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Really awesome progress brother.
Thank you bro
Day 106
Rest day. I went for a light jogging and a walk on the beach.
I'm sleeping better now. I managed to find how to vent the apartment to cool it down.
Day 107
Workout:
Machine incline press 90x12 (warm up)
Machine incline press 180x12 (warm up)
Machine incline press 360x5 (double drop set)
Machine flat press 180x12 (warm up)
Machine flat press 270x6 (double drop set)
Incline db flyes 60x10 (warm up)
Incline db flyes 80x4 (double drop set)
Flat db flyes 70x3 (double drop set)
Flat machine flyes 70x12 (double drop set)
Shoulder press 90x12 (warm up)
Shoulder press 180x11 (double drop set)
DB side laterals 20x12 (warm up)
DB side laterals 60x3 (double drop set)
BB overhead extension 60x12 (warm up)
BB overhead extension 100x7 (double drop set)
Close grip bench press 140x10 (double drop set)
Cable pressdowns 95x15 (double drop set)
Day 108
Rest day. I went for a little walk.
I felt that my libido wasn't as high as it was or should be.
Day 109
Workout:
Wide grip lat pulldown (warm up)
Wide grip lat pulldown (warm up)
Wide grip lat pulldown 130kg*3 (double drop set)
Close grip lat pulldown 70kg*12 (warm up)
Close grip lat pulldown 130kg*6 (double drop set)
Cable rows 200x10 (double drop set)
Bent over DB rows 40x12 (warm up)
Bent over DB rows 60x12 (double drop set)
Bent over lateral raises 20x12 (warm up)
Bent over lateral raises 40x10 (double drop set)
Machine reverse flyes 205x9 (double drop set)
Smith machine shrugs 90x12 (warm up)
Smith machine shrugs 180x12 (double drop set)
Goodmornings 90x12 (warm up)
Goodmornings 160x6 (double drop set)
Alt DB curls 20x12 (warm up)
Alt DB curls 60x6 (double drop set)
Incline DB curls 40x10 (double drop set)
Animal cable curls 70kg*10 (double drop set)
Rest day. I went for a light jogging and a walk on the beach.
I'm sleeping better now. I managed to find how to vent the apartment to cool it down.
Day 107
Workout:
Machine incline press 90x12 (warm up)
Machine incline press 180x12 (warm up)
Machine incline press 360x5 (double drop set)
Machine flat press 180x12 (warm up)
Machine flat press 270x6 (double drop set)
Incline db flyes 60x10 (warm up)
Incline db flyes 80x4 (double drop set)
Flat db flyes 70x3 (double drop set)
Flat machine flyes 70x12 (double drop set)
Shoulder press 90x12 (warm up)
Shoulder press 180x11 (double drop set)
DB side laterals 20x12 (warm up)
DB side laterals 60x3 (double drop set)
BB overhead extension 60x12 (warm up)
BB overhead extension 100x7 (double drop set)
Close grip bench press 140x10 (double drop set)
Cable pressdowns 95x15 (double drop set)
Day 108
Rest day. I went for a little walk.
I felt that my libido wasn't as high as it was or should be.
Day 109
Workout:
Wide grip lat pulldown (warm up)
Wide grip lat pulldown (warm up)
Wide grip lat pulldown 130kg*3 (double drop set)
Close grip lat pulldown 70kg*12 (warm up)
Close grip lat pulldown 130kg*6 (double drop set)
Cable rows 200x10 (double drop set)
Bent over DB rows 40x12 (warm up)
Bent over DB rows 60x12 (double drop set)
Bent over lateral raises 20x12 (warm up)
Bent over lateral raises 40x10 (double drop set)
Machine reverse flyes 205x9 (double drop set)
Smith machine shrugs 90x12 (warm up)
Smith machine shrugs 180x12 (double drop set)
Goodmornings 90x12 (warm up)
Goodmornings 160x6 (double drop set)
Alt DB curls 20x12 (warm up)
Alt DB curls 60x6 (double drop set)
Incline DB curls 40x10 (double drop set)
Animal cable curls 70kg*10 (double drop set)
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You need to find a nice local woman and marry her. That looks like paradise.
I think I found her
Congrats bro!!!I think I found her
Day 110
When I am with my woman, it's hard to finish the job. I feel less aroused even though she is a solid 10/10.
