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Binges? Are you having problems with over eating?
Yes I mentioned it at the start I've been having issues with stress eating. I'm about to lose my job so all the bullshit associated with finding work and whatnot. My routine got disrupted and I have not been able to keep a stable routine (I need a stable routine to function at my best)and relationship issues. Those all kinda combined with an injury here and there sickness and some weird emotions regarding seeing an orchard me and my supervisor fought hard for years to keep going ripping trees out has just kinda been too much for me at times
Have you tried stress eating healthy volumous foods like veggies? Or even watermelon. Things that have almost no calories but fill up a lot of space in your stomach and take a while to eat a lot of.
Yeah I usually make stews with potatoes and homemade pizza muffins 4x biscuits once, spaghetti alla assassina Is the most common comfort food or just chicken breast and bread I made myself
Very lean to start here. Be following this
Thanks the bulk is going to be crazy while I can still afford to grow
I'm not a bodybuilder mate, but it sounds like you're not in an optimal environment at all to be doing prep for a show.
Contest prep with all the calorie restriction, cardio etc makes people feel like shit even with everything else in their life under control.
Your situation with job & financial security, is multiplying the stress levels by x 10.
You're 24, and have many years + opportunities ahead of you to compete. I don't think taking 6-12 months to get your life on track is going to harm you in the long run.
You need to be in a better physical and mental headspace. I've been in a similar situation with finances and with not great health. Training was difficult at that time (it is a stressor on the body). I couldn't imagine attempting a contest prep.
Hope you can sort things out mate and come back bigger & stronger. You have everyone's support here at anytime.
Contest prep with all the calorie restriction, cardio etc makes people feel like shit even with everything else in their life under control.
Your situation with job & financial security, is multiplying the stress levels by x 10.
You're 24, and have many years + opportunities ahead of you to compete. I don't think taking 6-12 months to get your life on track is going to harm you in the long run.
You need to be in a better physical and mental headspace. I've been in a similar situation with finances and with not great health. Training was difficult at that time (it is a stressor on the body). I couldn't imagine attempting a contest prep.
Hope you can sort things out mate and come back bigger & stronger. You have everyone's support here at anytime.
We are just going to do the show the best we can I got to 8 at best. I didn't expect things to fall apart during prep, but powered through because I said I would when I quit drinking. It's been damn difficult but I don't quit
Try having some stuff like I mentioned on deck ready to go. Then if you feel a binge coming in it's right there and easier than having to deal with heating up or cooking food.
You'd be amazed the way some raw bell peppers, or baby carrots, stuff like that can fill you up, but it takes time to chew your way through it so you can just stuff your face quick with high calorie muffin pizzas
Ah true yeah I have fruit on hand and have been using kiwi fruit because they are in season rn, oh I meant muffins, pizza.
Ah ok. Cuz sometimes up here we make muffin pizzas. You just throw some tomato sauce, pepperoni, and mozzarella on an English muffin and cook it in the oven. It's actually pretty good.
Kiwis are really good..I'm pretty sure I remember hearing they're good for burning fat. I can't eat them cuz my mouth gets kinda numb when I do.
Ya the best trick for overeating is find something that takes time to eat, fills you up, and isn't high in calories or fat. It's even better if it's quick to make. If you can think of stuff you enjoy that meets that criteria it should help.
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It's like a poor fast, it will work, no issues. @BeMe
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Its not perfect but you can pull off a dry look pre show if you have a tight budget.
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I'm thinking protein shakes and rice but not sure your budget.
That's atleast more substantive and the protein will have all the aminos you need.
So todays log it's Monday the 8th I just finished most of my course work for my l3 horticulture training. I've started applying for jobs one remote and another to do with asparagus picking. I'm going to go for my Restricted license test, hoping I get it [I'm nervous to be honest] but that's it for the good news in my life my girlfriend and I broke up Friday and that's unsettled things.... My life forge stuff arrives today so I'll give a review and it'll be honest. I train shoulders today so I'm excited I like shoulder sessions......
