Day 25: Been a Long Week...
Feeling a new sense of purpose
I've settled in nicely with the Woman of Worth and things are heating up and moving into action stages. While I was not being disturuptive, apart from being so attractive the woman couldn't concentrate on their self-esteem issues or behave themselves, I was perhaps not taking it as seriously as I could have initially.
I was atcually trying to get an apprenticeship to become a welder at the fire department working on building fire engines, so I can use their shit after hours to pimp my van, and somehow ended up in a self development course for unemployed woman. But in my experience pointing out these mistakes makes them much worse so I decided to just roll with it.
Out of all the things I've changed an experimented with, and the bad training weeks I sometimes have, I have no chanced my diet much from the 20 eggs and when shakes plan I hammered out with the help of
@LevButlerov over eight weeks ago. Just re-upped on eggs yesterday:
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I have not eaten much else the past two weeks but did have a bit of fruit and two pots pd rice. Accidentally got wholegrain rice but I will get a 5kg sack of white rice with my remaining $10.
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Supplements on track too, the
@Life-Forge bottle is Ibutamoren (MK-677) I am now logging that doe Life Forge too, I wanted to make sure I was going to stick with it before saying anything. After talking to
@toddthelineman about it I've upped my dose from 10mg to 20mg each night and will log more details in the near future.
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I already mentioned the female Tony Robbins clone that leads the class, she's short and chubby and South African, when she was talking about small goals she said she always wanted to do 200kg on the leg press, I forget the reason but that caught my attention as last I checked I could only do 109kg on the leg press.
She even fed me a story about how woman have naturally powerful legs or some shit but I interrupted and got the conversation back to the details of this but she's a popular lady so don't yet know how long this took or what she did but I'll be hitting her up for more details.
The last week and a bit have been about finding non-traditional employment, working in the community, how you don't need permission to start doing stuff, and how looking to traditional community outlets for things can be beneficial in other areas. That's been my experience with things too.
Half the shit she said was full hippy half way through a pound of weed grade shit, she was on fire and it was awesome atcually but then she dived sharply into details and action steps and asking people what they're gonna do and stuff like that.
She talked abot building communities around interested and problems and goals, and how to divide and conquer, like instead of fretting about global warming and arguing with shills paid by Shell Corporation online, go and plant some fucking trees and pick up some rubbish. Dump it over the fence of any Shell office of outlet - I already checked and they said it's fine.
It was here I started to connect all the shit I've done through Evo to this stuff she was saying. I really feel there's a community right here, it provides a bunch of the core functions she gave as examples. Once we get taught or helped to figure things out, we can take the mentoring role for that thing and teach the next guy.
This is how 12 step groups work, you get helped through the book and the steps, and once you've done them and they solved your problem you teach he next guy who shows up all drunk and fucked up and not knowing what to do. That can work for almost anything.
I wanted to post a few days ago but two new kiwi loggers joined and I wanted to spend some time with them and turned out that took time

but that's a big week for Evo NZ. One a month was good before.
Check out
@antipodean who's about to try fix his health with testosterone therapy, same reason I came here. And
@Joel Gibbons who has a history of addiction like me, and just got out from a two month forced vacation which he spent doing 1000 push-ups a day and is about to incorporate testosterone into his recovery too.
The demand for people needing TRT who have beem abandoned by The System is increasing in New Zeapand and the more I get into this the worse the picture is. There's a clear way I can help others laid out right in front of me and hopefully I can figure out a way to make something of it - finishing off my guide to self-trt in NZ would be a good start.
I've got the next sub section on Drugs Checking and Lab Testing nearly ready for
@LevButlerov to review for me. The needle exchange part is good enough, drug testing stuff is good, I just need more stuff on sourcing now.
With testosterone I've decided to ignore the law. I'm not any kind of business and am not going to be importing any commercial quantities which would really get their attention but one vial will last 4 months at 150mg a week TRT dose which is amazing.
With a few of the people I've helped so far, needles being the problem came up a few times, that's why I wrote the
needle exchange guide but even more than that the gear being questioned has come up, and guys' wives complaining about "bathtub meds" and shit. If only they could see where the shit they buy from the supermarket has been... at least the bathtub is clean

so I decided to put SOME effort into this.
That would be laying out the options in NZ, testing new potential sources for Evo, testing gear for sources and end users, and doing batch testing on my source
@AuStarLabs who's atcually the only source with batch numbers we currently have. Showing others how to do it. For every vial you can not only do instant on the spot testing at the exchange but now they will foot the bill for full testing. I'm waiting for the batch of orals I sent in 4 weeks ago to be done and then I will use those as an example of how to do it yourself and post it all to a tread.
