Hey guys, this will be the start to my first ever log (on any forum) hope it goes well 
MY STORY (alot of rambling but would appreciate if you gave a read
):
Growing up I was always a chubby kid, being raised by two relatively overweight parents I adopted the same eating habits and lifestyle. At the age of 14-15 I reached a peak weight of 99.8kg at around 5'8 (177cm) and started becoming concerned which inevitably got me to getting my first gym membership. From that point I began working out doing a PPL split and over the course of many half ass'd cuts and 'bulks' where I just ate whatever and gained everything back, I managed to get myself to a weight of around 72kg by age 16-17 (the age where I actually began tracking calories and saw some proper progression in my fatloss). Age 17-18 I was in my last year of highschool so I pretty much neglected the gym the entire year and got myself up to roughly 83kg (again) which I also recovered from after cutting for around 8-12 weeks towards the end of the year (2024). Age 18-19 my first year as an adult! Due to circumstances with my family having to move back to our home country and not being able to aid me financially, I moved out of my home and into a sharehouse and landed myself 3 different jobs working as a bartender, waiter, and sales associate so that I could pay my rent/bills and save up to go to uni. During this time I barely worked out, cycling going to the gym for 3-4 weeks and then stopping for 2-3 months (repeat). UNTILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL december 2025. My 19th birthday was coming up soon and one of my closest friend at the time (24yo) who I also looked upto for his physique offered me a vial of GorillaLabs (rip) testE400/ml vial for my birthday if I was up for it. Though hesitant at first, I did my own half assed research into anabolic steroids and decided that it was something I wanted to give a shot. So I did my most committed cut so far and really stripped my body of almost all my fat (62kg) and took the vial of test, and what did I do? 500test per week with no Ai on hand
(i eventually ended up getting some).By week 7-8 I could already see a huge difference in my composition, but it wasnt enough for me as I was desperate to get my dream physique FAST. So I looked into a secondary compound to add onto my 500test, first looking at dht's, and then somehow landing on NPP to be my option...... So I added 300mg of npp for an additional 6-7 weeks. Did I get bigger? yes. Was it mostly water? yes. Did the amount of extra size I got from adding this compound outweigh the side effects? no....By the end of my npp run, with the contributing factor of me eating literally WHATEVER (junkfood, fried food, takeaway, etc) as I was only looking at hitting a daily protein goal, I had gone way above the bodyfat level I wanted to be. So, whats the next move i decided to do..... end the first cycle here? just run 500test and try to cut down before cruising? just cutting during my cruise? nope, nope, nope. I decided to switch out the NPP for the big boy: Trenbolone Acetate (@300mg pw)
and do a 4-6 week mini cut before my cruise to keep putting on muscle while shredding fat fast. Though it is probably the dumbest idea you have read on this forum, I have actually found that my body actually responds very well to tren, and very poorly to npp which I guess is one takeaway from this chaos of a first cycle. But in no way shape or form do I want my future cycles to be this chaotic. I want to really dial in my training, habits/routine, diet and I thought sharing my story here and starting to log my journey would be the best option as I get inputs, advice, and thoughts of my actions from people who are obviously way more experienced than me.
I know that alot of people will be unhappy with the fact that a 19yo turning 20 is using exogenous hormones but it is the choice I have made and will continue to do so and I wish nothing more but for anyone reading this to hopefully help me on my journey rather than put down. Thank you.
i hope this was a fun read for yall
P.S. I have also attached photos of what my physique was like at each stage I had been referencing throughout this story of mine below
Now, for the fun part,
Age: 19 (turning 20)
Height: 185cm
Weight: roughly 79-81kg
Bodyfat: 16-18% range
(Currently using @Raptor Labs @Raptor Rep Test E 400mg/ml + Tren A 100mg/ml)
Main Dosages (on cycle):
testE @ 300mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
trenA @ 400mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
cialis @ 20mg pre workout
Main Dosages (cruise):
testE @ 150mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
Other Dosages):
KLOW80 blend w/ 3ml bac water @ 15units per day
Selank @ 500mcg 2x per day (morning+night)
Retatrutide @ 1mg 2x per week (tues+sat)
Arimadex @ 0.25mg 2x per week (tues+sat)
Daily Diet: NEED HELP WITH THIS ONE - cutting for now until mid april and then starting cruise)
Protein: ?
