting through these, had all 4 after 7pm. Looked like a bomb site with egg shells and banana skins all over the place.. I usually have some standards at least...

View attachment 132382

Had bananas in all them just because they were nice, and stopped 2 hours before squats and my stomach was good by the time I got to the gym.

View attachment 132381

Getting the EQ wiped me out financially last week and I couldn't get more protein powder and ended up using the little bits from the past tubs to get through the week without dipping below 400g protein a day. Have to protect my PROTIEN KING forum badge - it means more to me than woman and employment.

I'm happy 250mg of Equipoise is in my ass with its long esters doing their thing, don't need to worry about that again until Monday and I have 9 more 250mg ampules, 9 weeks worth.

So last night I restocked my whey and egg supplies and got a bunch of bananas imported from fucking Ecuador which I didn't notice until I was back home. Argh. Also got some apples but didn't look where they were from. Got a kilo of rice left in the bag too I recon.
Gonna start using food banks soon, I need some more money free to get supplements.

New organic outdoor eggs have a nice colour to my eyes

View attachment 132389

Shipping was too mich for n2guard but I really wanted to get that. I understand that's Ricky the podcast guy's company? Would love to support that guy if I could. Is he still around? If so how can I follow him? Love that guy's vibe and opinions and he has a cool voice & accent too

This is all I could manage at the warehouse sized supplement store. There's a place I found online that has straight TUDCA for $60 a bottle, gonna add that to these and continue my search for sources of that kind of thing:

View attachment 132367

View attachment 132370

Been trying to get small amounts of carbs in before and after training as recommended by @LevButlerov - also will re-evaluate my salt intake and do some calculations. I thought I was going up not down, I've been having a heaped spoonful and washing it down with the @HarleyGuy juice.

I believe you need to be more mindful of salt when on carnivore type diets. All processed food contains lots and it all adds up but when you remove factory food completely you need to start getting it elsewhere. I think factory food hijacks your taste senses and makes them useless.

I also believe the term "salt to taste" has a deeper meaning and once you've done a pallet reset from at least a month on carnivore you can "salt to taste" and when it's nearly too much go with that, you'll notice if you try a few days later with the same amount it'll taste different.

I add salt to meat I'm cooking but that's about it, I was making an effort to add more of it to more things.

I was a little frustrated about something and decided I wanted to clear my head at the gym and left my phone and bag and all my shit I usually charge up and just went and did bar squats until I'd had enough.

The 7mg patches aren't enough, gotta go back to 14mg for a while. I had a few of the old ones just took off before sleep and stuck to the wall next to my bed on. Got nic sick doing this so only got one big one and one little one now. Just making sure they work still

View attachment 132388

Everything is on track with the new bottle of Test E from Rob at AUStarLabs, I can't get enough of the colour of it. The Nectar of the Man-Gods!

View attachment 132404

More bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Ten minute stairmaster warmup again, so glad I switched, this machine is hardcore. Gonna take a while to tame that beast:

View attachment 132386

Bar Squats

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

10 minutes at least looking at my textbook, wasent warm anymore, whoops.

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Ab Crunch Machine

23kg x 20
23kg x 20

Was planning to do the massage chair post sports recovery routine but it was after midnight a day I want to get my sleep fixed again so I can go to the 6:15am assault bike class.

I joined a yoga studio recently to try more @stevesmi techniques out but haven't been to a class yet. I got a mat with some hippy shit and love hearts

Soon I'll have my morning cardio fixed. Haven't missed my hour fasted walk lately. Not going into crippling opiod withdrawl by taking my morning methadone dose provides sufficient motivation to walk to go get it

You’ve got a lot going on, but you’re handling it in stride and that’s what counts. Sorting vans, reconnecting with the ex, and trying to stabilize your setup all while staying on cycle isn’t easy, but you’re keeping focus where it matters. EVO family respect your way! @vanlife_gymbum

That sunset photo and beach setup looks like a solid reset point too, kind of a new though and a new way.

Good that you restocked the whey, eggs, and creatine since protein been your anchor through all this. Always love your food pics, hardcore

Keep the EQ steady at 250 mg weekly, and stay consistent on the Test E. You’re in a solid rhythm with cardio and squats now, don’t rush the heavier work until recovery feels perfect again. You don't want hard injuries, so slow is the way trust me.

Once the laptop and van office are up, you’ll be able to log better and track your compounds, diet, and lifts more precisely. That’ll make your updates better and much easier to actually get work done too. going to be a sweet look to it I bet

Overall 10 out of 10 on detail with your log our EVO brother, thanks for sharing!

 

[Allupfromhere]

Bro with it seems like life just loves throwing hurdles in your path and yet still you tear through them like a napalm wave of positivity and happiness. Its a rare trait to be able to always be looking at the glass half full rather then half empty and you to this better then most people i have come across my entire life.

I really love and respect how much your recovery means to you and how it impacts people close to you. I try not to, because i wish i could take it all back, but sometimes i sit back a really reflect on damage i had done to my loved ones through self abuse in my younger years, it just continues to confirm who i really am today and not imprisoned for life again decisions and mistakes i had made earlier on.
I was only just mentioning similar things to @HarleyGuy earlier today from listening to both his podcasts.


I really am happy for you brother and where you life is headed because of your Commitment and drive for a better direction. It really is inspiring how easy you make it all look!

Keen to see you light it up on this cycle bro, its only up from here

 

[HarleyGuy]

Bro with it seems like life just loves throwing hurdles in your path and yet still you tear through them like a napalm wave of positivity and happiness. Its a rare trait to be able to always be looking at the glass half full rather then half empty and you to this better then most people i have come across my entire life.

I really love and respect how much your recovery means to you and how it impacts people close to you. I try not to, because i wish i could take it all back, but sometimes i sit back a really reflect on damage i had done to my loved ones through self abuse in my younger years, it just continues to confirm who i really am today and not imprisoned for life again decisions and mistakes i had made earlier on.
I was only just mentioning similar things to @HarleyGuy earlier today from listening to both his podcasts.


I really am happy for you brother and where you life is headed because of your Commitment and drive for a better direction. It really is inspiring how easy you make it all look!

Keen to see you light it up on this cycle bro, its only up from here

THIS is what makes EVO different and stand out from any other forum out there! There's not enough EVO in the world today I think that's obvious. Much love and respect to @Allupfromhere and @vanlife_gymbum for putting out good energy and love into the ether!

