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Nah I don’t remember. Maybe do a Google search it was a while ago with coach Trevor
Interesting man! I have heard of some people saying smoking/drinking habits changed on them. What do you feel like happens to you? Like quiets something down or turns a part of your brain off?
Are you saying you quit caffeine all together three weeks ago? That's pretty amazing man. I accidentally didn't have it two days in a row when I went to Japan 20 years ago, I got an atcual migraine and never tried that again. The second time I missed two days I was in a coma.
This is great stuff man I'll start following your log. I feel the same way about the forum. I went to hospital to detox from alcohol and get on the methadone program a couple of years ago but it was slow going at first, but things started moving really quickly when I started here.
First time I quit was when I went to jail for 100 days. I tried the instant coffee once while I was there and was like,”why would anyone want to be so alert and awake here?” And it felt so dirty. I slept great and worked out twice a day in jail, and I grew like someone who had just recovered from being deathly ill. About 165 to 195 in 100 days. I attribute that very much to not having caffeine, eating regularly (I never did that, just starve and binge) and hard workouts with perfect recovery and all that processed food
Dinner with my kids Friday 10/3/25
Yes I ate most of that, and attempted to track it on MyFitnessPal but it’s off by quite a bit because I didn’t even meet my macros but for calories I was 500 over. But that was one of the largest meals I’ve eaten in one sitting in a while. Steak lobster shrimp rice noodles vegetables salad and most of four sushi rolls. And I had eaten throughout the day.
8k steps at work.
Yes I ate most of that, and attempted to track it on MyFitnessPal but it’s off by quite a bit because I didn’t even meet my macros but for calories I was 500 over. But that was one of the largest meals I’ve eaten in one sitting in a while. Steak lobster shrimp rice noodles vegetables salad and most of four sushi rolls. And I had eaten throughout the day.
8k steps at work.
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Damn man that Japanese place looks awesome. I see you went for the giant plate of steak option. Man they're so good at food. The whole of Japan just reeks of BBQ meat so you're always hungry haha
That sounds pretty good. Wish I had a good reason to go there
That's super interesting man, there's definitely something here. I always caught up with sleep there too but mine were just overnight or the weekend. One time I got let out at 8:10am, court didn't open till 8:30 to get the form stamped, and I made it to the conference I'd flown in for by 9am Monday. I dont remember being offered coffee though
But does it really make us alert and awake? I'm not so sure man. I'm starting to question why I do it. Seems so engrained in my brain. I remember watching the movie Hackers in 1996 they drank this shit called Jolt Cola and stayed up hacking all night. Which was about as cool an evening as I could envision at the time and it stuck. It's atcually pretty dirty what I do, just not in my own mind haha.
Also if we weren't physically dependent on it anymore, we'd reset out tolerance like with all things, and then it would work again and if we just used it when needed, not habitually it would probably have a great affect.
Lol i bet that felt like shit the whole day at work
Yeah was cramping up and stuff. Had to climb two 44ft poles 3 times each. The first time I had a 35pound hoist on my belt and after that I pulled everything up with a rope lol. The next day I could barely get out of bed hahahaLol i bet that felt like shit the whole day at work
It does, but once you’re dependant on it it’s a different thing.
And this is the trap I’ve been in ever since I got out of jail.
I know that sleep and food is what is required to make real energy from like, your mitochondria. Caffeine just raises cortisol and when you aren’t conditioned for it, it’s a powerful drug that can make you feel enhanced cognitively and physically. I’ve gotten all the way off caffeine many times, but then I’ll need it, and then I’m right back
Yeah exactly bro.. me too. Things are going pretty good here tho bro, I can see we've both progressed from last month.
Man have you seen the reports on erowid.org about it? some claim to have had full on psychedelic experiences from it. It sounds like theyre talking about something else, but I've basically been building tolerance for 28 years so how would I knoe. Like how in south America shamans use tobacco, that gets crazy like caffeine too.
This is good shit man, apart from that migraine in Japan I have no idea what will happen. But this conversation inspired me to stay in the city today after the pharmacy. Definitely keen to hear what you think about that.
I'm having my first long black at a Cafe in quite a while in the record-store district. I wrote a pros and cons list and decided to shelf the idea for now. I'm on month 4 of a 6 month nicotine patch course and should focus on that, stopping nicotine all together will lower my heart rate a bit too. Might be influenced by the alternate vibes of the Cafe culture here but eh, the cons are too great.
