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[LPinned]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

 

[LPinned]

The first pic was Me about 3 years ago and pretty much how I looked when I went to jail this year at the end of June, the next couple of pictures were early this week, one was before a 36hour DRY FAST and then after the dry fast. So really I have had a solid transformation since June this year and really looking forward to my testosterone cycle.
Definitely want to try Equipoise anavar and masteron after listening to the podcasts but I just wanna see what testosterone is like and do it cleanly and disciplined considering my symptoms I'm trying to learn my body as much as I can.

Thoughts?

Thanks for taking your time to read my shit lol

 

[LPinned]

Here's some of the food I eat aswell very simple meat and eggs lol

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Great work bro! Welcome to Evo.

You'll definitely find what you're looking for here bro. @Life-Forge is on the forum too, I personally vouch for that guy and been using him and @AuStarLabs from the very start. I get testosterone from @AuStarLabs now but I've also had the @Life-Forge test e drug tested and used the whole bottle I had. I get retatrutide from @Life-Forge but I was fat when I joined, despite being carnivore, but that was because every few days I'd eat two family sized blocks of chocolate which isn't very carnivore at all.

But if you're already on the every other day fasting then you're way ahead of where I am. Reading through the studies @stevesmi has in his fasting log in his signature were great in addition to the podcast talking about it. That's way more badass than taking clenbuterol and shit bro, shit like that has no power to reshape your life and behaviours. Your food pics are sweet too and you yourself have a great base to work from bro, you saw what 7 weeks of testosterone and dieting did to me, imagine what's going to happen to you...

Did you do anything else apart from the 1000 push-ups? That's atcually really cool you dropped 10kg in three months, that's the same amount I lost in that 7 weeks of retatrutide & testosterone.

Have you considered leaving that town when you get off bail? When I flat-lined and had to return from Australia I went back to Christchurch which had transformed into like a third world grade ghetto after the earthquake and there I had one of my breif stints as a crackhead since they're not classy enough to use smack down there anymore. Christchurch was like a counter culture hub in the 90s, it's sad that's all gone. I was living with a hooker who sold meth too, that she got from biker gangs.

Definitely the best thing I did was to spend the rest of my money on my first van, moved to Wellington and signed up for the dole haha. Still took another two years before I atcually went and got detoxed at the hospital but I wouldn't have done that at all if I'd stayed down there.

I don't think there's anything to gain for you being near all those people anymore. I'd recommend moving and forgetting about them all together and moving on with your life. Else they'll keep dragging you down onto their bullshit and that'll really hinder your self development. Plus with the way you're gonna be looking you'll be able to take your pick and get a normal girlfriend.

For your mental health and shit too, it'll become important. You gotta watch you don't start sliding backwards. I don't know about you but I always fucked things in when everything was going good, I'd get a problem half way solved then create ten more to celebrate. I spent 7 years relapsing after first joining AA in 2016, but I though I had it solved right away.

You've done really well staying clean after jail tho bro, but it would be so easy to go back right There's tons of former addicts here and lifting and even gear is a big part of our recovery. For me I used a combination of 12 step programs (AA) medication (take methadone and antabuse after detox) and spiritual pursuits/meditation, and diet changes, lifting and testosterone especially but gear in general also.

I'm new to this too but the testosterone was the big thing I was missing, it really hindered how much the 12 steps helped me, everything seemed half assed and seemed to get worse.

I've been on methadone over three years now, first year I was still drinking, next two my low testosterone symptoms got progressively worse and my life got smaller until this year when I left the girlfriend at the start of the year and was gonna go work on things but instead did an aggressive methadone taper and was bed ridden for the 4 cold months, just used to lie in my broken down SUV and stare at the roof. Couldn't stand up in that one. During this time I was listening to the podcast all day too, did a year of this.

But really it was here on Evo and beginning to log where everything started coming together. There's other guys who had already figured out this combo for recovery, like check out @HarleyGuy for example, his story is on Page 10 of his log and there's also several interviews with him on the podcast, he's a good example of addiction recovery through lifting & gear.

Think you covered everything thanks bro, when @LevButlerov gets in he'll make this offically your log but nice work on this and I look forward to getting to know you.

Also if you want to link to someone stick at @ sign in front of their name.

 

[Life-Forge]

The first pic was Me about 3 years ago and pretty much how I looked when I went to jail this year at the end of June, the next couple of pictures were early this week, one was before a 36hour DRY FAST and then after the dry fast. So really I have had a solid transformation since June this year and really looking forward to my testosterone cycle.
Definitely want to try Equipoise anavar and masteron after listening to the podcasts but I just wanna see what testosterone is like and do it cleanly and disciplined considering my symptoms I'm trying to learn my body as much as I can.

