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Female Log OptiRip 10 (Retatrutide) Female Journal

I've missed all this.
Sorry, what did you miss? All the drama in my life ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜›๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Im not looking, im not looking, oh wait i looked. Wear all that hard effort with pride mate. Hopefully you are starting to feal better within as you look great on the outside.
Awww thank you ๐Ÿฅฐ
sister you think i look good? my wife says i work out too much. she says i need to learn moderation lol.
Look at yourself in the mirror! You look amazing. Maybe you do, maybe your wife needs to come and workout with you ๐Ÿ˜‰
If I had a partner who is providing for his family yet working out like a beast, he would be the hottest person on earth for me.
I would never stop him from working out. If I want to spend time, I would train and meal prep with him.
Each to their own though.
You look great.
@ironrose very nice update.
Thank you Ballin ๐Ÿฅฐ
๐Ÿ‘‘๐ŸŒน๐Ÿ’ชHappy international women's Day Queen ๐Ÿ‘‘๐ŸŒน๐Ÿ’ช

We appreciate you as an ambassador and a strong women on Evo
Thank you for your support. Behind every strong woman, there are strong men who support and celebrate us.
You absolutely have those underwear model proportions. Stunning stuff babe! :love:
Hahah I had no idea, I just wanted to shut their mouth up.
You are a girl's girl. So supportive ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜
 
๐Ÿฅฐ

Look at yourself in the mirror! You look amazing. Maybe you do, maybe your wife needs to come and workout with you ๐Ÿ˜‰
If I had a partner who is providing for his family yet working out like a beast, he would be the hottest person on earth for me.
I would never stop him from working out. If I want to spend time, I would train and meal prep with him.
Each to their own though.
You look great.
๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜
Sister, my wife doesn't like working out with weights. She's tiny as hell. She is Japanese. She is like 95 lb. I can curl her like 10 times haha.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
 

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Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Very raw update, and as a father of two daughters in their 30s, frustrating to read. I respect your request and won't say anything.....reluctantly ๐Ÿฉต
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Good to hear about the reset plan. I wouldn't be too concerned with any lack of progress over the last few weeks. Getting back into the swing of things now you'll likely get a nice rebound.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Good to see you back and getting things back under control. The break from Reta makes sense with appetite that low, and itโ€™s interesting how quickly your digestion and inflammation settled once you brought it back in, thatโ€™s a solid sign itโ€™s working well for you. Training-wise, maintaining strength through all that stress is a big win in itself, and locking in a coach now should help drive progress again once cortisol settles. Keep stacking those consistent sessions and let the Reta do its job alongside it ๐Ÿ’ช
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
thank you for updating us sister :D @Iron_rose1 and emotional health is big on how you feel long term. I can see you're in pain sister and i hope your ex leaves you alone and lets your live your life and move forward

can you test restart of reta and add creatine? and glutamine?

I just started listening to your episode 2 on the podcast so far interesting love it :D

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki
@Trenhead3cc @codezz @Yuri
@MarkNV @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy @Shakey @Eveflorence @LH5515
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
The one and only @Iron_rose1 !!! My fine sister, you are amazing and doing great!! You Just keep your eyes forward!! You donโ€™t have time in your life to stress. Block your phone, hold your beautiful head up high andโ€ฆ.KEEP KICKING ASS!! You laid everything out in your log and you know how to turn the stress around, Lets Go!!
Forward baby!!! You got this!!!
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Hopefully having the opportunity to get this off your chest helps the healing process. I too find it very diffiuclt to stay motivated and on track when struggling emotionally (with any aspect of life).

Great to see you've reset and moving forward. This is the hardest step.

Full EVO family support @Iron_rose1
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Good to see you moving forward again and hiring a coach. Be kind to yourself and look after what's importantly
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Please dont go back and concentrate on healing. If it causes that much hurt it is not worth putting urself through it. Trust me ive just gone through this, ended a 20year marriage with kids involved. She even got 1 last knife in my back accusing me of dv. Unfortunately courts system is fkd and wouldnt look at my evidence of her coersive control over me. I ended up pleading no contest so i can atleast see my kids. 1 of which has since been diagnosed with cancer 3 days after split. My head is fkd but everyone on here is my rock at the moment. 1 foot in front of the other. You will conquer this mate. Hold ur head high with everything you achieved so far.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
It takes strength just to share what you're going through with everyone Rose.
Stay strong, stay positive and keeping moving forward. We are super proud of you and you have our full support.
 
feeling as a woman kinda low.
We think VERY highly of you. As a member of the forum, as a woman, and as a person.
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.
Getting back at it will be so rewarding. I find it helpful to remember that constant linear progression is not realistic. And you look really good. Really really good. Seriously. We all are really into self improvement and aesthetics and many of us can get hyperfocused on details. And thatโ€™s good because we like it! Seeing it rewards us for our efforts and inspires us to continue. But life gets hard and sometimes backing off is the right thing to do for a bit and can ultimately be helpful. Thatโ€™s why Iโ€™m not logging right now, heck I donโ€™t even lift. I cut my last log short very early because my life, particularly from work (but not exclusively), went completely haywire and if Iโ€™d doubled down on the log (I very much wanted to) I would not be doing well.
1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet
For me, HGH works in spurts. Nothing, nothing, nothing BAM!

Just started your part 2 podcast. Iโ€™ll be sharing it again with friends. You talk about things I love to learn and talk about. Photo receptors on the skin, circadian rhythms, the power of sleep.

From what I can tell, depending on what a person needs for their lifestyle, sleep can overpower even diet in either direction.

People donโ€™t want to believe that sleep is that powerful. Or that their body is capable of producing melatonin that acts possibly more strongly than a tablet of it. I would challenge them to go camping for a few weeks in deep wilderness. When I used to do hurricane work, Iโ€™d be in places that had no artificial light for many miles. I would sleep so hard. With lizards in my tent and rain dripping through my tent. When it came over me it felt just like Iโ€™d been drugged. Camping right next to a lake with alligators in it hahaha.

My house has all amber incandescent bulbs in it. I keep it very dim at night and I have dimmer switches. Lots of windows for a small house and three sliding glass windows all right next to each other so lots of natural light all day. I bought it from friends, an engineer and his wife is a psychiatrist and professor (they had planned to retire very early, itโ€™s not a palace at all hahaha, their current house is sooooo cool hahaha) and they always talk about how their family was so happy here, and mine has been as well. I highly attribute this to the natural light.

My own goofy idea that I donโ€™t hear anyone talk about: natural water and the air around it is probably probiotic. It has to be! I could go on and on about this.

Aaaaand a little something I have never mentioned or actually even hashed over internally: right before I joined EVO I had my last breakup. Never told anyone that. Iโ€™ll spare everyone the details but I took that one pretty hard. Not only for losing the good things I had been so hopeful about but especially because I felt like I had fooled myself again into believing that I got it right that time. Iโ€™ve had great friendships with exes and even my ex wife and I are healed and long moved on. Itโ€™s been about๐Ÿค” 15 months maybe, since that last breakup. Seems longer. It quickly became a full block everything situation. Not because of anything crazy, but just the way she kept picking her way back in from every angle. Okaaaay enough about that hahaha
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Always here for you @Iron_rose1 - lots of support here for you.
We know you will push past this hurdle and come out the other side stronger then ever ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ™Œ.
Coach locked in and getting back on track! You got this.