I believe it. You can have a full on psychedelic experience from just fasting and meditation. If you can block outside stimuli and just go into your own mind, it’s all there. That’s why DMT. Is so much stronger, because you go in all the way
So if you can meditate or sensory deprive to the point that you are accessing the dream state, but have a lot of nicotine in you, it’s different. I don’t like it. Put a bunch of patches on and smoke a big, good cigar. You’ll be sick af and seeing all kinds of designs and fractals just right behind your eyelids. And it will feel like your consciousness is… going out of phase.
Quitting caffeine cold is very painful for me. I would only do that if I was forced to. I always switch to matcha first now. You can jump off of that much more gracefully. Coffee and other caffeinated plants have other synergistic alkaloids working in your body and brain.
I've been sick from nicotine many times, it's like the forth level of hell. One time when I first got into mixing eJuice I had 100mg/ml concentrate and was careless and it absorbed through my fingers at the same time I was taste testing which involved inhaling more than usual and I got so sick I atcually called an ambulance but came right after about 40 minutes. I'd hope there was more to the shamans using it than just that but who knows
I always wanted to try the sensory deprivation, I love the idea of it. Done DMT a bit tho, both long orally and smoked extracts. I liked it as a drug but got no special insight or anything. As a teenager I read every book about lsd and masculine and treated them like sacrament but I was kidding myself and they weren't spiritual for me at all. What I really wanted was the other shit, alcohol to reach oblivion and herion to detach from the world to connect with and feel one with the the universe. But that line of thinking is a real downer with normal people
What's matcha bro? I probably would have gotten No-Dose pills so you can easily measure a taper out but that's just the physical stuff. I think the habits and behaviours around it, how to socialise without it as cafes are where I meet girls from Tinder (if you get there first and get you guys a seat, act like you waited to order till she arrived because you're so polite and if you time your pauses right, since she is already standing she'll offer to go get them which means pay
) and even my parents and sister, we usually meet at Cafes not go to their houses.I don't have a strong enough need or desire at the moment but I'm going to think about managing my intake, or at least start logging it. If I reduce from 10 cups to 5 I'll probably notice a difference. It would be ideal if I could just drink it when out but that's just dreaming, I'm physically dependant and would take a long time off, etc to get to that point.
I don't think Spotify goes that far back. I will try the google search
There was more, because they were in nature, they were a part of the ecosystem. I don’t think this can be fully replicated. They had things figured out that we can’t figure or figure out how they figured it out. Like the whole Amazon jungle started out as a super garden that overgrew a still hidden civilization. And the psychedelic, medicinal, and poisonous plants there were created the way we make things out of synthesized chemicals.I'd hope there was more to the shamans using it than just that but who knows
The first time I took lsd it was like my life went from black and white to 4k hi def color tv. Forever. I remember like a week later looking in the mirror and seeing a good looking kid. Never saw him before. So much more. But it should have been the last time. I can go on and on with this. I have a mescaline bearing cactus in my house. Three of them actually. I’ll never eat them. I don’t microdose or anything like that anymore, and every time I hear some podcaster going off about his shrooms microdosing regimen I’m like, “you fucking stupid child”. I mean, do you, but you shouldn’t need that and you think you’re enhanced by it but you’re just on drugs. That’s cool, but you’re only kidding yourself thinking you’re fancy taking drugs like a kid.
Powdered green tea leaf. Not the same as green tea. Good stuff. The cleanest caffeine, it’s a where L-theanine comes from in nature afaik. It can be really expensive, but can be found reasonably as well. It doesn’t hit like coffee, but it’s plenty to stave off the crippling headaches of coffee withdrawal
If I were in your position, with minimal responsibility, I would highly consider coming complete off as a medium to long term experiment to see what happens. Like three months.
Speaking of caffeine addiction I run on caffeine and adrenaline. And no bullshit this is the shirt I'm wearing today.
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Hmm okay man. Atcually three months isn't much to commit to in the grand scheme of things. I'll try and do it for a month starting the day I'm completely off.
I will go to the pharmacy this week and get the last load of patches. I stayed on 14mg for an extra month but I've been taking them off at night the last 2 weeks which technically reduces my dose by a quarter.