Thoughts?

Thanks for taking your time to read my shit lol

That's a great transformation dude. It's a great forum for us people with rough histories. Look forward to seeing you reach the sky

 

[s.gentz]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

Welcome to EVO Bro!!!

 

[LevButlerov]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

welcome fully to the EVO family @Joel Gibbons you look good in the pics, strong! solid frame and you clearly rebuilt fast after everything you went through.
1st cycle should not be 500, a clean 300mg test e/week is the right starting point for you and it will give you steady strength, better energy.

Your carnivore meals look solid and heavy on eggs and meat thats perfect, we need to have high protein.

I realize you're on a budget, but any digestive supps?
supplements
what digestive supps you use?
digestive enzymes?
multis?
probiotics?
psyllium husk?

did you download our eBooks?
https://irongorillas.com

The first pic was Me about 3 years ago and pretty much how I looked when I went to jail this year at the end of June, the next couple of pictures were early this week, one was before a 36hour DRY FAST and then after the dry fast. So really I have had a solid transformation since June this year and really looking forward to my testosterone cycle.
Definitely want to try Equipoise anavar and masteron after listening to the podcasts but I just wanna see what testosterone is like and do it cleanly and disciplined considering my symptoms I'm trying to learn my body as much as I can.

Thoughts?

Thanks for taking your time to read my shit lol

Here's some of the food I eat aswell very simple meat and eggs lol

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

 

[Dreamer]

The first pic was Me about 3 years ago and pretty much how I looked when I went to jail this year at the end of June, the next couple of pictures were early this week, one was before a 36hour DRY FAST and then after the dry fast. So really I have had a solid transformation since June this year and really looking forward to my testosterone cycle.
Definitely want to try Equipoise anavar and masteron after listening to the podcasts but I just wanna see what testosterone is like and do it cleanly and disciplined considering my symptoms I'm trying to learn my body as much as I can.

Thoughts?

Thanks for taking your time to read my shit lol

You are already looking good, well done, you have a very interesting story too, to mirror what Lev has said, I would start lower with your test and see how you react, aim to use the maximal amount without needing an AI, you will be suprised how much that will do anyway.

 

[LPinned]

Thanks fellas appreciate it , I think I rebuilt quite quickly due to muscle memory possibly?? I was actually in real good shape when I was 25ish, also lev I have a multi every morning, I have magnesium glycinate before bed x3 and I drink apple cider vinegar and lemon juice water 30min before every meal I have no digestion issues

 

[LPinned]

 

[LPinned]

@Life-Forge with the goods

 

[LevButlerov]

Thanks fellas appreciate it , I think I rebuilt quite quickly due to muscle memory possibly?? I was actually in real good shape when I was 25ish, also lev I have a multi every morning, I have magnesium glycinate before bed x3 and I drink apple cider vinegar and lemon juice water 30min before every meal I have no digestion issues

please @LevButlerov me so I know you talking to me @Joel Gibbons
can you post your supplement stack pic please

 

[LevButlerov]

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gear looks good

 

[LPinned]

please @LevButlerov me so I know you talking to me @Joel Gibbons
can you post your supplement stack pic please

sorry will do brother, new to this

 

[LPinned]

 

[LevButlerov]

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Looks good missing probiotics digestive enzymes and psyllium husk @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

Looks good missing probiotics digestive enzymes and psyllium husk @Joel Gibbons

Will get on to those my bro! Thank u for the advice man

 

[waggat]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

Hey mate, thanks for sharing your background in so much detail with us!

It looks like you're on the right track now! Diet is looking good too.

Hopefully they let you hit the gym more than three times a week soon. You can also do some stuff at home as well like push ups, lunges, planks etc.

Really look forward to seeing your progress going forward!

 

[LPinned]

Hey mate, thanks for sharing your background in so much detail with us!

It looks like you're on the right track now! Diet is looking good too.

Hopefully they let you hit the gym more than three times a week soon. You can also do some stuff at home as well like push ups, lunges, planks etc.

Really look forward to seeing your progress going forward!

Thanks my man! That's exactly what I do man, iv got 3 chairs setup in my room so I can do deep stretch press ups, I have a 16kg kettle bell, and few dumb bells and couple of smash balls, I have a pretty decent workout routine I do with all of them on the days I can't go to the gym. I'm hoping from next Wednesday (sentencing) I'll move to night time cerfuw so I'll be going to the gym 5 times a week , thanks for commenting mate appreciate it

 

[LevButlerov]

Will get on to those my bro! Thank u for the advice man

please do a take a picture when you have them

 

[Mobster]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

Thank you for the mention.

