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I think you are looking good man. You are making those lifts look easy too. Might need to go heavier!
on that day reached fatigue before failure ( no burn) but my total weight lifted increases every week but he doesn't take me all the way to failure he adjusts weights each set ( i never know what i'm lifting) to get me through the full ten sets without activatelyvthe pain in my right shoulder.
anyway we're almost done with this type of training depresses then he's gonna put me in something else.
i just do as i'm told.
get back to eating a whole food diet
my man you are going to go where you want to go in this thing but it starts with diet #1
bro lots of dudes on here got good physique you can be next we believe in you
these logs are awesome!
right now i just want a custard filled maple donut
i have all the flavors stored in my head
Just stay the course you will get there
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you look amazing, you stay positive bro @purry , many of us have body image issue, thats why we here right? lol
we all pinning gear because of itdont worry EVO family supports you and loves you come to us and share more
i'd like to get my arms shoulders and back to be more like your though. i'm getting wider but still have a ways. i'm get back definition but not quite enough and my arms are getting there but everybody knows no i matter how big arms get it's never enough
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This week is off to weird start.
i'm going to my "i did something wrong so now he hates me" head space cuz i didn't get a text from fwb even though we had the best time last week
and eve though i know better cuz i go through this every week. then " my husband hates me"
then i switch shifts with ranesha so i can have sunday off for https://www.folsomstreet.org/photos
folsom street fair
and then wound up on mandatory overtime and didn't get home till 7a the next morning ( 16 hour shift) couldn't sleep. stayed up all the next day. then got upset about still not hearing from fwb. so went to the city and had lunch with my other boy who's moving back to LA so that took me out of my mood. then went home and took a low dose of mushrooms to elevate and cancel my mood but it backfired and i went more into anxiety and started feeling guilty about every imaginary thing and things i did 15 or 20 years ago. then i was crying because im afraid trump will win and round up my husband ina camp and deport him to back to guatemala.
then felt guilty about being a terrible husband. and called my other friend to talk me down plus texted my therapist after hours ( and then had to have my trainer talk me down again this morning. i wake up every day thinking i'm getting fired.
needless to say all these mental gymnastics i go through every day make it harder to manage my diet. The adhd has gotten so bad it's parslyzing sometimes. it literally took an army of four people
.. an old friend , a fuck boy, a therapist and a personal trainer.... to get me back on an even keel and i'm still checking my text every 30 minutes to see if fwb is there.
no wonder i always feel exhausted..
that said even when im tired i know the one thing i need most is to show up for gym session.
i dont want to treat the adhd cuz i dont want to take any more stuff i cant keep track of the meds and supplements as it is i dont need to add more.
i dont know if anyone here has it but its so much more than losing focus or being hyper.
it's inside your head where so many thoughts happen so much at the same time and soon so fast you have to lay down and can't move.
ok here's todays gym. we did ( i don't know all the names ) flys leaning stomach down on the bench ( back) and fly laying back ( pec) backward lunges
front squats
i'm going to my "i did something wrong so now he hates me" head space cuz i didn't get a text from fwb even though we had the best time last week
and eve though i know better cuz i go through this every week. then " my husband hates me"
then i switch shifts with ranesha so i can have sunday off for https://www.folsomstreet.org/photos
folsom street fair
and then wound up on mandatory overtime and didn't get home till 7a the next morning ( 16 hour shift) couldn't sleep. stayed up all the next day. then got upset about still not hearing from fwb. so went to the city and had lunch with my other boy who's moving back to LA so that took me out of my mood. then went home and took a low dose of mushrooms to elevate and cancel my mood but it backfired and i went more into anxiety and started feeling guilty about every imaginary thing and things i did 15 or 20 years ago. then i was crying because im afraid trump will win and round up my husband ina camp and deport him to back to guatemala.
then felt guilty about being a terrible husband. and called my other friend to talk me down plus texted my therapist after hours ( and then had to have my trainer talk me down again this morning. i wake up every day thinking i'm getting fired.
needless to say all these mental gymnastics i go through every day make it harder to manage my diet. The adhd has gotten so bad it's parslyzing sometimes. it literally took an army of four people
.. an old friend , a fuck boy, a therapist and a personal trainer.... to get me back on an even keel and i'm still checking my text every 30 minutes to see if fwb is there.
no wonder i always feel exhausted..
that said even when im tired i know the one thing i need most is to show up for gym session.
i dont want to treat the adhd cuz i dont want to take any more stuff i cant keep track of the meds and supplements as it is i dont need to add more.
