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Would like to see your resting heart rate drop into the 60s. @BeMe it definitely should be lower. Mid 70s is okay but for an athlete you want to be closer to 65 or 60 or less.
It sounds like you're getting over your sickness. Being sick is really tough. Just keep in mind, though, your body is still going to be vulnerable so be careful. You don't want to catch something else. @BeMe
Yea that's what really made me change. Letting down the people I care about. Promised my parents I wouldn't put them through that again the first time but the second time was actually a lot harder on them. When I was at court my mom actually ran into one of her friends which was probably embarassing for her. That ladies son was in the holding cells with me and he was on manslaughter charges so it was probably worse for the other lady lol
I'd be fine with that if I was showing signs of improvement and had something to offer. I kept it going for over a week but by the middle of week 2 it felt like it was just way to much negativity and no results
No fancy charity dinners for me but just eating out for lunch and dinner everyday and paying everything for my GF at the time it added up. Neither of us were into fast food so each day was close to $200 and up. If we went out with friends that weren't making a lot of money I'd always pickup the tab too.
Ya the gym is a must. All this time off being sick really messed with my head. Being inactive doesn't work for me. I'm like that dog breed that chews up the house if it doesn't get walked enough
Yea my RHR always goes up on cycle and in the winter. Off cycle during the non snowy months my RHR is usually around 67-68. Could be better though. Vaping probably doesn't help
Yea I definitely have to avoid my nieces and nephews for a while lol
yep for normal people who aren't constantly getting family money coming in all the time we gotta live modest.
i know a guy who comes from a super rich family who never worked a day in his life, everytime he has an aunt or uncle die he collects 150K or inherits a house. its a constant income stream. he does nothing but party, vacations, and casinos. he is such a moron with money too that he loses so much playing the markets and gambling it all away. yet he doesn't have to worry cause his family is so damn wealthy so he got more money coming
Yea wealthy people really do their kids a disservice by giving them everything. There's a definitely a balance that needs to be struck between giving kids enough but motivating them to earn money for themselves as well. Glad I'm not a parent and stuck figuring that out cuz I think I'd ruin a kid by spoiling them lol
That’s how I was. Just a teenager with a huge appetite I loved eating and I ate good. For the first year or so I didn’t actually have a place to cook or anything, I had a few favorite spots and I always did pick up the tab and I’d tip pretty ridiculous because my mom was a waitress and we were pretty rowdy and didn’t belong in those places so that was how I made sure we were welcome hahaha.
Well his son actually OD’d at a young age and left behind a young child.
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smart move lets give at least 1 day to really feel things out @BeMe give it time please
and you should be doing a very light week back did you see my push ups suggestion?
Yea I was waiter myself for a few years so I was always a big tipper too. Alotta people don't realize that servers make almost nothing in base pay. Its all tips. Where I worked my hourly rate was $4. If the restaurant was dead then I literally made nothing. I didn't mind tho cuz I was hustling at that time lol. I liked serving and it was good having an all cash job to explain my earnings to my parents or the bank on applications
Damn... that's sad. The drugs around these days are really scary that way. Doesn't take much and you're gone. Glad I'm long clean cuz it's scary out there now
Yea but I can't really do proper push ups. My messed up wrist only had about 60% mobility and I can only achieve like 20 degrees of dorsiflexion. Its pretty bad.
I used dumbells for pushups sometimes though.
I'd like to run a deload variation of my program to start going through all the motions again and work on some progression through the week to see how it goes. This way I have a better gauge of where I'm at now vs before.
Never been sick like this before or taken this much time off. I'm in no man's land at the moment.
it was about 20-25 years ago man. so def not these days. pretty sure he OD'd on coke and just didn't wake up. but just shows the mentality of people like this. they don't take life seriously like you said cause they never had to grind in life, it was all given to them by family. i personally got zero respect for trust fund babies, they will never get it at all.
Oh wow. Well he was grinding on the coke cuz you gotta work pretty hard and ignore every signal your body is sending you to die from coke. That takes commitment
yeah the dude was always begging me to take a trip to vegas to party. good for him he had the money to take time from work and blow his money away doing dumb shit. but when you grind for every $$$$ you treat money different
You shoulda gone. He might have been offering to pay for everything. Coulda been fun.