As per similar logs and podcasts you're now ready to change and push forward - let's fking go!!

 

[R.AP]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

Hey bro. First of all hello from across the water (Aussie here). My misso is a Kiwi and we're planning on doing an NZ trip soon.

Thanks for taking the time to type all of this up. Not an easy write I'm sure. Being a recent dad myself reading the first part of your story hit hard. What a journey.

Excited to see how it all turns out for you bro.

Have you experience with PED's before? Have you run 500mg in the past? Might be a better way to approach this for you bro. Feel free to reach out <3

 

[stevesmi]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

@Joel Gibbons my man i'm sorry about this. it sounds like you both were NOT good to each other in some ways. her with the cheating and you with the substance abuse. sounds like in the end it was a learning experience for both of you

 

[LPinned]

@Joel Gibbons my man i'm sorry about this. it sounds like you both were NOT good to each other in some ways. her with the cheating and you with the substance abuse. sounds like in the end it was a learning experience for both of you

Your 100% right bro, so for now and probably for some time, my full attention is on me, getting me as fit and as healthy as I can be, and as happy as I can be with my self, I have never had a chance to do that so now is my opportunity to really send it

 

[LPinned]

Hey bro. First of all hello from across the water (Aussie here). My misso is a Kiwi and we're planning on doing an NZ trip soon.

Thanks for taking the time to type all of this up. Not an easy write I'm sure. Being a recent dad myself reading the first part of your story hit hard. What a journey.

Excited to see how it all turns out for you bro.

Have you experience with PED's before? Have you run 500mg in the past? Might be a better way to approach this for you bro. Feel free to reach out <3

Thank you my bro! Your welcome. And yeah loosing 'I say my girl' with out being able to do anything about it was the hardest thing iv ever had to deal with, it literally almost killed me, she allowed me to keep seeing her for 6 or so months after wards a couple times a week, that got harder and harder as time went on coz she always came running at me with arms open big smile on her face but as time went on I was becoming a stranger to her and I had to cut it off for my own mental health ay

 

[LPinned]

Thank you for the mention.

As per similar logs and podcasts you're now ready to change and push forward - let's fking go!!

Your welcome! Let's fukn go!!! Cheers buddy love your guys work man the podcasts honestly make my days so much more manageable! Learning so much, u an @stevesmi are legends

 

[LPinned]

Resting heart rate is finally in the 50's!!! I'm super happy about that, when I got out of jail my resting heart rate was in the high 80s iv really tried focusing on that since being out of jail so that makes me happy. Looking forward to smashing a mean work out at The gym today

 

[2Thick]

Your 100% right bro, so for now and probably for some time, my full attention is on me, getting me as fit and as healthy as I can be, and as happy as I can be with my self, I have never had a chance to do that so now is my opportunity to really send it

work on yourself as you are doing in this log. and once you get strong as fuck. then you can find a woman who is also strong as fuck to be with @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

work on yourself as you are doing in this log. and once you get strong as fuck. then you can find a woman who is also strong as fuck to be with @Joel Gibbons

Hardout! Thanks my man

 

[LPinned]

Hey guys is it normal to put on 1.5kg in the first 18hours of injecting ? Genuine question @LevButlerov @stevesmi

 

[Ulter]

Alright , I have been asked/recommended to by Vanlife_gymbum to start a log on my life and the journey I am on and have been on , alot of life has happened so it's hard to narrow it down to put in a post but heres my effort haha, I guess I'll start with my stats:

Age 35
Weight 71kg
Recovering meth , alcohol addict (15 years)
Carnivore
Faster
178cm tall
BF - around 13-15% I think (unsure)
Live in New Zealand
Training - Monday, Wednesday, Saturday

QUICK-ISH LIFE RUN DOWN

Ok this is where it's hard to know where to start lol. I have trained on and off from the ages of 15-24, nothing ever very structured, But I have also been a severe drug and alcohol addict since the age of 18, particularly Meth and spirits (whisky and bourbon).
Sorry this may seem like a long-ish description but it's sorta necessary to be able to explain my (what I think is low testosterone symptoms).

RELATIONSHIPS

So all through my 20s I was in a 9 year relationship, which who I bought a house with when I was 27 with who I thought was the love of my life. Around when I bought the house me and my ex partner started seriously thinking and wondering why she has never become pregnant. Was a random thought at the time coz we both had never talked about it but we sorta both clicked at the same time and both thought it was weird.
So I always hid my severe drug use from my partner, I was a full time mechanic, still held a solid job even with drug use I was very functional even tho I very rarely slept, and was still able to hide it very well.