i dont know if anyone here has it but its so much more than losing focus or being hyper.
it's inside your head where so many thoughts happen so much at the same time and soon so fast you have to lay down and can't move.
ok here's todays gym. we did ( i don't know all the names ) flys leaning stomach down on the bench ( back) and fly laying back ( pec) backward lunges
front squats
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i'm getting wider but still have a ways. i'm get back definition but not quite enough and my arms are getting there but everybody knows no i matter how big arms get it's never enough
noticed even with overtime you pushed the training, i like the back spread very tight and your back getting wider @SFDom415 clearly results
and bis SUPER pumped, you're impressive
how about the hgh did you get the script?
i got a letter today from some provider who assists with the prescription process so everything is still pending.
there's really nothing wrong. i go thru it in my head. every time. then realize i'm imagining things, then i'm sure that will be the last time i freak out. then it just sets i again. my brain is wired this way. it's exhausting.
Chemin de Fer
( i was guessing any european knows that is )
@SFDom415 would suggest you to do do yoga and meditation daily.........
That is tough to go through man. You can literally just keep talking yourself in circles. Hoping this gets better for you. On the texting anxiety......any reason you can't just text him instead of waiting?
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send them a letter saying you need it, you have issues with recovery, sleep and you're not feeling like your muscles and tendons recover fast enough, you really need hgh @SFDom415
i do text him. but sometimes it's a week or more before i hear back.
my trainer ( who trains both of us ) said it's because he's there who won't let others know when he's overwhelmed
i wish he would dump his bad days on me im here to help. his home situation is overwhelming. he told me im his only friend he had to have fun with an the only person giving hi sex ( and this ends lives sex like craZy)
and i fact in four months he's never mentioned any friends. just endless family obligations and a sexless husband who expects him to have all the cores done even when he was recovering fro
surgery.
for me a week seems like a month with no text.
but our situation is what it is. comes with the territory.
how about making your own Donuts if you must have them
bro I'm the dumbest redneck on the planet but even I can cook not hard
there is a lot of Mind Games with men I know because I'm sick of dating them lol
i was gonna order a mini donut maker but i'm afraid i'll go crazy and make them all the time lol.
m thinking about making some oatmeal raisin cookies and just cut the sugar in half tho
i really need to get back the fasting walks
i've just run out of nearby nice places
i'm pretty sure you're not dumb cuz you're too funny and that requires brains and everyone in the south can cook.
i don't have the patience and i don't know how to season food.
i can cook a medium rare new york steak with some pepper n garlic salt
i can make eggs scrambled or over easy.
otherwise i just open cans jars and boxes
i wanna try your biscuits and gravy
our kitchen range has a air fryer built in and the employee break room has one.
it's really the seasonings i don't get right.
i mean im not gong to make good soup.
and my answer to chicken is to dump a bottle of bbq sauce on it when i eat it.
i do like to make pancakes in the middle of the night lol but i use an instant mix.
i'm going to post this against my better judgment
but you all know i'm weird so whatever
im suppose to start writing but can't focus long enough to get thoughts together. finally i landed on this about my recent fwb starting from our first meeting at bar
terrible sappy poetry but at least i got something on paper. eventually i'm suppose write a book about something.
from jr hi to college several instructors took me aside and told me i should be a writer as a career. and i had a plan to work in hollywood. but i had bills to pay so those dreams get put aside.
now my previous and current therapists both pushing me to start writing again. it's just hard to focus on a thought. so i broke the ice with this somewhat hacky tripe but its the first step.
but you all know i'm weird so whatever
im suppose to start writing but can't focus long enough to get thoughts together. finally i landed on this about my recent fwb starting from our first meeting at bar
terrible sappy poetry but at least i got something on paper. eventually i'm suppose write a book about something.
from jr hi to college several instructors took me aside and told me i should be a writer as a career. and i had a plan to work in hollywood. but i had bills to pay so those dreams get put aside.
now my previous and current therapists both pushing me to start writing again. it's just hard to focus on a thought. so i broke the ice with this somewhat hacky tripe but its the first step.
