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Approved Log My Life Training Diet Journal

Hey guys just an update on what I'm 'pinning' at the moment and how I'm feeling etc and a couple of mentions.

So I started my testosterone enanthate from @Life-Forge just over a week ago and it's going great! No PIP what's so ever and I'm starting to feel the effects of it now and loving it, more aggressive lifting and energy and libido is definitely increasing, cheers @Life-Forge, I also got arimidex from him which iv just started using 0.5mg 2x a week.
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Secondly the legend @vanlife_gymbum sent me a vial of testosterone propionate to use with my Enanthate, it's from @AuStarLabs and I'm on day 4 of using that and fukn hell I can 100% tell this is the goods, my stamina and mental focus has increased dramatically and my confidence, even just going for a walk I feel super dedicated.

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So I am injecting every day:
Testosterone Enanthate 250mg/ML - 0.15ml
Testosterone Propionate 100mg/ML - 0.30ml

Will keep posting about how I go with this but I'm feeling really fukn good.

Cheers fellas
 
Good meals high protein @LPinned what are your macros?

You're lean very nice :D
Thanks bro!! I stick to around 2500-3000 calories a day, up it slightly on hard training days and if iv done lots during the day, and I get about 220-250g of protein and around 100-150g of fat, going to start adding some kumara and brown rice soon, I just wanted to stick to carnivore for 3 solid months to give it a good run, and I'm at a stage now where I think I should add some carbs to try bulk up a little more
 
Yeah man I crank the air fryer too, makes the skin super crispy and nice ay haha, lamb chops in the air fryer too is a treat bro
good stuff man you should share a recipe when you come on the podcast next week too
 
you look lean and conditioned. nice job so far. this log is gonna be wickedly good @LPinned
Thanks heaps bro the encouragement is awesome, loving this and feeling 100% dedicated to get the best out of this simple cycle to show what just testosterone can do. I feel like a brand new person honestly
 
Hey guys just an update on what I'm 'pinning' at the moment and how I'm feeling etc and a couple of mentions.

So I started my testosterone enanthate from @Life-Forge just over a week ago and it's going great! No PIP what's so ever and I'm starting to feel the effects of it now and loving it, more aggressive lifting and energy and libido is definitely increasing, cheers @Life-Forge, I also got arimidex from him which iv just started using 0.5mg 2x a week.
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Secondly the legend @vanlife_gymbum sent me a vial of testosterone propionate to use with my Enanthate, it's from @AuStarLabs and I'm on day 4 of using that and fukn hell I can 100% tell this is the goods, my stamina and mental focus has increased dramatically and my confidence, even just going for a walk I feel super dedicated.

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So I am injecting every day:
Testosterone Enanthate 250mg/ML - 0.15ml
Testosterone Propionate 100mg/ML - 0.30ml

Will keep posting about how I go with this but I'm feeling really fukn good.

Cheers fellas
Awesome mate enjoy!
 
Hey guys just an update on what I'm 'pinning' at the moment and how I'm feeling etc and a couple of mentions.

So I started my testosterone enanthate from @Life-Forge just over a week ago and it's going great! No PIP what's so ever and I'm starting to feel the effects of it now and loving it, more aggressive lifting and energy and libido is definitely increasing, cheers @Life-Forge, I also got arimidex from him which iv just started using 0.5mg 2x a week.
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Secondly the legend @vanlife_gymbum sent me a vial of testosterone propionate to use with my Enanthate, it's from @AuStarLabs and I'm on day 4 of using that and fukn hell I can 100% tell this is the goods, my stamina and mental focus has increased dramatically and my confidence, even just going for a walk I feel super dedicated.

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So I am injecting every day:
Testosterone Enanthate 250mg/ML - 0.15ml
Testosterone Propionate 100mg/ML - 0.30ml

Will keep posting about how I go with this but I'm feeling really fukn good.