So I might do those 7mg patches for two weeks and during I could reduce coffee to two a day, then get caffeine pills and over a two week period taper with measured pill doses complety off both nicotine patches and caffeine. I threw the last few sheets of lozenges in the bin on the way to the gym, they were doing me no good and contained sugar too probably.
If I could manage that, a month completely off will reset my tolerance to some great degree and I could wait until then to see how it went and what I want to do next.
I wasn't planning on rejoining Tinder until I have a six-pack anyway.
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To me, quitting caffeine feels similar to taking growth hormone. You sleep amazing. AMAZING, and you recover better. But a little sleepy all the time
Right behind you. I had a nicotine relapse back in August and have been tapering the patch for a few weeks
This will work
I’m too old for tinder i guess. Well. I never posted physique shots on a dating app. Maybe I should just hoe out and see what kind of strays I can pick up. In usually only use dating aid when I’m traveling, which has advantages and challenges
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Got my macros up for sure and got a lift in. I felt stronger than the lifts I did, but easing back into it so I don’t wreck myself for work.
I only went barefooting in the morning and am going again this morning. So unseasonably warm. The water is barely even cold. So strange
Got my macros up for sure and got a lift in. I felt stronger than the lifts I did, but easing back into it so I don’t wreck myself for work.
I only went barefooting in the morning and am going again this morning. So unseasonably warm. The water is barely even cold. So strange
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This dude is intense! Lol
I can’t get through it. He’s right of course. And I’ve got pretty far down the anti consumer path. But when you follow it to its conclusion, you are basically considered a vagrant. The idea that you can work your way out of consumerism is mostly flawed, only a few people pull that off. So you can just stop paying your bills, stop going to work, and eat out of the trash. And if everyone did that eventually we would be rewilded humans. Or you can counter that theory with “as little as possible” but who defines that? Can you get by without a car? Can you get by without a bike? Can you get by without a road? Are you sure that’s a better world, because anyone trying to deliver a breech birth would disagree as they die on the way to the hospital if there even is one. And that’s ok to some people. Well ok.
Broccoli is so beneficial and important when u look at everything it can do for the body
I can’t help but be skeptical of plants tbh. I anlways ate them because I enjoyed them, but I didn’t digest them well for most of my life. I was nearly perfect carnivore from I think late 2015 to early 2021. I ate really high quality meat that you can’t buy in stores and it was pretty unreal the glow up that happened to me. I would have done it forever, but things have a way of sneaking back in, and my willpower concerning food is quite bad. The only way I was able to be carnivore is because if I so much as ate a handful of peanuts or a serving of asparagus, my arthritis would come back with a vengeance. I would literally salivate in stores, that’s why I only bought from the farmer.
So when my kids moved in with me it was pretty much impossible to remain strict carnivore. My daughter meal preps some pretty kick ass food and little by little I found that my stomach had healed dramatically and I could reasonably eat like a normal person and I’m thankful for that, but I am positive that I would be more ideal if I ate strictly meat most of the time.
You know the things they publish about plant foods are often a little iffy, right? Like when they were saying resveratrol in wine was good for your heart, and every wine mom in America repeated it constantly. They love that. But that stuff isn’t strong enough to do anything observable and you’d have to drink a barrel of wine anyway hahaha.
What are “antioxidants”? Glutathione is an antioxidant. Is there glutathione in blueberries? Nope. And if there was it would be destroyed by you’re digestive process. There are very very mild toxins in blueberries that cause your liver to create glutathione and you supposedly get a hormetic effect from it. But mostly we get the fat carbs and vitamin c and such from blueberries simply because our liver lets us deal with the mild toxins as long as everything is working ok.
I’ve never found a product that accurately lists an actual antioxidant in the ingredients, but maybe they exist. Mostly it’s a buzzword to get you to buy a product.
I’m not saying the big broccoli cartel is deceiving the world, per se, but I do think that most plants that we eat are not as nutritious as they are made out to be for numerous reasons like especially monocropped industrial farming, but also that… they never actually were. I’m going to keep eating it. But I don’t expect any amazing breakthroughs from it. Not at all.
@vanlife_gymbum is showing how it’s done!
He is crazy.