Logan,
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Wow!! Those pics are just wow, and man do I disagree with you about your stomach I can see abs coming in and a difference over the course of your log.

You're doing so great by focusing on removing triggers and dialing in your mental (thoughts) and emotional (feelings) that it is truly showing in your body and I mean that. I see this much more in women I help in real life than I do with men. My sister for example, she was at a true 'plateau' so we started talking more, spending more time together and just 'therapizing' each other with honesty and openness about life and letting it all out and she started to see progress the whole next month. Sometimes getting out and walking barefoot in the grass is all someone needs. My alpha-ass ex-operator self even does that in the summer even though I 'eye-rolled' the whole idea at first.

I am pretty happy the way I am and thats why I was surprised why the surgeon was trying to sell those high $$ procedures to me.
Because they are all mostly half retarded and passed med school but learning how to 'memorize' facts but all they turn into is used car salesmen that are selling 'procedures' to women under the guise that they need when in reality they're trying to cash in. Just show him how gorgeous you looked in those dresses then ask him if you really need any freakin procedure LOL :ROFLMAO:

Thank you for your support. Behind every strong woman, there are strong men who support and celebrate us.
Wow. It's not often you hear a woman say this it's usually the other way around. Impressed. I happen to think behind every tough guy alpha is an even tougher alpha woman who knows how to be soft better than he does which is the true measure of skill and courage.

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.
Give the HGH a few months it works best over longer periods of time but is well worth it.

My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
I call BS! :p I notice a difference in your obliques and overall lower portion of your stomach vs. your prior pics especially your 'arms up' pics you can see the fat loss in those as well as your glutes. You're making amazing progress.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.
You're describing a self centered narcissist who deserves a curb stomp and yet you still can't say a mean word, you have too kind a heart and even your way of speaking is kind for this guy to have deserved you.

I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.
Good! Social media is the devil anyway.

Looking forward to your next update as always!
 
Good to see all the Evo love and support!

Sorry you going through this emotional rollercoaster. As I was reading I was thinking you need to block him but good to see you have done that. Never settle or sacrifice yourself for familiar and convenience , the right person / your person will come along
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
@Iron_rose1
Thanks for sharing that stuff. Everybody on here has gone through something similar and been on both sides of it. Trust me, I look back at my past relationships and I think to myself, what the heck was I thinking? And what the heck was I saying? Sometimes we're just stupid as humans.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Sister, thanks for sharing your emotions, physical and mental, all play a role for sure, but you on the right track, I think with the way you understand these hormones, you gonna be able to improve going forward. @Iron_rose1
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
This is an awesome post right here. @Iron_rose1 I like how you lay out the triggers that can affect things. The truth is, I get it completely. The worst thing in the world is wasting your energy on things that don't benefit yourself and in your future.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
@Iron_rose1 I think that you are a beautiful woman, both inside and outside, and you've given me hope that one day I'll be able to find someone even half as good as you.
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
I think the hormonal impacts on stress can't be overstated enough. And it's not just with women, but it's also with men as well. I think both genders experience stress much differently. Sometimes men have an easier time managing stress by just getting it out of their system through anger and aggression. @Iron_rose1
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
@Iron_rose1 you are strong enough to handle all this.....meditation will help relax your mind and have better sleep........
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
@Iron_rose1 sis donโ€™t listen to him or give him the time. He has issues that he is using you to relieve his. Youโ€™re beautiful and deserve someone who treats you great.
 
Good to hear about the reset plan. I wouldn't be too concerned with any lack of progress over the last few weeks. Getting back into the swing of things now you'll likely get a nice rebound.
Yes, I was okay with no progress either, at least I wasn't going backwards and loosing muscles.
Good to see you back and getting things back under control. The break from Reta makes sense with appetite that low, and itโ€™s interesting how quickly your digestion and inflammation settled once you brought it back in, thatโ€™s a solid sign itโ€™s working well for you. Training-wise, maintaining strength through all that stress is a big win in itself, and locking in a coach now should help drive progress again once cortisol settles. Keep stacking those consistent sessions and let the Reta do its job alongside it ๐Ÿ’ช
I am feeling better and my appetite is getting back to normal, so yeah restarting reta was a good call.
can you test restart of reta and add creatine? and glutamine?
I did jusg before this log.
I have always been and nevet stopped creatine and glutamine
Looking great @Iron_rose1 hopefully emotional stuff settles all the best
Thank you. Yes, new coach is great.
The one and only @Iron_rose1 !!! My fine sister, you are amazing and doing great!! You Just keep your eyes forward!! You donโ€™t have time in your life to stress. Block your phone, hold your beautiful head up high andโ€ฆ.KEEP KICKING ASS!! You laid everything out in your log and you know how to turn the stress around, Lets Go!!
Forward baby!!! You got this!!!
Thank you
Yes I am feeling better, with a plan to act on.
Hopefully having the opportunity to get this off your chest helps the healing process. I too find it very diffiuclt to stay motivated and on track when struggling emotionally (with any aspect of life).

Great to see you've reset and moving forward. This is the hardest step.

Full EVO family support @Iron_rose1
I think blocking and eliminating all the possibilties of reconcilation was much needed.
Good to see you moving forward again and hiring a coach. Be kind to yourself and look after what's importantly
I am glad I did as well. My mental peace is and I am happy I made my well being as my priority
Or we could all sit in ur front yard drinking protein shakes for if he comes over lol
Hahaha except I don't have a front yard.. Apartment living ๐Ÿคฃ
You guys are welcome in the living room for the right reasons though. He wasn't aggressive.
It takes strength just to share what you're going through with everyone Rose.
Stay strong, stay positive and keeping moving forward. We are super proud of you and you have our full support.
I appreciate your support โค๏ธ
been about๐Ÿค” 15 months maybe, since that last breakup. Seems longer. It quickly became a full block everything situation. Not because of anything crazy, but just the way she kept picking her way back in from every angle. Okaaaay enough about that hahaha
I always say1 " Clean cuts, heals the best/ fastest" true in life as well as in surgeries
alpha woman who knows how to be soft better than he does which is the true measure of skill and courage.
I think I am alpha female and definitely cant be with a Beta male long term. I follow through my words and promises, a man who cant do that is a beta.
I can only be soft from outside because I know my core/ boundaries are strong.