 

[Allupfromhere]

THIS is what makes EVO different and stand out from any other forum out there! There's not enough EVO in the world today I think that's obvious. Much love and respect to @Allupfromhere and @vanlife_gymbum for putting out good energy and love into the ether!

brother! Its why i enjoy spending time on here so much. The crew just going through life trying to be better then last week and all getting around eachother to help make it happen for everyone. It got a little flat there for a while but this year i feel evo has really ramped up again with people like yourself, @BeMe, @vanlife_gymbum, @toddthelineman and @LevButlerov bringing back the big interaction and conversations to heaps of logs. Even seeing so many of the newer crew and there logs firing up getting amongst eachother logs for some support and positivity.
I have a great feeling 2026 gonna be huge for the platform and solid interaction with all the logs rather then just a quick workout update.
The community discussion threads have been great for this and getting more members involved in constructive discussions and i believe this is a positive forecasts for the direction its heading. Big shoutout to yourself and Lev for being at the front of that

Too much toxicity out in the world so its nice to enjoy a place that is almost immune to it.

 

[Mobster]

When I had my head up my ass in 2011 I left a LOT of stuff where the f**k it was. Going back 9 months later I didn't sweat what I couldn't get (much) as it couldn't have been that important and was replaceable

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

New @BeMe Podcast Interview!!
Episode #629 ​

Interview with Mod "@BeMe" Part 2!

@BeMe being interviewed by @stevesmi and @Mobster - talking through forum logs again and shooting the shit just like with @HarleyGuy the other day, very cool!!

I love this idea!! Nice work guys!!

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[Allupfromhere]

Its a good change in style to the podcasts to swap things up

 

[stevesmi]

Day 57: Protien & Creatine Re-Up
half-assed poorman's n2guard
​

Now I've had some of my drive and motivation return I can manage more basic tasks and and slowly trying to sort out the two fucked vans I have on the other side of the park in addition to my van. So I reached out to my ex-girlfriend about getting my shit back.

The sunset was stunning, the beach is at the end of the road you can see there, I'm standing where my van is usually parked but I have a fence to hide from the wind behind, else sandstorms come and sand gets in everywhere.

In my first van that got stolen I used to park right at the beach but after a year of that there was sand fucking everywhere. Glad I didn't have to deal with that in the end.

View attachment 132377

I just know I'm going to shag my ex-girlfriend next week. God damn testosterone, I feel powerless to stop it but ah well, a friendly party to evaluate weather my shit still works will be good I guess. Wonder what she's going to think of my changes, I last saw her on January 8th, after walking out at a brisk pace on December 28th.

We haven't really talked this year, apart from some half assed plans to swap stuff back. I have her Mazda MPV still, which is a giant pain in the ass and I hope people haven't clicked that it's mine, as that's really pushing my luck having two fucked SUVs and a fucked van.

I reached out and she apologised for the radio silence I was secretly thankful for but accepted that and we made plans to meet up next week.

I told her to come over here so we can evaluate the situation and make plans to solve them but I'm instead going to ask vanbum lady for a jumpstart and go and pick her up because that would let me have a first crack at her hoarding pile and grab the laptops and juggling clubs and other things I want the most.

Can't even remember what stuff I have anymore, it was all in boxes when I lived at her record store already so some things I haven't seen since my parents place in early 2022.

Things I remember:

• Book collection​
• Heavy Metal CDs​
• Hippy outfits​
• Business attire soon to be missing sleeves​
• Stab resistant leather jacket​
• Kitchen gear from old van​
• Slow cooker, Dutch oven​
• LED juggling balls and fire clubs​
• R.M. Williams Boots from Australia - all partners at the big 4 have these and tho I was just a lowly director I got some too. They were $800. Classic Australian (now American owned ) brand though. I got an Akubra hat too as a souvenir.​
• Four laptops​
• Three Raspberry PIs with ARM CPUs​
• Low-power USB screen​
• Mechanical keyboard collection​
• Two old style flat screen monitors - my friend recently gave me a dual-screen wall mounting bracket so if I bolt tjar into the side of the van I will have an appropriate monitors for:​
  • Poorman's Karaoke machine - thanks to @HarleyGuy for the idea. Might save me from having to sit through another season of Love Island with Tinder girls, though Sober-karaoke could just as easily backfire, neither of us has checked
  • Swinging around to watch TV in bed - I need to move the bed to the opposite end of the van, I suddenly thought the other night if I get rare ended I probably won't survive as I'd take the entire impact, and there's a high chance of getting rare ended since I park on roads a lot.
  • Sitting down at my Raspberry PI Linux ARMv6 machine, full keyboard, full-screen'd command line terminals on both screens with the knowledge and hardware to tackle any problem the internet could throw at me. I haven't used a proper computer since last year and I'm itching to hack on some shit. I want to make a few little tools to organise my log better and alert me to log entries from guys on the sister sites like @ceo , @2Thick and @ballin2504
• Collection of mechanical vaporisers that could potentially be sold for steriod money. I got somewhat addicted to buying these when I first got sober. Also quit smoking after 20 years with them and learnt a lot about power, ohms law and metal work, cnc machines and metal-lathes. Artificial flavors and making juice taught me a lot too. Easily spent $20k AUD and some of these are rare. The Kennedy 25 should be worth a bit now Kennedy has been shut down by the US Government. It's beautiful and made of copper. Real high maintenance but if you're buying a copper mechanical vape you're probably down for that anyway. So might be able to get a few hundred back

I'm close to having a industrial grade power system in my van and want my computers back. That alone will make me a better Evo Logger. I have three nice laptops, including the $9000 AUD one my last Big 4 finance employer gifted me. I think that's what happened, definitely how I remember it. That has 64GB of RAM and is 5 years old and is insanely spec'd but uses a lot of power.

It has a clever system of two inbuilt graphics cards, one a big full GPU gamer type card and the regular type and a switch, so the GPU stays off most the time unless you're playing games or cracking passwords or mining bitcoin with the GPU. I haven't played a game since Street Fighter II in the 90s, and I don't mine bitcoin.

If you think I use too much text now, wait until I get my keyboard back. I can type faster than I can think with 98% accuracy, so aren't slowed down by any filters that catch things as I'm fat fingering them into the phone at a painfully slow rate.