She wondered what's wrong and I tried to explain to her what I am going through (the cycle). On my side, I try to accept what is and not resist. It's hard to do when you don't want to disappoint your woman and you don't want her to come up with wrong conclusions (ie. I don't find her attractive).
My macros remains the same :
Workout:
Leg extensions (warm up)
Leg extensions (warm up)
Leg extensions 295x12 (double drop set)
Hacksquat 90x12 (warm up)
Hacksquat 270x12 (warm up)
Hacksquat 540x12 (double drop set)
Sissy squats 1xfailure (forced reps)
Leg curls (did not log)
Seated calf raises (legs extended) (did not log)
Standing calf raises 395x12 (triple drop set)
Leg raises 3xfailure
Machine crunches 3xfailure
When I am with my woman, it's hard to finish the job. I feel less aroused even though she is a solid 10/10.
She wondered what's wrong and I tried to explain to her what I am going through (the cycle). On my side, I try to accept what is and not resist. It's hard to do when you don't want to disappoint your woman and you don't want her to come up with wrong conclusions (ie. I don't find her attractive).
My macros remains the same :
| fats (g) | carbs (g) | proteins (g) | calories | |
| 120g oatmeal | 81 | 15 | ||
| 80g dextrose (post-wo only) | 80 | |||
| 375g cooked black beans | 120 | 45 | ||
| 1 med. banana ripe | 28 | 1 | ||
| california mix (vegetables) | 10 | |||
| 10g cacao raw | ||||
| 200g strawberries | 12 | |||
| 8 eggs | 40 | 50 | ||
| 450g of porc (plus or minus) | 36 | ? | 81 | ? |
| 120g tuna | ||||
| 1 cup white rice (cooked) | 80 | 12 | ||
| Tortillas | ||||
| 2 scoops of protein | 5 | 12 | 46 | |
| total | 81 | 423 | 250 | 3421 |
Workout:
Leg extensions (warm up)
Leg extensions (warm up)
Leg extensions 295x12 (double drop set)
Hacksquat 90x12 (warm up)
Hacksquat 270x12 (warm up)
Hacksquat 540x12 (double drop set)
Sissy squats 1xfailure (forced reps)
Leg curls (did not log)
Seated calf raises (legs extended) (did not log)
Standing calf raises 395x12 (triple drop set)
Leg raises 3xfailure
Machine crunches 3xfailure
Day 111
It was a rest day for me. I cooked something for Christmas.
I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me. Is it a hormonal issue? Is it something else? I feel more negative and pessimistic especially about my new relationship. It's still very new (almost two weeks). I don't want to screw this up.
We had a dinner with her friends. They didn't speak english so they talked in spanish with each other. I speak spanish but it was hard to follow. 1-on-1 is fine, but in a group, that's quite a challenge. I felt like an idiot for not participating and engaging in the conversations.
I felt the nervousness and uneasiness come up as a was sipping water to frequently. They laughed and I supposed they were telling jokes and I was there, overwhelmed, with a big question mark on my forehead.
Again, that's all happening in my mind and that is fueled by how I feel and I didn't feel really good. I feel needy and anxious.
Past trauma is coming up to the surface, trauma I have to let go of.
It was a rest day for me. I cooked something for Christmas.
I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me. Is it a hormonal issue? Is it something else? I feel more negative and pessimistic especially about my new relationship. It's still very new (almost two weeks). I don't want to screw this up.
We had a dinner with her friends. They didn't speak english so they talked in spanish with each other. I speak spanish but it was hard to follow. 1-on-1 is fine, but in a group, that's quite a challenge. I felt like an idiot for not participating and engaging in the conversations.
I felt the nervousness and uneasiness come up as a was sipping water to frequently. They laughed and I supposed they were telling jokes and I was there, overwhelmed, with a big question mark on my forehead.
Again, that's all happening in my mind and that is fueled by how I feel and I didn't feel really good. I feel needy and anxious.
Past trauma is coming up to the surface, trauma I have to let go of.
Day 112
Merry Christmas to you all brothers!
I slept at my woman's appartment. I had a good night of sleep and felt okay.
She was a bit stressed out because of her roomies. One of them was snoring on the couch with a bloody hand. He was probably drunk. Maybe she didn't want me to see this.