I got the last questions I had answered by the lab techs this week and they confirmed for EVERY sample we can get full lab testing done if we want. I have only been sending things that don't read correctly on the smaller machine in, like testosterone propionate at 100mg per ml was not strong enough to read, and I got a Sustanon blend tested and test prop didn't show up but the other three esters did. So both of those vials I sent for full testing but only for completeness, I was happy with those Sustanon results as they were. I made a thread about that
here.
The great thing about testing samples is I get samples to test. These are the
@kiwibulk vials I got tested:
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I have injected 1ml of testosterone propionate in two .5ml pins, and 1ml of the Sustanon blend, this Monday its equipoise pin day and I'll use this
@kiwibulk vial as it's the only equipoise I have that tested okay and I'll log that here for
@kiwibulk too.
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After heating it up I did 50mg or 0.5ml:
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I'm new to these 1.5" needles, look at that fucking thing!! But I'm comfortable with my glute shots now. After trying all the info from
@waggat and getting sign off on the injection site being correct by
@HarleyGuy I think I'm good with that spot and will be using it as part of the rotation.
But that leads me to the topic I gotta come clean on... I have failed to switch to testosterone propionate. I really really wanted to,
@AuStarLabs hooked me up with their gear and the first few days the mental affects are noticeable and different, I figured since I already pin daily it should be an easy change and Monday and Tuesday were great days at my dole course, I was social and confident and felt fucking great, like content just being there and unbothered by anything, I'm sure the propionate was responsible for some, especially the day after I had the Sustanon pin as that's got prop too...
...but my body is not digging it. You wouldn't believe the health problems I'm able to ignore. I never wrote about my first OD, the one I woke up from by myself 30 hours later, but I breifly mentioned it on the podcast interview saying my arm didn't work for six months.
I woke up from the overdose and it just didn't function anymore, I could not move it at all, but could move my fingers a bit. So I used to use my left hand to pick up my right arm and place it on the table so I could line the needle up and hold it straight enough and get a finger on the plunger, but couldn't aim with it. The entire arm with needle in hand was like an automatic plunger presser. I could only press it. I also rigged up a pulley system to jerk off once on a crack bender but I'll save that for another time.
What I'm trying to say is that if it was possible for me to ignore I wouldn't even be writing this. But I have to accept my body doesn't like it.
I tried two days of half and half mix with heated enanthate, put those those in my quads and glutes which I think are the spot I'm best at as I've never had issues. I did one at 1" deep, needle fully anchored (all the way in pressed up against the skin) and one at 1.5" which I only just learnt from
@HarleyGuy but have now done 6 times in glutes.
Once over the mental hurdle it was fine... one and a half inches is no joke though, you should be very sure you have the right spot!! 1.5" is how you write it I think, behold:
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I never usually feel those at all but my ability to walk declined as the day went on. That injection site is usually a black hole but I can feel exactly where the depots are... not just there but in my delts too, they have three or four pins each in them and I can not only still feel them, but based on the intensity of pain, swelling, inflammation, whatever it is, I can tell which ones I did on which days. That's all the spots I know how to pin tried now.
But fuck, I've tried three different types just to make sure, and incase people tried to blame the gear they are all from different brands. Two UGL and one is a Chinese generic whitelabel type thing.
They all felt the same. I've done several small injections, full 1ml pins, half and half mixes, I've warmed it various ways, doesn't seem to change much execpt the first day I did the full ml cold in my quad, that took the longest to come on and I was so sure than was fine 8 hours later that I atcually said in my touchdown thread that I didn't get any PIP, but it caught up over night.
This shot is 50/50 with Test E, the prop went in first:
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I warmed the test enanthate up ad well as the test prop
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And this particular one went to my quad, but I've tried both delts, glues and this is the 2nd time I've done this quad:
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I would have liked to struggle with it for a month before deciding as I do think the mental affects have been much more noticeable, it is great affect wise but I was feeling pretty good on daily test e shots too, and I don't think it's a big enough difference to want to put up with this for. I don't think I've got much to gain by doing that and I won't be able to train properly feeling like this.
So I'm gonna talk to my testosterone supplier
@AuStarLabs and change back to their testosterone enanthate which I've been using since the very start and revisit test p another time . I still have a fill bottle of Test P so I could try experiment with like putting 0.1ml (10mg) of test prop in my 0.71ml daily shots and if that is not noticeable physically I think that 10mg peaking in your body in the morning might help.
Testosterone Injections are part of my morning routine, I feel better just going through the motions and knowing I have testosterone on board but that might add something extra. Most prescription Sustanon users report a sharp dip after three or four days, that's probably the prop wearing off.
I didn't go to the gym this week but have beem doing over 25k steps and doing the 5 lots of 10 push-ups throughout the day
@LevButlerov suggested and it's working as good for me, I'll write more on his later but my phone is on 1% battery so I better press send before it dies.
Have a good weekend guys, I'm having a chat with
@stevesmi and
@Mobster tonight so gotta sort this power issue