I'll also be able to write scripts and little programs again and will build and index or table of contents for my log with direct links so you can ignore more of my posts and get to the one you want

I found a nice faux-leather office chair with a FREE sign on it the other day and now that's piled on my bed. I have access to the workshop on the steamship which has a wood lathe and bench mounted saws and shit so I can make a nice desk and have a proper little van-office for my Evo activities! Just gotta get some screens.

I had to go into the city to check on the ship this morning. Nice they reached out to me to go, they either have prior engagements or trust me more now. There's a weather red warning for tomorrow with high winds blowing at the ship so I'm gonna be on call. Might have to abandon squats mid set and go watch the ship sink or, I'm not sure what I'm suppost to do about anything but I'll be there anyway.

I'm feeling really great I got everything going with my cycle finally. Still a few kinks to iron out, I was getting a bit ahead of myself and was starting to forget I need to maintain the baseline. That means getting whey and eggs.

On the dole they give you an extra $30 a week to spend on electricity or blankets, but now the weather is coming right they took it away. I forgot about it and from this week I get $320 NZD a week ($183.72 USD today) and my 5lbs tub of ON Gold Whey powder is $175 and eggs about $15 a day on average, depending on what I can get and what's on sale.

Have been out of creatine for a few weeks and got more of that too. Managed to get the banana flavor again thankfully, chocolate and cookies and cream flavors were a mistake. I was hoping to keep some on hand for when I have big girls over and they get hungry but oh well, I'll explain to them what a banana is first and sure I can sell them on the idea of trying it.

They're really nice with an atcual banana, I made one for vanbum lady the other day and didn't mention the 5 eggs and she loved it.

View attachment 132378

I've been getting through these, had all 4 after 7pm. Looked like a bomb site with egg shells and banana skins all over the place.. I usually have some standards at least...

View attachment 132382

Had bananas in all them just because they were nice, and stopped 2 hours before squats and my stomach was good by the time I got to the gym.

View attachment 132381

Getting the EQ wiped me out financially last week and I couldn't get more protein powder and ended up using the little bits from the past tubs to get through the week without dipping below 400g protein a day. Have to protect my PROTIEN KING forum badge - it means more to me than woman and employment.

I'm happy 250mg of Equipoise is in my ass with its long esters doing their thing, don't need to worry about that again until Monday and I have 9 more 250mg ampules, 9 weeks worth.

So last night I restocked my whey and egg supplies and got a bunch of bananas imported from fucking Ecuador which I didn't notice until I was back home. Argh. Also got some apples but didn't look where they were from. Got a kilo of rice left in the bag too I recon.
Gonna start using food banks soon, I need some more money free to get supplements.

New organic outdoor eggs have a nice colour to my eyes

View attachment 132389

Shipping was too mich for n2guard but I really wanted to get that. I understand that's Ricky the podcast guy's company? Would love to support that guy if I could. Is he still around? If so how can I follow him? Love that guy's vibe and opinions and he has a cool voice & accent too

This is all I could manage at the warehouse sized supplement store. There's a place I found online that has straight TUDCA for $60 a bottle, gonna add that to these and continue my search for sources of that kind of thing:

View attachment 132367

View attachment 132370

Been trying to get small amounts of carbs in before and after training as recommended by @LevButlerov - also will re-evaluate my salt intake and do some calculations. I thought I was going up not down, I've been having a heaped spoonful and washing it down with the @HarleyGuy juice.

I believe you need to be more mindful of salt when on carnivore type diets. All processed food contains lots and it all adds up but when you remove factory food completely you need to start getting it elsewhere. I think factory food hijacks your taste senses and makes them useless.

I also believe the term "salt to taste" has a deeper meaning and once you've done a pallet reset from at least a month on carnivore you can "salt to taste" and when it's nearly too much go with that, you'll notice if you try a few days later with the same amount it'll taste different.

I add salt to meat I'm cooking but that's about it, I was making an effort to add more of it to more things.

I was a little frustrated about something and decided I wanted to clear my head at the gym and left my phone and bag and all my shit I usually charge up and just went and did bar squats until I'd had enough.

The 7mg patches aren't enough, gotta go back to 14mg for a while. I had a few of the old ones just took off before sleep and stuck to the wall next to my bed on. Got nic sick doing this so only got one big one and one little one now. Just making sure they work still

View attachment 132388

Everything is on track with the new bottle of Test E from Rob at AUStarLabs, I can't get enough of the colour of it. The Nectar of the Man-Gods!

View attachment 132404

More bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Ten minute stairmaster warmup again, so glad I switched, this machine is hardcore. Gonna take a while to tame that beast:

View attachment 132386

Bar Squats

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

10 minutes at least looking at my textbook, wasent warm anymore, whoops.

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Ab Crunch Machine

23kg x 20
23kg x 20

Was planning to do the massage chair post sports recovery routine but it was after midnight a day I want to get my sleep fixed again so I can go to the 6:15am assault bike class.

I joined a yoga studio recently to try more @stevesmi techniques out but haven't been to a class yet. I got a mat with some hippy shit and love hearts

Soon I'll have my morning cardio fixed. Haven't missed my hour fasted walk lately. Not going into crippling opiod withdrawl by taking my morning methadone dose provides sufficient motivation to walk to go get it

@vanlife_gymbum haha nice one on this update. always fun reading your updates. i agree on bananas. they are cheap and they always make everything taste better. i add them to my homemade protein bars

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

@vanlife_gymbum haha nice one on this update. always fun reading your updates. i agree on bananas. they are cheap and they always make everything taste better. i add them to my homemade protein bars

Thanks very much man

 

[Ulter]

Day 57: Protien & Creatine Re-Up
half-assed poorman's n2guard
​

Now I've had some of my drive and motivation return I can manage more basic tasks and and slowly trying to sort out the two fucked vans I have on the other side of the park in addition to my van. So I reached out to my ex-girlfriend about getting my shit back.

The sunset was stunning, the beach is at the end of the road you can see there, I'm standing where my van is usually parked but I have a fence to hide from the wind behind, else sandstorms come and sand gets in everywhere.

In my first van that got stolen I used to park right at the beach but after a year of that there was sand fucking everywhere. Glad I didn't have to deal with that in the end.

View attachment 132377

I just know I'm going to shag my ex-girlfriend next week. God damn testosterone, I feel powerless to stop it but ah well, a friendly party to evaluate weather my shit still works will be good I guess. Wonder what she's going to think of my changes, I last saw her on January 8th, after walking out at a brisk pace on December 28th.