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@SFDom415 writing seems interesting man
not sure but in your case something to do with your lifestyle would work
yeh as soon i i start to think of topics the adhd kicks in and i can't land on a single thought.@SFDom415 writing seems interesting man
all thoughts happen at the same time and everything freezes.
but whatever. The most important t thingis that i have stuck with the training, gotten so much stronger and look so much better.
whatever's in your head gets cleared once you're sweating and sore and can't breathe lol
bought lots of meats and proteins at the store today 93% lean ground turkey has become a staple in our house now because it's versatile and it's a lot of protein for a reasonable price
i got four more pounds of ground turkey 93%
i got two of those hot pre roasted chickens and brought one to work to just munch on all day
got a couple new york steaks and some frozen salmon and cod fish.
i didn't even get close to trimming down for the fair tomorrow i'm still bloated and watery but who cares when so many other are way less in shape than me anyway.
meanwhile i finally heard from my pretty sparkle face turns out he's dealing with a husbands mental health crisis poor guy he's so seeet and giving and always buried in so much responsibility. i know he's exhausted. but he lived what i wrote for him and said no one has every said anything like that to him in his life.
. then he lectured me about being insecure. we're all good.so im going to start my fasting walks again
get my protein
and add one bonus solo day a week at planet.
no more anxiety stress.
now i'm gonna remove that poem post before everyone thinks ima weirdo.
Happens sometimes youre looking goood though bro!
Stay the course!!!!!
yeh as soon i i start to think of topics the adhd kicks in and i can't land on a single thought.
all thoughts happen at the same time and everything freezes.
but whatever. The most important t thingis that i have stuck with the training, gotten so much stronger and look so much better.
whatever's in your head gets cleared once you're sweating and sore and can't breathe lol
bought lots of meats and proteins at the store today 93% lean ground turkey has become a staple in our house now because it's versatile and it's a lot of protein for a reasonable price
i got four more pounds of ground turkey 93%
i got two of those hot pre roasted chickens and brought one to work to just munch on all day
got a couple new york steaks and some frozen salmon and cod fish.
i didn't even get close to trimming down for the fair tomorrow i'm still bloated and watery but who cares when so many other are way less in shape than me anyway.
meanwhile i finally heard from my pretty sparkle face turns out he's dealing with a husbands mental health crisis poor guy he's so seeet and giving and always buried in so much responsibility. i know he's exhausted. but he lived what i wrote for him and said no one has every said anything like that to him in his life.
so im going to start my fasting walks again
get my protein
and add one bonus solo day a week at planet.
no more anxiety stress.
now i'm gonna remove that poem post before everyone thinks ima weirdo.
@SFDom415 good protein mix with chicken and turkey
you can do it lets push it
Made my session today even though i partied yesterday ( not a lot just a moderate shroom does, it's actually very therapeutic )
also i'm going to eat these vegetables today so if my body goes into shock and i die it'll be from the vegetables being so unfamiliar.
i can see my body really taking shape now even with my belly bloaties i m seeing things i'm happy with. it's just weird that i look good in pics but not when i look in the mirror
i didn't eat much yesterday and went from 193 back to 189. so clearly i'm just holding a lot of water from the sugars and things i'm eating but i'm back on track
also i'm going to eat these vegetables today so if my body goes into shock and i die it'll be from the vegetables being so unfamiliar.
i can see my body really taking shape now even with my belly bloaties i m seeing things i'm happy with. it's just weird that i look good in pics but not when i look in the mirror
i didn't eat much yesterday and went from 193 back to 189. so clearly i'm just holding a lot of water from the sugars and things i'm eating but i'm back on track
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thats dedication, you did train even when partying , you're hardcoreMade my session today even though i partied yesterday ( not a lot just a moderate shroom does, it's actually very therapeutic )
also i'm going to eat these vegetables today so if my body goes into shock and i die it'll be from the vegetables being so unfamiliar.
i can see my body really taking shape now even with my belly bloaties i m seeing things i'm happy with. it's just weird that i look good in pics but not when i look in the mirror
i didn't eat much yesterday and went from 193 back to 189. so clearly i'm just holding a lot of water from the sugars and things i'm eating but i'm back on track
the real deal @SFDom415
i barely drink any more and i've stayed away from drugs for a while and instead i keep some mushroom capsules on had ( they are legal in san francisco and oakland as part of church. as they are used for either micro dose therapy or guided insight sessions. i use a light dose. it's beneficial and , doesn't last too long and has no side effects no hangover etc .thats dedication, you did train even when partying , you're hardcore
i'm watery but i've been eating bread and processed food and sugar ( too much apple juice )
but this week i'm cutting it out to see if i can get back to 185-188
my shoulder pain ( some kind of bicep tendinitis thing is just a pain in the ass. it really interferes
i'm considering a steroid shot. i've used the for other things and it's worked with just one shot
i'll think about it
mushrooms is perfect for you, helps with micro dosing and calming down @SFDom415
well done on the switch bro
good job on the conditioning that's what you want
Nice to see things on track! Keep getting those veggies in.