If my rich buddies wanted to hit Niagara to gamble and party they'd pay for everything. Even money for gambling. One time I sitting in the high roller Baccarat room making up to 5k bets and I didn't even know how to play lol. Just copy what my buddy did and I got half the winnings on my seat.
zero interest in ever going to vegas. not my scene. nothing there interests me.
now a nice tropical island with a nice clear beach and fishing? or a cabin in the woods out in the middle of nowhere where i can hit a nice lake or pond for fishing would be nice.
Tropical island with fishing sounds perfect.
I wanna go to Vegas but only to drive sand rails in the desert and shoot some cool guns. The strip doesn't really interest me
you want to bang those strippers i bet lol.
@BeMe glad to hear you’re feeling better. Hope you woke up 100% man
If I go I'm going with my wife. Strip clubs probably won't be on the menu LOL. We're probably gonna head down for the F1 then stay a week maybe next year or the year after
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Switch to planks, sit ups, sissy squats, and some light cardio, avoid full training 1st days back
for now dont
deload start 3 days after you do natty exercises just stretching and bodyweight training
after 3 days, next 3 days you got 30% of your normal volume in reps/weight and only 1 set per exercises
time off 2 days
next 3 days you got 50% of your normal volume in reps/weight and only 1 set per exercises
after this we can see how you feel
it happens dont worry we'll get back in it soon
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That’s a shame. Coke OD is rare. I’ve known a couple of trust fund kids that were pretty down to earth. Mostly not though. My friend Tom, his dad was one of the biggest land developers around here. Tom had a yacht and stuff. Super ridiculously hard working and generous. He’s personally frugal in his day to day life. You wouldn’t have known he had a yacht. My grandma worked for him which allowed her to raise five kids on her her own with a small farm and a new Benz. But you would’ve thought she was his boss by the looks of it hahaha. He’s super old now still works full time at a casino.
Yea that kinda rich, guys usually turn out ok. I know a couple of big builders sons and most of them turned out good. Its the mega rich kids that end up really messed up almost always from what I've seen. Especially when their parents live in forwing countries and just send them endless money
bros she always saying how much her family Hates me and how much she loves that about me. haha
yeah, I'm the same way. I go crazy if I don't work out at the gym. You can probably tell by some of my posts the days I don't train.
it might not have been coke. he went to sleep and didn't wake up with blood coming out from his nose. gf was sleeping next to him the whole night and never knew he died. left a 1 year old baby behind a damn shame
Yeah definitely. It's a good time to work out at home.
Great to hear your on the mend bro, the weight will come back fast
vaping definitely doesn't help. I'm surprised you are doing that. It's horrible for you and it's no wonder that you're sick all the time.
I'll keep that in mind going forward. Maybe if I throw you a little reminder it will help
Damn..that's messed up. That's really sad
I only train at home lol. Can't even remember the last time I was in a commercial gym
Yea it's weird, my weight is all over the place right now. In the last 4 days it's fluctuated by 6 lbs.
I never get sick lol. This was a weird one off.
I quit smoking 6 years ago but I've been vaping since. Gonna try and get off it this year at some point.
It’s easier to quit vaping than smoking, by a fair amount. I don’t prefer to quit cold turkey. I did it twice, really quit, for years. Other people, best thing is to just quit and be done. I get waaaaay too irritable
This was all I read before I thought "he's an asshole"
Shit bro is it still like this?
Same here, let me know if you have a plan like the patch or the ZYN pouches I'm still wondering how to do it because I can go through a 20mg/ml vape in 3 days easy.
Use the patch IMO. Amazon has these really inexpensive patches that are 28mg and are perforated four ways. Pouches are almost like chewing, the way I see it, and chewing is the absolute hardest ROÍ to quit. From what I’ve seen. With the patch, you get a more than adequate amount of nicotine steady in your blood stream so you only have to deal with the mental/physical habit. But whatever you do, don’t take any other nicotine with the patch on or you’ll quickly raise your tolerance and defeat the whole purpose. I’d knock a square off every month or so. That gives you four months to drop to zero. And then don’t ever touch it again because we are addicted to nicotine for life. If I hit a vape or smoke a cigarette I’ll be right back at it like I never quit. Nicotine addiction has a genetic component.This was all I read before I thought "he's an asshole"
Shit bro is it still like this?
Same here, let me know if you have a plan like the patch or the ZYN pouches I'm still wondering how to do it because I can go through a 20mg/ml vape in 3 days easy.