. But he is one of the truly best survivalists in the world. If ur plane crashes in the middle of nowhere you want him around cause he will know how to survive
@toddthelineman a good rest day can be just as beneficial a training day. Hope you enjoyed your day off
So I can say pretty definitely, N2Guard does work. My alt and ast are half what they had been and not much else has changed. I’m through about a bottle and a half at full dose now.
But I don’t know why my potassium is high and that’s very concerning. Could explain my recent lethargy. I haven’t even been eating bananas or potatoes or many avocados or anything I could think of with a lot of potassium and I don’t know why it’s like this. Well now I have to try to get it down and get more blood work. Very annoying.
Urea and bun/creatinine are always high for me, assuming that’s my diet and no reason for alarm.
I was not expecting out of range e2 at 150mg/ wk of test. I am taking Fadogia Agrestis. Maybe that works just like hcg. I guess I really have to take aromasin all the time. Annoying.
And it’s time to donate blood again. It’s been three months or so.
Definitely not starting any type of cycle or higher doses like this. And that’s fine. I’ve got a lot of room to grow without it still
But I don’t know why my potassium is high and that’s very concerning. Could explain my recent lethargy. I haven’t even been eating bananas or potatoes or many avocados or anything I could think of with a lot of potassium and I don’t know why it’s like this. Well now I have to try to get it down and get more blood work. Very annoying.
Urea and bun/creatinine are always high for me, assuming that’s my diet and no reason for alarm.
I was not expecting out of range e2 at 150mg/ wk of test. I am taking Fadogia Agrestis. Maybe that works just like hcg. I guess I really have to take aromasin all the time. Annoying.
And it’s time to donate blood again. It’s been three months or so.
Definitely not starting any type of cycle or higher doses like this. And that’s fine. I’ve got a lot of room to grow without it still
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Good to hear N2Guard is doing its job since those liver numbers dropping that much means the support ingredients are working. Elevated potassium can happen from dehydration or minor kidney stress so back off any high-dose electrolyte mixes, stay around a gallon+ water per day, and repeat labs in a week before changing diet too hard.
Your e2 rise at 150 mg test isn’t unusual and the Fadogia could be mimicking hcg, so try 6 mgs aromasin 1x per week and retest in 3 weeks to see where it lands. Donating blood now is a smart move to keep hematocrit in range and you’re right to stay off higher doses until everything stabilizes.
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So here’s the rub, I was very very hydrated days in advance and haven’t touched an electrolyte in many weeks. Not a single potato or banana in weeks. Dates, nothing. And this lethargy man. It’s not normal. I can force myself to perform but I’m psycho anyway. I feel like I could sleep more than a cat. This is not normal. And it’s been going on for a while. Well, several weeks ago I got sick. I thought I was having a heart attack. I just got off the phone with my daughter, who just aced her cardiac course(she will be a cardiac nurse by the end of the year, her job is secured), and she thinks I may have dysrhythmia or afib, I can’t remember what she said.
But why, right? Well. There’s a case study on pubmed of a chronic kratom user who was found to have hyperkalemia AND elevated ast/alt and he quit and he got better. I have to quit and retest. Have to get an ekg tomorrow.
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Good call getting that EKG, that lethargy and possible rhythm issue make it worth checking now rather than waiting. Kratom can absolutely mess with potassium handling and liver enzymes so stopping it and retesting is the right move, especially with your daughter’s insight on the cardiac side.
Skip any herbal or stimulant products until labs and EKG come back. If potassium is still elevated after a week off kratom, ask for kidney function and aldosterone panels to see if there’s any underlying regulation issue. @toddthelineman
Fuck ya! And I'll do the land nav and get us the hell out of there and kill anyone in our way too while pep talking everyone when they're ready to tap out. We should drop all of us into the amazon and make an EVO reality show!He is crazy.
i would love to do something like that one day.
To be honest man that bloodwork looks great to me. And that's actually around where I like my e2... obviously slightly lower would be best but I can't stand when it's too low at all.
Were you well hydrated before going in for blood work?
Nevermind just read further down lol.
Why you taking Fadogia Agrestis if you're pinning test?
Oh shit @toddthelineman. Todd man ya Kratom can fuck with your pottasium big time I forgot you were a daily user of that. Lev gave you some good advice there it might be an easy fix.
I’ll go. I’m pretty handy hahaha. I work best under pressure
it will be like gilligans island. everyone is a specific stereotype and has a specific skill set to help us survive
I think together we'd all gel as a team and get out of there alive. It's all about teamwork and knowing what your buddy to the left and right of you can and will do and we've shown even on here that we can do that.