Cheers fellas
Carefull with the ai brother you dont want to take it if its not needed as low e2 has its own dramas just like high e2 does. Should run bloods to check after week 4 on the test
 
Carefull with the ai brother you dont want to take it if its not needed as low e2 has its own dramas just like high e2 does. Should run bloods to check after week 4 on the test
Sweet as bro, so far I feel like I don't need any AI but iv never experienced the side effects before (first cycle) so I'm sorta unsure what to expect and I'm slightly terrified of getting gyno haha , this is the reason iv chosen to pin small amounts everyday, researching has told me less chance of aromatizing, more stable bloods etc and honestly I don't mind pinning everyday, should I just not take the arimidex if I don't think I have any side effects yet?
 
Sweet as bro, so far I feel like I don't need any AI but iv never experienced the side effects before (first cycle) so I'm sorta unsure what to expect and I'm slightly terrified of getting gyno haha , this is the reason iv chosen to pin small amounts everyday, researching has told me less chance of aromatizing, more stable bloods etc and honestly I don't mind pinning everyday, should I just not take the arimidex if I don't think I have any side effects yet?
I just had a flick back to see your test dose, your on 500mg weekly test with everyday pins correct? Yeah .5mg twice a week is steady brother all good. Still get bloods done after 5 weeks being on the test to check where e2 is at.
 
I just had a flick back to see your test dose, your on 500mg weekly test with everyday pins correct? Yeah .5mg twice a week is steady brother all good. Still get bloods done after 5 weeks being on the test to check where e2 is at.
Yeah if I do it exact it's 475mg per week but I do draw up very slightly more in the syringe so I know I'm getting at least 475mg thanks bro appreciate it
 
Yeah if I do it exact it's 475mg per week but I do draw up very slightly more in the syringe so I know I'm getting at least 475mg thanks bro appreciate it
Perfect brother 🔥
Will do my man 💪 just patiently waiting for some more size tho haha
Haha bro we are always waiting for more size stay patient as you said brother, good things take time and fast thing done last 🤜🏼🤛🏼
 
Thanks heaps bro the encouragement is awesome, loving this and feeling 100% dedicated to get the best out of this simple cycle to show what just testosterone can do. I feel like a brand new person honestly

Fucking sweet man. It's the good shit for sure, the exact same thing happened to me. I'd get rid of everything else without question in favor of testosterone. But there's plenty of time for both I think :)

I'm glad I started at 300mg now, I didn't really want to initially. but going up at 100mg a month I can really feel the differences. I understand how enanthate reacts with me pretty well now.

Nice work on your log bro! It's going great
 
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Thanks bro!! I stick to around 2500-3000 calories a day, up it slightly on hard training days and if iv done lots during the day, and I get about 220-250g of protein and around 100-150g of fat, going to start adding some kumara and brown rice soon, I just wanted to stick to carnivore for 3 solid months to give it a good run, and I'm at a stage now where I think I should add some carbs to try bulk up a little more
Good macros :D If you can push the carbs numbers, where are you with them now? @LPinned
 
Hey guys just an update on what I'm 'pinning' at the moment and how I'm feeling etc and a couple of mentions.

So I started my testosterone enanthate from @Life-Forge just over a week ago and it's going great! No PIP what's so ever and I'm starting to feel the effects of it now and loving it, more aggressive lifting and energy and libido is definitely increasing, cheers @Life-Forge, I also got arimidex from him which iv just started using 0.5mg 2x a week.
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Secondly the legend @vanlife_gymbum sent me a vial of testosterone propionate to use with my Enanthate, it's from @AuStarLabs and I'm on day 4 of using that and fukn hell I can 100% tell this is the goods, my stamina and mental focus has increased dramatically and my confidence, even just going for a walk I feel super dedicated.

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So I am injecting every day:
Testosterone Enanthate 250mg/ML - 0.15ml
Testosterone Propionate 100mg/ML - 0.30ml

Will keep posting about how I go with this but I'm feeling really fukn good.