Yea I was the same way. Woulda been walking around looking for a fight all day if I didn't have something to puff on. Gonna switch to the zyns only at some point this year to break the oral fixation and then taper off from there
Yea my arm is fucked for life. Bad doctor gave me compartment syndrome and I'm lucky I still got an arm. I'll take what I got and be happy lolThis was all I read before I thought "he's an asshole"
Shit bro is it still like this?
Same here, let me know if you have a plan like the patch or the ZYN pouches I'm still wondering how to do it because I can go through a 20mg/ml vape in 3 days easy.
Patches are pretty awesome
. Bonus you have the BEST dreams of you wear them when you’re sleeping. Goes good with gh because you want to sleep, but the patch makes going to sleep exciting hahahaha. Get your nightly pre bed ritual on in preparation of of flying through an alien landscape with your mom hahaha
Vaping is super annoying. I hate those people that vape indoors. It's so rude.
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With you on this, and the ones that do it at doorways at the supermarket
I love it when they claim that it's harmless and they're only blowing out water vapor. If it's so harmless then why do you even bother to smoke it in the first place?
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Here they treat like a fashion item. It annoys me, as much as some chewing with there mouth open
you are blessed to have that option. Many people can't do that.
It’s a pretty strong habit. Nicotine flavored like candy. I’ts a way it’s worse than cigarettes to because you can just grab it and pull anytime, so people vape in their sleep, vape in the shower. Most people who vape to quit smoking wind up vaping AND smoking. It’s definitely not harmless, but a person can run better as a vaper than a smoker. It definitely is less acutely harmful to respiration, maybe not over the long term. No one knows
yeah for sure. Sometimes I feel like grabbing you and squeezing the life out of you. I will admit it but that's only on days I didn't train.
You can vape indoors in Mas? Up here vaping has all the same rules as smoking. Can vape outdoors withing 25ft of an entrance to a building
Yea bro I count my blessings everyday, literally. Always take a few moments out of everyday to be grateful for my wife, my family, and the life I have. Sometimes I really almost can't believe how good things turned out all things considered. I was dead broke and addicted to opiates a little over a decade ago
Lol that was me the first two times I tried quitting with vapes. Just vapes in my house and smoked outside. My nicotine addiction went up by a shitload. Had to quit the vaping and try again later. For me the game changer was realizing I was pack a day for 20 years. Knew I had to stop when I realized that.
Aw that means you really care about me. Thx bro. We always hurt the ones we love right.
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I think in many states in usa you can vape anywhere.
Though, I like the nicotine pouches not the vaping, the vaping just reminds me of smoking too much @BeMe
I quit for the very most part after ten years. That was the first cold turkey. Did it over Christmas and wouldn’t barely talk to anyone for a week. Basically didn’t get out of bed because everything made me irrationally angry and I didn’t want to put that on anyone.
Didn’t touch nicotine for about a year and a half and after I was over the cravings I felt amaaaaazing.
Smoked one cigarette, got sick, bought a pack. And then kept quitting and failing for… years
Log Day 48
Current Dosing
Test E 40mg ED
Deca 100mg/week
GH 2iu ED
Tren Ace off for now
Proviron 25mg ED cut in half for now
Cardarine 10mg ED cut in half for now
Aromasin 6.25 E3D
Cialis 10mg ED
Low dose aspirin EOD
Blood Pressure - 128/65
AM Weigh-in - 199lbs
Training
Sissy squats 10
Deficit Pushups 25
Sit-ups 30
Plank 1 min
Pull-ups 10
Treadmill 15mins
First day back training and mannn what a cock tease lol. Bodyweight training just isn't for me. I felt angrier when I finished that little session. Need to move some weights around or I'm gonna kill someone... literally. Now that my body is feeling 100% again and mood is way up I'm noticing my temper is very short. Feels like the old me I locked away a long time ago. Didn't realize it was still that easy to bring it out in me. Guess the training has been making it easy to stay calm all this time.
Gotta get back training again so I'm going with my deload week plan. Going to start at same reps, 60% loading, 1 or 2 sets per movement. I'm feeling great again and recovery scores are sky high. My body is begging me to go. Sorry @LevButlerov but I tried, and I promise to becareful. Notice I haven't even mentioned Tren yet lol.
This week I'm gonna progress each day and focus on keeping my steps up and building back my cardio. Depending how we go, I'll re-evaluate everything and game plan at the end of the week.