The different personalities would be fucking hilarious we'd have to get @Mobster to the jump out of the plane with us to deadlift the fallen trees and I'd love to bring along @BodyMonster34 to assist me with the shanking of intruders. I could teach us all to freefall and deploy our chutes before the show starts! And the pre-show interviews would be an awesome episode in itself LOL. @LevButlerov call the tech department!
@toddthelineman the likely culprit for the high potassium is simply kidney strain. unfortunately having our kidneys take a beating is par for the course in this sport
who is going to make a radio out of a coconut lol.
I have always felt better with something, HCG or DHEA and pregnenalone, or fadogia agrestis. I feel my absolute best with hcg, but the acne from E2 being near 100 is not ok. And I don’t like shooting small loads. It’s a lot less sensation for me and for better or worse, my sexuality is a big part of my identity and it affects me mentally. So that’s how it is. I’ve tried straight test, nothing else. I don’t feel right like that. Maybe I can get used to it. I’m not sure
I have the small loads syndrome... I listened to Vigorous Steve's take on it and I didn't buy it. What's up with that?
You’ve seen this before then? I’ve been feeling pretty shitty for a while, that’s why I decided to get bloodwork. I mean,
never took tren. Never really did a real cycle. I’m not too excited about it. Imagine if I did become dehydrated or had still been taking Telmisartan. Could be deadly
Meh, small load less mess I say lol.
You're cycling the Fadogia right? Usually 4 weeks on 1 week off.
When you said you were super hydrated and taking electrolytes. You think the electrolytes you drank before the bloodwork spiked your potassium reading?
How much water did you drink before you got tested?
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Fadogia Agrestis can make the balls look and feel fuller even on cycle because it signals the testes to stay active through LH-like pathways, keeping some local testosterone and sperm activity going despite suppression. It doesn’t restart true LH production under pinning, but it can keep intratesticular function alive enough to maintain size and sensitivity, which explains why you notice the difference in sensation and volume. @BeMe @toddthelineman
It’s possible you were dehydrated when you got bloods. There are more accurate kidney tests ur dr can do for youYou’ve seen this before then? I’ve been feeling pretty shitty for a while, that’s why I decided to get bloodwork. I mean,
This is true but when you're trying to go all porn star and place it somewhere strategic on her it can like "uhhhh, I must be dehydrated honey". But it's also less for her to consume too so meh, look at the silver lining I suppose.
Doesn’t feel the same to me
Yeah, I’ll go longer than that off, I just get more when it starts to bother me. A few weeks or a month
I have not taken electrolytes in… months? Haven’t eaten anything classically considered high in potassium.
I drank 1500 ml of water on the way to the lab. It was early in the morning. 1 hour drive.
I was reasonably hydrated for two days prior. More than a gallon a day
Wow. I knew it was strong as a test booster, I didn't realize that strong.
Seems like a waste to me tho @toddthelineman but to each his own. If you're gonna go down the elimination road that would be the first one I would remove. Small balls and loads are awesome lol!
Jeez..what a mystery then.
Gotta be a supplement or kratom or something doing it to you then. You haven't been running anything in a while.
Hah, way to ruin my bedtime @toddthelineman
Bedtime is cancelled in favor of this. Calm night and moon looks full, gonna go walk down the beach and see what you sound like
Bedtime is cancelled in favor of this. Calm night and moon looks full, gonna go walk down the beach and see what you sound like
So like, I haven’t found a chick to settle down with. I’m still playing the field. Which is getting really annoying but that’s how it is. Apparently it’s not normal to be able to hit the wall from 7-8 feet away when you’re 46? That’s what they tell me lol but I’m still doing it and I’m going to for as long as I can.