sometimes it hard to see results because it happens slowly but now i see done definite size and shape changes.
i dont know how much is the drugs and how much is the lifting.
the missing piece a is a consistent diet.
and that will always be difficult.
i will add more veg. they are frozen not fresh it it's better than nothing
we agreed to stop buying most of the fresh fruit and veg because we forget to eat and the go bad and i can't afford to throw away food
but frozen veg is fine
@SFDom415 Looking good brotherMade my session today even though i partied yesterday ( not a lot just a moderate shroom does, it's actually very therapeutic )
also i'm going to eat these vegetables today so if my body goes into shock and i die it'll be from the vegetables being so unfamiliar.
i can see my body really taking shape now even with my belly bloaties i m seeing things i'm happy with. it's just weird that i look good in pics but not when i look in the mirror
i didn't eat much yesterday and went from 193 back to 189. so clearly i'm just holding a lot of water from the sugars and things i'm eating but i'm back on track
can you repeat the instructions on what i'm suppose to do now that i have the supplement sample?@SFDom415 Looking good brother
i'm a suppose to make a new thread and do what? review it? or?
Not a fan of the drug use but you do you
it's not for everyone. for me it has some sexual benefits ( and it's probably much healthier than the drawer full of prescriptions i have. it's also need effective at keeping me away from bad drugs and diminishing my taste for alcohol.
according to my previous therapist the research is showing that this plant actually helps regenerate the worn synapses in your brain stilmutes new cell growth.
think of your iphone charger you know how the end out covering starts to get frayed and the wires start to show and the connection gets sketchy.
that's what happens to you brain connect tons as you get old. they just wear out
memory dementia etc etc
of course i'm taking more than a therapeutic micro dose.
but larger trip dosing can be beneficial.
i actually had a insight going home sunday that put me back i the present and made me aware of why i'm living here. it was just an " oh yeh" moment. snapped me out of my negative rut.
of course back in the 80s we'd trip much harder on them. i've had several very memorable out of body experiences .. which is odd for an atheist , but i have never forgotten those . i still think about them.
I hear alot of people microdose shrooms. Just have to be careful and not overdo it.
for sure mushrooms help regenerate the brain @SFDom415 thats stuff is magicit's not for everyone. for me it has some sexual benefits ( and it's probably much healthier than the drawer full of prescriptions i have. it's also need effective at keeping me away from bad drugs and diminishing my taste for alcohol.
according to my previous therapist the research is showing that this plant actually helps regenerate the worn synapses in your brain stilmutes new cell growth.
think of your iphone charger you know how the end out covering starts to get frayed and the wires start to show and the connection gets sketchy.
that's what happens to you brain connect tons as you get old. they just wear out
memory dementia etc etc
of course i'm taking more than a therapeutic micro dose.
but larger trip dosing can be beneficial.
i actually had a insight going home sunday that put me back i the present and made me aware of why i'm living here. it was just an " oh yeh" moment. snapped me out of my negative rut.
of course back in the 80s we'd trip much harder on them. i've had several very memorable out of body experiences .. which is odd for an atheist , but i have never forgotten those . i still think about them.
i haven't officially started a micro dose regimen on my own or with therapy guidance but i plan too.
in the meantime though it's a very good alternative to other social drugs and drinks.
no side effects easy to dose at a social level ( very mild euphoria and good for an afternoon in the park or waking the beach or pool party etc.
alcohol damages your brain even in small amounts.
@SFDom415 you should start asap you dont need doc, im sure easy to get there
dont worry , you'll get the hang of it
i just use air fryer
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i didn't die.
progress is good but im bloated and fat - diet and stress.
and of course after this week i have nothing but disdain contemp and unadulterated hatred for this american garbage dump.
but, things are great, going to vallarta in feb with the fwb so i have 16 weeks to tighten up with chicken brocolli and rice i guess ( and im gonna do a winny stack the 6 weeks prior) going back the trenny bo benny next just to add some crazy mood for fun. ( because crazy is a necessary part of living with these people)
and good news we have worked out a shared training session ( me and fwb) that will save me 425 bucks a month.
i'll be 60 this month. eeeek i guess i look pretty good for 60 considering the attention i been getting.