Sorry to get all philosophical but how else are you going to know me? I feel at times like I'm on a precipice and I just have to jump and see where life takes me, I don't feel ready in the slightest but I suppose you never feel ready when life pushes you down a road you don't expect. Amor Fati [love your fate] I guess.I could spend all this time intellectualizing and coming up with different explanations or using ideas that a bunch of dead people gave to try and express my thoughts or I could just ramble. I choose ramble Ha Gottem!!! But in all seriousness I'm looking forward to meeting myself in six months time and seeing who I become but a part of me isn't sure and is worried about the future. Ig that's just part of being young anyway I'm getting ready to hit my shoulder workout added tirz at 5mg a week at this stage and 5 amino 1mq at 150-300 mcg I'm going to play around until I have a dose that works for me. I upped the clean to 120mcg I'm going to add more volume about 2-3 extra sets a work out and keep food the same it seems my plate is getting lighter. I failed my Restricted test but I'm going to keep it as pending on my CV because that isn't a lie because I'm going to get it... I promise you that I WILL have my Restricted license and I will be presentable on stage.
Sorry to get all philosophical but how else are you going to know me? I feel at times like I'm on a precipice and I just have to jump and see where life takes me, I don't feel ready in the slightest but I suppose you never feel ready when life pushes you down a road you don't expect. Amor Fati [love your fate] I guess.I could spend all this time intellectualizing and coming up with different explanations or using ideas that a bunch of dead people gave to try and express my thoughts or I could just ramble. I choose ramble Ha Gottem!!! But in all seriousness I'm looking forward to meeting myself in six months time and seeing who I become but a part of me isn't sure and is worried about the future. Ig that's just part of being young anyway I'm getting ready to hit my shoulder workout added tirz at 5mg a week at this stage and 5 amino 1mq at 150-300 mcg I'm going to play around until I have a dose that works for me. I upped the clean to 120mcg I'm going to add more volume about 2-3 extra sets a work out and keep food the same it seems my plate is getting lighter. I failed my Restricted test but I'm going to keep it as pending on my CV because that isn't a lie because I'm going to get it... I promise you that I WILL have my Restricted license and I will be presentable on stage.
Any way some photos from today. While I can I might as well answer questions; I have protein powder I have a cheap whey concentrate and a lot of it, I have a few pounds of the mutant isolate. I have kilos of brown rice and I have something like 60 or 80 cans of tuna, there's 2 kg of kiwi fruit. I have almost 2 kg of carrots and about 8 kg potatoes. I have more than enough Greek yogurt [low fat] and a little dairy free cheese
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Yes lets see his situation
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sounds like you’re juggling a lot but you’re still showing up and putting in work which is what matters. breakups throw you off but your training and goals are going to keep you moving forward. the license setback isn’t failure it’s just one more step until you pass. the fact you’re planning doses, volume and sticking with food shows you’re dialed in. keep shoulders sharp today and let that session reset your head a bit. NEVER GIVE UP! EVO family supports you. @Dave1288499
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if you have brown rice and tuna, concentrate on that but you need to drain the tuna and wash it of salt.
Yes I understand. And yes was disrupted so I took this weekend to have a little sulk but today I'm going to destroy shoulders its going to be the best damn workout I've had. The license is an inconvenience and limits my options for work but nothing more I'm going to do the best I can......I can promise you thatsounds like you’re juggling a lot but you’re still showing up and putting in work which is what matters. breakups throw you off but your training and goals are going to keep you moving forward. the license setback isn’t failure it’s just one more step until you pass. the fact you’re planning doses, volume and sticking with food shows you’re dialed in. keep shoulders sharp today and let that session reset your head a bit. NEVER GIVE UP! EVO family supports you. @Dave1288499
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Sounds like big changes are coming in all aspects of your life. Like you said, 6 months you're not even gonna recognize this guy. Very excited to follow along on your new journey. No looking back, keep moving forward.
For sure I won't recognize my life as my life if I were to get a spoiler. There's a reason I've been so stressy lots changing all at once and I just passed three books
Yea you're dealing with a lot all at once. Just keep your head down and power through like a man lol. It will be worth it in the end.
What choice do I have?
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You do the best with the situation you have
EVO family support for you.