Actual breakups are never good. The one and only woman I've actually lived with took a year to get over.
Awww you are such an amazing one woman man โค๏ธ
Never settle or sacrifice yourself for familiar and convenience , the right person / your person will come along
I understand there are few things you'd have to overlook.
He wasn't my usual type which is big muscley men but how well he treated me ( hence he was texting and counting what all nice things he did for me). I used to overlook the gaslightings till my boundaries were crossed.
Hahah I wasnt allowed to keep a pet- he said its eithet him or a cat. I guess I am getting a cat soon๐Ÿคฃ
@Iron_rose1
Thanks for sharing that stuff. Everybody on here has gone through something similar and been on both sides of it. Trust me, I look back at my past relationships and I think to myself, what the heck was I thinking? And what the heck was I saying? Sometimes we're just stupid as humans.
Yeah, I get it..its part of life. You live and you learn ๐Ÿ˜Š
I think with the way you understand these hormones, you gonna be able to improve going forward. @Iron_rose1
Thank you. Hahah yeah I am on a mission.
The worst thing in the world is wasting your energy on things that don't benefit yourself and in your future.
I feel I cant trust a person if he says something and doesn't follow it through or do something else. You give a chance to the person to re-gain it with internal timeline. No point of wasting years and getting dangled. If still the same/ no progress then do whats needed to be done. It like putting our pets to "sleep". It hurts but we know we have to do it. It hurts more because you know you are causing it and letting your bestfriend go but because you know its not going to last for long anyways.
and you've given me hope that one day I'll be able to find someone even half as good as you.
โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ this is the sweetest comment ever. I truly mean it.
I think the hormonal impacts on stress can't be overstated enough. And it's not just with women, but it's also with men as well. I think both genders experience stress much differently. Sometimes men have an easier time managing stress by just getting it out of their system through anger and aggression. @Iron_rose1
I agree. Men dont get dad bod just coz they have become dad. Nothing happened to them in their bodies as compared to their partneras. Its the stress, sleep deprivation etc that came with it and they didnt get to manage it properly. Most of the time I have seen couple even fight a lot after the baby, that doesnt help with stress, hormones etc. I like to go on hermit mode and spend time with myself.
@Iron_rose1 you are strong enough to handle all this.....meditation will help relax your mind and have better sleep........
My elder brothers says the same thing - She is strong, she can handle anything.
I say - Sometimes being strong is your only option.

@Iron_rose1 sis donโ€™t listen to him or give him the time. He has issues that he is using you to relieve his. Youโ€™re beautiful and deserve someone who treats you great.
He did treat me well when together, that's the only reason I stayed but yeah mixed with some gaslightings.
Thank you โค๏ธ
 
Yes, I was okay with no progress either, at least I wasn't going backwards and loosing muscles.

I am feeling better and my appetite is getting back to normal, so yeah restarting reta was a good call.

I did jusg before this log.
I have always been and nevet stopped creatine and glutamine

Thank you. Yes, new coach is great.

Thank you
Yes I am feeling better, with a plan to act on.

I think blocking and eliminating all the possibilties of reconcilation was much needed.

I am glad I did as well. My mental peace is and I am happy I made my well being as my priority

Hahaha except I don't have a front yard.. Apartment living ๐Ÿคฃ
You guys are welcome in the living room for the right reasons though. He wasn't aggressive.

I appreciate your support โค๏ธ

I always say1 " Clean cuts, heals the best/ fastest" true in life as well as in surgeries

I think I am alpha female and definitely cant be with a Beta male long term. I follow through my words and promises, a man who cant do that is a beta.
I can only be soft from outside because I know my core/ boundaries are strong.


Awww you are such an amazing one woman man โค๏ธ

I understand there are few things you'd have to overlook.
He wasn't my usual type which is big muscley men but how well he treated me ( hence he was texting and counting what all nice things he did for me). I used to overlook the gaslightings till my boundaries were crossed.
Hahah I wasnt allowed to keep a pet- he said its eithet him or a cat. I guess I am getting a cat soon๐Ÿคฃ

Yeah, I get it..its part of life. You live and you learn ๐Ÿ˜Š

Thank you. Hahah yeah I am on a mission.

I feel I cant trust a person if he says something and doesn't follow it through or do something else. You give a chance to the person to re-gain it with internal timeline. No point of wasting years and getting dangled. If still the same/ no progress then do whats needed to be done. It like putting our pets to "sleep". It hurts but we know we have to do it. It hurts more because you know you are causing it and letting your bestfriend go but because you know its not going to last for long anyways.

โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ this is the sweetest comment ever. I truly mean it.

I agree. Men dont get dad bod just coz they have become dad. Nothing happened to them in their bodies as compared to their partneras. Its the stress, sleep deprivation etc that came with it and they didnt get to manage it properly. Most of the time I have seen couple even fight a lot after the baby, that doesnt help with stress, hormones etc. I like to go on hermit mode and spend time with myself.

My elder brothers says the same thing - She is strong, she can handle anything.
I say - Sometimes being strong is your only option.


He did treat me well when together, that's the only reason I stayed but yeah mixed with some gaslightings.
Thank you โค๏ธ
Wow!! You are loved on here!!! Awesome
EVO Family love!!!
 
Yeah, I get it..its part of life. You live and you learn ๐Ÿ˜Š
โค๏ธ
I always beleived in being myself and going with my gut with dating. then i started listening to the douchebags on the internet and at work who started to teach me to be non authentic. playing games, waiting 4 days to return calls, playing it cool, pretending to not be interested, putting your partner on defense all the time and manipulating them and all that red pill garbage you see online. it never worked for me. i went back to being myself after that and it has always worked best. funny that those clowns who claim to be pick up artists never get women at all. they just live in a fantasty world that they are gurus
 
This morning when I woke up- I said OMG ๐Ÿคฉ when I looked in the mirror.
I dont know what I have done last night apart from upping my HGH from 1.5IU to 2IU, training harder in the gym and tried some new Japanese skin toner.
I am not kidding it looks like I have got a mini facelift. My skin is baby smooth- literally zero bumps, dewy skin. I never had wrinkles anywhere else except smile lines. It's Gone!!
Even if I am being a critique and looking for it- there is no wrinkle. My face isn't puffy either that it can hide it.
Some awesome quality HGH @RegenexPharma

Increasing the hgh dosage and Japanese toner- thats the only thing I changed.
 
I always beleived in being myself and going with my gut with dating. then i started listening to the douchebags on the internet and at work who started to teach me to be non authentic. playing games, waiting 4 days to return calls, playing it cool, pretending to not be interested, putting your partner on defense all the time and manipulating them and all that red pill garbage you see online. it never worked for me. i went back to being myself after that and it has always worked best. funny that those clowns who claim to be pick up artists never get women at all. they just live in a fantasty world that they are gurus
100%.
Lol I can spot the mind games from a mile.
My current ex tried to play hot and cold in the start as well. I called him out and said - I dont play those games but it doesn't mean I don't know the games.
I am aware enough to know when a guy is pulling back and I don't do it as a strategy- It just kills the attraction as my subconcious mind thinks I can't relay on this man. For majoruty of woman- to be able to relay on you, is the biggest thing. Again cavewomen brain- Her and her off-spring's survival used to depend on what partner she is choosing. If he leaves her after she gives birth- she wont be provided for and wouldnt survive.
 