We haven't really talked this year, apart from some half assed plans to swap stuff back. I have her Mazda MPV still, which is a giant pain in the ass and I hope people haven't clicked that it's mine, as that's really pushing my luck having two fucked SUVs and a fucked van.

I reached out and she apologised for the radio silence I was secretly thankful for but accepted that and we made plans to meet up next week.

I told her to come over here so we can evaluate the situation and make plans to solve them but I'm instead going to ask vanbum lady for a jumpstart and go and pick her up because that would let me have a first crack at her hoarding pile and grab the laptops and juggling clubs and other things I want the most.

Can't even remember what stuff I have anymore, it was all in boxes when I lived at her record store already so some things I haven't seen since my parents place in early 2022.

Things I remember:

• Book collection​
• Heavy Metal CDs​
• Hippy outfits​
• Business attire soon to be missing sleeves​
• Stab resistant leather jacket​
• Kitchen gear from old van​
• Slow cooker, Dutch oven​
• LED juggling balls and fire clubs​
• R.M. Williams Boots from Australia - all partners at the big 4 have these and tho I was just a lowly director I got some too. They were $800. Classic Australian (now American owned ) brand though. I got an Akubra hat too as a souvenir.​
• Four laptops​
• Three Raspberry PIs with ARM CPUs​
• Low-power USB screen​
• Mechanical keyboard collection​
• Two old style flat screen monitors - my friend recently gave me a dual-screen wall mounting bracket so if I bolt tjar into the side of the van I will have an appropriate monitors for:​
  • Poorman's Karaoke machine - thanks to @HarleyGuy for the idea. Might save me from having to sit through another season of Love Island with Tinder girls, though Sober-karaoke could just as easily backfire, neither of us has checked
  • Swinging around to watch TV in bed - I need to move the bed to the opposite end of the van, I suddenly thought the other night if I get rare ended I probably won't survive as I'd take the entire impact, and there's a high chance of getting rare ended since I park on roads a lot.
  • Sitting down at my Raspberry PI Linux ARMv6 machine, full keyboard, full-screen'd command line terminals on both screens with the knowledge and hardware to tackle any problem the internet could throw at me. I haven't used a proper computer since last year and I'm itching to hack on some shit. I want to make a few little tools to organise my log better and alert me to log entries from guys on the sister sites like @ceo , @2Thick and @ballin2504
• Collection of mechanical vaporisers that could potentially be sold for steriod money. I got somewhat addicted to buying these when I first got sober. Also quit smoking after 20 years with them and learnt a lot about power, ohms law and metal work, cnc machines and metal-lathes. Artificial flavors and making juice taught me a lot too. Easily spent $20k AUD and some of these are rare. The Kennedy 25 should be worth a bit now Kennedy has been shut down by the US Government. It's beautiful and made of copper. Real high maintenance but if you're buying a copper mechanical vape you're probably down for that anyway. So might be able to get a few hundred back

I'm close to having a industrial grade power system in my van and want my computers back. That alone will make me a better Evo Logger. I have three nice laptops, including the $9000 AUD one my last Big 4 finance employer gifted me. I think that's what happened, definitely how I remember it. That has 64GB of RAM and is 5 years old and is insanely spec'd but uses a lot of power.

It has a clever system of two inbuilt graphics cards, one a big full GPU gamer type card and the regular type and a switch, so the GPU stays off most the time unless you're playing games or cracking passwords or mining bitcoin with the GPU. I haven't played a game since Street Fighter II in the 90s, and I don't mine bitcoin.

If you think I use too much text now, wait until I get my keyboard back. I can type faster than I can think with 98% accuracy, so aren't slowed down by any filters that catch things as I'm fat fingering them into the phone at a painfully slow rate.

I'll also be able to write scripts and little programs again and will build and index or table of contents for my log with direct links so you can ignore more of my posts and get to the one you want

I found a nice faux-leather office chair with a FREE sign on it the other day and now that's piled on my bed. I have access to the workshop on the steamship which has a wood lathe and bench mounted saws and shit so I can make a nice desk and have a proper little van-office for my Evo activities! Just gotta get some screens.

I had to go into the city to check on the ship this morning. Nice they reached out to me to go, they either have prior engagements or trust me more now. There's a weather red warning for tomorrow with high winds blowing at the ship so I'm gonna be on call. Might have to abandon squats mid set and go watch the ship sink or, I'm not sure what I'm suppost to do about anything but I'll be there anyway.

I'm feeling really great I got everything going with my cycle finally. Still a few kinks to iron out, I was getting a bit ahead of myself and was starting to forget I need to maintain the baseline. That means getting whey and eggs.

On the dole they give you an extra $30 a week to spend on electricity or blankets, but now the weather is coming right they took it away. I forgot about it and from this week I get $320 NZD a week ($183.72 USD today) and my 5lbs tub of ON Gold Whey powder is $175 and eggs about $15 a day on average, depending on what I can get and what's on sale.

Have been out of creatine for a few weeks and got more of that too. Managed to get the banana flavor again thankfully, chocolate and cookies and cream flavors were a mistake. I was hoping to keep some on hand for when I have big girls over and they get hungry but oh well, I'll explain to them what a banana is first and sure I can sell them on the idea of trying it.

They're really nice with an atcual banana, I made one for vanbum lady the other day and didn't mention the 5 eggs and she loved it.

View attachment 132378

I've been getting through these, had all 4 after 7pm. Looked like a bomb site with egg shells and banana skins all over the place.. I usually have some standards at least...

View attachment 132382

Had bananas in all them just because they were nice, and stopped 2 hours before squats and my stomach was good by the time I got to the gym.

View attachment 132381

Getting the EQ wiped me out financially last week and I couldn't get more protein powder and ended up using the little bits from the past tubs to get through the week without dipping below 400g protein a day. Have to protect my PROTIEN KING forum badge - it means more to me than woman and employment.

I'm happy 250mg of Equipoise is in my ass with its long esters doing their thing, don't need to worry about that again until Monday and I have 9 more 250mg ampules, 9 weeks worth.

So last night I restocked my whey and egg supplies and got a bunch of bananas imported from fucking Ecuador which I didn't notice until I was back home. Argh. Also got some apples but didn't look where they were from. Got a kilo of rice left in the bag too I recon.
Gonna start using food banks soon, I need some more money free to get supplements.