Oh it never was
So my life forge stuff arrived today [NZpost dicked around] I got some tirzepitide 30 mg[starter kit that came with 1x bac water, 1x 100 alcohol swabs 10x syringes], 2x 5000mcg 5 amino 1mq [he threw an extra on], and 1x 30x1mg arimadex oh and about 30x `1ml 31g insulin syringes. [I was low on slin pins] everything was professionally packaged it was bubble wrapped and I gave it a little shake and nothing rattled so I was certain no vials were broken as nothing had rattled and I didn't hear any glass. I started with 2 mg tirzepitide and 300 5 amino 1 mq and 1 adex I'm going to take 5 mg trizepitide this week and more than likely not go over that. [ I had some coconut water earlier today so I'm getting an uncomfortable pump so I'm going to have to be quick] I'll update this thread quite often with my honest thoughts so far they are positive and I intend to buy from there again. The delivery was fast I had a tracking number within a day of my order. Customer service was excellent, I asked him about dosing 5 amino 1 mq as I had never run it before. I double checked with some friends on another forum [cant say as I'm not sure I should advertise another forum] today I barely ate anything as I was an anxious mess so it'll be interesting to see if the tirz halts the "oh shit food" I typically have on this little food. So far it has, so it works well I'm about to make a meal. And definitely I have noticed a slight difference in how I feel from the 5 amino 1 mq but I've been so low energy lately that a 0.001 increase is noticable.
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Sup bois today was good I just got my level 3 horticulture cert so I can take that to a degree whenever I want [once my life is more stable]. My medicinal cannabis and CBD oil arrived so I will log my experiences with that as i learn more about improving my sleep. I'm going to pull sardines from my diet I've over done them. I didn't have a good back session might up my fruit slightly and maybe go back to 300mcg 5 amino 1mq and split over 2 shots 1 am and pm. I feel like dog shit but we going to make it I don't care what I have to do. Upped clean to 120mcg a day. Defintly feel better with the stuff I got from life forge its making a difference. I've paused my Italian learning as it made me sad so I started working on German. One foot in front of the other
Great touchdown pics and the posing looks great. You're back is already looking really good, I can see a lot of separation. What category are you competing in?
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CBD oil, you mean in NZ they give you medical CBD? @Dave1288499
You are looking good but holding a bit of water, not much. How many hours per day you posing?
Bodybuilding over 80kg at a this stage and classic.
Yes it is prescribed for my sleep I wasn't kidding I have flower and CBD with oral syringes
Honestly I have been lax on the posing because I didn't have much time but I will be bringing post workout posing back in. I have stamina for posing I've done posing calls that are over 30 min straight
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Medical marijuana legal there in NZ?
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power!
I have a history of addiction so I have to be careful
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in that case be very careful
Yesin that case be very careful
I'm pulling food because of how far out. I eat quite a varied diet. It's just a case of I'm behind and it's the final lever I can pull
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As a past alcoholic myself, I understand you well
I'm told I was an addict, tho I'm not sure I know I took the drinking further than I should haveAs a past alcoholic myself, I understand you well
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I definitely too drinking further than I should have lol
, been sober for many many years now!
I started to quit two years ago so far my last give in was in April this year. I liked reta because I feel it turned off that voice telling me hey you've had a bad day why not have a fewI definitely too drinking further than I should have lol
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Retatrutide is good for addictions too, much better than semaglutide imo!
Bro what you need is a dirt bike. I saw the pics of where you live and it looks like prime dirt biking area.
Instead of having a few after a bad day hope on your dirt bike and go for a ride. You'll always come back with a smile on your face
you looking good man! you are lean and muscular. not sure what you are talking about with 'fat arse' nope. too hard on yourself @Dave1288499
bro you got a nice prison physique if you ask me @Dave1288499 i impressed. you pushing some good weights
@Dave1288499 you look good man. the physique is on point. looking really sharp if you ask me!
you look big and strong. nice work on this! my only advice is brush your hair !@Dave1288499
where you are at is amazing! i think you look great. and i also think you have room to keep improving as well! @Dave1288499
bros nice posing routine. you should be a RB in nfl. @Dave1288499 you got the physique to run people over looking big!
I haven't tried semaglutide it didn't look worth my time
Thanks it's the best I can have ready for the stage
The plan is to get bigger and focus on getting wide as fuck
I had actually, I'm going to get a fancy haircut and post show there might be a tattoo in the works
Thanks I won't be peeled but I'm going to bring the best I can
My Bench is terrible but I'll be moving heavy weight soon enough TBH I miss psychotic training, this low estrogen has me babying my elbows for fear of tearing
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Semaglutide too many sides.