100%.
Lol I can spot the mind games from a mile.
My current ex tried to play hot and cold in the start as well. I called him out and said - I dont play those games but it doesn't mean I don't know the games.
I am aware enough to know when a guy is pulling back and I don't do it as a strategy- It just kills the attraction as my subconcious mind thinks I can't relay on this man. For majoruty of woman- to be able to relay on you, is the biggest thing. Again cavewomen brain- Her and her off-spring's survival used to depend on what partner she is choosing. If he leaves her after she gives birth- she wont be provided for and wouldnt survive.
my current gf told me she was shocked that i texted her the same day after she gave me her #. she was like "that is the first time a guy ever actually did what he said he would". and i set up a date with her after 10 minutes for the very next day. she said it turned her on bigtime that i knew what i wanted and didn't fuck around. crazy concept to actually man up with things, its the way i roll in life
 
I hope it goes great. Actually I am sure it will be great for her- as you are a gentleman.
You liking her back, its a different story
@Ulter Sorry, I re- read my message. It may come across wrong. I meant I can sense you aren't in a rush and have high standards. If you have been single for a while / no second dates, I can confidently say it's not because of you. Probably you didnt feel it. I do hope you both like each other as I am sure you will like you.
 
I agree. Men dont get dad bod just coz they have become dad. Nothing happened to them in their bodies as compared to their partneras. Its the stress, sleep deprivation etc that came with it and they didnt get to manage it properly. Most of the time I have seen couple even fight a lot after the baby, that doesnt help with stress, hormones etc. I like to go on hermit mode and spend time with myself.
Are you sure about that? I could have sworn I've seen some studies showing that men actually do have a change in hormones after they have kids.
 
Are you sure about that? I could have sworn I've seen some studies showing that men actually do have a change in hormones after they have kids.

Yes their testosterone drops etc. I believe everything we feel, do etc are hormones.
I meant nothing changes in male as compared to women in the sense- the baby isn't growing inside you, moving your internal around all cramped up, not directly spiking your hormones etc.

Sleep deprivation and stress is linked to low testestrone as well. So it's chicken or the egg kind of situation for males.
 
Yes their testosterone drops etc. I believe everything we feel, do etc are hormones.
I meant nothing changes in male as compared to women in the sense- the baby isn't growing inside you, moving your internal around all cramped up, not directly spiking your hormones etc.

Sleep deprivation and stress is linked to low testestrone as well. So it's chicken or the egg kind of situation for males.
Yes definitely. It's a big stressful experience especially during pregnancy and then that first year.
 
I hope it goes great. Actually I am sure it will be great for her- as you are a gentleman.
You liking her back, its a different story
me too. This would be my first time on a second date in about 5 years. I just can't make it past that first date.
 
Are you sure about that? I could have sworn I've seen some studies showing that men actually do have a change in hormones after they have kids.
I wish I could go back in time and get bloodwork. Having kids was great for me. I didnโ€™t get a dad bod or anything like that. I would have no idea if my hormones changed but our first child came out so perfect and beautiful and full of personality and it was life changing for me and their mom. I didnโ€™t think Iโ€™d be the type to store down and have a family but after the first one I was like,โ€ok how many kids can we have then?โ€ Hahaha.
And tmi but we could hardly wait for her to heal and we were right back at it. If youโ€™d asked me if my testosterone went up or down I would have bet it went up a lot. But we were just happy and life was good.
 
I agree. Men dont get dad bod just coz they have become dad. Nothing happened to them in their bodies as compared to their partneras. Its the stress, sleep deprivation etc that came with it and they didnt get to manage it properly. Most of the time I have seen couple even fight a lot after the baby, that doesnt help with stress, hormones etc. I like to go on hermit mode and spend time with myself.
โค๏ธ
yes they call that mentally having a funeral
 
I think I am alpha female and definitely cant be with a Beta male long term. I follow through my words and promises, a man who cant do that is a beta.
I can only be soft from outside because I know my core/ boundaries are strong.
Agreed. Being soft and jovial too is best presented when the inner side is strong as then it is given when earned and is sincere without it being weakness. I can be very soft and usually am, until I'm not. I missed an appointment last week and it bugged the sh*t out of me because I agree a man should keep his word on all things.
 
Agreed. Being soft and jovial too is best presented when the inner side is strong as then it is given when earned and is sincere without it being weakness. I can be very soft and usually am, until I'm not. I missed an appointment last week and it bugged the sh*t out of me because I agree a man should keep his word on all things.
@Iron_rose1 You are ๐Ÿ’ฏ right Rose and so is Harley. We show how alpha we are though actions. Men do what they and say what they doโ€ฆthat is even if he need words
 
I wish I could go back in time and get bloodwork. Having kids was great for me. I didnโ€™t get a dad bod or anything like that. I would have no idea if my hormones changed but our first child came out so perfect and beautiful and full of personality and it was life changing for me and their mom. I didnโ€™t think Iโ€™d be the type to store down and have a family but after the first one I was like,โ€ok how many kids can we have then?โ€ Hahaha.
And tmi but we could hardly wait for her to heal and we were right back at it. If youโ€™d asked me if my testosterone went up or down I would have bet it went up a lot. But we were just happy and life was good.
That would be a good idea but plenty of people have done it and it's shown that their testosterone levels do drop.
 
That would be a good idea but plenty of people have done it and it's shown that their testosterone levels do drop.
I have heard that as well. I suppose itโ€™s a natural thing and if youโ€™re healthy (I was very healthy and fit) itโ€™s not a bad thing. Didnโ€™t feel bad!
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
I hope you enjoy the HGH as much as i do. I think its a game changer!

The coach is a great idea too!
 
Log 17 March 2026

I know Iโ€™ve been really quiet for almost a month now, and it might seem like things have been dragging.

The truth is, every time I start healing emotionally, my ex comes back and it feels like all the progress Iโ€™ve made just gets ripped open again.

He would text me to remind me of all the โ€œgoodโ€ things he did, like taking me out, driving me around, doing nice things, and then say things like โ€œI donโ€™t know if you noticed, but I did this, this, and this for you.โ€ At times, it also felt like he was implying that itโ€™s either him or no one; like I wouldnโ€™t find anyone else like him. He might not intent to do this but thats how it made me feel. And its not only post break up feeling low but have been feeling as a woman kinda low.

Every time I tried to explain that I need space to heal and he needs to move on, he would disappear but then come back again. And each time, it hurt all over again along with some gaslighting about my flaws.

Even during the relationship, there was always something that made me feel pulled down comments about my skin being dry ( because I like hot showers) , my hair shedding( because I have long hair) , or noticing โ€œwrinkles around me smile lineโ€. As a woman, it hurts and cuts us deeper than men can think. And every time I said I didnโ€™t like hearing those things, he wouldn't repeat but something new would come up. I was choosing my battles and used to ignore in order to keep peace but this time, I chose to put a full stop to it. It was all making me feel like worse than before.

In all my past breakups, Iโ€™ve always been able to end things on neutral or respectful terms. But this time was different. I had to block him on every platform in order to protect my inner peace and keep coming back to delay my progress.



Appetite, Reta & Digestion

I wasnโ€™t eating properly anyway, so I gave myself a break from Reta as well. My hunger was already extremely low, and continuing it wasnโ€™t helping.

I paused Reta for about 2 weeks, then restarted this week.

I would like to express my appreciation to @ZenithHealth for reta as well as @RGSX for Her elite health Stack , Vital sleep.
My brain has been overloaded, I definitely needed some need with the sleep and to calm down my thoughts as well as hormonal support.