I used to have really troublesome prostate issues. For a long long time. And the whole thing with how I ejaculate, how I pee, sleeping without getting up to pee, it’s all together in how I assess my current health
Wow I thought it would never come. Pretty anxious hahahaHah, way to ruin my bedtime @toddthelineman
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Bedtime is cancelled in favor of this. Calm night and moon looks full, gonna go walk down the beach and see what you sound like
No need bro, it was great
I'll write to you tomorrow & write a review on Spotify.
bros you never know when you will meet the one. i met mine when i went to unclog her toilet while i was on plumbing convention in Cali. i was this poor guy from Bama and she a rich Asian from Cali whose dad was big japanese businessman and we made love in her bathtub after i unclogged toilet. i was the first BBC she met and we been together since.So like, I haven’t found a chick to settle down with. I’m still playing the field. Which is getting really annoying but that’s how it is. Apparently it’s not normal to be able to hit the wall from 7-8 feet away when you’re 46? That’s what they tell me lol but I’m still doing it and I’m going to for as long as I can.
great to hear that n2guard works
Some people aren't made to settle down. Don't do what society tells you to do. Be yourself. @toddthelinemanSo like, I haven’t found a chick to settle down with. I’m still playing the field. Which is getting really annoying but that’s how it is. Apparently it’s not normal to be able to hit the wall from 7-8 feet away when you’re 46? That’s what they tell me lol but I’m still doing it and I’m going to for as long as I can.
@toddthelineman If you are noticing lethargy then definitely is something going on inside your body. That's definitely not a good sign. The body has ways to give you red flags.
I can't wait to listen and report back
this is awesome @toddthelineman i can't wait to listen to it. it will be amazing i'm sure!Hah, way to ruin my bedtime @toddthelineman
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WOW! Now that is a story.
I had a Japanese girlfriend for two years, I picked her up when she was hitch-hiking while I was still studying Japanese at university the year before I moved to Tokyo. She stayed over but said it would he rude to fuck at my parents house, and we didn't.
Your story is straight out of a story lesser-dudes make up to tell at the pub. How long from unclog to bathtub to married, just out of curiosity?
Well done Sir
I dumped enough kratom to last me at least a year. I don’t need it. It’s served its purpose
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Hahaha love the video man, they really do swirl around the opposite way!
You been thinking about this or inspired by recent messages?
Don't you build a tolerance? I only tried it once when facing months of opium withdrawal I was unprepared for. You had a regular opiate tolerance prior to kratom right?
Regardless, well done bro. You will find the solution to the lethargy problem. That's what I was like for the past two years after sobering up.
I came right and felt good in January so decided to do an aggressive methadone taper and went from 120mg to 80mg over two months then spent the next four months in that same state you described, or in bed.
I went back up to 90mg and started exercising again but the first half of this year was a complete write off and I only reduced by 30mg in total and that was suppost to be the easy part of the taper.
My recent bloodwork showed elevated potassium. I wasn’t dehydrated, but if I had Ben, it could’ve gotten high enough to give me a heart attack easily.
This may have happened several weeks ago, right before this whole bullshit lethargy thing set in. I had gotten really sick in the middle of the night. And I did think I was having a heart attack and I was alone and I thought I was gonna die. My daughter is about to become a cardiac nurse, and we talked today and she thinks I may have a dysrhythmia and I need to go see a doctor. Like I was breathing hard changing my damn laundry. Something‘s not right. I was gonna do that today, but I had to do a work thing no matter what so I’m going to go tomorrow.
There’s a chance the kratom had nothing to do with it, but that’s not gonna be a question anymore
I had been off all drugs, for years, before I started taking kratom. But my alcohol use. Had gotten progressively worse.
I know people that use Kratom for PAWS. I’m not too sure how much you would have to take to save you from acute withdrawals. I think people use kratom extracts for that. Strong stuff. I never did that. It would make me sick.
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For sure it's strong and it works, I've had clients recover in pct with just hcgenerate and tamoxifen nothing else. @BeMe
Dang bro that is a big step! You got this and you will be better for it. Whatever happens going forward make sure to give yourself grace.
I’m good. I’ve taken a couple long breaks. I haven’t taken enough to get real withdrawal symptoms. I’ll just be my old crabby self lol. Some slight body temperature fluctuations and a sniffly nose is all I’m expecting for a few days.
Typical millenial I just looked at the pic and thought wtf has Todd been eating lol.
Not even a taper? Fuck bro I heard those withdrawals can be bad. I considered kratom when I was trying to get off oxys but it was like trading one addiction for another basically.