Current Dosing
Test E 40mg ED
Deca 100mg/week
GH 2iu ED
Tren Ace off for now
Proviron 25mg ED cut in half for now
Cardarine 10mg ED cut in half for now
Aromasin 6.25 E3D
Cialis 10mg ED
Low dose aspirin EOD
Blood Pressure - 128/65
AM Weigh-in - 199lbs
Training
Sissy squats 10
Deficit Pushups 25
Sit-ups 30
Plank 1 min
Pull-ups 10
Treadmill 15mins
First day back training and mannn what a cock tease lol. Bodyweight training just isn't for me. I felt angrier when I finished that little session. Need to move some weights around or I'm gonna kill someone... literally. Now that my body is feeling 100% again and mood is way up I'm noticing my temper is very short. Feels like the old me I locked away a long time ago. Didn't realize it was still that easy to bring it out in me. Guess the training has been making it easy to stay calm all this time.
Gotta get back training again so I'm going with my deload week plan. Going to start at same reps, 60% loading, 1 or 2 sets per movement. I'm feeling great again and recovery scores are sky high. My body is begging me to go. Sorry @LevButlerov but I tried, and I promise to becareful. Notice I haven't even mentioned Tren yet lol.
This week I'm gonna progress each day and focus on keeping my steps up and building back my cardio. Depending how we go, I'll re-evaluate everything and game plan at the end of the week.
Love the "bodyweight exercises" synopsis brother
I would go nuts as well just doing those. At least you did some cardio (what is that again? 
)Truly love the honesty, humour and raw feelings that constantly permeate through you log updates brother
Great to hear your back at it mate, yeah go kill it and lock bad BeMe back up, don't need him out loose causing havoc
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good stay off the tren for now please
@BeMe weight coming back to 200+ soon
perfect
not too hard going back in slowlythis was your first session, its just to get the muscles moving again, not actual training.
lets do another 2 days of natty training, can we agree on that?
Sissy squats 50 5x10
Deficit Pushups 100 5x20
Sit-ups 100 5x20
Plank 6 min 2/2/2
Pull-ups 50 5x10
Treadmill 30min
do this for 2 days lets see
lets progress without weights first, get your body dialed back in, trust me on this, if you go too hard with weights you can crash your immune system and get sick again. Its a long term marathon my brother
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How are you getting a 94 recovery and nice sleep score with 5% rem sleep haha.
Good to see you back at it brother
Let's do out cardio together bro! can't stand cardio too and usually skip it. My lung capacity is smashed after that flu so it's a must now. I wonder who else I know could use some improved cardio following an illness..lolLove the "bodyweight exercises" synopsis brother
Truly love the honesty, humour and raw feelings that constantly permeate through you log updates brother
Yea bro it's not safe going to work like this. Plus by the time I got outta the shower last night my wife was already sleeping!!! Man was I pissed LOL. Very quick to anger at work today. Had to let emails sit in the draft box for a while before sending them just so I wouldn't slip up and tell people how stupid their questions wereGreat to hear your back at it mate, yeah go kill it and lock bad BeMe back up, don't need him out loose causing havoc
Sorry bro too late. Started my deload training tonight and I gotta say it felt amazing. Got 26mins in on the treadmill after too. Felt alive again. I was actually happy when I was on a treadmill lol. That never happens.good stay off the tren for now please
weight coming back to 200+ soon
perfect
this was your first session, its just to get the muscles moving again, not actual training.
lets do another 2 days of natty training, can we agree on that?
Sissy squats 50 5x10
Deficit Pushups 100 5x20
Sit-ups 100 5x20
Plank 6 min 2/2/2
Pull-ups 50 5x10
Treadmill 30min
do this for 2 days lets see
lets progress without weights first, get your body dialed back in, trust me on this, if you go too hard with weights you can crash your immune system and get sick again. Its a long term marathon my brother
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I can't do the bodyweight stuff. Something about it feels so lame. Especially planks and sissy squats lol. They're hard but not in a fun way, more annoying.
I'll be smart and listen to my body. I always know what's going on, I'm well in tune with my body. I just choose to ignore it and power through all the time. I won't do that right now promise.
I thought the exact same thing when I woke up this morning lol. I think it might have to do with the fact that I basically didn't wake up all night. Woke up around 3am to take a leak but other than that it was pretty much solid sleep. Most nights u got like 30-40 mins of awake time
Your deep sleep was nice too, I am really trying to work on mine, fucking Oura is always so angry with my sleep - the 19nors really fuck it up hey
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Lol nothing like waking up and getting a bitching from your tracker eh. Its funny cuz sometimes when you wake up you feel great and you're like this thing doesn't know shit, then later in the day the fatigue sets in and you're like damn..it was right.