Cheers fellas
Gear looks good :D @Life-Forge is really looking pro @LPinned
 
Good macros :D If you can push the carbs numbers, where are you with them now? @LPinned
When I got out of jail I started the carnivore diet for the purpose of learning some discipline, coz God knows I have lacked discipline my whole life so it was to teach myself really, now iv done it very strictly for just over 2 months, but as of yesterday I have decided to add in brown rice and Kumara (sweet potato), so once I work out how much I'm eating daily I will update this man. Think I'm needing some carbs to help bulk up a little bit
 
When I got out of jail I started the carnivore diet for the purpose of learning some discipline, coz God knows I have lacked discipline my whole life so it was to teach myself really, now iv done it very strictly for just over 2 months, but as of yesterday I have decided to add in brown rice and Kumara (sweet potato), so once I work out how much I'm eating daily I will update this man. Think I'm needing some carbs to help bulk up a little bit
You did the hard part already by sticking strict carnivore for 2 months and that discipline is what will carry you forward. :D @LPinned
adding brown rice and sweet potato now is the right move because the carbs will help you recover and push heavier loads so you can actually bulk clean without feeling flat.
 
You did the hard part already by sticking strict carnivore for 2 months and that discipline is what will carry you forward. :D @LPinned
adding brown rice and sweet potato now is the right move because the carbs will help you recover and push heavier loads so you can actually bulk clean without feeling flat.
Yeah bro, even in two days of eating around 200grams of carbs a day iv already filled out, my arms are bigger haha pretty sure it's not just in my head 😅
 
Yeah bro, even in two days of eating around 200grams of carbs a day iv already filled out, my arms are bigger haha pretty sure it's not just in my head 😅
that's a good pump and glycogen refill :D
 
Very much not bad :D EVO family love your way @LPinned
This Is my dinner man, I'm planning on keeping these exact 3 meals every day for the next couple of months thoughts? That's 200g lean beef mince. The chicken was 300g breast each meal. Should I add or minus any thing you think bro? @LevButlerov
 

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This Is my dinner man, I'm planning on keeping these exact 3 meals every day for the next couple of months thoughts? That's 200g lean beef mince. The chicken was 300g breast each meal. Should I add or minus any thing you think bro? @LevButlerov
Good dinner :D add a few walnuts or almonds @LPinned
 
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That's seriously impressive man - no wonder you're so sliced, gonna be sweet in a couple of months of testosterone!! I really dig your food pics man, you've got a great way of laying it out.

Awesome work on your log bro, it's high quality!
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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66k steps more than last week! Damn bro that's good work. I'm gonna start walking all those hill trails around Wellington - the Mount Victoria entrance is 700 steps from my van and the views up there are fucking epic.

Where do you go walking bro?
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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best way is to get some sleeping aids @LPinned what are you taking prebed now?
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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@LPinned the big issue with waking up at night and not being able to get back to sleep can be linked a lot of times to heart health. so once that improves your sleep will too. also wear blue blockers at night, they will block blue light
 
66k steps more than last week! Damn bro that's good work. I'm gonna start walking all those hill trails around Wellington - the Mount Victoria entrance is 700 steps from my van and the views up there are fucking epic.

Where do you go walking bro?
Nice bro yeah I used to go up to that look out all the time to smoke weed back in the day, that hill daily will get u super fit haha, iv been walking everywhere around pahiatua to try find bush walks and shit but there is none that I can find so iv been going far and wide lol I go for three or four 5km walks a day, generally straight after each meal, helps me with digestion I think haha thanks man ! @vanlife_gymbum
 
@LPinned the big issue with waking up at night and not being able to get back to sleep can be linked a lot of times to heart health. so once that improves your sleep will too. also wear blue blockers at night, they will block blue light
Thanks @stevesmi , I don't know what blue blockers are, I'll have to do a Google, I was hoping adding some carbohydrates through the day would help me but it hasn't yet, my resting heart rate is 57 first thing in the morning I thought that is good? Or is it possible other issues?
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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As I've written elsewhere it's NOT (as many say) the hours of sleep it's are you rested?
 