It's my biggest issue I'm told, something about how my brain is wired has me very critical of everything I do. It's common with people with autism. We'll there's still a lot of fat on my glutes that isn't moving any time soon. My current thoughts are next time I'll get the walnut glutes
i've been learning a lot about autism the past few years. its something that when i was in college studying psychology was not understood at all. that is awesome you are being open about it. many people are on the spectrum and autism is a very complex thing. more people should talk about it and spread the knowledge on it
I plan to do some stuff using my bodybuilding because people don't know anything. My teachers weren't informed enough about to effectively help me so I want to improve things. RFK seems to be regressing the conversation. I'm open because it helps everyone
thats great to hear man. and yes i agree RFK its a damn shame what happened to that guy. he truly is a mentally ill person at this point and wacked out on drugs.
Yeah I plan to do my part for people like me, bodybuilding for me is just how I build a meat armour to protect myself from the world
Listen to the most recent Joe Rogan episode. RFK is actually doing a lot of good. It's just not being reported that way. All teachers in Canada are trained to recognize autism and work with them. My wife is a preschool teacher and has to give to parents the news all the time. It's on the rise big time. Personally I believe it's the chemicals in our food and people having babies much later in life but who knows. It's definitely on the rise bro.
It looks like you're using it to your strength though which is great! You know they're actually job services that work to get autistic people jobs because they perform so well that specific tasks. It's like a superpower when harnessed properly.
Yeah I don't think it is "on the rise" more we are better at detecting.
I'm sure he is but ou also gotta take into account his claims that he'll "fix" autism and he'll "find a cure" aren't productive in that conversation. Whatever "good" a politician may do doesn't matter if they are singling out a population that are already othered. Idc to talk about politics it's not something I care for. Another thought it's pretty easy to improve the nutrition of a country when the diet is shit on average
I agree. People are the way they are. It’s the same convo as saying I like brunettes but I should be fixed to like blondes.
It’s not some thing that can be fixed or beat out of a person. I was a teacher myself. When I was a kid you could spank kids for acting up in school. The same kids got spanked over and over. And when those kids got home it was more beatings. It wasn’t that they were bad kids at 5 years old. It was that they needed to be taught different. I even understood this as a kid yet adults couldn’t get it smh. I’m sure every one of those kids are dead or in prison today cause they didn’t get proper help.
I know some super smart people with adhd who couldn’t make it past middle school cause they were acting up. Got daily beatings for acting up at home. Now as adults they are either in prison or struggling. Had they been worked with as kids would have ended up different. We gotta do a better job in society of understanding these conditions aren’t handicaps but they make the people special. Some of these people end up being super successful in life who got proper care and understanding
you are bringing it
bro yeah don't tear up elbows. lay off fapping so much
yeah i'm messing with you. i actually think it looks good !
That's a good point. I was actually discussing that same point with my wife years ago.
But she said they've been pretty good at detecting it for the entire time she's been a teacher and she's seeing more kids than ever each new school year.
I can see why that kinda approach to Autism wouldn't be productive. I get why you'd feel that way. But he is coming from a good place, even if his verbiage is wrong. I never even realized it, but you opened my eyes. He probably just needs someone like you and is ear.
You should listen to the episode. The stuff these American agencies are doing to help pharmaceutical companies and big agriculture stay in the profits while making their citizens unhealthier is unbelievable.
bros you got a lean bone structure
wow that is cool stuff. we expect big things from you
Thanks I intend to achieve
Yeah I will, he has autistic relatives. Autism stands out for sure but from everything I've read it seems to be more genetic than with environmental influences
It would be nice if we knew for sure considering how much money they raise for the cause. Just a bunch of charity administrators making a fortune. Once they put AI to work on health I believe we're gonna live in an entirely new world.
Well I'm glad you educated me here. To be honest with you, I would speak the same way as RFK in terms of "curing" but I'll never see it that way again thanks to you.
It's not something that can be cured, people like me have to live in a world that is just too much. Like my brain processes everything I see, touch, smell and hear all like it's brand new it doesn't filter anything like a normal person's brain does. Like I'm chronically tired because my mind itself is overworked just by existing. On top of that internal shit I can't interact normally because I don't have a "rule book" in my head that everyone else seems to have. If you want to learn more about my specific case of autism dm me I'm always happy to awnser questions and I have done a lot of research trying to understand how I function and how best I can optimize
I actually grew up with a guy who was very similar to you. Back then we just called it mild autism. I always liked how he had no filter lol. I'm kinda the same way, just tell it like it is. I appreciate honesty in people and no one was more honest than him.