Its weird, for me the 19nors improve my sleep. Improve my mood as well.
Tren had me sleeping like a baby and happy as a clam lol
I haven't found a compound yet that effects my sleep negatively thankfully but if I do I'll have to drop it cuz sleep is top priority for me and my job. If I'm a couple hours short on sleep I get sloppy at work and it can be dangerous. I was worried that was gonna be a problem with Tren but even at 40mg ED I was still sleeping great.
Promise I'll be smart bro. So what I did was I took what I was doing before and used 60% of the weight but the exact same reps. That way I cant cheat and do a bunch of extra reps to make up for the lack of weight lol. Its a great system to keep me in line. I figured out everything before I trained with the reps and sets and stuck to my number exactly.too late I guess loljust dont go high on weights please go very slow @BeMe
Cut all the sets down to 1 or 2 for each movement as well.
Having this type of structure will keep me in check.
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Yes on the 60% but dont do too many extra reps even with lower weight, we are looking at a recovery period not a pump period. @BeMe try to keep to 1 set for each and not more than 10-15 reps
I'm only doing 2 sets for the isolations and secondary muscle groups.
Yep all reps are around 15 or a bit less.
No extra reps at all. Not even 1. Just 60% weight, exact same reps as I was doing previously. No excuses, just stickn to the formula.
Good to see you back at it mate. The 60% method sounds reasonable.
Love the commentary you give on shit situations like being sick or injured.
Never realised you still smoked (well vaped) hey.
How long ago did you drop the tren?
I hate body weight workouts too!
I hate body weight workouts too!
You are too nice of a guy being Canadian. That's what pisses me off the most about you but I love you anyway. I really do.
I 100% agree with you. You should be blessed for what you got. I don't think people appreciate life enough.
oh I know, man. You see vapers carry that shit around with them like it's their phones or something. It's really pathetic if you think about it.
no you cannot but people still do it anyway. They are convinced that it's just water vapor.
It's pretty impressive to see your restraint in action here. That's a strong virtue bro. Your body will thank you a month from now and we'll see that 40TrenA @BeMe back in no time since you're prioritizing recovery.
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Go slow please
Yea bro openness and honesty is all you'll ever get from me. I always speak my mind even if it gets me in trouble lol. I just figure as long as I'm keeping it real and being honest I can't be wrong to speak my mind.
Yea bro it's literally my 1 last vice in life. I don't even drink energy drinks anymore lol. Such a lame. The traffic here in Toronto is so bad and I do so much driving for work I duno how I would get through it without getting in endless fights without my vape. Its gotta go this year tho. Just gotta time it right and hopefully stay outta jail lol
Actually I didn't even think about it til now but it's been 2 weeks...thanks for reminding me bro LOL!! The pain is fresh again
I'm gonna hop back on soon. My bodies feeling normal again so maybe next week. I'm running Tren A so it will come back quick
Haha u knew it! Love ya too
Maybe we'll rub off in eachother and meet somewhere in the middle. Can't be alpha if you're too nice right
Naw that's how people are depressed when they have everything they could ever need in life. Its amazing how much just a quick thought about your blessings each day puts everything else into perspective. Even after a bad day just having your health is enough to be thankful for and wash the day away.
Well that's not true. Its propelyne glycol, same stuff as smoke machines. I don't vape around people who don't smoke or vape and I use a small vape so I don't really exhale all that much. Not like the old box mods where you're chucking clouds. The new ones are more low key
A month?? Naww no chance. I don't have that much restraint lol. If I can string together a week of good health and strong recovery I'm good to go again.
It's pretty impressive to see your restraint in action here. That's a strong virtue bro. Your body will thank you a month from now and we'll see that 40TrenA @BeMe back in no time since you're prioritizing recovery.