Also I heard a little bit of the podcast. You sound like what I thought @HarleyGuy would sound like lol. Seriously deep raspy voice. With a Chicago accent though LOL
Na fuck it. I’m literally fine. I did it before. I already felt like shit anyway. Last time I just stopped was an accident, I mailed a package to my destination, but a huge storm stopped the mail and closed all the stores… I thought I was going to feel horrible on my vacation. I was completely fine, and abstained for a little over a month even though I kept a huge stockpile at home. I do think I’m done now. I’m not in any acute pain, my chronic pain is manageable, nothing like it was. I want to feel things normally again.
Ah shit man. I think I must have missed a couple of your messages. That sounds pretty serious man. How convenient that your daughter has that exact speciality
Try level out work and delegate a bit more for a couple of days while you sort this. Sure you know how stress can tip you over heart-wise. I've had a few cardiac events myself, that's probably a prime contender for what's going to take the two of us out man. I've been worried about it for a while and why I want to quit nicotine and caffeine, just to take a bit more load off.
Sounds like you've got everything in motion but really I'd try offload work to your apprentice kid where possible.
I started writing the NZ Needle Exchange Guide we were talking about, I'll send you a link when I'm done so you can show your daughter
Hang in there bro
Time for some daytime CBD and nighttime CBN I say
Na fuck it. I’m literally fine. I did it before. I already felt like shit anyway. Last time I just stopped was an accident, I mailed a package to my destination, but a huge storm stopped the mail and closed all the stores… I thought I was going to feel horrible on my vacation. I was completely fine, and abstained for a little over a month even though I kept a huge stockpile at home. I do think I’m done now. I’m not in any acute pain, my chronic pain is manageable, nothing like it was. I want to feel things normally again.
I sure don’t need any help sleeping
. It’s all I want to do
Na fuck it. I’m literally fine. I did it before. I already felt like shit anyway. Last time I just stopped was an accident, I mailed a package to my destination, but a huge storm stopped the mail and closed all the stores… I thought I was going to feel horrible on my vacation. I was completely fine, and abstained for a little over a month even though I kept a huge stockpile at home. I do think I’m done now. I’m not in any acute pain, my chronic pain is manageable, nothing like it was. I want to feel things normally again.
@toddthelineman Fuck Todd man.... after hearing your podcast I have mad respect for how hard you work and your ethic brother, especially the part about your kids looking at you I got goosebumps in the truck. Now... on top of that you made that choice to shwack the kratom. In the sniper world when we're ready to take someone out and take the shot we say "send it" (meaning pull the trigger and send the bad news to that fucker)... you made the decision to end the kratom and you fuckin sent it bro. Even more respect your way.
Please keep us posted on your heart issues and if you wanna have some nerdy DM's about cardiac stuff I'm on heart meds since I went so balistic my heart stopped and now I love chatting about that clinical shit.
Question to @BeMe and all the other mods who are my fellow steroid gurus: what compound can I max dose and for how many weeks to thicken my vocal cords to get the @toddthelineman voice?
Ya those crazy long days will do that. Atleast you're making crazy dough! Maybe treat yourself to a supercharged jetski next summer hahaI sure don’t need any help sleeping
Bro I feel like you're setting me up for an @BodyMonster34 answer here
Tren, mast, test, and lots of red meat will make you more of a man lol
Man works is in s a holding pattern right now. Which is fine. I need the recovery time. I’ve got some equipment to repair and things to catch up on.
It was kinda always like that, but then all the years of yelling outside and even just trying to talk over loud machines, yelling across fields, yelling at new guys, yelling back at crazy people. I’ve lost my voice a lot of times. I can’t even talk for hours and hours like girls can. It’s painful.
You sound like a pack a day old school lineman bro. Pretty bad ass
Yeah I smoked a lot for like ten years. I quit in 2005 when I helped my buddy train for his first golden gloves, and over the years I would start and quit again, but mostly haven’t smoked for a long time now. I also vaped on and off, but never at the same time as smoking. I also used to get some pretty bad throat infections for some reason.
Well good thing you stopped and now have a @Mobster level voice. If you kept going you might sound like James Earl Jones now lol or maybe worse...Steve o
Or even RFK Jr.! If he was my Dad and he yelled at me to shit I'd shit right in my pants where I stood LOL.
Great job on the podcast Todd! I know you were worried about the pauses and ums or ahs but you're being hard on yourself. It's obvious you were being thoughtful and considering your answers.