Carbs: ?
Fats: ?
Training:
My focus for my physique is mainly chasing a shoulder dominant aesthetic physique, my weak points I would say currently is definitely my chest so Im starting my upper sessions with chest movements. As of right now I dont really plan on competing so bringing up my legs to be super big isnt really my goal so I have a pretty short lower session. To balance out my volume throughout the two sessions, Ive moved to my rear delt and side delt training to the beginning of my lower day as I feel adding anymore exercises on top of my currently existing upper day would be volume overkill. As I am prioritising growing my upper body more my split is a
ULU R UL R program, allowing me to hit my upper body at a 3:2 ratio to my lower body.
(rep range 6-10 for failure sets)
UPPER BODY
Plate Loaded Iso-Lateral seated Chest Press 2xf
Pec Deck 2xf
Plate Loaded Decline Chest Press 2xf
Lat Pulldown 3xf
T-Bar Row 2xf
Plate Loaded Iso-Lateral Shoulder Press 2xf
Single Arm Overhead Tricep Extension 1xf
Bicep Curl Variation 2xf
LOWER BODY + SIDE/REAR DELT
Dumbbell Lateral Raise DROPSET 2sets
- weight 1 till failure
- weight 2 (3kg lighter than previous) till failure
- weight 3 (3kg lighter than previous) till failure
Rear Delt Flies (pec deck) 3xf
Hack Squat
- 1 warmup set
- followed by 2xf
Lying Down Hamstring Curls 2xf
Single Leg Quad Extensions 2xf (each side)
Adductors 2xf
I am open to changes in my exercise choices so if you would like to add in your input, I would love to hear it (though I may still stick to mine as I feel it is very tailored to me personally)
THE FUTURE:
Though it is too soon to set anything in stone yet, I have recently purchased @Sassy's Pharmaceuticals @Sassy Rep 5 TestE + 5 PrimoE bundle with the launch of their new website and plan to run a more sustainable long test+dht cycle with 2-3iu's of GH (and possibly tren towards the last 6-8 weeks) but at much lower doses.
Was thinking something like
300testE
500primoE
2-3iu HGH 191aa
(200trenA)
Though I am not 100% sure yet on the ratio between test and primo yet. Ive heard alot of people say run it 2:1 but looking at places like https://www.evolutionary.org/primobolan it suggests a ratio closer to 1:3 (250test 600primo). I dont want to crush my estrogen since I know primo has AI like properties.
Uploading this Log at 1am 30/03/2026, will begin logging stuff today once I have woken up, ate some food, done some training etc.
MY STORY (alot of rambling but would appreciate if you gave a read
Growing up I was always a chubby kid, being raised by two relatively overweight parents I adopted the same eating habits and lifestyle. At the age of 14-15 I reached a peak weight of 99.8kg at around 5'8 (177cm) and started becoming concerned which inevitably got me to getting my first gym membership. From that point I began working out doing a PPL split and over the course of many half ass'd cuts and 'bulks' where I just ate whatever and gained everything back, I managed to get myself to a weight of around 72kg by age 16-17 (the age where I actually began tracking calories and saw some proper progression in my fatloss). Age 17-18 I was in my last year of highschool so I pretty much neglected the gym the entire year and got myself up to roughly 83kg (again) which I also recovered from after cutting for around 8-12 weeks towards the end of the year (2024). Age 18-19 my first year as an adult! Due to circumstances with my family having to move back to our home country and not being able to aid me financially, I moved out of my home and into a sharehouse and landed myself 3 different jobs working as a bartender, waiter, and sales associate so that I could pay my rent/bills and save up to go to uni. During this time I barely worked out, cycling going to the gym for 3-4 weeks and then stopping for 2-3 months (repeat). UNTILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL december 2025. My 19th birthday was coming up soon and one of my closest friend at the time (24yo) who I also looked upto for his physique offered me a vial of GorillaLabs (rip) testE400/ml vial for my birthday if I was up for it. Though hesitant at first, I did my own half assed research into anabolic steroids and decided that it was something I wanted to give a shot. So I did my most committed cut so far and really stripped my body of almost all my fat (62kg) and took the vial of test, and what did I do? 500test per week with no Ai on hand
I know that alot of people will be unhappy with the fact that a 19yo turning 20 is using exogenous hormones but it is the choice I have made and will continue to do so and I wish nothing more but for anyone reading this to hopefully help me on my journey rather than put down. Thank you.