Back to the pregnancy issue, In my head I put it down to my drug and alcohol use, but we went to family planning and I had to jizz in a cup and long story short , I'm infertile, well around 90% infertile.
When I was younger (4 years old) I had a undescended testicle (my right one) , 4 years old is very late for my mother to have noticed, they told me that this is more then likely the cause for very low sperm quality.
Then in my late 20s I got a hernia deep in my abdomen somewhere, which was causing stomach fluid to drain in to (my left one) which over a year made it swell up to 2-3x the size of my right one, ended up having to get my BALL cut open and them put mesh into it to stop the fluid draining into it. These two surgeries I'm blaming for my life long low testosterone symptoms, and obviously my infertility...
Back to that relationship....
Long story short, 3 months after I find out I only have a 5-10% chance of having a kid , I get home from work one day and my partner tells me she's pregnant... remember I'm on meth constantly so at the time I was dumb and just believed it must of been mine, we had been together 8 years at this point.
At 8 months pregnant someone finally had the balls to tell me that the child is not mine, it fukn broke my heart.
She admitted everything, promised me this and that etc told me the *dad* (who was a mate of mine) didn't know it was his , didn't want anything to do with it blah blah blah, so being in my position, being infertile, and quite frankly Fukn stupid, I took the baby on as my own but honestly it felt like the right thing to do atm, I have a heart of gold honestly but I get taken advantage of.
I went to the birth, gave her my last name, I WAS THE DAD (in my eyes) told everyone she was mine etc etc, even tho we all knew she wasn't.
So I was the dad for 2 years , I did everything for that girl I fukn loved her with all my heart, it definitely lowered my drug and alcohol abuse, I was dedicated to her, I get home from work one day to my partners things, child's things packed and gone with a note saying she's left me for the (father) because the whole time she was hiding from me that he did actually want something to do with his daughter and he was threatening to go to court etc etc and she thought it was going to be too hard to deal with.
So all of that fukd me up REAL BAD, My meth and alcohol abuse got severe, I lost 2 jobs over it, started selling meth, so much happened. I was around 30 years old here.
2nd relationship
So now I'm 32 in the height of my drug and alcohol abuse, job less, (still own my house, had to buy my ex out of it after what she did to me - $90,000) that hurt, but I get into this relationship, obviously she's a meth addict too and I'm with her 2.5 years, I start doing out the gate shit to get money for meth and food etc and end up in jail the 1st time, only for one month.
Get out of jail on the bracelet, still smoking meth and drinking everyday, constantly fighting with my partner, end up having a fight with her and she goes and stays with her female mate 20min up the road from my house. I'm still on the bracelet at this point, long story short she was supposed to be coming back to my house this night but she kept making excuses until around 2am in the morning I knew something wasn't right. After what happened with my last partner my *cheating* senses are fukn high. I left my house (on the bracelet) which was 24/7 house arrest, went to where she was staying, seen a dudes car out the front, emotional black out happened, heightened by meth and alcohol, smashed the door in and walk in on them fucking. I lost control threw a bottle at her and pulled a knife on him, didnt use it, not proud of bottling her, she only got a bruised leg, but what ever that fukn broke me, he was a meth dealer and obviously I couldn't supply her enough....
So I get arrested and get charged with, breaching my bracelet, assault with a weapon, assault on family relations, possession of offensive weapon, unlawfully enters property and get thrown in prison for 3 months.

So that was at the end of June which actually marks the start of my sobriety.
Iv been out of jail for 2 months. I started doing 1000 press ups throughout the days in jail and pretty much starved my self in there. I went in weighing 85kg and came out at 74kg.

At the moment I am still on electronically monitored bail, with sentencing next week.
When I got out I was hooked on training and stuck to a keto based diet to give me some discipline.
I am now carnivore and have been for 2 months now.
I worked hard trying to get a gym condition while on the bracelet and the courts approved it and iv been going to the gym now for a month. They only approved 3 days a week, Monday Wednesday and Saturday. I'm very fukn consistent with my diet and the gym.

I'm loosing my house and I'm not even aloud to go there coz (it's to close to the victim) but I don't even care I'm doing really fukn well where I am I have honestly never felt better!!!