New organic outdoor eggs have a nice colour to my eyes

View attachment 132389

Shipping was too mich for n2guard but I really wanted to get that. I understand that's Ricky the podcast guy's company? Would love to support that guy if I could. Is he still around? If so how can I follow him? Love that guy's vibe and opinions and he has a cool voice & accent too

This is all I could manage at the warehouse sized supplement store. There's a place I found online that has straight TUDCA for $60 a bottle, gonna add that to these and continue my search for sources of that kind of thing:

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Been trying to get small amounts of carbs in before and after training as recommended by @LevButlerov - also will re-evaluate my salt intake and do some calculations. I thought I was going up not down, I've been having a heaped spoonful and washing it down with the @HarleyGuy juice.

I believe you need to be more mindful of salt when on carnivore type diets. All processed food contains lots and it all adds up but when you remove factory food completely you need to start getting it elsewhere. I think factory food hijacks your taste senses and makes them useless.

I also believe the term "salt to taste" has a deeper meaning and once you've done a pallet reset from at least a month on carnivore you can "salt to taste" and when it's nearly too much go with that, you'll notice if you try a few days later with the same amount it'll taste different.

I add salt to meat I'm cooking but that's about it, I was making an effort to add more of it to more things.

I was a little frustrated about something and decided I wanted to clear my head at the gym and left my phone and bag and all my shit I usually charge up and just went and did bar squats until I'd had enough.

The 7mg patches aren't enough, gotta go back to 14mg for a while. I had a few of the old ones just took off before sleep and stuck to the wall next to my bed on. Got nic sick doing this so only got one big one and one little one now. Just making sure they work still

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Everything is on track with the new bottle of Test E from Rob at AUStarLabs, I can't get enough of the colour of it. The Nectar of the Man-Gods!

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More bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Ten minute stairmaster warmup again, so glad I switched, this machine is hardcore. Gonna take a while to tame that beast:

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Bar Squats

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

10 minutes at least looking at my textbook, wasent warm anymore, whoops.

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Ab Crunch Machine

23kg x 20
23kg x 20

Was planning to do the massage chair post sports recovery routine but it was after midnight a day I want to get my sleep fixed again so I can go to the 6:15am assault bike class.

I joined a yoga studio recently to try more @stevesmi techniques out but haven't been to a class yet. I got a mat with some hippy shit and love hearts

Soon I'll have my morning cardio fixed. Haven't missed my hour fasted walk lately. Not going into crippling opiod withdrawl by taking my morning methadone dose provides sufficient motivation to walk to go get it

Yeah, I know all about the whole thing. With the sand it's almost impossible to get wet sand out of your car. It really sticks to your carpet. That's why I recommend rubber mats. You should put them down this way. You're not scared of going to the beach. @vanlife_gymbum

 

[ceo]

New @BeMe Podcast Interview!!
Episode #629 ​

Interview with Mod "@BeMe" Part 2!

@BeMe being interviewed by @stevesmi and @Mobster - talking through forum logs again and shooting the shit just like with @HarleyGuy the other day, very cool!!

I love this idea!! Nice work guys!!

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Bros I loving these podcasts for sure super entertaining. @vanlife_gymbum Can't wait to see more episodes coming out. Always my favorite to do while I do cardio.

 

[2Thick]

Its a good change in style to the podcasts to swap things up

@vanlife_gymbum i'm sure can do a bunch of podcasts and has a lot of cool stuff to say as a guest interview. It's always good to see the guys on here talk about their progression. It motivates many people to do their own logs.

 

[ROIDDERS]

New @BeMe Podcast Interview!!
Episode #629 ​

Interview with Mod "@BeMe" Part 2!

@BeMe being interviewed by @stevesmi and @Mobster - talking through forum logs again and shooting the shit just like with @HarleyGuy the other day, very cool!!

I love this idea!! Nice work guys!!

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Can't wait to listen to your episode as well. Is it out yet? I'll have to check myself. @vanlife_gymbum

 

[waggat]

Day 57: Protien & Creatine Re-Up
half-assed poorman's n2guard
​

Now I've had some of my drive and motivation return I can manage more basic tasks and and slowly trying to sort out the two fucked vans I have on the other side of the park in addition to my van. So I reached out to my ex-girlfriend about getting my shit back.

The sunset was stunning, the beach is at the end of the road you can see there, I'm standing where my van is usually parked but I have a fence to hide from the wind behind, else sandstorms come and sand gets in everywhere.

In my first van that got stolen I used to park right at the beach but after a year of that there was sand fucking everywhere. Glad I didn't have to deal with that in the end.

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I just know I'm going to shag my ex-girlfriend next week. God damn testosterone, I feel powerless to stop it but ah well, a friendly party to evaluate weather my shit still works will be good I guess. Wonder what she's going to think of my changes, I last saw her on January 8th, after walking out at a brisk pace on December 28th.

We haven't really talked this year, apart from some half assed plans to swap stuff back. I have her Mazda MPV still, which is a giant pain in the ass and I hope people haven't clicked that it's mine, as that's really pushing my luck having two fucked SUVs and a fucked van.

I reached out and she apologised for the radio silence I was secretly thankful for but accepted that and we made plans to meet up next week.

I told her to come over here so we can evaluate the situation and make plans to solve them but I'm instead going to ask vanbum lady for a jumpstart and go and pick her up because that would let me have a first crack at her hoarding pile and grab the laptops and juggling clubs and other things I want the most.

Can't even remember what stuff I have anymore, it was all in boxes when I lived at her record store already so some things I haven't seen since my parents place in early 2022.