A couple of things I noticed:

  • When I was off Reta, I was having almost loose motions ; anything I ate would go through me within about 1-2hours
  • After restarting, digestion normalised again
I also noticed that the bloating and inflammation I was feeling (likely from high cortisol during stress) started slightly improving once I restarted.



Stress, Cortisol & Physique

This phase has been very stressful, and I can clearly see the impact of cortisol on my body.

  • My weight loss has stalled
  • My tummy looks softer, more bloated, and fuller compared to previous weeks
  • I was holding more water and fat around the midsection
Training-wise:

  • Still doing 2 upper + 2 lower sessions per week
  • Strength maintained
  • But no visible progress
Not seeing changes in the mirror definitely affected my motivation as well.



Reset Plan

To get things back on track, Iโ€™ve signed up with a coach at my gym starting this week. I am training with him tomorrow, so looking forward to the progress.

With:

  • Structured training
  • Proper meal planning
  • And now having cut off emotional triggers
Iโ€™m expecting things to stabilise again. Blocking him was necessary. I think this is where actual healing begins.




Sleep & Recovery

Iโ€™ve been using:

  • Vital Sleep and HER Elite Health Stack @RGSX
  • Magnesium Glycinate
I noticed that on nights when I skipped my sleep support (because I was emotionally too low to even take supplements), I would wake up and struggle to fall back asleep.

I have been taking 2 tabs of Vital sleep so far, I feel a bit better today, so I am testing out 1 tab
But when I took Vital Sleep, I could fall back asleep within 5โ€“10 minutes.

As I wasnโ€™t eating properly I believe HER helped me in supporting physiologically.





HGH

Iโ€™ve started 1.5 IU HGH from @RegenexPharma
Havenโ€™t noticed much yet most likely because the current cortisol/stress levels are counteracting any potential benefits. Also it's been only 2-3 weeks since I have started.



Overall

This phase hasnโ€™t been about progress physically. Itโ€™s been about stabilising mentally and emotionally.

Now that Iโ€™ve:

  • Removed the trigger
  • Restarted Reta
  • Put structure back in place with a coach
I expect things to move forward again from here.

I am already feeling better today, so getting back onto logging

Ps- I don't want us to talk more about him or verbally bash him. I have been raw and true to myself from Day1. I to wanted to share everything including all of my emotions.
Progress from start of your log till now is very impressive. Keep up the hard work ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
 

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29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
Wow babe. Awesome update, so many things to go through

Great idea to get a coach, hopefully they are a good fit for you.

Im glad the HGH has been implemented. I feel like a cultists telling all the girls to get on HGH. I honeslty feel like its the best thing for perfomance, longevity and so much more.

Thanks for mentioning your period. @Alice_In_Ironland mentioned it in her log to. Im glad more ladies are speaking openly about it. :love:

Looking great too babe. Glad to see you back!
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
Ive seen those anklets before ๐Ÿซฃ but not at the gym ๐Ÿ˜†
Very glad you're back on track and have a solid structure in place with your coach.
You're going to really start seeing big changes (even more then you already have)
Glad to hear you're not as bloated during this time.
This is exactly why we put DIM (Diindolylmethane) in the HER vital range.
Itโ€™s popular because of how it influences estrogen metabolism, which is key for things like bloating, PMS, and hormonal balance.

DIM doesnโ€™t โ€œlower estrogenโ€ directly โ€” it changes how your body processes it.
Estrogen gets broken down in the liver into different pathways:

๐Ÿ˜โ€œGoodโ€ pathway (2-hydroxyestrone) โ†’ anti-inflammatory, less bloating, less estrogen dominance
๐Ÿ˜Ÿโ€œBadโ€ pathway (16-hydroxyestrone) โ†’ more inflammatory, linked to water retention, breast tenderness, PMS symptoms
๐Ÿ‘‰ DIM helps shift estrogen toward the โ€œgoodโ€ pathway and away from the โ€œbadโ€ one.

๐ŸŒธ What that means for women
When DIM is working well, you may notice:
โœ… Less bloating (especially pre-period)
Estrogen dominance = more water retention
DIM helps reduce that by improving estrogen breakdown
โœ… Reduced PMS symptoms
Less breast tenderness
Less irritability / mood swings (in some cases)
Less heavy, sluggish feeling
โœ… More balanced hormone signalling
Helps regulate estrogen vs progesterone balance indirectly
Can support clearer skin (less hormonal acne)

We aren't saying that this is the exact reason why you're feeling much better but we hope it's contributing the way it was intended.

Logan,
 
cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
Hilarious! Awesome
low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits
Seems to work really well for many people. I canโ€™t help but think that the garlic preachers are crazy. Itโ€™s not magic, it just smells and tastes good *if* properly prepared.

Never heard the term โ€œstone fruitsโ€before. Would that be something with a large seed like peaches and plums?I really only eat berries and pineapples.
 
Wow babe. Awesome update, so many things to go through

Great idea to get a coach, hopefully they are a good fit for you.

Im glad the HGH has been implemented. I feel like a cultists telling all the girls to get on HGH. I honeslty feel like its the best thing for perfomance, longevity and so much more.

Thanks for mentioning your period. @Alice_In_Ironland mentioned it in her log to. Im glad more ladies are speaking openly about it. :love:

Looking great too babe. Glad to see you back!
Thanks hun
Oh yes, I think I cant miss mentioning the periods. Around this time I cant lift at all and recover really slow but something is working.
 
Ive seen those anklets before ๐Ÿซฃ but not at the gym ๐Ÿ˜†
Very glad you're back on track and have a solid structure in place with your coach.
You're going to really start seeing big changes (even more then you already have)
Glad to hear you're not as bloated during this time.
This is exactly why we put DIM (Diindolylmethane) in the HER vital range.
Itโ€™s popular because of how it influences estrogen metabolism, which is key for things like bloating, PMS, and hormonal balance.

DIM doesnโ€™t โ€œlower estrogenโ€ directly โ€” it changes how your body processes it.
Estrogen gets broken down in the liver into different pathways:

๐Ÿ˜โ€œGoodโ€ pathway (2-hydroxyestrone) โ†’ anti-inflammatory, less bloating, less estrogen dominance
๐Ÿ˜Ÿโ€œBadโ€ pathway (16-hydroxyestrone) โ†’ more inflammatory, linked to water retention, breast tenderness, PMS symptoms
๐Ÿ‘‰ DIM helps shift estrogen toward the โ€œgoodโ€ pathway and away from the โ€œbadโ€ one.

๐ŸŒธ What that means for women
When DIM is working well, you may notice:
โœ… Less bloating (especially pre-period)
Estrogen dominance = more water retention
DIM helps reduce that by improving estrogen breakdown
โœ… Reduced PMS symptoms
Less breast tenderness
Less irritability / mood swings (in some cases)
Less heavy, sluggish feeling
โœ… More balanced hormone signalling
Helps regulate estrogen vs progesterone balance indirectly
Can support clearer skin (less hormonal acne)

We aren't saying that this is the exact reason why you're feeling much better but we hope it's contributing the way it was intended.