Thanks @stevesmi , I don't know what blue blockers are, I'll have to do a Google, I was hoping adding some carbohydrates through the day would help me but it hasn't yet, my resting heart rate is 57 first thing in the morning I thought that is good? Or is it possible other issues?
Blue blocker glasses You put them on and they block blue light. The blue light tricks ur brain into waking up

I use them every night
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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try and relax before bed. no scary movies or anythign like that. try and meditate. sometimes i wake up at night seeing my wife plunging to her death off that balcony and i wake up in a sweat. so try and clear your brain @LPinned
 
Nice bro yeah I used to go up to that look out all the time to smoke weed back in the day, that hill daily will get u super fit haha, iv been walking everywhere around pahiatua to try find bush walks and shit but there is none that I can find so iv been going far and wide lol I go for three or four 5km walks a day, generally straight after each meal, helps me with digestion I think haha thanks man ! @vanlife_gymbum
Walking is awesome man. @LPinned Sounds like you have some good stuff where you live where it's enjoyable and entertaining. Maybe get some pictures of your walking trails. We want to see what it looks like.
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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@LPinned are you messing around with stims? those can mess with your sleep. try and relax more and sleep on a normal schedule that will help
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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bros i bang the crap out of my tiny asian wife. she super tight. before bed and i sleep like a baby @LPinned
 
So this is my last weeks stats from my fit bit, don't look at the weight loss that's not right I don't even remember logging my weight in the fitbit app,
But you can see where I'm lacking, sleep....
Any tips on getting more sleep it's annoying coz I try my best but I always wake up round 1am then get back to sleep then I'm awake again at 3-4 and that's it.

@LevButlerov any tips my man
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@LPinned you could always try melatonin or mk677 it helps me sleep
 
Got a body scan yesterday pretty happy with the numbers
Fellow carnivore here. Solid scan results! It's a hell of a story you've got, bro and bravo, for having the courage to lay it all out. To give your best to the world and your family, you've got to give the best to yourself first. I'll be following your log with interest.
 
Hey fellas, iv been quiet lately but for good reasons, iv been training like a maniac and still getting 25-30k steps in daily, iv signed up to a different gym which is fukn awesome I love it, it has a more old-school raw feel to it, my first gym was almost brand new but it was mostly all machines with not many attachments etc , the one I'm at now has awesome old school gear and attachments.
Iv added carbohydrates in my diet now and I'm fukn loving it, basically iv only added apples, brown rice, kumara and broccoli.

Daily calories I am and 4-4500calories

Protein 4-450grams
Carbs 350-400
Fats - 80-100grams

Here's some food pics
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This omlette was massive , 12 eggs (4 whole, 8 whites, 1 cup of rice mixed in, 1 kumara grated in and 300grams of lean mince
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Loving the steak and eggs talk, feels like a cheat meal without the guilt, right?
I'm also digging that marinade @stevesmi uses, might have to try that lime juice, smoked paprika, salt, and pepper combo, maybe with a few chilli flakes like you did!
Keep crushing it, man!
 
Loving the steak and eggs talk, feels like a cheat meal without the guilt, right?
I'm also digging that marinade @stevesmi uses, might have to try that lime juice, smoked paprika, salt, and pepper combo, maybe with a few chilli flakes like you did!
Keep crushing it, man!
Thanks man yea seasoning meat in different ways definitely helps you think your eating something different every day haha
 
Hey fellas, iv been quiet lately but for good reasons, iv been training like a maniac and still getting 25-30k steps in daily, iv signed up to a different gym which is fukn awesome I love it, it has a more old-school raw feel to it, my first gym was almost brand new but it was mostly all machines with not many attachments etc , the one I'm at now has awesome old school gear and attachments.
Iv added carbohydrates in my diet now and I'm fukn loving it, basically iv only added apples, brown rice, kumara and broccoli.

Daily calories I am and 4-4500calories

Protein 4-450grams
Carbs 350-400
Fats - 80-100grams

Here's some food pics
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This omlette was massive , 12 eggs (4 whole, 8 whites, 1 cup of rice mixed in, 1 kumara grated in and 300grams of lean mince
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Another big omlette, 300grams chicken , grated kumara, 1 cup of rice mixed in and cottage cheese on top

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Again don't look at the weight loss that's wrong iv actually gained around 2kg since starting my cycle I need to update that lol

Thanks man yea seasoning meat in different ways definitely helps you think your eating something different every day haha

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DAY 20 OF TESTOSTERONE 475MG A WEEK
Training hard and eating hard :D I love your progress @LPinned how is your overall feel?
 