Things I remember:

• Book collection​
• Heavy Metal CDs​
• Hippy outfits​
• Business attire soon to be missing sleeves​
• Stab resistant leather jacket​
• Kitchen gear from old van​
• Slow cooker, Dutch oven​
• LED juggling balls and fire clubs​
• R.M. Williams Boots from Australia - all partners at the big 4 have these and tho I was just a lowly director I got some too. They were $800. Classic Australian (now American owned ) brand though. I got an Akubra hat too as a souvenir.​
• Four laptops​
• Three Raspberry PIs with ARM CPUs​
• Low-power USB screen​
• Mechanical keyboard collection​
• Two old style flat screen monitors - my friend recently gave me a dual-screen wall mounting bracket so if I bolt tjar into the side of the van I will have an appropriate monitors for:​
  • Poorman's Karaoke machine - thanks to @HarleyGuy for the idea. Might save me from having to sit through another season of Love Island with Tinder girls, though Sober-karaoke could just as easily backfire, neither of us has checked
  • Swinging around to watch TV in bed - I need to move the bed to the opposite end of the van, I suddenly thought the other night if I get rare ended I probably won't survive as I'd take the entire impact, and there's a high chance of getting rare ended since I park on roads a lot.
  • Sitting down at my Raspberry PI Linux ARMv6 machine, full keyboard, full-screen'd command line terminals on both screens with the knowledge and hardware to tackle any problem the internet could throw at me. I haven't used a proper computer since last year and I'm itching to hack on some shit. I want to make a few little tools to organise my log better and alert me to log entries from guys on the sister sites like @ceo , @2Thick and @ballin2504
• Collection of mechanical vaporisers that could potentially be sold for steriod money. I got somewhat addicted to buying these when I first got sober. Also quit smoking after 20 years with them and learnt a lot about power, ohms law and metal work, cnc machines and metal-lathes. Artificial flavors and making juice taught me a lot too. Easily spent $20k AUD and some of these are rare. The Kennedy 25 should be worth a bit now Kennedy has been shut down by the US Government. It's beautiful and made of copper. Real high maintenance but if you're buying a copper mechanical vape you're probably down for that anyway. So might be able to get a few hundred back

I'm close to having a industrial grade power system in my van and want my computers back. That alone will make me a better Evo Logger. I have three nice laptops, including the $9000 AUD one my last Big 4 finance employer gifted me. I think that's what happened, definitely how I remember it. That has 64GB of RAM and is 5 years old and is insanely spec'd but uses a lot of power.

It has a clever system of two inbuilt graphics cards, one a big full GPU gamer type card and the regular type and a switch, so the GPU stays off most the time unless you're playing games or cracking passwords or mining bitcoin with the GPU. I haven't played a game since Street Fighter II in the 90s, and I don't mine bitcoin.

If you think I use too much text now, wait until I get my keyboard back. I can type faster than I can think with 98% accuracy, so aren't slowed down by any filters that catch things as I'm fat fingering them into the phone at a painfully slow rate.

I'll also be able to write scripts and little programs again and will build and index or table of contents for my log with direct links so you can ignore more of my posts and get to the one you want

I found a nice faux-leather office chair with a FREE sign on it the other day and now that's piled on my bed. I have access to the workshop on the steamship which has a wood lathe and bench mounted saws and shit so I can make a nice desk and have a proper little van-office for my Evo activities! Just gotta get some screens.

I had to go into the city to check on the ship this morning. Nice they reached out to me to go, they either have prior engagements or trust me more now. There's a weather red warning for tomorrow with high winds blowing at the ship so I'm gonna be on call. Might have to abandon squats mid set and go watch the ship sink or, I'm not sure what I'm suppost to do about anything but I'll be there anyway.

I'm feeling really great I got everything going with my cycle finally. Still a few kinks to iron out, I was getting a bit ahead of myself and was starting to forget I need to maintain the baseline. That means getting whey and eggs.

On the dole they give you an extra $30 a week to spend on electricity or blankets, but now the weather is coming right they took it away. I forgot about it and from this week I get $320 NZD a week ($183.72 USD today) and my 5lbs tub of ON Gold Whey powder is $175 and eggs about $15 a day on average, depending on what I can get and what's on sale.

Have been out of creatine for a few weeks and got more of that too. Managed to get the banana flavor again thankfully, chocolate and cookies and cream flavors were a mistake. I was hoping to keep some on hand for when I have big girls over and they get hungry but oh well, I'll explain to them what a banana is first and sure I can sell them on the idea of trying it.

They're really nice with an atcual banana, I made one for vanbum lady the other day and didn't mention the 5 eggs and she loved it.

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I've been getting through these, had all 4 after 7pm. Looked like a bomb site with egg shells and banana skins all over the place.. I usually have some standards at least...

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Had bananas in all them just because they were nice, and stopped 2 hours before squats and my stomach was good by the time I got to the gym.

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Getting the EQ wiped me out financially last week and I couldn't get more protein powder and ended up using the little bits from the past tubs to get through the week without dipping below 400g protein a day. Have to protect my PROTIEN KING forum badge - it means more to me than woman and employment.

I'm happy 250mg of Equipoise is in my ass with its long esters doing their thing, don't need to worry about that again until Monday and I have 9 more 250mg ampules, 9 weeks worth.

So last night I restocked my whey and egg supplies and got a bunch of bananas imported from fucking Ecuador which I didn't notice until I was back home. Argh. Also got some apples but didn't look where they were from. Got a kilo of rice left in the bag too I recon.
Gonna start using food banks soon, I need some more money free to get supplements.

New organic outdoor eggs have a nice colour to my eyes

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Shipping was too mich for n2guard but I really wanted to get that. I understand that's Ricky the podcast guy's company? Would love to support that guy if I could. Is he still around? If so how can I follow him? Love that guy's vibe and opinions and he has a cool voice & accent too

This is all I could manage at the warehouse sized supplement store. There's a place I found online that has straight TUDCA for $60 a bottle, gonna add that to these and continue my search for sources of that kind of thing:

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Been trying to get small amounts of carbs in before and after training as recommended by @LevButlerov - also will re-evaluate my salt intake and do some calculations. I thought I was going up not down, I've been having a heaped spoonful and washing it down with the @HarleyGuy juice.

I believe you need to be more mindful of salt when on carnivore type diets. All processed food contains lots and it all adds up but when you remove factory food completely you need to start getting it elsewhere. I think factory food hijacks your taste senses and makes them useless.

I also believe the term "salt to taste" has a deeper meaning and once you've done a pallet reset from at least a month on carnivore you can "salt to taste" and when it's nearly too much go with that, you'll notice if you try a few days later with the same amount it'll taste different.

I add salt to meat I'm cooking but that's about it, I was making an effort to add more of it to more things.

I was a little frustrated about something and decided I wanted to clear my head at the gym and left my phone and bag and all my shit I usually charge up and just went and did bar squats until I'd had enough.

The 7mg patches aren't enough, gotta go back to 14mg for a while. I had a few of the old ones just took off before sleep and stuck to the wall next to my bed on. Got nic sick doing this so only got one big one and one little one now. Just making sure they work still

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Everything is on track with the new bottle of Test E from Rob at AUStarLabs, I can't get enough of the colour of it. The Nectar of the Man-Gods!