I bet you only regret the things you didn't say and don't regret anything you said right? Thoughtfulness. It's better that way then just blasting off and wondering why you said what you did like a coke head lol. I thought you did great bro. Definitely worth the wait
I bet you only regret the things you didn't say and don't regret anything you said right? Thoughtfulness. It's better that way then just blasting off and wondering why you said what you did like a coke head lol. I thought you did great bro. Definitely worth the wait
Yeah it was pretty cool. Exactly like you said.
Got the EKG. Abnormal.
Me: “what’s the risk if I tough this out?”
Doctor: “your life. If it doesn’t happen again and kill you, you’ll eventually suffer tissue death in your heart”
I knew something wasn’t right
@toddthelineman awesome to stay on top of your bloodwork like this!
Hey brother - hope you're not feeling too down.
You kinda goaded that answer out of the doctor, he probably channeled his lawyer to deliver that response.
Your toughing it out phase kinda ended when you told your daughter and went to the doctor though, it's a good thing bro.
You also had already started prepping by making heart related lifestyle changes, ditching kratom, etc and this event has already taken place and now it's too late to go back and try ignore it.
Though ah, I would be too
Things might get busy for a while. They'll probably heavily question your diet too. Honestly the heart is my biggest concern. All the dead lifters I know personally died from cardiac events.
I think this is probably one of the times you should heavily rely on your daughter. She's not going to stear you wrong and she surely knows more than us.
I'm around anytime if you need to chat bro.
Looks like I’m OK. Electrolytes are normal again. Second ekg was fine. I’m relieved. Probably gonna cost $10k lolHey brother - hope you're not feeling too down.
You kinda goaded that answer out of the doctor, he probably channeled his lawyer to deliver that response.
Your toughing it out phase kinda ended when you told your daughter and went to the doctor though, it's a good thing bro.
You also had already started prepping by making heart related lifestyle changes, ditching kratom, etc and this event has already taken place and now it's too late to go back and try ignore it.
Though ah, I would be too
Things might get busy for a while. They'll probably heavily question your diet too. Honestly the heart is my biggest concern. All the dead lifters I know personally died from cardiac events.
I think this is probably one of the times you should heavily rely on your daughter. She's not going to stear you wrong and she surely knows more than us.
I'm around anytime if you need to chat bro.
Did they read it upside down or something? Fuck paying $10k bro those fucks almost gave you an atcual heart attack. Get some good cardio from running away from that bill.
Did you try unflush the kratom?
Just kidding man, this sounds pretty weird to me tbh bro, I thought our medical system was micky mouse....
But you also said that you felt something was wrong. And something happened with your heart that alarmed your daughter who studied that exact shit.
I think you should see a cardiac specialist with that $10k.
I wish you didn't have to pay because I'd recommend a stress EKG with contrast to really see WTF is going on. I'm still concerned a bit. They should rule out tachy-brady syndrome too; I'd take a lot of BP measurements but note your heart rate 3-4 times at rest throughout the day. But yo at rest well... that'll be a tough one LOL. You can do it once home from work and then an hour before bed and then right before and then upon waking too. See if your HR varies a lot for no reasons.
I'm grateful that second test came back okay though it appears you're in the clear after that one at least.
bros it was fast once i found out she came from rich family. her dad bought her $1M house when she turn 18WOW! Now that is a story.
I had a Japanese girlfriend for two years, I picked her up when she was hitch-hiking while I was still studying Japanese at university the year before I moved to Tokyo. She stayed over but said it would he rude to fuck at my parents house, and we didn't.
Your story is straight out of a story lesser-dudes make up to tell at the pub. How long from unclog to bathtub to married, just out of curiosity?
Well done Sir
Well. I’ve been peeing quite a lot. In between hospitals even. I watched my heart rate and blood pressure change in real time. Could be that potassium had everything whacky
Depending on how I show my income, or lack thereof, as a business owner, I may not have to pay much. It’ll all work out
Don’t even want to. I feel fine as far as not using it. I’m moving onunflush the kratom?
Yeah, when I had insurance it was hard to get anything done. Can’t imagine. Probably better plan some medical tourism
They said to follow up with one.
It was in the seventies today until all of a sudden everything Went normal. Mid fifties.
Me too man, but it leaves questions
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bros but you aren't a person who cares about money though. i'm not either. i plumb for a living cause i enjoy it.Hahaha you're the man bro
I think I've won the lottery when tinder chicks let me stay the night