Um where to go from here....
Pretty much I'm 100% sure my testosterone is almost non existent, from years old drugs an alcohol, minimal sleep for 15 years, and obviously the 2 nut surgerys. Its very hard to get blood tests while being on 24/7 house arrest but I think it's pointless and it's obvious my testosterone Is low, I havnt had a hard on in over 6 months. Never wake up with a boner.

So I have ordered myself a bottle of testosterone enanthate from life_forge and hopefully it turns up today.
with our a word of a lie I listen to evolutionary.org podcasts on Spotify ALL DAY EVERYDAY at the moment, I think iv listened to around 70% of all of them. There's so many cycles that stevesmi and mobster have mentioned that I would love to try but I think with my situation and my symptoms I'm just going to stick with testosterone for 12 weeks for my first cycle.

Cycle plan
Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

Then I plan on TRT afterwards, I do hate that but iv come to the conclusion I need it. I'm already infertile and have definite low test symptoms.

Diet and fasting
I at the moment for the last 3 weeks have been water fasting every other day
So I'm very consistent with my carnivore diet too, on my feeding day I don't count calories but I generally stick to 10-15 pasture raised eggs a day, 500-800grams rump steak a day, 500grams chicken breast a day and only drink salted water and a quality electrolyte drink.

What I plan on getting out of this....
So I'm trying to Recomp, I want to get up to 78kg (71kg now) and I wanna get below 10% body fat.

Let me know what u guys think. I'll post up some pictures after this post coz I'm terrified I'm going to press something wrong and loose this entire post lol

Thanks fellas I love this forum

your stories are quite good. but it doesn't top my wife's death off a balcony in jamaica. @Joel Gibbons they tried to charge me with murder even though my wife jumped on her own. i had nothing to do it with !

 

[ceo]

Thanks my man! That's exactly what I do man, iv got 3 chairs setup in my room so I can do deep stretch press ups, I have a 16kg kettle bell, and few dumb bells and couple of smash balls, I have a pretty decent workout routine I do with all of them on the days I can't go to the gym. I'm hoping from next Wednesday (sentencing) I'll move to night time cerfuw so I'll be going to the gym 5 times a week , thanks for commenting mate appreciate it

@Joel Gibbons Bros. That's very smart. This way you can get in a workout no matter what your situation. No excuses at all.

 

[ROIDDERS]

Hey guys is it normal to put on 1.5kg in the first 18hours of injecting ? Genuine question @LevButlerov @stevesmi

it's probably water weight to be honest. You would be surprised how much your weight can fluctuate during the day. It also depends on if you go to the bathroom or not. @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

This mornings effort!

 

[LPinned]

And my lunch big rump steak and 4 pasture raised eggs

 

[LPinned]

it's probably water weight to be honest. You would be surprised how much your weight can fluctuate during the day. It also depends on if you go to the bathroom or not. @Joel Gibbons

I weigh myself at the same time every morning and have for the last month, always first thing after my first piss and I did nothing different in the last 24hours except my first injection and I was 1.5kg heavier lol

 

[LPinned]

your stories are quite good. but it doesn't top my wife's death off a balcony in jamaica. @Joel Gibbons they tried to charge me with murder even though my wife jumped on her own. i had nothing to do it with !

Ratshit man that must of been a shitty time for sure!!! Sorry that happened

 

[LevButlerov]

Hey guys is it normal to put on 1.5kg in the first 18hours of injecting ? Genuine question @LevButlerov @stevesmi

Yes that can happen in the first day from water and glycogen shifts after the shot. Give it a couple days and it will settle. @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

Yes that can happen in the first day from water and glycogen shifts after the shot. Give it a couple days and it will settle. @Joel Gibbons

Sweet bro thank you @LevButlerov

 

[ROIDDERS]

I weigh myself at the same time every morning and have for the last month, always first thing after my first piss and I did nothing different in the last 24hours except my first injection and I was 1.5kg heavier lol

that is good!

 

[stevesmi]

Your 100% right bro, so for now and probably for some time, my full attention is on me, getting me as fit and as healthy as I can be, and as happy as I can be with my self, I have never had a chance to do that so now is my opportunity to really send it

yes man, it was a disaster waiting to happen. no need to have regrets. be a quality person and you will meet a quality woman

 

[LevButlerov]

Sweet bro thank you @LevButlerov

EVO family love your way @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

Omg I'm looking forward to this after a solid 18H FASTED workout

 

[LPinned]

Gotta love the colour of REAL eggs

 

[LevButlerov]

Omg I'm looking forward to this after a solid 18H FASTED workoutView attachment 141952

Gotta love the colour of REAL eggs View attachment 141955

Eggs and steak post fasted love it! tasty and high protein

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

 