Logan,
Oh I can Vouch in regards to hormonal acne. I have very clear skin, BUT I will Always get hormonal acne on my chin before periods. ( my recent ex always used to point out and I have been extremely conscious about it.

This time - no hormonal Chin acne. So its working for sure for that.
 
Hilarious! Awesome

Seems to work really well for many people. I canโ€™t help but think that the garlic preachers are crazy. Itโ€™s not magic, it just smells and tastes good *if* properly prepared.

Never heard the term โ€œstone fruitsโ€before. Would that be something with a large seed like peaches and plums?I really only eat berries and pineapples.
Hahah Yeah I look like a badass with ankle brace ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… but I am the chickenest chicken possible ๐Ÿ™ˆ

Re garlic- You can still have some garlic flavour if its infused in oil and chuck away the actual garlic afterwarss.
Yeah any fruits with big stone like seed in it- Cherries, mangoes, peaches, plums.
Even my fav watermelon was on the High FODMAP list :(
 
it- Cherries, mangoes, peaches, plums.
Even my fav watermelon was on the High FODM
Oh goodness I love all of those. Come to think of it, itโ€™s strange that I donโ€™t buy and eat them regularly. Besides mangoes, eating fresh mangoes in Mexico ruined store mangoes for me. There was a huge overgrown cherry tree at one of our construction offices in Indiana years ago. I took my bucket truck over there and picked the whole thing and attempted to induce cherry poisoning in myself hahaha. It didnโ€™t work, I was fine๐Ÿ˜‚
 
Oh I can Vouch in regards to hormonal acne. I have very clear skin, BUT I will Always get hormonal acne on my chin before periods. ( my recent ex always used to point out and I have been extremely conscious about it.

This time - no hormonal Chin acne. So its working for sure for that.
Good to see the HER Vital is having positive effects! A bit of hormonal acne never scares no man away! Only insensitive little boys ๐Ÿ˜†.
You look locked in for a great progression phase.
Look forward to seeing the results
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
Great update sister, very comprehensive. Looks like getting someone to oversee your training and diet and make a couple of adjustments is working g brilliantly for your. I love the structure of your program it is really solid.
Never experienced the aversion to meat types on Reta I have to admit. But different compounds affect people differently, no one reacts the same way.
Love seeing you getting your groove back on ๐Ÿฉต
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
Really good update!

Thats awesome that you are feeling stronger overall. Big win regarding the bloating as well.

Workout structure looks good!
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
good to see you update the EVO family sister :D thank you @Iron_rose1 you look much leaner in the pics, more tight and you're getting goals in, love the training strong lat pulls almost 30 there I think you can do more, big changes coming! EVO family support your way :D
 
Hahah Yeah I look like a badass with ankle brace ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… but I am the chickenest chicken possible ๐Ÿ™ˆ

Re garlic- You can still have some garlic flavour if its infused in oil and chuck away the actual garlic afterwarss.
Yeah any fruits with big stone like seed in it- Cherries, mangoes, peaches, plums.
Even my fav watermelon was on the High FODMAP list :(
I follow low FODMAP diet and swear by it ๐Ÿ˜Š
 
29 March 2026 Log Update


Iโ€™ve started training with my coach now, and that has already brought some structure back.


He has increased my calories to 1700 kcal, which is a big shift. I have been max consuming 1500 kcal until now. With 2 mg Reta, I was experiencing some hunger suppression. To manage that better and to be ableto consume my calories, Iโ€™ve split my dose into 1 mg twice a week instead of taking it all at once.




Reta & Food Aversion​


Something interesting Iโ€™ve noticed recently is a change in taste and food aversion.

Iโ€™ve been on Reta for almost 3 months, and this has only started happening now.
  • I was fine with chicken, then suddenly couldnโ€™t stand it for a few days
  • I stopped eating it, and the aversion went away
  • Switched to beef, which was fine initially
  • Now Iโ€™m having aversion to beef, but I can eat chicken again

Whatโ€™s even more confusing is that the aversion isnโ€™t consistent. I had beef at a different restaurant and was completely fine.

Not sure if this is Reta-related or just situational, but itโ€™s definitely something Iโ€™ve noticed.




Training & Strength​


Training is now 4x per week under my coach
On my off days I do 45 mins to an hour walk
Plus total 60 mins cardio in a week


We also did a 1:1 session, where he corrected my form, which made a big difference.


Iโ€™m actually starting to feel stronger. The progress is subtle, but itโ€™s there.


Previously, one of my limitations was that I used to feel a lot of strain in my hands.
My coach suggested better gloves, and that alone has improved my lifts.




Supplements (Updated)​


Iโ€™ve made a few changes here:
I am still taking HER elite health stack and Vital sleep from @RGSX as well as Magnesium Glycinate but my coach also made me add
  • Karbolyn (25 g) during workouts
  • Total Beets
  • Electrolytes when I wake up
  • Switched from protein water โ†’ amino acids + electrolytes + taurine as intra-workout

Strength is definitely improving. I think it's the combination of training, diet, supplements like HER elite health stack and good night sleep.
Maybe HGH is kicking in as well. Thanks @RegenexPharma for HGH



Activity​


Iโ€™ve been trying to hit 5,000โ€“10,000 steps, but with work hours, it hasnโ€™t been realistic.
I decided to get a walking pad. I bought Everfit walking pad yesterday. It's still shipping. Lol I know I will be struggling to pull it in my apartment from the delievery area.
Any Volunteers to help me move it, would be welcomed with a nice protein ninja creamie ice-cream lol
Thanks @Sheshredz to motivate me buy one

Also I get reaction on my wrist with smart watches so got this cheap Xiaomi step tracker and I wear it in my feet ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…
will attach photos ๐Ÿ˜…




Diet & Digestion​


Iโ€™ve started experimenting with a low FODMAP diet this week.



Today is actually Day 1 of my period, and surprisingly, I feel quite snatched as compared to previous cycles. I usually start to feel bloated 3-4 days before my periodsso this time I implemented low FODMAP diet, basically eliminated garlic, onion, stone fruits.
Also sinceI have started reta from @ZenithHealth last week, bloating is low as well


Normally, I would be extremely bloated around this time, so this is a noticeable change. I am feeling no bloating at all

Everything feels like itโ€™s starting to align again. I am feeling stronger in the gym
Here is the workout ( My sets have gone down as well as my weights because we are correcting my form to prevent injuries that I have been having )

Lower Body Day 1​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
  • Lying Leg Curl:
    22.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    25 kg ร— 6 reps (1 RIR)
  • Romanian Deadlift (RDL):
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (2 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 6 reps (3 RIR)
  • Leg Press (muscles tight):
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
  • Calf Press:
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    20 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Bulgarian Split Squats:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)

Day 2​

  • 60-minute walk

Day 3​

  • Rest

Upper Body โ€“ Day 4​

  • Reverse Pec Deck Fly:
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
    15 kg ร— 15 reps (0 RIR)
  • Single Arm Cable Row:
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
    12.5 kg ร— 10 reps (0 RIR)
  • Machine Shoulder Press:
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
    Bodyweight ร— 10 reps (1 RIR)
  • Machine Lateral Raises:
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
    5 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Standing Dumbbell Curls:
    5 kg ร— 18 reps (1 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 9 reps (0 RIR)
  • Cable Triceps Extension:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (3 RIR)
    10.5 kg ร— 12 reps (2 RIR)