She also kept asking me if I was okay.
"Estas bien?", she enquired.
"Si, estoy bien...", I replied.
I kept telling her that I was fine, but it was a bit strange being asked that question every 15 minutes or so. Maybe she saw that I was a bit different that day, that I wasn't the same man she met 2 weeks ago.
Honestly, I felt confused about what I want. Staying long term in Mexico, the new relationship, my job, and so on. I reminded myself to stay in the present moment and to do one thing at a time. Instead of thinking of the future, I tried to remain present for her and enjoy our day together. That was hard.
I also know that my hormones could play a part in this and I think this is the case.
Her friends came back to her place to eat lunch. Still, they talked in spanish, they were laughing while I was trying to decrypt the conversations. I tried to let that go. I tried to connect as much as I could.
When they left, we had sex. I didn't finish the job. I couldn't stay hard... That made me feel worst. I felt bad for her as well.
When I left, something felt off. I think something got broken. Again, this could be all happening in my mind. (damn monkey mind)
Before leaving, I told her that I didn't want to be a burden (because I didn't understand the conversations) and she told me she kept wondering if I was okay.
If I keep feeling bad I would have to pause our relationship or I could pretend to not be available to see her until I resolve my emotions. Maybe there's absolutely nothing to worry about and everything is happening in my mind...
She is a good girl and I don't want to mess that up this time.
Merry Christmas to you all brothers!
I slept at my woman's appartment. I had a good night of sleep and felt okay.
She was a bit stressed out because of her roomies. One of them was snoring on the couch with a bloody hand. He was probably drunk. Maybe she didn't want me to see this.
She also kept asking me if I was okay.
"Estas bien?", she enquired.
"Si, estoy bien...", I replied.
I kept telling her that I was fine, but it was a bit strange being asked that question every 15 minutes or so. Maybe she saw that I was a bit different that day, that I wasn't the same man she met 2 weeks ago.
Honestly, I felt confused about what I want. Staying long term in Mexico, the new relationship, my job, and so on. I reminded myself to stay in the present moment and to do one thing at a time. Instead of thinking of the future, I tried to remain present for her and enjoy our day together. That was hard.
I also know that my hormones could play a part in this and I think this is the case.
Her friends came back to her place to eat lunch. Still, they talked in spanish, they were laughing while I was trying to decrypt the conversations. I tried to let that go. I tried to connect as much as I could.
When they left, we had sex. I didn't finish the job. I couldn't stay hard... That made me feel worst. I felt bad for her as well.
When I left, something felt off. I think something got broken. Again, this could be all happening in my mind. (damn monkey mind)
Before leaving, I told her that I didn't want to be a burden (because I didn't understand the conversations) and she told me she kept wondering if I was okay.
If I keep feeling bad I would have to pause our relationship or I could pretend to not be available to see her until I resolve my emotions. Maybe there's absolutely nothing to worry about and everything is happening in my mind...
She is a good girl and I don't want to mess that up this time.
Day 113
I didn't not hit my macros during the past two days but it felt good to go back to the gym and push some iron.
I didn't eat every three or four hours because I was at my girl's appartment. I didn't want to be anal.
My woman was working at my gym today.
I didn't feel 100%. I felt needy and anxious. I know it would have been better to avoid her while I deal with my emotions.
When I went to see her and say "Hello" I felt off. I felt constipated. She talked in spanish and I felt like my brain was frozen. Too much spanish in the past two days. I didn't want to bother her too much as well as she was busy, so we cut it quick and I began my workout.
Before leaving the gym, I went to see her again and not leave like a savage. Again it felt off. It felt broken. She didn't seem at ease and comfortable. Maybe it's normal. She was working. She told me that we would chat via SMS. I said, "Sure. Have a nice day." and I left.
Later, I sent her a SMS telling her that I didn't want to bother her. She didn't reply...