@LPinned wow you are putting together some nice looking meals! it all looks tremendous AND healthy too.
Thanks @stevesmi , always as clean an as healthy as I can, here is a 400gram lean beef mince, broccoli, grated kumara, brown rice and 4 whole egg/4 egg whites frittata thing I baked it in the oven an put cottage cheese on top, I ate the entire thing haha

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Hey fellas, iv been quiet lately but for good reasons, iv been training like a maniac and still getting 25-30k steps in daily, iv signed up to a different gym which is fukn awesome I love it, it has a more old-school raw feel to it, my first gym was almost brand new but it was mostly all machines with not many attachments etc , the one I'm at now has awesome old school gear and attachments.
Iv added carbohydrates in my diet now and I'm fukn loving it, basically iv only added apples, brown rice, kumara and broccoli.

Daily calories I am and 4-4500calories

Protein 4-450grams
Carbs 350-400
Fats - 80-100grams

Here's some food pics
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This omlette was massive , 12 eggs (4 whole, 8 whites, 1 cup of rice mixed in, 1 kumara grated in and 300grams of lean mince
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wow that is an omellte? wow. never seen that before like that. you are a whiz chef @LPinned
 
Hey fellas, iv been quiet lately but for good reasons, iv been training like a maniac and still getting 25-30k steps in daily, iv signed up to a different gym which is fukn awesome I love it, it has a more old-school raw feel to it, my first gym was almost brand new but it was mostly all machines with not many attachments etc , the one I'm at now has awesome old school gear and attachments.
Iv added carbohydrates in my diet now and I'm fukn loving it, basically iv only added apples, brown rice, kumara and broccoli.

Daily calories I am and 4-4500calories

Protein 4-450grams
Carbs 350-400
Fats - 80-100grams

Here's some food pics
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This omlette was massive , 12 eggs (4 whole, 8 whites, 1 cup of rice mixed in, 1 kumara grated in and 300grams of lean mince
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Good knowing you are still on track
 
wow that is an omellte? wow. never seen that before like that. you are a whiz chef @LPinned
Yeah man, fry up what ever meat and veggies you want, mix up your eggs in a bowl then mix in your fried meat and veggies in to the eggs, clean the pan you used then butter it, pour in the big mix , put a lid on it then cook it until its almost cooked through, then have the oven grill heated up then put the pan in the oven to brown off and cook the top of it and done, 10-15min all up, I just microwave the kumara and veggies first coz that's the fastest way iv found
 
Physique certainly looks fantastic to me. @LPinned It's coming into its own right now. The best thing you can do is be consistent with your training. That will make a big difference.
Thank you my man, yeah I'm very consistent I can't wait to get to the gym every morning , excited to see the 12week finished product lol
 
Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum
Great honest log bro... the bros & sisters totally appreciate honesty and will get you where you want to go..no bullshit.. just listen, learn, and execute!!!
 
Yeah man, fry up what ever meat and veggies you want, mix up your eggs in a bowl then mix in your fried meat and veggies in to the eggs, clean the pan you used then butter it, pour in the big mix , put a lid on it then cook it until its almost cooked through, then have the oven grill heated up then put the pan in the oven to brown off and cook the top of it and done, 10-15min all up, I just microwave the kumara and veggies first coz that's the fastest way iv found
hey man great recipe! you showing us some good tips. you learned cooking well! @LPinned
 
Hey fellas, iv been quiet lately but for good reasons, iv been training like a maniac and still getting 25-30k steps in daily, iv signed up to a different gym which is fukn awesome I love it, it has a more old-school raw feel to it, my first gym was almost brand new but it was mostly all machines with not many attachments etc , the one I'm at now has awesome old school gear and attachments.
Iv added carbohydrates in my diet now and I'm fukn loving it, basically iv only added apples, brown rice, kumara and broccoli.

Daily calories I am and 4-4500calories

Protein 4-450grams
Carbs 350-400
Fats - 80-100grams

Here's some food pics
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This omlette was massive , 12 eggs (4 whole, 8 whites, 1 cup of rice mixed in, 1 kumara grated in and 300grams of lean mince
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@LPinned some quality looking food there that’s what will make you grow keep after it
 
Thank you my man, yeah I'm very consistent I can't wait to get to the gym every morning , excited to see the 12week finished product lol
that is the way its done!
 
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