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More bottle porn in my AUStarLabs touchdown picture thread

Ten minute stairmaster warmup again, so glad I switched, this machine is hardcore. Gonna take a while to tame that beast:

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Bar Squats

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

10 minutes at least looking at my textbook, wasent warm anymore, whoops.

Bar x 12
Bar x 12
Bar x 12

Ab Crunch Machine

23kg x 20
23kg x 20

Was planning to do the massage chair post sports recovery routine but it was after midnight a day I want to get my sleep fixed again so I can go to the 6:15am assault bike class.

I joined a yoga studio recently to try more @stevesmi techniques out but haven't been to a class yet. I got a mat with some hippy shit and love hearts

Soon I'll have my morning cardio fixed. Haven't missed my hour fasted walk lately. Not going into crippling opiod withdrawl by taking my morning methadone dose provides sufficient motivation to walk to go get it

Awesome update mate! Love all the details about the stuff you need to get back. Sounds like the laptops were pretty serious. I do a bit of gaming so appreciate the mention of the GPU. Also the big 4 and RM Williams boots

Can't wait till you get a full PC setup with your mechanical keyboards and can smash out more!

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Awesome update mate! Love all the details about the stuff you need to get back. Sounds like the laptops were pretty serious. I do a bit of gaming so appreciate the mention of the GPU. Also the big 4 and RM Williams boots

Can't wait till you get a full PC setup with your mechanical keyboards and can smash out more!

Fuck yeah man, me either! I've got a couple of half finished projects from when I was living with my parents again in 2021, I had the same job and income but far less expenses, and there's only so many bags of crack you can fit in your pockets so I started buying computers while I was off my face.

I'm not a gamer but the game Cyberpunk just got released and I used to love Cyberpunk literature like Neuromancer and Snowcrash and everyone was complaining that the game was released incomplete and all fucked up but it seemed to me that it just required way more computing power than most people had and it I should test this by building a computer that can play it.

All that ray tracing tech and shit it used was pretty new and used some pretty fucking intense math, like the calculating power of every core on the best CPU was not enough, you needed to offload it all to the GPU which was already maxed out doing other shit.

These fucking crazy CPUs just got released, the AMD Ryzen 9 5950X, was a few hundred more than the 5900 everyone had, but they were pretty pricy

Ended up doubling the ram later on but this was enough for Cyberpunk, it was very fast at the time:

And you couldn't do much better than this GPU in 2021:

Motherboard if you're interested:

I must have bought the monitor separately as it's not on this invoice but it was this thing:

Came out to $9500 all up and ray tracing was no fucking problem, I could whack the settings in Cyberpunk all up to Max with Ray tracing and all that shit turned on and it ran sweet as.

You could see shadows cast in real time and like oil dripping from cars into puddles would ripple out like it does when you throw petrol onto water, and it was like they modelled humans with how the characters lips and shit moved, I mean they probably did do that but it looked incredible.

Atcually back in the early 2000s Lee Priest was in involved in a video game, for Hulk I think it was, he wore a suit with probes all over it and acted out hitting people with bats and stuff, it looked wicked.

I did bring the computer up to Wellington but I had an accident in my girlfriends car and ended up writing it off so to make up for that I gave the computer to her to give to her awful teenage son and that was the end of that. He's probably just using it for pornhub on that big screen, little bastard

 

[toddthelineman]

Fuck yeah man, me either! I've got a couple of half finished projects from when I was living with my parents again, I had the same job and income but less expenses, and there's only so many bags of crack you can fit in your pockets so I started buying computers while I was off my face.

I'm not a gamer but the game Cyberpunk just got released and I used to love Cyberpunk literature like Neuromancer and Snowcrash and everyone was complaining that the game was released incomplete and all fucked up but it seemed to me that it required way more computing power than most people had and it I should test this by building a computer that can play it.

All that ray tracing tech and shit it used was pretty new and used some pretty fucking intense math, like the calculating power of every core on the best CPU was not enough, you needed to offload it all to the GPU which was already maxed out doing other shit.

These fucking crazy CPUs just got released, the AMD Ryzen 9 5950X, was a few hundred more than the 5900 everyone had, but they were pretty pricy

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Ended up doubling the ram later on but this was enough for Cyberpunk, it's was very fast at the time:

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And you couldn't do much better than this GPU in 2021:

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Motherboard if you're interested:

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I must have bought the monitor separately as it's not on this invoice but it was this thing:

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Came out to $9500 all up and Ray Tracing was no fucking problem, I could whack the settings in Cyberpunk all up to Max with Ray tracing and all that shit turned on and ran sweet as.

You could see shadows cast in real time and like oil dripping from cars into puddles would ripple put like it does when you throw petrol onto water, and it was like they modelled humans with how the characters lips ans ahit moved, I mean they probably did do that but it looked incredible.

Atcually back in th we early 2000s Lee Priest was in involved in a video game, for Hulk I think it was, he wore a suit with probes all over it and acted out hitting people with bats and stuff, it looked wicked. I did bring the computer up to Wellington but I had an accident in my girlfriends car and ended up writing it off so to make up for that I gave the computer to her to give to her awful teenage son and that was the end of that. He's probably just using it for pornhub on that big screen, little bastard

All that stuff in the van. You’re going to need a dog or something. Hahaha.

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Yeah, I know all about the whole thing. With the sand it's almost impossible to get wet sand out of your car. It really sticks to your carpet. That's why I recommend rubber mats. You should put them down this way. You're not scared of going to the beach. @vanlife_gymbum

That's not a bad idea bro, you're right it gets in the carpet so badly you can't even vacuum it out. I used to go to those manual car wash places with the crazy mains powered vacuum cleaners and that didn't even help. Then it starts getting in your clothes and before long it's in your hair and ass 24/7.

I got some of that lino shit poor people in the 80s used to have instead of carpet and layered that over the carpet so I could just sweep it out with a broom. Was kinda half assed but felt better having at least a little room to put your feet that doesn't have god damn sand on it!

Hope you're doing well bro, do you live by the ocean?

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

All that stuff in the van. You’re going to need a dog or something. Hahaha.