I am there in my PCT:
Workout:
Flat machine press 100x12 (warm up)
Flat machine press 200x12 (warm up)
Flat machine press 395x6 (double drop set)
Incline DB bench press 40x12 (warm up)
Incline DB bench press 60x12 (double drop set)
Incline DB flyes 60x8 (double drop set)
Flat DB flyes 30x8 (rest pause)
Decline machine flyes 140x10 (double drop set)
DB lateral raises 20x12 (warm up)
DB lateral raises 40x12 (double drop set)
DB front raises 20x12 (warm up)
DB front raises 40x12 (double drop set)
Triceps cable pressdowns 95x15 (single drop set)
Machine skull crushers 200x8 (double drop set)
Leg raises 3xfailure
Machine crunches 170x8 (double drop set)
Side DB raises 100x12
I didn't not hit my macros during the past two days but it felt good to go back to the gym and push some iron.
I didn't eat every three or four hours because I was at my girl's appartment. I didn't want to be anal.
My woman was working at my gym today.
I didn't feel 100%. I felt needy and anxious. I know it would have been better to avoid her while I deal with my emotions.
When I went to see her and say "Hello" I felt off. I felt constipated. She talked in spanish and I felt like my brain was frozen. Too much spanish in the past two days. I didn't want to bother her too much as well as she was busy, so we cut it quick and I began my workout.
Before leaving the gym, I went to see her again and not leave like a savage. Again it felt off. It felt broken. She didn't seem at ease and comfortable. Maybe it's normal. She was working. She told me that we would chat via SMS. I said, "Sure. Have a nice day." and I left.
Later, I sent her a SMS telling her that I didn't want to bother her. She didn't reply...
I am there in my PCT:
Workout:
Flat machine press 100x12 (warm up)
Flat machine press 200x12 (warm up)
Flat machine press 395x6 (double drop set)
Incline DB bench press 40x12 (warm up)
Incline DB bench press 60x12 (double drop set)
Incline DB flyes 60x8 (double drop set)
Flat DB flyes 30x8 (rest pause)
Decline machine flyes 140x10 (double drop set)
DB lateral raises 20x12 (warm up)
DB lateral raises 40x12 (double drop set)
DB front raises 20x12 (warm up)
DB front raises 40x12 (double drop set)
Triceps cable pressdowns 95x15 (single drop set)
Machine skull crushers 200x8 (double drop set)
Leg raises 3xfailure
Machine crunches 170x8 (double drop set)
Side DB raises 100x12
@bullkupp merry xmas Im happy to see you sharing with us and being in the family of EVO
now the Relationship problem you have
well dating a girl in a different country either
1) you learn the language
2) you just play the game as is
spanish is easy you can be fluent in like 3mo taking online courses
so if you want to stay there and really hook up with the girls, get the language right
bloody hand in room, thats nuts
now on the boner issues, you taking tadalafil?
Last time I had something like this the girl had been off her meds
it's a very different culture
Flip the script around imagine if she was in Canada and she couldn't speak either French or English and couldn't communicate with your friends
My rule unless you're are in a deep relationship where it's extremely serious never spend the holidays with a significant other like that especially when there's gonna be friends and family in town
It makes for a very uncomfortable situation similar to when an adoptive kid meets his real parents for the first time it's just weird
Also if she has a male roommate who's sleeping on the couch that to me is a red flag unless he is gay. My question would be why does he need to be a loser and be roomed with a woman and also why does she need the money that bad where she allows someone of the opposite sex to live in her house and see her walking around half naked and hear her having sex in the bedroom that's just weird
Seems like you're in love with this chick and seems like on her end it's just a fling over the winter. Either take it as it is as just a vacation fling where you'll leave and probably never talk to her again or communicate with her and say you would like things to be more serious and start playing your future together
Flip the script around imagine if she was in Canada and she couldn't speak either French or English and couldn't communicate with your friends
My rule unless you're are in a deep relationship where it's extremely serious never spend the holidays with a significant other like that especially when there's gonna be friends and family in town
It makes for a very uncomfortable situation similar to when an adoptive kid meets his real parents for the first time it's just weird
Also if she has a male roommate who's sleeping on the couch that to me is a red flag unless he is gay. My question would be why does he need to be a loser and be roomed with a woman and also why does she need the money that bad where she allows someone of the opposite sex to live in her house and see her walking around half naked and hear her having sex in the bedroom that's just weird
Seems like you're in love with this chick and seems like on her end it's just a fling over the winter. Either take it as it is as just a vacation fling where you'll leave and probably never talk to her again or communicate with her and say you would like things to be more serious and start playing your future together
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