Lower Body โ€“ Day 5​

  • Machine Hip Abduction:
    20 kg ร— 15 reps (5 RIR)
    30 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • 45ยฐ Glute Bias (Hyperextension):
    5 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 13 reps (2 RIR)
  • Machine Hip Thrust:
    20 kg ร— 14 reps (5 RIR)
    40 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Seated Leg Curl:
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (3 RIR)
    26 kg ร— 16 reps (2 RIR)
  • Leg Extension:
    19 kg ร— 15 reps (3 RIR)
    28.5 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)

Upper Body โ€“ Day 6​

  • Chest Supported Machine Low Row:
    10 kg ร— 10 reps (5 RIR)
    10 kg ร— 15 reps (1 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Shoulder Press:
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (3 RIR)
    6 kg ร— 12 reps (1 RIR)
  • Lat Pulldown:
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (1 RIR)
    29.5 kg ร— 8 reps (0 RIR)
  • Dumbbell Lateral Raise:
    4 kg ร— 6 reps (0 RIR)
    3 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
  • Incline Dumbbell Curl:
    4 kg ร— 10 reps (2 RIR)
Youโ€™re doing a really good job here, a couple things stood out to me. The food aversion youโ€™re noticing is actually pretty common with Retatrutide, especially once youโ€™ve been on it a while. It tends to shift preferences rather than just blunt appetite, so rotating protein sources like youโ€™re doing is a smart way to stay on track without forcing foods that turn you off. Also splitting the 2mg dose across the week is a great move, that usually smooths out hunger and makes it much easier to get your calories in consistently.

On the training side, you can really see things starting to click. The structure, form corrections, and small strength gains are exactly what you want at this stage. It might feel subtle, but thatโ€™s how solid progress builds. And honestly, youโ€™re looking amazing already, itโ€™s very clear things are moving in the right direction.
 
me too. This would be my first time on a second date in about 5 years. I just can't make it past that first date.
Hey,
How did your date go?
Oh goodness I love all of those. Come to think of it, itโ€™s strange that I donโ€™t buy and eat them regularly. Besides mangoes, eating fresh mangoes in Mexico ruined store mangoes for me. There was a huge overgrown cherry tree at one of our construction offices in Indiana years ago. I took my bucket truck over there and picked the whole thing and attempted to induce cherry poisoning in myself hahaha. It didnโ€™t work, I was fine๐Ÿ˜‚
Lol Cherry poisoning? You mean the toilet runs after having too many cherries ๐Ÿ˜…
Thats me, every year around Xmas ๐Ÿ™ˆ
As I am thinking, I never saw a Cherry tree and I am curious to see it irl.
Good to see the HER Vital is having positive effects! A bit of hormonal acne never scares no man away! Only insensitive little boys ๐Ÿ˜†.
You look locked in for a great progression phase.
Look forward to seeing the results
It didnt scare him but made worry about it.
Thank you.
Great update sister, very comprehensive. Looks like getting someone to oversee your training and diet and make a couple of adjustments is working g brilliantly for your. I love the structure of your program it is really solid.
Never experienced the aversion to meat types on Reta I have to admit. But different compounds affect people differently, no one reacts the same way.
Love seeing you getting your groove back on ๐Ÿฉต
Thank you. I am enjoying it as well.
Really good update!

Thats awesome that you are feeling stronger overall. Big win regarding the bloating as well.

Workout structure looks good!
Yeah, nothing was beating the bloatinf like low FODMAP did. Thank you :)
good to see you update the EVO family sister :D thank you @Iron_rose1 you look much leaner in the pics, more tight and you're getting goals in, love the training strong lat pulls almost 30 there I think you can do more, big changes coming! EVO family support your way :D
Am I?
I am seeing no changes from the past few weeks but I have had slight mindset shift- I dont care how I am looking or seeing no improvements, as long as I am not going backwards and able to lift heavier than before , thats all I care about atm.
I follow low FODMAP diet and swear by it ๐Ÿ˜Š
I am impressed. If I dont labrat myself, am I even IronRose then ๐Ÿ˜…
I was snatched and then just to try, I had sour cream and oniom flavour of Quest protein chips.
My tummy has been rumbling all night. In the morning - looked 4 months pregnant ๐Ÿ˜…
Lesson learned - no quest chips, not sour cream and onion for sure.
Youโ€™re doing a really good job here, a couple things stood out to me. The food aversion youโ€™re noticing is actually pretty common with Retatrutide, especially once youโ€™ve been on it a while. It tends to shift preferences rather than just blunt appetite, so rotating protein sources like youโ€™re doing is a smart way to stay on track without forcing foods that turn you off. Also splitting the 2mg dose across the week is a great move, that usually smooths out hunger and makes it much easier to get your calories in consistently.

On the training side, you can really see things starting to click. The structure, form corrections, and small strength gains are exactly what you want at this stage. It might feel subtle, but thatโ€™s how solid progress builds. And honestly, youโ€™re looking amazing already, itโ€™s very clear things are moving in the right direction.
Yeah I had to shift the food, gotta have my protein ๐Ÿ˜
Awww thank you โค๏ธ
I cant aee any changes but you guys know and can see more than I can
 
Am I?
I am seeing no changes from the past few weeks but I have had slight mindset shift- I dont care how I am looking or seeing no improvements, as long as I am not going backwards and able to lift heavier than before , thats all I care about atm.
You do look more tight sister :D @Iron_rose1
 
Hey,
How did your date go?
she didn't show up. we were supposed to meet at the lake and take those swan boats around. i stood there holding roses for like an hour waiting for her but she never showed :(
I tried calling her and her number goes straight to voicemail. i called her like 60 times in a row and it keeps going to voicemail. i will try calling again today. i think maybe she has a death in the family or something and will get back to me at some point, not sure though. maybe i am doing something wrong or maybe her phone is broken.
 
she didn't show up. we were supposed to meet at the lake and take those swan boats around. i stood there holding roses for like an hour waiting for her but she never showed :(
I tried calling her and her number goes straight to voicemail. i called her like 60 times in a row and it keeps going to voicemail. i will try calling again today. i think maybe she has a death in the family or something and will get back to me at some point, not sure though. maybe i am doing something wrong or maybe her phone is broken.
Noooooo. I feel so bad for you even imagining that ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
It was such a cute/romantic date idea as well. You are such a gentleman- Showing up on 1st date with roses.
Shame you aren't in Australia.
You aren't doing anything wrong. Its just right men aren't meeting the right women and viceversa
 
Noooooo. I feel so bad for you even imagining that ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
It was such a cute/romantic date idea as well. You are such a gentleman- Showing up on 1st date with roses.
Shame you aren't in Australia.
You aren't doing anything wrong. Its just right men aren't meeting the right women and viceversa
So true, dating game is so difficult.
 