I like other people's dogs but never again will I date a girl with a god damn fucking dog. They get them to try and make themselves feel better instead of going to a therapist or something and then the fucking thing is still there when they're feeling better and they just sort of drag it around, take it every where because it's untrained and now have even bigger problems than when they started. I said in no uncertain terms that the fickong dog is not coming inside my van, look at the fucking state of it, what's it going to eat in there, nicotine juice? Needles? Fuck knows but she acted like I just stomped on the thing suggesting a DOG might do better OUTSIDE right? I didn't enquire about the status of the dog, I'd totally forgotten about it until just now.
I'm already regretting having sex with her next week.

 

[toddthelineman]

I like other people's dogs but never again will I date a girl with a god damn fucking dog. They get them to try and make themselves feel better instead of going to a therapist or something and then the fucking thing is still there when they're feeling better and they just sort of drag it around, take it every where because it's untrained and now have even bigger problems than when they started. I said in no uncertain terms that the fickong dog is not coming inside my van, look at the fucking state of it, what's it going to eat in there, nicotine juice? Needles? Fuck knows but she acted like I just stomped on the thing suggesting a DOG might do better OUTSIDE right? I didn't enquire about the status of the dog, I'd totally forgotten about it until just now.
I'm already regretting having sex with her next week.

Yeah dog moms do suck. I was thinking for you, in regards to security. I’m like you, I like other people’s dogs, but I wouldn’t want one unless I had a farm. But if I lived in a van,.. the right dog could be an actual life saver. My old brother in law was sleeping in his car, woke up being robbed. Fought the guy off but got his neck slashed on both sides and survived! A blue healer would fit good in a van, but they can get busy for sure. Very bitey dogs never scared

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Yeah dog moms do suck.

Oh god they have a name? I thought I just had bad luck. I saw a fat American bitch trying to get on a plane with an unregistered "emotional support animal" once and get a few weirdos with unhappy looking untrained dogs at AA meetings often but otherwise I stay away from suburban stuff. I atcually tried Tinder in 2015 but bailed after the first date because it was with a police dog trainer who spent a whole half an hour detailing various domestic disputes she had caused with her ex-inlaws involving dogs and firearms like this was the funniest shit ever before I slipped out the back-door. Infact I asked at the front counter if I can walk through the kitchen to get out the fire escape and they said "you must be the guy here to meet Lucy?"

I was thinking for you, in regards to security. I’m like you, I like other people’s dogs, but I wouldn’t want one unless I had a farm. But if I lived in a van,.. the right dog could be an actual life saver. My old brother in law was sleeping in his car, woke up being robbed. Fought the guy off but got his neck slashed on both sides and survived! A blue healer would fit good in a van, but they can get busy for sure. Very bitey dogs never scared

God damn bro! NZ is pretty sparsely populated and their all concentrated in Auckland. There's more people in Auckland than the entire South Island so there's gangs and crime and armed robberies up there but Wellington despite being the capital only has 250k people.

I don't even lock my doors... only one of them works anyway, I have to climb over the seats to get in. The battery is flat so the central locking doesn't work but I did buy this thing off a youtube advert called a LUMIBAT, it's like a truncheon with a high powered strobe light torch on one end. Their eyes will be adjusted to the dark and you blind them with that then whack them while they're dazed and use the time to drive off. Well that's how it works in my imagination at least...

 

[BeMe]

New @BeMe Podcast Interview!!
Episode #629 ​

Interview with Mod "@BeMe" Part 2!

@BeMe being interviewed by @stevesmi and @Mobster - talking through forum logs again and shooting the shit just like with @HarleyGuy the other day, very cool!!

I love this idea!! Nice work guys!!

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[BeMe]

That's not a bad idea bro, you're right it gets in the carpet so badly you can't even vacuum it out. I used to go to those manual car wash places with the crazy mains powered vacuum cleaners and that didn't even help. Then it starts getting in your clothes and before long it's in your hair and ass 24/7.

I got some of that lino shit poor people in the 80s used to have instead of carpet and layered that over the carpet so I could just sweep it out with a broom. Was kinda half assed but felt better having at least a little room to put your feet that doesn't have god damn sand on it!

Hope you're doing well bro, do you live by the ocean?

Get a little battery powered leaf blower and blow that bitch out with the back doors open. You could be dust free in 30 seconds lol

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Get a little battery powered leaf blower and blow that bitch out with the back doors open. You could be dust free in 30 seconds lol

Hah that's a pretry sweet idea! Can't see anything going wrong with that plan at all

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Next up is you know who

I loved your new episode bro! Was pretty interesting hearing your retelling of the Dave story I should think about how people will interpret things... I appreciated it, thanks bro

But I really am a bum and dont go anywhere, and don't deserve credit for driving half way across the country Dave and his friend caught the bus down to Wellington, like a 6 hour journey I think.

I don't go anywhere apart from the gyms across the roads and to the methadone clinic in the morning haha. But he was coming to my city of Wellington for the show he did. As he's from a rural area and didn't know anyone in the city, I offered to take him to my gyms.

We lifted at the big gym with the three powerlifting cages and hammer strength plate loaded machines and afterwards went over the road to the other place, the fancy new R18 gym with Nautilus kit straight out of the box, a pilates room, infrared saunas which he also wanted to use for his prep.

We used the high-tech massage chairs in the the meditation room and made the most of the private bathroom, and the pic you mentioned when I hammered at his ass with the massage gun.

 

[BeMe]

I loved your new episode bro! Was pretty interesting hearing your retelling of the Dave story I should think about how people will interpret things... I appreciated it, thanks bro

But I really am a bum and dont go anywhere, and don't deserve credit for driving half way across the country Dave and his friend caught the bus down to Wellington, like a 6 hour journey I think.

I don't go anywhere apart from the gyms across the roads and to the methadone clinic in the morning haha. But he was coming to my city of Wellington for the show he did. As he's from a rural area and didn't know anyone in the city, I offered to take him to my gyms.

We lifted at the big gym with the three powerlifting cages and hammer strength plate loaded machines and afterwards went over the road to the other place, the fancy new R18 gym with Nautilus kit straight out of the box, a pilates room, infrared saunas which he also wanted to use for his prep.

We used the high-tech massage chairs in the the meditation room and made the most of the private bathroom, and the pic you mentioned when I hammered at his ass with the massage gun.

Well in my books massaging a friend's glutes means a lot more than a drive across the country. Atleast I got the most important part of the story right lol. My bad I must've misread the rest haha.