i hope this was a fun read for yall
P.S. I have also attached photos of what my physique was like at each stage I had been referencing throughout this story of mine below
Now, for the fun part,
Age: 19 (turning 20)
Height: 185cm
Weight: roughly 79-81kg
Bodyfat: 16-18% range
(Currently using @Raptor Labs @Raptor Rep Test E 400mg/ml + Tren A 100mg/ml)
Main Dosages (on cycle):
testE @ 300mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
trenA @ 400mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
cialis @ 20mg pre workout
Main Dosages (cruise):
testE @ 150mg pw - (mon, tues, thurs, sat)
Other Dosages):
KLOW80 blend w/ 3ml bac water @ 15units per day
Selank @ 500mcg 2x per day (morning+night)
Retatrutide @ 1mg 2x per week (tues+sat)
Arimadex @ 0.25mg 2x per week (tues+sat)
Daily Diet: NEED HELP WITH THIS ONE - cutting for now until mid april and then starting cruise)
Protein: ?
Carbs: ?
Fats: ?
Training:
My focus for my physique is mainly chasing a shoulder dominant aesthetic physique, my weak points I would say currently is definitely my chest so Im starting my upper sessions with chest movements. As of right now I dont really plan on competing so bringing up my legs to be super big isnt really my goal so I have a pretty short lower session. To balance out my volume throughout the two sessions, Ive moved to my rear delt and side delt training to the beginning of my lower day as I feel adding anymore exercises on top of my currently existing upper day would be volume overkill. As I am prioritising growing my upper body more my split is a
ULU R UL R program, allowing me to hit my upper body at a 3:2 ratio to my lower body.
(rep range 6-10 for failure sets)
UPPER BODY
Plate Loaded Iso-Lateral seated Chest Press 2xf
Pec Deck 2xf
Plate Loaded Decline Chest Press 2xf
Lat Pulldown 3xf
T-Bar Row 2xf
Plate Loaded Iso-Lateral Shoulder Press 2xf
Single Arm Overhead Tricep Extension 1xf
Bicep Curl Variation 2xf
LOWER BODY + SIDE/REAR DELT
Dumbbell Lateral Raise DROPSET 2sets
- weight 1 till failure
- weight 2 (3kg lighter than previous) till failure
- weight 3 (3kg lighter than previous) till failure
Rear Delt Flies (pec deck) 3xf
Hack Squat
- 1 warmup set
- followed by 2xf
Lying Down Hamstring Curls 2xf
Single Leg Quad Extensions 2xf (each side)
Adductors 2xf
I am open to changes in my exercise choices so if you would like to add in your input, I would love to hear it (though I may still stick to mine as I feel it is very tailored to me personally)
THE FUTURE:
Though it is too soon to set anything in stone yet, I have recently purchased @Sassy's Pharmaceuticals @Sassy Rep 5 TestE + 5 PrimoE bundle with the launch of their new website and plan to run a more sustainable long test+dht cycle with 2-3iu's of GH (and possibly tren towards the last 6-8 weeks) but at much lower doses.
Was thinking something like
300testE
500primoE
2-3iu HGH 191aa
(200trenA)
Though I am not 100% sure yet on the ratio between test and primo yet. Ive heard alot of people say run it 2:1 but looking at places like https://www.evolutionary.org/primobolan it suggests a ratio closer to 1:3 (250test 600primo). I dont want to crush my estrogen since I know primo has AI like properties.
Uploading this Log at 1am 30/03/2026, will begin logging stuff today once I have woken up, ate some food, done some training etc.
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