[LPinned]

Eggs and steak post fasted love it! tasty and high protein

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

Bro my body and mind just fucking love steak and eggs seriously, it's almost like a cheat meal every time I eat them with out the guilt and sugar crashes lol

 

[Allupfromhere]

Gotta love the colour of REAL eggs View attachment 141955

A man can never go wrong with steak and eggs for a meal

 

[Dreamer]

Bro my body and mind just fucking love steak and eggs seriously, it's almost like a cheat meal every time I eat them with out the guilt and sugar crashes lol

I love steak and eggs, with some potato wedges on the side even better

 

[rizzlekdizzle]

steak and eggs - natures sauce - I like em runny

 

[vanlife_gymbum]

Resting heart rate is finally in the 50's!!! I'm super happy about that, when I got out of jail my resting heart rate was in the high 80s iv really tried focusing on that since being out of jail so that makes me happy. Looking forward to smashing a mean work out at The gym today View attachment 141843

That's seriously sweet bro. Is that a fit bit you have to monitor heart? I have a Samsung watch my Dad gave me when I first started logging, specifically for that and I have been learning a lot.

I didn't know about resting heart rate at all and was surprised at some of the stuff I learnt from the podcast where they talk about it a bit and lowering that has been an aim of mine too.

Other thing I figured out is if I forget to take my nicotine patches off to go to sleep my sleeping heart rate elevates by 10bpm!!

 

[LPinned]

That's seriously sweet bro. Is that a fit bit you have to monitor heart? I have a Samsung watch my Dad gave me when I first started logging, specifically for that and I have been learning a lot.

I didn't know about resting heart rate at all and was surprised at some of the stuff I learnt from the podcast where they talk about it a bit and lowering that has been an aim of mine too.

Other thing I figured out is if I forget to take my nicotine patches off to go to sleep my sleeping heart rate elevates by 10bpm!!

Yeah man it's a fit bit, it's basic as but does every thing I need it to do, it's seriously a handy thing to have! I have a older Samsung smart watch to that I used today when I worked out but sometimes it struggles to pick up my heart rate so I prefer my fit bit when exercising

 

[Ulter]

Ratshit man that must of been a shitty time for sure!!! Sorry that happened

For sure. That's why I say everybody on here has a past.

 

[LevButlerov]

Bro my body and mind just fucking love steak and eggs seriously, it's almost like a cheat meal every time I eat them with out the guilt and sugar crashes lol

steak and eggs is the love of my life as well @Joel Gibbons

 

[2Thick]

Hardout! Thanks my man

A+++

 

[Life-Forge]

@Life-Forge with the goods

Enjoy man! Great to see you logging. Will learn heaps on here!

 

[LPinned]

Today's job done felt limitless and really strong today, the testosterone starting to do its thing?? Only on day four so that's a genuine question lol I felt slightly more aggressive in the way of lifting if that makes sense

 

[LevButlerov]

Today's job done felt limitless and really strong today, the testosterone starting to do its thing?? Only on day four so that's a genuine question lol I felt slightly more aggressive in the way of lifting if that makes sense

View attachment 142692

testosterone is doing its thing for sure @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

testosterone is doing its thing for sure @Joel Gibbons

Loving this journey @LevButlerov

 

[LPinned]

Bit of lunch prep with @stevesmi special marinade, lime juice, smoked paprika, salt an pepper. I added a few chilli flakes tho

 

[LevButlerov]

Loving this journey @LevButlerov

loving you pushing hard EVO family support your way @Joel Gibbons

Bit of lunch prep with @stevesmi special marinade, lime juice, smoked paprika, salt an pepper. I added a few chilli flakes tho View attachment 142694

nice meal prep

 

[LPinned]

loving you pushing hard EVO family support your way @Joel Gibbons

nice meal prep

Love ur support bro ❤ @LevButlerov appreciate you!

 

[LevButlerov]

Love ur support bro ❤ @LevButlerov appreciate you!