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nice to see you back man and I hear ya across the board. stay strong
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i didn't die.
progress is good but im bloated and fat - diet and stress.
and of course after this week i have nothing but disdain contemp and unadulterated hatred for this american garbage dump.
but, things are great, going to vallarta in feb with the fwb so i have 16 weeks to tighten up with chicken brocolli and rice i guess ( and im gonna do a winny stack the 6 weeks prior) going back the trenny bo benny next just to add some crazy mood for fun. ( because crazy is a necessary part of living with these people)
and good news we have worked out a shared training session ( me and fwb) that will save me 425 bucks a month.
i'll be 60 this month. eeeek i guess i look pretty good for 60 considering the attention i been getting.
good to hear you are saving some $$$. i train with people same way and get in free as guests lol. i hate monthly payments
@SFDom415 happy to have you back man
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i didn't die.
progress is good but im bloated and fat - diet and stress.
and of course after this week i have nothing but disdain contemp and unadulterated hatred for this american garbage dump.
but, things are great, going to vallarta in feb with the fwb so i have 16 weeks to tighten up with chicken brocolli and rice i guess ( and im gonna do a winny stack the 6 weeks prior) going back the trenny bo benny next just to add some crazy mood for fun. ( because crazy is a necessary part of living with these people)
and good news we have worked out a shared training session ( me and fwb) that will save me 425 bucks a month.
i'll be 60 this month. eeeek i guess i look pretty good for 60 considering the attention i been getting.
we missed yousaving cash thats legit man
and you looking great for 60
you training yourself?
Stop being so hard on yourself dude.
Good to hear from you!
Hello
i didn't die.
progress is good but im bloated and fat - diet and stress.
and of course after this week i have nothing but disdain contemp and unadulterated hatred for this american garbage dump.
but, things are great, going to vallarta in feb with the fwb so i have 16 weeks to tighten up with chicken brocolli and rice i guess ( and im gonna do a winny stack the 6 weeks prior) going back the trenny bo benny next just to add some crazy mood for fun. ( because crazy is a necessary part of living with these people)
and good news we have worked out a shared training session ( me and fwb) that will save me 425 bucks a month.
i'll be 60 this month. eeeek i guess i look pretty good for 60 considering the attention i been getting.
yep. i do keep my planet membership cuz it's only 24 bucks and the tanning alone is worth more than that. but i dknt have to pay for my work out space cuz dan has use of two crossfit spaces ( in between classes)
so i basically get a free private gym in fact im so spoiled that i get irritated if someone else is in there i want my gym and my dan all to myself ( plus my
fwb is there and we can 
) 
meanwhile i'm being mean to all my customers cuz i hate everybody
but i look good
60 th birthday this month having a party here. https://yelp.to/jeMtC9G8WJ
then i start counting backwards from here.
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keep the membership, thats smart bro @SFDom415 good to have you back in the EVO family big playayep. i do keep my planet membership cuz it's only 24 bucks and the tanning alone is worth more than that. but i dknt have to pay for my work out space cuz dan has use of two crossfit spaces ( in between classes)
so i basically get a free private gym in fact im so spoiled that i get irritated if someone else is in there i want my gym and my dan all to myself ( plus my
meanwhile i'm being mean to all my customers cuz i hate everybody
but i look good
60 th birthday this month having a party here. https://yelp.to/jeMtC9G8WJ
then i start counting backwards from here.
want to see you go into training yourself, and start some meal prep too
big Bday coming i see it
hey!@SFDom415 happy to have you back man
saving cash thats legit man
and you looking great for 60
you training yourself?
no im still with Dan but he made a deal so me and my fwb --- since we used to train back to back --- 1030-1130 and 1130-1230 are going to train together and share the hour and sit the cost so we each save about 425 a month.
we did a couple trial runs to see if it would work ... and he came up with a circuit that meets both our goals ( plus i get yo spend three hours a week with my
!next big goal is just be in top shape for vallarta feb 18-25 so that's like 14 weeks then
The hardest part of all this is being consistent with the little things like remembering the fiber supplements etc.
i'll do a few days then i just forget.
but those little things are what make the most difference.
i think everything looks really solid now except the belly of course. i gave def made gains. arms shoulders traps etc my whole body aside from the bloated belly-- feels solid and hard and strong.
yes i know . diet.
@SFDom415 consistency is always hardest bro
for your age you actually look VERY solidi think everything looks really solid now except the belly of course. i gave def made gains. arms shoulders traps etc my whole body aside from the bloated belly-- feels solid and hard and strong.
yes i know . diet.
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