Log Day 49
Current Dosing
Test E 40mg ED
Deca 100mg/week
GH 2iu ED
Tren Ace off for now
Proviron 25mg ED cut in half for now
Cardarine 10mg ED cut in half for now
Aromasin 6.25 E3D
Cialis 10mg ED
Low dose aspirin EOD
Blood Pressure - 115/67
AM Weigh-in - 201lbs
Workout
Temu Unilateral Press
140lbs x 11
160 x 7
Bent over cable fly
35lbs x 13
Underhand tricep pull down
25lbs x 9
20 x 12
Cable cross body lat raise
15lbs x 17
15lbs x 14
Single leg extension
65lbs x 15
65lbs x 13
Treadmill 26min 5kph
First day back moving some weight around in the gym and man it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, pun intended. It wasn't much, but even that little workout did something big for me mentally. Having a bit of a cheat pump felt like getting high lol. I was walking on my treadmill after so happy, and I hate the treadmill lol
Managed to maintain my self control and stick to the deload program. No extra reps, no cheating to get extra work at all. Just focusing on great form and execution and being thankful to just train again.
Recovery is great again today. Woke up feeling well rested, no soreness or illness creeping back. If I can keep this up into next week I'm gonna get back into it and start training for real again. Even my lungs are feeling better. Not getting windy or dizzy at all anymore. Just gotta keep up with my cardio and recovery and I should be back to full strength in no time.
Current Dosing
Test E 40mg ED
Deca 100mg/week
GH 2iu ED
Tren Ace off for now
Proviron 25mg ED cut in half for now
Cardarine 10mg ED cut in half for now
Aromasin 6.25 E3D
Cialis 10mg ED
Low dose aspirin EOD
Blood Pressure - 115/67
AM Weigh-in - 201lbs
Workout
Temu Unilateral Press
140lbs x 11
160 x 7
Bent over cable fly
35lbs x 13
Underhand tricep pull down
25lbs x 9
20 x 12
Cable cross body lat raise
15lbs x 17
15lbs x 14
Single leg extension
65lbs x 15
65lbs x 13
Treadmill 26min 5kph
First day back moving some weight around in the gym and man it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, pun intended. It wasn't much, but even that little workout did something big for me mentally. Having a bit of a cheat pump felt like getting high lol. I was walking on my treadmill after so happy, and I hate the treadmill lol
Managed to maintain my self control and stick to the deload program. No extra reps, no cheating to get extra work at all. Just focusing on great form and execution and being thankful to just train again.
Recovery is great again today. Woke up feeling well rested, no soreness or illness creeping back. If I can keep this up into next week I'm gonna get back into it and start training for real again. Even my lungs are feeling better. Not getting windy or dizzy at all anymore. Just gotta keep up with my cardio and recovery and I should be back to full strength in no time.
Glad to see your tracking back to health brother. Getting back in the gym would be a huge load off mentally. Your BP is excellent, wasn't it a bit higher recently? Watch out for that increase in cardio (whatever that is????) It could have been what was raising your BP before
Yea I better stop the cardio to keep my BP in check lolGlad to see your tracking back to health brother. Getting back in the gym would be a huge load off mentally. Your BP is excellent, wasn't it a bit higher recently? Watch out for that increase in cardio (whatever that is????) It could have been what was raising your BP before
Yea it was creeping up there in the mid 130s on Tren. I was partially to blame skipping my cardio, like everyday lol.
BP looks better today cuz I actually sat for a couple minutes before taking the reading. Usually I'm in a rush so I just sit down and take the reading right away. Probably being so healthy again and recovering so well is helping to bring it down too
Really good idea first thing in the morning to give thanks to three or five things that you have.
I did that this morning Rushed the reading, thought WT actual F. Chilled for a few minutes re-did it, was much better 
Yeah I been off Tren for couple weeks , but I think I actually have withdrawals or some shit coz I’m actually in the foulest mood today for no particular reason
Glad to see my man is back in the gym…after a break you forget how good you feel after a session and how important training is for so many of us
How you feeling overall?
yeah it's really absurd but I'm glad that you don't smoke in front of people.
It gives you something to shoot for, quitting the vape. You don't need it and it's not good for you.
I would be concerned even spending time with you. I feel like a lot of people always try to beat you up.
I say affirmations in the morning. It sounds corny and hippy dippy but it starts my day positively everyday. Then I count my blessings when I get home and settled down after a workday. Sort of like a de-stressing excercise.
Just doing those 2 things I think has made me a much calmer happier person overall
Yea it makes a pretty big difference. Just 2 or 3 minutes of sitting still and relaxing can change the reading by a lot. Guess that's why they say we should do it everytime LOL
If I don't have time I can sorta estimate where I'm really at so it's fine.