EVO family love your way @Joel Gibbons

 

[LPinned]

My name has been changed fellas, only because of my court situation at the moment and publicly saying I'm on steroids with my legit name probably wasn't The smartest move haha cheers guys

 

[LevButlerov]

My name has been changed fellas, only because of my court situation at the moment and publicly saying I'm on steroids with my legit name probably wasn't The smartest move haha cheers guys

I can confirm @LPinned changed usernames

 

[LPinned]

I can confirm @LPinned changed usernames

Thanks @LevButlerov

 

[LevButlerov]

Thanks @LevButlerov

EVO family support

 

[LPinned]

Just a hard and fast one today fellas, Have my sentencing at court today so had to get back for a shower and a feed before I go, wish me luck haha

 

[LPinned]

Hard and fast chicken and eggs for post workout

 

[LevButlerov]

Just a hard and fast one today fellas, Have my sentencing at court today so had to get back for a shower and a feed before I go, wish me luck haha View attachment 143542

Hard and fast chicken and eggs for post workout View attachment 143551

check and eggs and good training
how did the sentencing go? @LPinned

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

 

[Dreamer]

Hard and fast chicken and eggs for post workout View attachment 143551

That chicken looks unreal man, real nice

 

[Freki]

check and eggs and good training
how did the sentencing go? @LPinned

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

No reply might be spending the night in the big house

 

[LPinned]

check and eggs and good training
how did the sentencing go? @LPinned

@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

sorry for the late reply I was super tired after yesterday I think from being so nervous all day and not getting much sleep the night before because of nerves
I couldn't of asked for a better result at court guys.
I received 6months of (community detention) which is still a electronic bracelet but it's gone from 24/7 to just night time cerfew , so I can go out from 7am to 7pm.
Which now means I can't work!
I can go for more runs.
I can actually go to the super market lol
And of course I can go to the gym more often
I couldn't be happier, finally some freedom!!

 

[waggat]

sorry for the late reply I was super tired after yesterday I think from being so nervous all day and not getting much sleep the night before because of nerves
I couldn't of asked for a better result at court guys.
I received 6months of (community detention) which is still a electronic bracelet but it's gone from 24/7 to just night time cerfew , so I can go out from 7am to 7pm.
Which now means I can't work!
I can go for more runs.
I can actually go to the super market lol
And of course I can go to the gym more often
I couldn't be happier, finally some freedom!!

That's awesome mate! Nice reward for your efforts turning your life around!

 

[LPinned]

That's awesome mate! Nice reward for your efforts turning your life around!

Thank you my man loving this journey

 

[Freki]

sorry for the late reply I was super tired after yesterday I think from being so nervous all day and not getting much sleep the night before because of nerves
I couldn't of asked for a better result at court guys.
I received 6months of (community detention) which is still a electronic bracelet but it's gone from 24/7 to just night time cerfew , so I can go out from 7am to 7pm.
Which now means I can't work!
I can go for more runs.
I can actually go to the super market lol
And of course I can go to the gym more often
I couldn't be happier, finally some freedom!!

Congratulations brother
Keep it up,

 

[LPinned]

Congratulations brother
Keep it up,

Thank you man!

 

[LPinned]

@vanlife_gymbum the legend hooked me up a vial of test prop to trial from @AuStarLabs thank you gentlemen much appreciated

Also a TOUCHDOWN pic for @Life-Forge your customer service is outstanding my man , appreciate you.

 

[HarleyGuy]

Great log brother and amazing story! I applaud your courage to come on here and just lay all that out. I can see that being in 'recovery' spirit coming through your words. EVO is fully behind you and I'd love to see you continue this journey brother I'm a former addict myself (4+ years in recovery).

Keep going bro it's all 1000 times better from here!

Testosterone enanthate 500mg a week
Arimidex on hand

At 500mg/week I'd just take 1mg every 5 days and not just have it 'on hand'. That's gonna convert pretty good and your e2 will be over range for sure.

drink apple cider vinegar

and I saw "with mother"... nice choice!

so for now and probably for some time, my full attention is on me,

There's a huge difference in us being 'selfish' in recovery vs. being 'self centered'. It's your time to be selfish and put you first while helping others when you're able.

Bro my body and mind just fucking love steak and eggs

That's almost all I eat LOL

I couldn't be happier, finally some freedom!!

Recovery = Freedom. It might take a decade sometimes but the wreckage of our past ends up getting cleaned up for us.

 

[LevButlerov]

sorry for the late reply I was super tired after yesterday I think from being so nervous all day and not getting much sleep the night before because of nerves
I couldn't of asked for a better result at court guys.
I received 6months of (community detention) which is still a electronic bracelet but it's gone from 24/7 to just night time cerfew , so I can go out from 7am to 7pm.
Which now means I can't work!
I can go for more runs.
I can actually go to the super market lol
And of course I can go to the gym more often
I couldn't be happier, finally some freedom!!

Freedom congratulations @LPinned

 

[LPinned]

Great log brother and amazing story! I applaud your courage to come on here and just lay all that out. I can see that being in 'recovery' spirit coming through your words. EVO is fully behind you and I'd love to see you continue this journey brother I'm a former addict myself (4+ years in recovery).