Noooooo. I feel so bad for you even imagining that ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
It was such a cute/romantic date idea as well. You are such a gentleman- Showing up on 1st date with roses.
Shame you aren't in Australia.
You aren't doing anything wrong. Its just right men aren't meeting the right women and viceversa
she did text me back. she said that she was sorry but she met someone else :(
 
That was so inconsiderate for her to just ghost you on the day. You deserve better โค๏ธ
yeah i got mad i smashed the roses onto the ground and stormed off from the swan boat place and everyone asked me if i was okay.
 
I am so sorry.
its okay. i have a new date with the widow in my neighborhood. she is the HOA mean lady who always is screaming at me about my lawn being too watered. i asked her out at the pickle ball courts we are going to go to the lake
 
How is @Iron_rose1 doing?๐Ÿ™‚

Lol Cherry poisoning? You mean the toilet runs after having too many cherries ๐Ÿ˜…
Either that or turn into a big round red ball. No luck there either๐Ÿ˜ฅ๐Ÿ˜‚
Thats me, every year around Xmas ๐Ÿ™ˆ
Aaaaah holidays. I could tell you all about the Vietnamese new year party I attended, but letโ€™s just say there was sooooo much food, and it was sooooo good. And I have no idea what any of it was, but something I ate paid me a visit later Hahahahaha
As I am thinking, I never saw a Cherry tree and I am curious to see it irl.
Oh theyโ€™re very pretty! They bloom and then they fruit. The root balls make beautiful wood. I might see if the soil at my house would be good for a cherry tree, now that I think about it. I tried pawpaws but they didnโ€™t survive

Hope youโ€™re doing well!
 
As someone that intermittantly takes prednisone and prednisolone i feel your pain. Now im on lyrica which also boosts hunger but reta has definately helped that. You got this. Auto immunes suck ra sufferer here
I have just been diagnosed with RA. I had a hip replaced 8 months ago. Tore my bicep tendon ruptured tendon right off forearm. I have osteoarthritis also. I font want to stop lifting. What are the best meds for RA? I take testosterone and cycles of turinabol. What else will help?
 
Good Morning @Iron_rose1 . I love the log and all the detail.

I've been forwarding your podcast episodes to the gym ladies in my life that are struggling with their hormone balance and/or looking at getting into shape.

Keep on keeping on Sister, you're a loved and valued prominent member of Evo. Hope you're doing well and we get to hear from you again soon. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿซก
 
I have just been diagnosed with RA. I had a hip replaced 8 months ago. Tore my bicep tendon ruptured tendon right off forearm. I have osteoarthritis also. I font want to stop lifting. What are the best meds for RA? I take testosterone and cycles of turinabol. What else will help?
Im actually back off all ra meds, i was using cbd oil with no thc but now i just use bpc, tb500, kpv ghk-cu.i gave up drinking and cut alot of gluten from diet. Not completely but i used to eat alot of breads and still can tell if i had to much as it causes inflamation.
 
I have just been diagnosed with RA. I had a hip replaced 8 months ago. Tore my bicep tendon ruptured tendon right off forearm. I have osteoarthritis also. I font want to stop lifting. What are the best meds for RA? I take testosterone and cycles of turinabol. What else will help?
Sorry to hear that and apologise for the late reply, I am not on much atm as my Dad isn't well.

Bpc157 ( local site near the injury)
tb500
Thymosin alpha
Kpv
reta low doses ( for visceral fat as well as insuline resistancr )
vit D
zinc
Selenium ( so Just 1 Brazil nut/day) - Dont over do this please
If possible IV glutathione or oral NAC
Magnesium glycinate
Probiotic that includes - Lactobacillus casei, L.Rhamnosus, Bifidobacterium bifidum and longum

Notice what triggers your immune system and avoid it - Stress/ food/ sleep deprivation.
Try low FODMAP diet to know your food triggers.

Make sure your home doesnt have mould or dampness issues.
If possile walk barefeet in grass/beach/ground with the intension that all the inflammation is leaving through your feet.
 
Good Morning @Iron_rose1 . I love the log and all the detail.

I've been forwarding your podcast episodes to the gym ladies in my life that are struggling with their hormone balance and/or looking at getting into shape.

Keep on keeping on Sister, you're a loved and valued prominent member of Evo. Hope you're doing well and we get to hear from you again soon. ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿซก
I am soo glad I can help other ladies and thanks for helping them by forwarding the podcast.

I appreciate your support. โค๏ธ
 
Missing Logs
I am sorry for not being as active, it's one thing after another. My dad isn't well and had a medical emergency episode. I have not been in the right mindset. Just trying to keep my head above the water atm.

I couldn't even take Reta @ZenithHealth, other peptides as well as @RGSX Vital sleep, HER range.

I definitely see the difference in my gut motility when off reta. Anything I am eating, within 30 mins is out of my system. I am not sure its the stress in my life or not taking peps/ supps or combination of all.
I am still trying to train as its the only way I can let my negative emotions/ stress out but hard to manage it atm.
 
Missing Logs
I am sorry for not being as active, it's one thing after another. My dad isn't well and had a medical emergency episode. I have not been in the right mindset. Just trying to keep my head above the water atm.

I couldn't even take Reta @ZenithHealth, other peptides as well as @RGSX Vital sleep, HER range.

I definitely see the difference in my gut motility when off reta. Anything I am eating, within 30 mins is out of my system. I am not sure its the stress in my life or not taking peps/ supps or combination of all.
I am still trying to train as its the only way I can let my negative emotions/ stress out but hard to manage it atm.
We are extremely sorry to hear about your father Rose.
We wish him a speedy recovery and sending our thoughts to you guys.
You don't need to be sorry, family comes first ๐Ÿ™Œ.
Always here if you need anything, just reach out.
Your spot with us will always be there for when you're back into it.

Logan,
 
Missing Logs
I am sorry for not being as active, it's one thing after another. My dad isn't well and had a medical emergency episode. I have not been in the right mindset. Just trying to keep my head above the water atm.

I couldn't even take Reta @ZenithHealth, other peptides as well as @RGSX Vital sleep, HER range.

I definitely see the difference in my gut motility when off reta. Anything I am eating, within 30 mins is out of my system. I am not sure its the stress in my life or not taking peps/ supps or combination of all.
I am still trying to train as its the only way I can let my negative emotions/ stress out but hard to manage it atm.
Im so sorry to hear that, im surprised food is going through you that much faster, i think its definitely partially stress related.

Hope your dad is ok ๐Ÿ™
 
Missing Logs
I am sorry for not being as active, it's one thing after another. My dad isn't well and had a medical emergency episode. I have not been in the right mindset. Just trying to keep my head above the water atm.

I couldn't even take Reta @ZenithHealth, other peptides as well as @RGSX Vital sleep, HER range.

I definitely see the difference in my gut motility when off reta. Anything I am eating, within 30 mins is out of my system. I am not sure its the stress in my life or not taking peps/ supps or combination of all.
I am still trying to train as its the only way I can let my negative emotions/ stress out but hard to manage it atm.
Hey girl, i was worried when i hadn't seen you post in a while.

Take your time, and my prayers are with you and your family.
 
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