It's amazing that you're taking things into your own hands and doing the research. There's definitely ways to harness it and use it to your advantage. On doc I watched said autistic coders were some of the best in the business and corporate head hunters were actively seeking them out.
I say be yourself and if people don't like it then fuck em. Don't waste any energy worrying about what other people think cuz you can't please everyone. Anyone who accepts you for you keep them around and forget the rest.
Does the medical weed help you "turn off" your brain for a bit and relax?
My mind races all the time cuz I'm really detail oriented type A and need to make sure everything is perfectly planned out. I'd imagine you're like me cranked all the way up.
Yeah it has been helping me sleep but my just right dose and too much is a very fine line. I'm quite highly strung and don't relax easily. Part of my sleep issues are from my mind just racing all of the time, and another section is because I sometimes forget to sleep
Ya I had the same problems..I literally yell at myself when I'm trying to sleep sometimes like wtf are you doing...shut up and go to bed lol.
Cbd helps, and GH has helped too.
@toddthelineman highly recommends CBN for sleep..says it's even better than CBD.
@Dave1288499 looking great bro!
Thanks I'm about to hit chest and do todays log might put some post workout shots in
So far today was alright I got rained off at work so I got to chill at home for a few hours more than usual. This morning I forgot to take my pills [oof]. I've been having trouble training this week so I've been posing and readded some carbs seems my fuck it approach made training difficult so I started making soups and using them as my pre workout meal I made a boil up recently [if you know you know, if not Google "boil up nz dish"]. Life forges 5 amino 1 mq has definitely made a difference and the tirz has made eating difficult as desired [went with a fuck it 10 mg dose don't recommend] I'm going to lower tirz definitely and up the reta. I hit chest tonight and I decided to do what I call "death by bench" basically I pyramid up until I hit 5 reps and drop by half and get as many as I can. I plan to buy from life forge again soon.
Today was a little weird some emotions I've been repressing started to...well not be repressed. My ex called me baby today while we were speaking.........oh well I don't actually know what I was experiencing so that can wait until I'm less busy...........its weird one day you think you have everything planned out then life just throws things at you, all in all I think I'm doing well. My discord server is running well got my plane and bus booked. So all I have to do is show up. I'm going to try some of the other kiwi sources here in my next rebound as one has some reasonably priced anadrol.
On the medical cannabis front I've done two experiments one night I did just the flower and another night just the CBD it seems both in tandem works best for me. The flower before bed I woke at 0400 then passed out and the CBD day I slept but it wasn't as deep. Tonight I'll do both but with my normal prebed supps. Sorry guys that's all I have today not very insightful ik
Today was a little weird some emotions I've been repressing started to...well not be repressed. My ex called me baby today while we were speaking.........oh well I don't actually know what I was experiencing so that can wait until I'm less busy...........its weird one day you think you have everything planned out then life just throws things at you, all in all I think I'm doing well. My discord server is running well got my plane and bus booked. So all I have to do is show up. I'm going to try some of the other kiwi sources here in my next rebound as one has some reasonably priced anadrol.
On the medical cannabis front I've done two experiments one night I did just the flower and another night just the CBD it seems both in tandem works best for me. The flower before bed I woke at 0400 then passed out and the CBD day I slept but it wasn't as deep. Tonight I'll do both but with my normal prebed supps. Sorry guys that's all I have today not very insightful ik
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I'll look into it, I get sleep about 5hrs typically but since using the weed and CBD it's the first time I've ever had 7 hrs continuous sleep
@Dave1288499 good going bro.......
Thanks......
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Sounds like a solid day overall. You adjusted on the fly with the food changes and that’s what keeps training moving forward even when energy dips. Death by bench is a brutal but effective way to push volume and intensity, so good call running that when motivation’s a little off. The boil up pre workout is creative too, carbs in liquid form usually hit well. Keep dialing in the supps, sounds like you’re figuring what works with sleep and appetite. Keep pushing days like this and momentum comes back fast. @Dave1288499
Yeah thanks I'm seeing more veins and more lines. I'm pretty good on the fly but I was out of it for a few weeks
bros yeah it depends on your genetics too
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I've added a carb meal a day that seems to be what I needed
That's good news bro. There's a few things I think MC can benefit certain people for mainly sleep, stimulating appetite and relaxing if you're stressed or have been highly strung especially from work. An extra two hours sleep will have a noticeable positive effect. You're really going hard though bro, it's awesome to follow =)