Keep going bro it's all 1000 times better from here!


At 500mg/week I'd just take 1mg every 5 days and not just have it 'on hand'. That's gonna convert pretty good and your e2 will be over range for sure.

and I saw "with mother"... nice choice!

There's a huge difference in us being 'selfish' in recovery vs. being 'self centered'. It's your time to be selfish and put you first while helping others when you're able.

That's almost all I eat LOL

Recovery = Freedom. It might take a decade sometimes but the wreckage of our past ends up getting cleaned up for us.

Thank you man appreciate everything you said there, I also took your advice and took 0.5mg arimidex today and I'll take another 0.5mg in 5 days or so does that sound right? Also yeah man mentally I'm doing better now then I ever have and all of your guys support definitely helps cement it in and as long as I'm logging I'm staying honest. It's been a nice day today , I'm not from this town where iv been put on lock down, never been here before, don't know anyone here which is the best thing for me, but iv just been out all day actually getting to site see the town I live in, I'm at 20,000 steps so far haha, thanks again my bro @HarleyGuy

 

[LPinned]

Freedom congratulations @LPinned

It's a weird feeling but so good at the same time haha

 

[LPinned]

dinner of champions rump steak eggs and cottage cheese

 

[LPinned]

 

[LevButlerov]

It's a weird feeling but so good at the same time haha

Freedom is good

 

[LevButlerov]

dinner of champions rump steak eggs and cottage cheese
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steak dinner for the champ
@BeMe @HarleyGuy @vanlife_gymbum @s.gentz
@Allupfromhere @Pigsy @Dreamer @Freki @R.AP
@waggat @Yuri @rizzlekdizzle @Grumpy

 

[LevButlerov]

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a lot of cardio!

 

[Allupfromhere]

dinner of champions rump steak eggs and cottage cheese
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Cant lose with steak and eggs bro
All went well with the hearing then legend?

 

[Dreamer]

dinner of champions rump steak eggs and cottage cheese
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Eggs and cottage cheese, doesnt look good but sure tastes good

 

[LPinned]

Cant lose with steak and eggs bro
All went well with the hearing then legend?

Steak and eggs is king! Yeah my man as good as it could of really! Only 6 months now of 7pm -7am cerfuw then I'm a completely free man, 6 months of cerfuw is a breeze compared to jail or 24/7 house arrest.

 

[Allupfromhere]

Steak and eggs is king! Yeah my man as good as it could of really! Only 6 months now of 7pm -7am cerfuw then I'm a completely free man, 6 months of cerfuw is a breeze compared to jail or 24/7 house arrest.

Thats a great outcome! Let see you make the most of it my brother. Really wanna see you dominate your journey

 

[LPinned]

Thats a great outcome! Let see you make the most of it my brother. Really wanna see you dominate your journey

Thank you man appreciate it, I won't let u down haha

 

[LPinned]

Post workout feed

 

[Allupfromhere]

Thank you man appreciate it, I won't let u down haha

Haha brother as long as we are always trying to improve and be better then then week before we arent letting anyone down, especially ourselves

 

[Allupfromhere]

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Fuck yeah another solid meal!!
Are you currently running keto?

 

[LPinned]

Fuck yeah another solid meal!!
Are you currently running keto?

Chur, more carnivore bro but I alternate high fat days I'll eat full fat cuts of steak and eggs, maybe some bacon or chicken legs etc then the next day be lean meats like chicken breasts and eggs or leaner cuts of beef an eggs.. always at least 10-14 eggs a day, and around 800-1000g of meat a day

 

[LPinned]

I also do a fair bit of fasting , I do one 36hour fast a week, and some days I'll just have one big protein full meal a day, or a 24hour fast, I CHOP and change how I do it depending on when I train etc

 

[Allupfromhere]

Chur, more carnivore bro but I alternate high fat days I'll eat full fat cuts of steak and eggs, maybe some bacon or chicken legs etc then the next day be lean meats like chicken breasts and eggs or leaner cuts of beef an eggs.. always at least 10-14 eggs a day, and around 800-1000g of meat a day

I also do a fair bit of fasting , I do one 36hour fast a week, and some days I'll just have one big protein full meal a day, or a 24hour fast, I CHOP and change how I do it depending on when I train etc

Churr buddah fucking too mickeyyy

 

[LevButlerov]

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full on high protein

 

[LPinned]

Early Saturday Leg and back session, had the whole gym to myself
And some more chicken and eggs haha and some Greek yogurt post workout

 

[LPinned]

Got a body scan yesterday pretty happy with the numbers